Nophee's Stories

let's get healthy!

2010-12-16T00:52:00.002+11:00

Hmm... I'm currently in Beijing, China... and it's in the middle of winter now...
and if you have experienced winter before, you'll know that most of the time, our food intake will also increase around this time... it's so hard to resist chocolates, chips and all those fatty food!!
The point is, YES, I have gained weight.... :(

At first, I thought it's juz gonna be like what it used to be...
I'll gain a few kilos, then I'll lose them when I go back home to Jakarta, Indonesia...
but, I start to wonder now, if this is gonna be the case this time...
the thing is, what i heard from others, as we gets older, our body doesn't adapt as well as it used to be when we were younger...

Somehow, today, I thought, I'll put "getting fit and healthy" as one of my Christmas resolution.. (I know, most people have "New Year Resolution".... but i prefer Christmas instead... juz wanna be different :p)

So... there're 10 days til Christmas from now... will I be able to reach this goal??
From now on, I have to watch what i eat and my health....

Jiayou!! ^^

Graduation Day

2009-12-17T01:15:00.002+11:00

Almost a year ago... on Dec 17th, 2008... I experienced what my friends experienced today...
My graduation ceremony...

I can still remember how I felt that day... though I already left uni for half a year and have already worked in the industry, the spirit that was firing in the ceremony really lifted my spirit up...

After been working for 9 months, things changed...
I have forgotten how I felt on that day... the day of my graduation...
When I was innocently thinking like a common fresh graduate, that I can change the world and make it as a better place... full of hope... with an almost prefect vision...
I can't believe that working for less than a year can actually kill all those dreams...
Losing the spirit...

But... that night.. on that very moment... on my graduation ceremony night...
It brought back the spirit... that very spirit of fresh graduates...
Full with innocent, hope and a little bit of arrogance...
I thought I knew everything, but then I realised that what i knew is only a very little part of the big picture...

Finally...
What I wanted to say is CONGRATULATIONS to all my friends who are graduating today, or this month... you are all deserve the walk on that podium... after all these years... all those hard works... countless sleepless nights... days when redbull or coffee are your best friends...

Congratulations... and don't forget to keep on dreaming and reach your own dream!! ^^

if tomorrow never comes

2009-10-14T04:15:00.003+11:00

Ok, I know you've heard it sumwhere... probably from a song sang by Ronan Keating??
But have you ever really thought about the message hidden behind this phrase??

Tonite, I have just come back from my high school friend's house...
Her mum has just passed away this morning... (Turut berduka cita yg sedalam2nya, Nis) :(
She told me what happened at the end of her mum's life...
She has been very ill for a while... and her condition has been pretty steady lately...
But this morning, her dad called her to come to the hospital to see her mum, coz she got worse... time is running short...
but my friend didn't know that... she took her time...
until it's too late for her to see her mum before she closes her eyes for the last time....
*sigh*
What can i say to console her??
Nothing much, really...
I've never been in this situation before, so she'd think that I wouldn't know how it feels....
I can only let her know, that she shouldn't blame herself for something she doesn't know is going to happen...

Then...
I thought of my own situation....
How have I treat my mum this morning??
It's definitely far from respect.... :(
I should be ashamed of myself... and I am now...
I think, God want to remind me... that second chance rarely comes twice... so I should grab any chances which lie in front of me as much as I could...
I would be really2 sorry to myself if tomorrow never comes... and I wouldn't be able to ask my mum's forgiveness and show her respect she deserves...

In the last couple of weeks, my mood is getting unstable....
I got pretty sensitive and annoyed by little things...
And to make situation worse, my voice is getting to its highest pitch pretty quickly too...
I don't know where I got that anger from, but I'm like a ticking bomb, just waiting to be ignited...
Today might be a reminder God sent me, so that I'll learn from it...
I've gone back to the old me... the ME who I used to hate... or the ME who used to hate myself...
who likes to take things for granted.... who doesn't know how to give thanks... who never satisfied on everything which has been given by God...
It's another reminder,
that life is short....
that we live this life only once...
that whatever we try to collect from this world is not eternal...
that every morning, we have a second chance to things differently and make a difference in people's lives...
that true friends are much more precious than gold or the newest trend or the coolest car
that life... isn't as bad as I used to think...
that by living, I'll get to know Him more... and get to appreciate Him and His creations more...

Thank you Lord for all the second chances you've given me....
Your presence each day is more than enough for me... Amen.

rainbow

2009-06-25T20:43:00.002+10:00

Hey, I've got a question... When is the last time you saw a rainbow??
I'd proudly answer that question by saying, "This afternoon!!"...

Yep... today, I saw a rainbow.. After dropping my boss off, I looked up, and it was there!
I was trapped in a traffic, but it was worth it... I even had a time to glance back and saw the person in the car behind me was looking up and smiling that he can see the rainbow... :)

Yea... I haven't been enjoying the sky for quite a long time... I used to like to look up and amazed by what I found... sometimes it'll be a dark grey colour with many different shades.... or it can be reddish colour during sunset... or it can be pitch dark decorated by sparkling of the stars... The sky almost never look the same each day... I've always amazed by the creativity of the Creator... What a great Artist... :)

Something Beautiful (by Natalie Grant)

2009-06-16T20:43:00.002+10:00

I heard this song played on the radio and somehow it really touched my heart... So, I wanna share it with all of you who I believe will find this song to be a blessing... Listen to the lyric carefully and know that it's true... God really loves you and me...

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This is a song for anyone whose ever been
Knocked down and can't get up again
Stuck in the corner, can't move forward
All alone and you think you're going nowhere
This is a song for anyone whose ever stood underneath the sun
And felt so small, two feet tall and so out of place

'Cause He sees you - He knows you - He loves you
And He wants you to know that

The life that you've been living, the days that you've been given
Were made for something beautiful
Life - don't let it pass you by
Because you were created for something beautiful

Heaven holds a dream that's just for you
And there are things only you can do
So step by faith, put the past away
It'll take you to a better day
Second to minute to hour to life
Time it always seems to fly
It's on the go and before you know
Your days are through

But he sees you - He knows you - He loves you
And he wants you to know that

The life that you've been living, the days that you've been given
Were made for something beautiful
Life - don't let it pass you by
Because you were created for something beautiful

What are - you waiting for
What are you - waiting for
What - are you waiting for
Something Beautiful
What are - you waiting for
What are you - waiting for
What are you waiting for
Something Beautiful!

Something Beautiful - Natalie Grant

who's gonna come to after you?

2009-06-05T10:53:00.003+10:00

I think I haven't been writing for a while.... I mean I wrote something here.... but not like I used to... somehow, since what's happened last year, I became a different person....

Anyway, there's one thing I wanna write about, after watching a movie called "Passenger"...
At first, I thought it was either an action or a horror movie, but it turned out to be something a bit mysterious and dramatic as well...
I'm not gonna tell you what it's about, but one thing that stuck in my mind after watching that movie is...
Ok, I'm gonna tell u juz a bit of the movie so you would understand what I'm talking about.... There was a plane crashed and none of the passengers survived.... Some of them didn't realise that they are dead and they try to live their life as normal... until they got "picked-up" by the souls of their love ones who have passed away before them... For example, there's a girl whom her parents who died when she was 6, came to get her "home".... and there's a guy, whom his grandpa and his dog, came to take him "home" as well....

It's just, after watching it, my mind started to wonder.... who's gonna come after me when I die? Especially when I die first... that's mean no one will come and I'll be lost???
Stupid thinking, I know... but I couldn't help it... till all of a sudden, I remember...
I know someone will come... at least, there will be one person... if you know me, you know who I'm talking about.... Yep... I was reminded, that Jesus will be there... He'll walk me home.... and suddenly I'm in peace... :)

Hahaha... I know it's such a silly thought... but won't you feel good when at last you can be certain of it?? When at the end, when the time comes, you'll know who you're expecting to see.... you know you don't have to be afraid and you know that you have a good reason to be peaceful??

Masak.. Masak...

2009-06-01T21:00:00.002+10:00

Hmm... lama juga ya gw ga nulis di blog ini...
Maklum, dah mayan sibuk skrg.... Walo ga jelas sih sibuk ngapain... hehehe :p

Klo ada yg notice n ngikutin perkembangan blog gw...
Belakangan gw ada nambah beberapa link yg isinya resep2 masakan...
Ga tw kenapa, belakangan gw mulai punya motivasi buat masuk dapur lagi n masak...
Rasanya dah hampir setaon gw ga masak proper... (klo masak indomie sih sering... wakakak)
Dan mulai skrg, gw make a pledge buat masak at least 1 masakan in a week...
Ga mo telalu ambisius.... ntar telalu banyak pengen nyoba resep ini-itu, akhirnya ga masak ama skali.. hahaha...

Jadi, ya gitu deh...
Maybe in the future, gw bakal share fotonya en resepnya skalian... :p
Masi ga pede neh ama masakan gw...
Org yg ga tau, mgkn kirain gw pelit, tiap masak ga mau bagi2....
But gw simply takut org laen ga suka... so far sih edible.... huehehe :p

Ya sud, gw cabut dulu deh... Ciao! ^________^

the paintbrush

2009-03-29T22:17:00.003+11:00

I keep my paintbrush with me
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn't show.

I'm so afraid to show you,
Afraid of what you'll do - that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I'm afraid I might lose you.

I'd like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.

So if you'll be patient and close you eyes,
I'll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold.
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.

I need to save my paintbrush, though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case someone don't understand.

So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paintbrush with me
Until I love me, too.

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I got this poems from a book called "A shot of inspiration" by Rob Buckingham.
The 1st time I read it, it really touched me... I can truly understand how the writer felt, coz I feel the same way too...

Sometimes it can be scary to let the real you show... but when there's someone love you enough, and you can trust that person enough to show who you really are... and yet that person would still love you no matter what they saw... I think, the heart pounding step of stripping our masks would be worth to go through...

But the question is, how would you know if they don't change their minds after seeing the real us? The real me...

PS: For those people who love me unconditionally, you are gifts that I don't deserve, but I'd cherish in my life... Thanks for being there for me when things getting though and when I need friends to share my laughter with... ;) you know who you are... all of u... Thank you...

white lies = black lies

2009-03-25T21:48:00.002+11:00

Hmm... can't think of any better title for this posting...
(Btw, I wonder why I've always ended up writing in English.. padahal maunya dalam bahasa indo lohhh) hehehe :p

Yep, today I wanna write about lies....
Not wanting to judge anyone... juz a bit disappointed, coz lately I've been trying to hide and run away from the truth and light... And one of the easiest way to hide is by covering things with lies... No matter what kind of lies it is, white or black, they are all the same, they are lies... and i know it's wrong to lie, so why would I still do it then??
As I mentioned before, yes, it's easier to cover the truth and juz hide in those lies...
Ironically, lies can be comforting as well... coz we can run away from the main problem and the best thing is others won't know the truth if we don't tell them...

Can you remember the last time you lied??
Was is last year? Was it last month? Last week? Yesterday? Just now?!
Who did you lie to?
Do you remember how you feel??
I don't know with you, but I felt terrible after lying... Even though I wasn't lying, I didn't tell the truth... and it really bothers me.... I don't really realise and know, since when I let my self to accept that it's ok to lie...

One thing I know... and certain...
Lying is very tiring... it's addictive as well... coz once you tell a lie, you'll tell another one to cover the 1st lie, and you'll tell more to cover up every lies you've told...
And living like this is far from being peaceful...
So today, I promise my self that I would not try to run away by lying anymore...
It'll be best to tell the truth... or if I can't tell the truth, I'd better keep silent rather than telling a lie....
It might be scary, when you've done something wrong and admit it, rather than covering it up with a lie.... at least, when you're genuinely sorry and ask for forgiveness, you'll be forgiven and live in peace.... rather than hiding in the lies we've created and got trapped by them, never knowing we could've been forgiven if we asked for it...

Well, it's your choice...
Today, I've made my decision...
Now, it's your turn...

simple things about life

2009-03-09T22:23:00.002+11:00

Hey, i'm back...
Juz wanna share my stories, what I did today...
Didn't do much today, as usual, slept late and woke up late...
I went to drop my bf to the station and then saw my girlfriend afterwards...
Havent seen her for couple of weeks, got a lot to update each other with :p

Hmm... can't really remember what I was inspired with from our conversation, but it got me wanting to post up something tonite...
As usual, my posting is never to far from talking bout life...
Lately, I've been frustrated with my everyday life....
I don't know what causes it, but lately I have no energy and motivation to do stuffs... even to get out of bed... so don't expect me to be cheerful at work... I'm far from it!
Which annoys me sometimes, coz I know I used to be the opposite... I can be full of energy and even motivate others... and I really hate to be so grumpy all the time... all the things that I do feels always wrong... and I really wanna get out of this...

Anyway, the thing I was inspired to write on this blog is that the fact that in life... even though sometimes life seems too hard to live, it's not all bad...
It's like when a mother gets so upset and annoyed by her children, at the same time, the children give her strength to keep going and move on... give her joy and make her to be able to smile and laugh again...
It's like when a girl disappointed by her friends... got backstabbed by people she trusts... there's a guy who always stand by her side... makes her smile and wipe her tears away...
This thing about life that makes me can't give up to live...
It's so misterious sometimes... when u wanna give up and thought that u can't even move another one more step, there's always something (even a very little tiny simple thing) that give u that sparks to ur life, so ur fire never stops burning... and before you knew it, another day has passed and you are ready to go to bed and another day is waiting for you...

So for whoever you are... thanks for reading this post... and i pray for you so u'll have the hope, that "something" which gives u spark and keeps u going...
Tell u what, sometimes u don't realise what that is, or who that is, but there's always something or someone... coz i know, deep down we always need someone else, or something else, to be complete.

-THE END-

a reflection on life

2009-02-08T19:31:00.003+11:00

Hmm... sumhow lately, I have a lot of time to reflect on my life (yea, life is my favourite topic...)
Well, I didn't reflect particularly only on my life, but probably more about life in general...

Yesterday, my friend's daughter celebrated her 2nd birthday... And the adults were all busy preparing the food, clean up the house and do other things related to the party...
While the bdae girl didn't seem to realise that we're doing all these stuffs for her sake...
She was tired due to lack of sleep from the previous night and not in a good mood due to the hot weather... (ohh, poor little nat2...) She was cranky a few times and created some troubles for herself... Because she was cranky, her mum was getting annoyed and mad... and came the thunder!
If you have been in that kind of situation, you'll know what I mean... hot day, tired, limited preparation time... not a good combination for a 2 year old party....
Anyway, while I was helping (didn't do much since I was lack in energy as well), I was thinking... How ironic this situation is... the mum (no offense here... buat yg ngerasa, jangan tersinggung...) tried to do her best to make her daughter happy... She thought she'll give the best for her kid... when in fact, what her daughter really needed is her time, her attention, her mummy... Well, I don't blame the mother... she's tried her best... also becoz she's one of my best friends, and I know how hard her life has been... but, it's juz so ironic... when life seems so complicated, and when u think of it again, it kindda simple if we don't try to please everyone...
It's juz a lesson I've got from yesterday...

Lately, I've been trying to work out what I need to do in life...
Not sure which way I should go... I try to make the best and wisest decision I can make by considering the advices I've received from friends and relatives... but in the end, I'm goin no where... ohhh, so frustrating!! >_<
Hahaha... I sounded so like sumone who don't have faith in God...
I kind of know why I'm so confused, it's becoz I don't know what I'm looking for in life... I haven't found my purpose and therefore I don't know where to go coz I haven't decide on the destination yet...
I know I don't want to live for money, coz I have heard so many stories about ppl and money...
Neiher fame and power.... What I wanna do is helping people... give hope to others... show love to the unloved... but I don't know what to do or where to start... and I'm far from an angel... I'm such an evil sumtimes that I don't think I will be able to do it...

Anyway... That's an update news bout my life... ;)

Father's Love Letter

2009-01-06T23:33:00.003+11:00

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you. (Psalm 139:1)

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. (Psalm 139:2)

I am familiar with all your ways. (Psalm 139:3)

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. (Matthew 10:29-31)

For you were made in my image. (Genesis 1:27)

In me you live and move and have your being.(Acts 17:28)

For you are my offspring. (Acts 17:28)

I knew you even before you were conceived. (Jeremiah 1:4-5)

I chose you when I planned creation. (Ephesians 1:11-12)

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. (Psalm 139:15-16)

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. (Acts 17:26)

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14)

I knit you together in your mother's womb. (Psalm 139:13)

And brought you forth on the day you were born. (Psalm 71:6)

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. (John 8:41-44)

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. (1 John 4:16)

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. (1 John 3:1)

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. (1 John 3:1)

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. (Matthew 7:11)

For I am the perfect father. (Matthew 5:48)

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. (James 1:17)

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. (Matthew 6:31-33)

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Because I love you with an everlasting love. (Jeremiah 31:3)

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. (Psalms 139:17-18)

And I rejoice over you with singing. (Zephaniah 3:17)

I will never stop doing good to you. (Jeremiah 32:40)

For you are my treasured possession. (Exodus 19:5)

I desire to establish youwith all my heart and all my soul. (Jeremiah 32:41)

And I want to show you great and marvelous things. (Jeremiah 33:3)

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. (Deuteronomy 4:29)

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4)

For it is I who gave you those desires. (Philippians 2:13)

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. (Ephesians 3:20)

For I am your greatest encourager. (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. (Psalm 34:18)

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. (Isaiah 40:11)

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. (Revelation 21:3-4)

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. (Revelation 21:3-4)

I am your Father,
and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. (John 17:23)

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. (John 17:26)

He is the exact representation of my being. (Hebrews 1:3)

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you. (Romans 8:31)

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. (1 John 4:10)

I gave up everything I lovedthat I might gain your love. (Romans 8:31-32)

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. (1 John 2:23)

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. (Romans 8:38-39)

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.(Luke 15:7)

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.(Ephesians 3:14-15)

My question is…
Will you be my child? (John 1:12-13)

I am waiting for you. (Luke 15:11-32)

Love,
Your Dad
Almighty God

happiness

2008-11-30T12:36:00.002+11:00

Hmm... i guess we're all too familiar with phrases like "live happily ever after", "don't worry, be happy", etc.
They are all about happiness....
Which shows that humans are looking for happiness... all their lives, they do everything, go everywhere, spend anything to reach that happiness that they're yearning for....
but at the end.. they can only found emptiness....
Why??
It's not that "live happily ever after" will never happen....
It's not that it's only happen in the story....
It's becoz we've been looking for the wrong happiness...
We're looking for things to fulfill our own desire...
and there's nothing that can fulfill us except one thing...
actually, it's not a thing... it's a person...
The Only Person which can fulfill us....
He's the only One who can make us complete...
And at the end... it's not juz happiness that He'll bring to our lives...
it's more than that... coz He's promised an overflowing JOY!
So, ask yourself... have you been looking for happiness in the right place?
Open your heart, and let Him in...
Only Jesus can...

No Greater Love

2008-11-12T00:34:00.004+11:00

No Greater Love - Don Moen

(John 15:13)

Verse 1:

You loved me,

When I was so unlovely,

You sought me

When I was lost;

You showed me

How much You really loved me,

When You bought me

At the highest cost

Chorus:

There’s no greater love than this,

That a man would give his life for a friend;

There’s no higher sacrifice

Than a man would give his life,

You have paid

A precious price for me

Verse 2:

You chose me,

When I was so unworthy

You cleansed me

With Your own blood;

You clothed me

With righteousness and mercy,

And You crowned me

With Your steadfast love

(Repeat Chorus 2 times)

Coda:

You have paid

A precious price for me

You have paid

A precious price for me

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Really, the lyric of this song is so true... There's NO greater love than God's love for the world - for you and me...

John 3:16 said "God so loved the world that He gave his begotten son that whosoever believe in Him should not perish but have everlasting life."

GOD.................the greatest LOVER
SO LOVED............the greatest DEGREE
THE WORLD...........the greatest NUMBER
THAT HE GAVE........the greatest ACT
HIS BEGOTTEN SON....the greatest GIFT
THAT WHOSOEVER......the greatest INVITATION
BELIEVETH...........the greatest SIMPLICITY
IN HIM..............the greatest PERSON
SHOULD NOT PERISH...the greatest DELIVERANCE
BUT.................the greatest DIFFERENCE
HAVE................the greatest CERTAINTY
EVERLASTING LIFE....the greatest POSSESSION

A Broken Spirit

2008-10-12T10:35:00.003+11:00

A Broken Spirit

A broken spirit, and a contrite
You will not despise, You will not despise;
You desire truth, in the inward parts,
A broken spirit and a contrite heart

Lord my heart is prone to wander,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here’s my heart,
Lord, take and seal it,
Seal it for Your courts above

You desire truth, in the inward parts
A broken spirit and a contrite heart
A broken spirit and a contrite heart

juz a thought before bed time

2008-10-11T02:31:00.002+11:00

Pengen ngepost sumfin malem ini, tp ga tw mo nulis ttg apa...
Mgkn gw bakal mulai dengan cerita kegiatan gw hari ini aja....

First of all, suatu keajaiban gw masi melek sampe jam segini (2.30 pagi), padahal kmrn2 gw kurang tdr... dan gw masi blm ngantuk2 bgt.... padahal bsk gw musti bangun pagi nih...
I wonder why... knp ya gw blm ngantuk??
Is it the effect of caffeine yg gw minum td? Ato karena gw ga ngerasa peaceful??
Sumhow, gw ngerasa, gw lagi mencoba u/ ngebohongin diri gw sendiri.... esp. hari ini....
I don't really know what I'm doing.... yg gw inget, I smiled a lot.... dan hari berlalu begitu cepat...
Dan setelah hari dah berlalu, gw masi berpikir ttg alasan gw melakukan smua hal yg gw lakukan hari ini...

Ahhh, ga tw lah....
Rasanya ngantuk mulai datang menghampiri...
Saatnya tidur...

Gnite everyone..... ;)

Quote of the day....

2008-10-08T09:39:00.001+11:00

"An offense against your neighbor is a fence between you and God"

slow down... and stop for a while...

2008-10-07T23:15:00.002+11:00

Impatience is often why we hurry. It’s simply a lack of trust. When you’re impatient you’re saying, “God, I don’t really trust you. I don’t think you have my best interest at heart. You don’t know when I need it, and I’m in a hurry.” Is fast always better? No. It is not. Not always.

God has a plan for your life. You know that. But he also has a timetable for your life. Unfortunately, God never explains his timetable. And that can be frustrating! I couldn’t understand God’s timing. But God knew exactly what he was doing.

It’s painful when you’re in a hurry and God’s not. But it’s part of maturing, part of growing up. Children have to learn the difference between “no” and “not yet.” God knows the right time and the right way. He has a plan and a timetable.

The key is to TRUST GOD'S TIMING!

(Source: "How to slow your life down" by Rick Warren, http://legacy.pastors.com/RWMT/default.asp?id=362&artid=11425&expand=1)

Recipe for love

2008-10-04T15:14:00.003+10:00

Never sleep on an angry word.
Never make the other feel absurd.
Always believe in each other's dreams.
Keep communication flowing like a stream.
Speak to each other with a tender heart.
Remember each day how you felt at the start.
Treat each other with kindness and respect.
Love grows only with care not neglect.
Never forget a special day.
Never miss a chance to say,
All the good things that you feel,
A loving kiss can always heal.
Desire should make you swoon,
Each and everyday should be a honeymoon.
Nothing can ever be more important than your lover.
Never give a passionate thought to any other.
To make love last for all eternity,
The "ME" must become "WE".
When your heart is full of affection,
Love will always know the right direction.

(by Charlene Strong)

inside = outside

2008-10-04T14:09:00.003+10:00

what's in the inside, shown on the outside....

Pasti pernah denger donk phrase ini??
Gw rasa, ada benernya juga....
Apa yg ada di dalam, biasanya bisa keliatan dr luar...

Thought of the day

2008-10-02T09:27:00.000+10:00

You do not know what will happen tomorrow.
For what is your life?
It is even a vapor that appears for a little time
and then vanishes away.
—James 4:14

if tomorrow never comes

2008-09-30T12:33:00.001+10:00

Thought of the day....

"If you live your life preparing for tomorrow,
then if tomorrow doesn't come,
what are you living for today?"

miscommunication

2008-09-29T20:25:00.002+10:00

Akhirnyaaaa bisa juga gw punya wkt buat duduk dan curahin isi pikiran gw ke blog...
Hari ini, entah mengapa, rasanya gw beberapa kali come across kata "miscommunication"...
Tadi di tmp kerja, terjadi miscommunication antara bos A dan bos B... sampe ada argument panjang... padahal cuma salah tangkep aja... untung akhirnya bisa nyambung juga en jadi clear...

Trus barusan baca article ttg miscommunication...
bikin gw keinget ama seseorg yg belakangan emang kepikiran, karena gw takutnya udah salah kirim unspoken msg ke org itu... miscommunication lagi deh... hehehe :p

Lagi dilema nih belakangan...
Sumhow, lagi berasa ga tenang... umm... gimana ya jelasinnya... rasanya lagi dikejar2 ama sesuatu, en gw pengen kabur dan ngumpet aja... tp ga bisa... hehehe :p
karena selama masalahnya ga dihadapin, ya ga bakal pernah beres...
tapi gw berasa capek aja... masa kejadian yg sama terjadi lagi??!!
Duhhh kan capek... gimme a break larrr.... >_<

Loh, kok jadi curhat ya?? hahaha...
Back to the 1st topic... ngomong2 soal miscommunication, gw jadi refleksi diri abis baca article itu... (oh, biar nyambung, baca ndiri aja nih articlenya... The Art of Miscommunication)
Selama ini, secara sadar ato ga sadar, kita itu constantly sending msg ke org2 di sekitar kita... dan yg jadi masalah, biasanya klo msgnya ga clear, ya bisa bikin org salah tangkep...
Nah... klo msg yg ditangkep itu salah en merugikan org laen, kan kesian org itu... kita dah sia2in entah wkt, uang, tenaga, ato perasaan org tsb... makanya... being clear and honest itu penting loh dalem berkomunikasi... esp. dg lawan jenis, spt yg dibahas di article tsb...

S'perti Mata Air

2008-09-29T10:32:00.005+10:00

Pada-Mu ada kehidupan

yang dunia tak dapat berikan

mengalir dari takhta mulia

semuanya yang kuperlukan

Ku berpegang pada Yesus

Kau sumber kehidupanku

S'perti mata air

yang slalu mengalir

tak pernah habis di masa kering

Kar'na aku ada di dalam-Mu, Tuhan

sumber yang kekal dan sejati bagiku.

metamorphosis

2008-09-27T23:46:00.003+10:00

Pasti dah ga asing lagi kan dengan kata Metamorphosis??
Yang pernah belajar IPA ato Biologi, pasti langsung ngebayangin kupu2, atau katak...
Menurut kamus online, metamorphosis punya arti "transformation"; "a marked change in appearance, character, condition, or function"....

Yah... betul, metamorphosis pasti melibatkan perubahan... namanya aja metamorph...
Klo dipecah, meta artinya berubah (to transform), morph artinya bentuk...
Dan bagi gw personally, begitu denger kata metamorphosis, pasti langsung kebayang kupu yg lagi terbang dengan indahnya di antara bunga2... (wuihhh... dah kayak taman bunga...)

Somehow, I'm so facinated by butterflies....
Mind you, I'm not a fan of insects... tapi butterflies adalah pengecualian....
Gw terlalu kagum sama yg nyiptain kupu2, abisnya kreatif banget sih!!!
Sapa yg nyangka sih, kupu2 yg indah itu, tadinya adalah ulat yg gendut dan serakah yang cuma bisa ngerugiin org laen....
Kadang gw juga ngerasa, kehidupan manusia berdosa yang akhirnya nerima Tuhan itu seperti metamorphosis dari seekor ulat menjadi kupu2... it's not easy... and there's a possibility bisa mati ditengah process...
Secara garis besarnya, stages metamorphosis ulat menjadi kupu2 bisa dijabarkan sbb:
- ulat (larva)
- kepompong (pupa) --> inactive state
- kupu2 dewasa

Nah, klo kalian masi kuat bacanya... penjabarannya kira2 kayak gini...
Di fase pertama, sebagai ulat, biasanya manusia ini tuh dianggep masi belum dewasa, bisanya cuma nyedot makanan dari org laen aja... dan dalam stage ini, pertumbuhan yg dialami sangat pesat... wajar lah ya pertumbuhannya pesat, kerjaannya makan doank... hahaha...

Kemudian di fase kedua, saat sang ulat dah puas makan dan bertumbuh cukup besar untuk menjalani fase berikutnya, perlahan2 kepompong mulai terbentuk... Di fase kedua ini, basically tubuh ulat itu mati perlahan2 dari dalam keluar, dan terbentuk tubuh baru u/ jadi kupu2... (duhhh makin tau ttg kupu2, makin salut gw sama Tuhan!!!)... Dan mirip sama manusia... Klo kita dah terima Tuhan, mau ga mau, kita yg lama harus mati dan kita lahir baru lagi... mirip bgt kan sama kupu2???!!!
Fase kedua ini, bisa dibilang fase yg paling ga enak... soalnya masa dimana sang ulat tuh inactive... ga bisa ngapa2in, cuma terkurung didalem kepompong aja buat mempersiapkan diri u/ jadi kupu2 nantinya...
misalnya, dy perlu ngeringin badannya... dari ulat yg gendut (klo gendut kan ga bisa terbang), jadi kupu2 yg ramping... ngebentuk sayapnya... etc... belom lagi si ulat musti deg2an juga, sapa tau ada manusia isenk yg gangguin dy... klo pupanya dibenyekin gimana??
Klo gw samakan dengan manusia... kadang ada stage dikehidupan manusia, dimana manusia cuma bisa buat diem... bukan diem karena males, tapi karena lagi dibentuk sama Tuhan... masa yg ga enak, masa yg kayak di padang gurun.... masa dimana kita feel helpless... masa dimana kita cuma bisa rely en depend ama Tuhan buat kelangsungan hidup kita....
Selain itu, fase ini sangat critical dan ga bisa diloncatin gitu aja, karena klo ga lewatin fase ini, ulat ga bisa jadi kupu2...
Sama kayak manusia, karakternya dibentuk lewat smua pencobaan di dunia... biar akhirannya menghasilkan karakter yang menjadikan kita semakin seperti Yesus....

Dan di fase ketiga, di mana akhirnya si kupu2 bisa menggeliat keluar dari celah kecil kepompongnya dan akhirnya terbang bebas di angkasa... bisa bantuin penyerbukan bunga2 pula... perubahan bentuk yang sungguh amazing! Dari ulat yg merugikan, menjadi kupu2 yang indah dan berguna bagi makhluk lain...
Begitu juga manusia dituntut untuk bisa berubah menjadi org yg lebih bisa less self-centered... dari tiap hal yg kita alami dalam hidup ini, semoga kita semakin diubahkan untuk menjadi less of ourselves and more of Christ-self.. (emang ada ya kata "Christ-self"?? hahaha)... dengan semakin punya karakter Tuhan, kita otomatis bakal lebih mikirin org laen dibanding diri sendiri (karena simply Tuhan itu ga pernah mikirin diri sendiri)...
And He'll transform us become a "perfect butterfly" pada saatnya nanti... di keabadian....
Jangan lupa janji Tuhan... Ia akan jadikan segala sesuatu indah pada waktu-Nya... :)

God Bless....

patience......

2008-09-25T11:08:00.002+10:00

Hmm... klo punya anak ce, ntar gw kasi nama Patience ahhh.... nama panggilannya Patty...

hahaha.... *gelo deh gw*

Sebenernya bukan ini yg mo gw tulis... cuma tiba2 td kepikiran aja... hehehe :p

Ya, dah tau lah dari judulnya, kira2 gw bakal nulis ttg apa...
Yup, patience alias kesabaran...
Gw mo nulis ttg ini dah dari beberapa hari yg lalu, tp akhirnya baru sempet nulis skrg...

Klo org2 yg deket ama gw, pasti tau deh, kelemahan gw selaen keras kepala en emosian, adalah tidak sabar.... hehehe :p
Makanya dari dulu gw sll minta ma Tuhan.... "Tuhan, jadikan aku lebih sabar..."
Tapi apa Tuhan jadiin gw lebih sabar begitu aja dalam sekejab mata??
Tadinya gw pikir bakalan kayak gitu.... jadi gw cuma duduk diem, nungguin "kesabaran" tiba2 ada di dalam gw... Does it work?? Of course not!!

Apa yg terjadi setelah gw minta kesabaran ama Tuhan??
Yang terjadi malahan gw makin sering dihadapin ke situasi di mana gw makin ga sabaran....
Akibatnya, bukannya makin sabar, gw malah keliatan makin ga sabaran....
Then oneday, it occurs to me...
Iya ya... klo gw minta kesabaran, Tuhan ga bakal kasi kesabaran begitu aja...
Tapi Dia adl Allah yg sungguh baik dan tau yg terbaik bagi kita smua...
Gw minta kesabaran, Dia kasi situasi dimana gw bisa develop kesabaran itu... sehingga gw bisa exercise kesabaran itu, dan lama2 kesabaran itu bisa jadi karakter gw, yg ga bisa diambil dan ilang begitu aja, karena smuanya dibentuk melalui process....

Buat temen2 yg lagi frustasi, berasa doanya ga dijawab, en malah dikasi situasi yg terasa tambah berat... coba deh stop sejenak, dan evaluate hidup dan diri kita... dari situasi yg lagi kita alamin skrg, karakter apa sih yg Tuhan lagi mau bentuk di dalam diri kita?? Coba tanya Tuhan, dan ikuti plan-Nya Dia... taat aja... karena Dia tau yg terbaik buat kita... gw berani jamin, walo ga enak pada awalnya, pasti ga nyesel deh akhirnya... ;)

ttg kerjaan

2008-09-23T13:09:00.002+10:00

huhuhuhu...T_T
lagi ga tw mo ngapain nih di tmp kerja... malahan jadi nge-blog...
rasa2nya, abis gw nulis posting yg ini, gw bakal jarang ngeblog lagi... unless gw masi ada wkt n tenaga wkt malem2... ato gw beneeeerrrr2 bosen di tmp kerja...

Gini... berhubung kerjaan di tmp kerja gw lagi sedikit nyantai, gw jadi cepet beres en ga tw mo ngapain... nganggur2, en jadi banyak maen internet... contohnya skrg, gw malah nge-blog *jangan di contoh ya...*

Tapinya gw sll feel guilty klo gw pake wkt kerja gw buat maen2...
soalnya bukannya gw takut ma bos gw...
gw yg takutin itu justru Bos di atas smua bos...
Gw feel guilty ma Tuhan, soalnya gw pake wkt gw buat maen2...
dah di kasi kerjaan, malah ga dimanfaatin baek2... *huh! bikin jelek nama anak Tuhan yg laen aja... maap yaaa*
Karena gw tau persis, kerjaan ini Tuhan yg kasi... dan pastinya Dia punya tujuan buat nempatin gw di sini...
Tapi belakangan gw dah mulai bosen en suka mulai ngeluh2 ttg tempat kerja gw *gw mulai ngerti gimana perasaan temen2 yg dah kerja, yg whinge ttg tmp kerjanya*
Lalu Tuhan ingetin gw... klo masi banyak temen2 gw yg cari kerja... coba bayangin gimana rasanya mereka klo bisa dapet kerja?? pasti bersyukur banget!! ga kayak gw, yg malah ngeluhin apa yg gw miliki skrg...
Yaaahhh hari ini, again... gw diingetin lagi buat belajar mensyukuri apa yg dah Tuhan kasi...
coz sebenernya i am not worthy enuf buat dapetin apa yg gw punya... jadi mustinya gw berterima kasih, bukannya malah nuntut lebih...

Emang dasar manusia... ga ada puasnya... ck ck ck... *geleng2*

Dan setelah gw sadari hal itu dan gw terima bahwa gw dah salah, bukan berarti gw bisa langsung berubah en stop whinging... tapi at least, gw belajar buat buka hati n pikiran gw lebih lagi... buat kasi kesempatan buat Tuhan, buat pake gw di tmp kerja ini... dan guess what? Tuhan ajarin gw many things... esp. ttg menghargai org laen, ttg BERSYUKUR, ttg toleransi, ttg KASIH, ttg giving and sharing, ttg melayani, ttg KESABARAN, en many more... dan gw bisa liat, klo dunia bener2 butuh Tuhan... en that what makes me keep going at my work place... tugas gw blm selese... yaitu bukan cuma jadi QA officer, tp yg lebih utama adl buat kenalin kasih Tuhan ke org2 di EasyFood...

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Tengkiu Tuhan,
buat nunjukin hal ini ke nv...
Tengkiu Tuhan dah sadarin nv
ttg apa yg seharusnya jadi tujuan utama nv...
so.. ini aq Tuhan...
siap u/ Engkau pakai...

so blessed

2008-09-18T23:37:00.002+10:00

Hmm... malem2 kebelet nulis... padahal dah ngantuk en wktnya buat tdr... parah deh gw...
Ga tw napa, belakangan kok gw banyak banget ide buat nulis.... mgkn balik ke habit lama, banyak mikir.... hehehe :p

Beberapa hari belakangan.... tepatnya baru kmrn sih, tiba2 gw sadar... how blessed I am!!
Selama ini, gw sll take things for granted... bukan berarti selama ini gw ga sadar.... gw sadar akan smua itu.... tp sadarnya cuma sebates tau... kmrn, tiba2 berasa smuanya terbuka en clear!!

Pasalnya gini...
Temen kerja gw pas lagi ngumpulin sumbangan buat temen kita yg bokapnya baru aja meninggal....
Trus, gw just wonder how my friend feels... trus mulai jadi keinget ama temen2 seumuran gw yg either bokap ato nykpnya dah meninggal... Guys!! I really can't imagine losing my parents!!!
Bener2 deh, gw ga tw bakal jadi apa hidup gw... but i know, eventually, I've gotta say goodbye no matter what...
Dan saat itu juga, tiba2 *tek!*
Smuanya terbuka! Ada suara yg bilang, "Nov, coba liat hidup lu... it's not all bad... in fact, it's all good.... Liat dah seberapa Tuhan baek ama lu... masi pny ortu (malahan akong-ama aja masi ada), keluarga yg cukup harmonis, smua kebutuhan terpenuhi... apalagi yg lu keluhin?!?!"

Emang yaaa dasar manusia... ga pernah puas... hahaha....
But anyway, I thank God for everything.... mau yg manis, mau yg pahit, mau yg asem, mau yg asin.... at last, I learn all the taste of life... I guess that's what life is all about, huh? keep learning and learning and learning... sampe akhirnya kita lulus en hidup di keabadian... :)

emang aneh ya?!?!

2008-09-18T10:51:00.002+10:00

Guys... gw punya pertanyaan....
Emangnya aneh ya klo seorang ce, jalan sendirian di mall??
Abisnya, gw bingung aja ama respon org2 yg gw temui kmrn pas gw lagi jalan2 di sebuah shopping centre yg kebetulan buka mpe jam 10 malem hari itu...
Gw jalan2 juga bukannya lagi kebanyakan duit yg bisa dibuang2 buat shopping, tapinya gw lagi nyari kado buat temen2 gw yg ultah...
Sejak gw kerja, suka ga ada wkt buat shopping kayak gituan pas hari biasa, pasti dah tutup shopping centrenya... kecuali pas weekend... tapi kan weekend gw dah punya acara laen...
Anyway... gw sih enjoy2 aja kmrn, karena belanja ndirian tuh enak, ga usah tunggu2an ama temen... bisa ke mana aja gw mau... hehehe :p
Tapi gimana pun, emang lebih enak klo ada yg nemenin seh... ada yg bantu bawain gitu... hahaha... *canda* Yaaa enaknya, kita bisa minta opini temen2 kita juga...
Sudahlah ya, yg berlalu biarkan saja berlalu... toh kmrn wkt gw juga limited... plannya jam 9 dah mo cabut... ehhh taunya molor setengah jam... klo pegi ama temen, ga kebayang deh molor mpe kapan... mgkn gw musti nungguin sampe diusir ama securitynya kali.... hahaha...

Segitu dulu deh pengalaman gw diberi tatapan aneh karena waktu ditanya
Temen: "Alo Nov, sama sapa?"
Gw: "Alo!! Sendiri aja... lagi cari kado buat temen..."
Temen: "Hah?!?!" *plus tatapan aneh*

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Quote of the day....

2008-09-17T10:32:00.001+10:00

"ketika Tuhan mengoyak impian kita sekalipun kita tahu Ia menyediakan yang terbaik, it’s still hard and hurt"

“Kusumpahi kamu, puteri-puteri Yerusalem, demi kijang-kijang atau demi rusa-rusa betina di padang : jangan kamu membangkitkan dan menggerakkan cinta sebelum diingininya”
Kidung Agung 2 : 7

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Mungkin ada yg ga ngerti maksud dari kutipan ayat alkitab yg gw tulis di atas??
Jujur, gw juga masi rada2 ga ngerti sih, but at least, gw nangkep di bagian jgn bangunin cinta sebelom wktnya...
Cuma di study bible, gw temuin penjelasan yg lebih lagi...
Gw kutip aja ya... (diterjemahkan dari Inggris ke Indo, jadi harap maklum klo kata2nya rada aneh, Inggris gw pas2an... hehehe :p)
"Perasaan cinta dapat menciptakan intimasi yang dapat membuat org kehilangan logika. Anak muda *berasa kena neh, kan masi muda.. hehehe*, kebanyakan suka buru2 pengen punya hubungan yg intim (dekat) yg hanya berdasarkan perasaan mereka aja. Tapi perasaan ga cukup untuk mempertahankan hubungan sehingga bisa last u/ selamanya. Jadi, maksud dari ayat ini tuh, mau bilang, supaya kita (anak2 muda) jangan suka buru2 melakukan hal2 romantis, yang bikin perasaan berkembang lebih cepet daripada komitmen yang bisa bikin love last. Bersabarlah dalam menunggu perasaan cinta dan komitmen bertumbuh bersamaan."

Gitu deh kira2... walo dah gw "bahasa gaul-in" dikit... hehehe :p
Hope this verse can help you friends.... ;)

accept first, then you'll enjoy it

2008-09-16T23:00:00.003+10:00

Hoaeemm.... *yawn*
Kindda sleepy already... but since I've planned to write a posting today, I decided to type it before I go to bed...

Last Saturday, my church friends and I went to a nursing home not too far from our church.
It's in Kew area... about 10mins drive from our church...

To make the story short, that day, we performed some dances, played angklung (Indonesian traditional instrument), and sang few songs...
I really enjoyed it... and I guess the residents enjoyed it too...

This nursing home is a bit different from the one that I've been to in Adelaide...
It's not just a retirement home, but also kind of a hospital as well...
Coz most of the residents are really sick or really old that they can't walk or talk properly or take care of themselves anymore...

One thing that I learn from one of the old man there...
I was chatting with him... and I asked whether he like to stay in that place...
and he gave a good answer... he said, "I guess, we just need to learn to like wherever we are"...
And it really gets into me...

Today, when I was working, and I started to hate my work place (with some unsupportive co-workers and some pressure lately)... the words that the old man told me that day kept on repeating in my head... Yea... that's true!
I can't blame my work place of being unsupportive... I should be the one to make it...
If I don't like it... then make sumfin so I will like it...
I must be able to show passion for my work.... and hopefully, that passion will light up on others as well... :)

I just thought, God has given me this job, not for nothing...
There must be sumfin He wants me to accomplish at my work place...
not just to earn money and complete my tasks....
but most of all.... to passionately showing love to others...
and everytime I remember that main reason,
I gain the strength that I need to take another step forward
and keep on going...

I'm letting go

2008-09-15T20:25:00.001+10:00

My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge

Like an acrobat
There’s no turning back

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I’m not afraid

Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
Feels like I’m falling and this is the life for me

Im Letting Go - Francesca Battistelli

another song lyric...

2008-09-14T08:33:00.002+10:00

I was listening to the radio the other day as I drove home....
and it was the time for their program called "Love Song Dedication"...
It's where people can request a certain song and dedicate it to someone they want... esp. the one they love... it can be a boy/girl-friend... or an ex...

One thing that the DJ said which I think so true was, sometimes we just can't find the right words to express our feelings or emotion, and a song lyric can express the feelings so well that the best way for us is juz to play the song for that "someone special"....

And the song lyric below, I dedicate it for that "someone special" which is... ME!!! :)
Please enjoy...

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Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

let go

2008-09-10T19:58:00.000+10:00

I’ve been holding on
To things like dreams that never seem to die
And I’m not so strong to lay them down
And say my goodbyes
How do you say goodbye?

If there’s a remedy
A break from all my vanity
Then I’m gonna need your help
If there’s hope for me
Pull me down to my knees
Where I’m begging for your help
To let go

It’s so unnatural
To let all that I’ve planned just slip away
But I would be a fool
To tighten up my hands and be afraid
What I need is faith

I’m walking right up to the edge
I’m bringing everything that’s left of me
I throw my self into your love
You’ll be the one to lift me up again
As I let go

He's raising me up

2008-09-08T15:40:00.007+10:00

You Raise Me Up

When I am down and oh my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still and wait here in the silence
Until You come and sit a while with me

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on yor shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be

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Pasti dah pada familiar donk ama lagu ini?? At least pernah denger version yg dinyanyiin Josh Groban lah...
I used to like this song, en karena keseringan denger, lama2 jadi bosen... jadi dah lama ga dengerin...
Ehhh, ga disangka, hari ini, gw malah ketemu ama lyricnya... which kasi gw kekuatan...
Kata2nya bener2 give me peace... dan gw diingetin sekali lagi...
saat kaki ini terasa berat u/ melangkah...
saat kepala ini rasanya berat u/ mendongak melihat ke depan...
Tuhan ada di sana... Tuhan ada di samping gw... even Dia nopang gw... He's raising me up!
Dia yg kasi gw keberanian buat tinggalin masa lalu...
Dia yg kasi kekuatan en mampuin gw buat ngelangkah ke depan...

Hold on to Him

2008-09-02T09:08:00.002+10:00

Wahhh.... dah lama bgt ya gw ga pernah nge-post lagi di blog ini....
aniwei, pagi ini, sumhow gw kepikiran one thing pas lagi renungan, en kepengen banget bagiin lwt blog ini... :)

Simple sih...
A question popped up in my mind...
"What would you hold on to when u lose everything?"

I know when I'm upset,
I have friends who would comfort me...
But when u lose those friends...
What would u hold on to?

Ok, I still got my family...
But they arent goin to live forever, are they?
So, when they're gone, what would u hold on to?

Some people hold on to their wealth,
or their health,
or their carrier...
or their love ones....
But all of those come from this world...
and nothing in this world is eternal...

So, when this question popped up in my head,
I know there's only one answer...
I would hold on to Him... hold on to Jesus...
The everlasting God and King...

Hopefully, you would choose to let go all things you've got in this world
and start to hold on to Him too!

Pernikahan melibatkan tiga pribadi

2008-04-27T09:32:00.002+10:00

Pernikahan membutuhkan 3 pribadi
agar menjadi sempurna,

Tidak cukup
perjumaan dua org saja,

Mereka harus
dipersatukan dalam kasih...

Kasih Pencipta,
Allah yang bertakhta di surga.

Pernikahan yang
mengikuti rencana Allah,

Membutuhkan lebih dari
sekadar pasangan pria dan wanita,

Karena untuk mencapai pernikahan bahagia,
dibutuhkan pribadi ketiga: Kristus, nama-Nya.

Do you know that??

2008-04-09T12:45:00.001+10:00

Do you know that a quick phone call from a friend can cure a lonely heart?

Do you know that a simple smile can brighten somebody’s day?

Do you know that a genuine “hello, how are you?”, can assure others that somebody cares?

Do you know that a little thing, when it is done with a sincere heart, can lead to a big change?

Do you know that???

belajar sabar...

2008-01-31T00:34:00.000+11:00

nih, ada article bagus yg gw baca di suatu website yg namanya "pembelajar"...
article ini adl ttg kesabaran...
met baca.. esp buat org2 yg ngerasa kurang sabar... hehehe :p

"Cepat Sabar" by Andrias Harefa

-novy-

love yourself... be yourself!!

2008-01-30T02:14:00.000+11:00

malem2... sendirian... pengangguran.... memberiku cukup alasan untuk menorehkan beberapa baris kalimat yang mengungkapkan isi pikiranku.... (cieeehh!!! sok ga jelas neh... hahaha)

melo MooD: ON

skarang seriusan deh... tp ga janji ya klo gw selipin jayusan2... hehehe :p
iya nih... seperti yg gw tulis di atas.... gw ini pengangguran saat ini.... makanya jadi banyak mikir, mikirin hal2 yg sebenernya ga usah telalu dipikirin... :p sebenernya banyak mikir sih gpp, ga telalu jadi masalah, klo ga berakhir kayak gw.... pikiran2 itu, berakhir menjadi pikiran2 negatif...
Secara ga sadar, gw jadi jahat ama diri gw ndiri.... dimana gw selalu mengkritik diri sendiri... en gw jadi ga bisa nerima diri gw apa adanya...
Jadi keinget ama perkataan seorang sahabat yg dah gw anggep kayak cici ndiri....
Pelajaran hidup yg paling sulit buat org2 kayak tipe gw en dy (kebetulan, personality kita setipe), adl belajar utk menerima diri kita apa adanya.... be comfortable with ourselves... en akhirnya... we can be ourselves...
Klo nerima diri gw ndiri aja ga bisa... gimana bisa gw nerima org laen apa adanya??
Klo mencintai diri gw sendiri aja gw belom sanggup, gimana gw bisa mengasihi org lebih daripada gw mengasihi diri ndiri??

Well... gimana pendapat lu???
pikiran gw ini emang ga telalu penting kan?? mgkn ga ada hubungannya ama lu....
tapi, lumayan lah buat org yg ga ada kerjaan.... kan bisa jadi bahan pikiran...
hahaha...

my thoughts...

2007-12-13T21:58:00.000+11:00

Nasib pengangguran.... ga ada kerjaan, jadi banyak mikir... ga tw mo ngapain, akhirnya isenk nulis buah2 pikiran gw di blog... moga2 ga ada yg baca.... (tp klo ga mau di baca, knp di post??! doesn't make sense... emang dasar manusia ga jelas...) hwawawa...

aniwei... gw cerita deh hari ini gw ngapain aja...
sebenernya ga ngapa2in sih... cuma ngurusin surat2 buat perpanjang visa... trus cari2 kerja juga... (but what's the point klo in a month gw bakal balik indo?? niwei, tetep aja gw browse2 kerjaan biar ga keliatan pengangguran bgt... so pathetic, isnt it??)
trus, pegi dinner di resto jepang sumwhere di sth yarra... (bener ga ya?? hueehhe :p lupa)
the dinner was great.... dalam rangka ultah soni (ke-26)... (thx ya son ^_^)
then, i got home.... trus, mulai deh ga tw mo ngapain.... gw coba telp co gw, tp didnt really help, berhubung dy masi kesel ama gw... hahaha... salah gw juga sih, maen ngebatalin "janji" tanpa alesan yg jelas.... (pesen gw buat yg kirain pacaran itu obat buat ngilangin kesepian... u r totally wrong!! klo kesepian, cari temen!! bukan ce ato co!!)...
aniwei, lalu gw duduk depan komputer... buka internet, en cek friendster... trus liat foto2 temen2 en sodara gw... dan pikiran gw mulai deh melayang...

pas ngeliat foto ci cen2 n koko... mulai mikir...
"so sweet..."
"haahaha.... these two people are in love..."
"it's wonderful how God helped two hearts to find each other's half..."
pokoknya intinya ngiri deh.... (ngiri dalem artian positif loh tpnya)... ngiri yg seneng juga ngeliat mereka bedua look happy in the photos...

trus...
liat profile dd gw... hmmm... Linda... what can i say about her??
"ck ck ck... dd gw dah gede ya?? ga berasa.... hahaha... (bitter laugh)"
"miss her actually... but i knew... klo ketemu pasti bakal berantem kayak biasa... hahaha (another bitter laugh)"
kenapa ya?? gw gengsian bgt jadi org??
when i love someone, bukannya gw berusaha nunjukin, gw bakalan mati2an nutupin perasaan gw... hahaha... dasar manusia aneh... it's not a sin to show love to the ones u love, you know?!
sumtimes i wonder... kapan ya gw bisa belajar jadi sahabat buat dd2 gw?? not being the annoying big sister... :( sedih juga sih... hahaha (one more bitter laugh)...

i guess gw lagi rada mellow nih... lagi down... ngerasa jadi org yg ga bener.... apa2 ga becus...
ga bisa nyenengin org laen... sll nyusahin org laen... existent gw ga ada gunanya di dunia... blah blah blah... and all those negative thoughts... gee!!! i cant believe my self sumtimes...
how can a person like me, ngaku klo gw adalah christian?? so negative...
but, probably, karena gw ini so negative, therefore i'm a christian coz i need Christ more than anything else in this world... bersyukur bgt gw bisa kenal Tuhan... Tuhan yg sumbernya hope, sumber love, sumbernya justice, sumbernya everything!! :)

blank... ga tw lagi mo nulis apa... my small brain's too overwhelmed by the amount of thoughts in my little head... so, i guess.... gw bakal stop di sini deh... en hopefully i'll stop thinking negatively by stop writing about negative thoughts... :p

Graduation

2007-12-13T12:00:00.000+11:00

Yep, as you can see from the title...
It's gonna be about the graduation that i have attended yesterday... 12.12.07
Most of my friends were graduated yesterday... and i'm so happy for them...
For they have achieved what they were trying to achieve in the past 3 years...
which is to gain "Bsc." to be written at the back of their names... :p
It was an amazing experience and is a privilege for me to attend their graduation ceremony...

Somehow, to see them graduated keeps me to focus on my goal, which is to graduate next year!! ^_^ i've gotta keep the fire burning... jia you!!!

PS. after all that, what's next?? job? work? further study? only God knows... and it's our part to decide the next step and to strive for the best! :)

thanks to the Lord...

2007-11-26T17:49:00.000+11:00

Today... this very morning... my results were released...
and i didnt really have anyone to share my happiness with after i've checked the results...
So i sent msgs to my mum and my friends...
But first of all... I thank God for the results He has given me....
I thanked Him for His guidance along this whole year... esp. the last semester...
I know very well, that it's not my own work...
If God hadn't interfere at all, i wont get these marks....
So, once again... Thank You, Father... :)

random thought of the day

2007-11-19T20:43:00.000+11:00

How many times have u seen a beautiful woman
and fall for her look...
Then, u've juz realised she's not as pretty as her look,
when u see her attitude??

it's a pity... :S

lessons from a humble pencil

2007-11-18T12:24:00.000+11:00

5 Important Lessons to learn from a humble pencil

1st. it tells u that everything u do will always leave a mark

2nd. u can always correct the mistakes u make

3rd. what is important is what is inside u and not outside of u

4th. in life u will undergo painful sharpenings which will make u better in what u do

lastly 5th. to be the best u can be, u must allow urself to be held and guided by the hand that holds u. have a blessed day my dear friends

successful life1

2007-10-27T20:27:00.001+10:00

havent been writing much about my life lately... hehehe :p
yea, i kindda busy these weeks, coz exam is coming....
and guess what, i also have an assignment to do!!

Aniwei...
lagi rada melo... banyak mikir2...
kmrn ini, di greja, Ko Dj kotbah ttg successful life...
Tiap org pasti pengen sukses...
cuma masalahnya... apa sih artinya sukses??
apa jadi kaya itu bisa disebut sukses??
apa klo kita terkenal ato punya kuasa, baru disebut sukses??
hmm... ga gampang buat di-definisi-in emang...

buat gw, sukses itu ga berarti mengejar kekayaan, ketenaran, ato kekuasaan sebagai tujuan akhir hidup ini...
life's much more than that!!
so, apa sukses buat lu??

Don't regret

2007-10-22T15:11:00.000+10:00

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

- Mark Twain

Everything was done for YOU!!

2007-10-17T23:07:00.000+10:00

Before the world began, you were on His mind
And every tear you cry is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love, He gave His only son
Everything was done, so you would come

Nothing you can do, could make Him love you more
And nothing that you’ve done could make Him close the door
Because of His great love, He gave His only son
Everything was done, so you would come

Come to the father though your gift is small
Broken heats, broken lives, He will take them all
The power of the world of his blood
Everything was done so you would come

live it!! HERE.. NOW!!

2007-10-06T08:12:00.000+10:00

(Thinking mode: ON)

Tiba2 keinget sharing temen gw kmrn...
Ttg sifat manusia yg sukanya buru2 nikmatin apa yg ada di depan (misalnya liburan yg masi 1 bulan lagi... balik indo yg masi 3 bulan lagi, etc)... en akibatnya, ga bener2 "konsen" aka hidup to the fullest saat present.. which is skrg!!
Karena pengen buru2 besok, pengen buru2 bulan depan, pengen buru2 taon depan, akhirnya kita sia2in HARI INI... Hari ini jadi di cuekin, ga bener2 dimanfaatin sebaik2nya, ga bener2 dinikmatin.. hari ini... berlalu gitu aja...

Gw jadi keinget ama pelajaran PMP wkt sd... selalu diajarin... selesein dulu tanggung jawab kita, baru tagih hak kita.... tp yg sering terjadi en gw lakuin adl, minta hak gw dulu, en tanggung jawab gw keteteran... -_-'''''

Yaahh berhubung pagi2 dah mikir kayak gini, i think i'd better not wasting my time now... mo mandi, cuci bj, kerjain at least 1 assignment.... Jia you nov!!! \\^0^//

love = sacrifice??

2007-09-27T09:39:00.000+10:00

"sometimes we need to sacrifice for someone we love.. but sometimes it's really hard to do..."

I copied the quote above from my friend's friendster...
I think it's soooo true!!

Yesterday, i've juz been faced to a reality....
I've known the theory very well... Love is a verb, it's an act...
Love is patient, love is unselfish, love is kind, love is blah blah blah...
I knew all that...
But!! i've never been really TO LOVE someone fully...
I've juz realised that... i've always loved my self more than anyone else, even God...
it is very very selfish and selfish isn't love...

Love is unselfish... unselfish means sumtimes we need to prepare to make sacrifices willingly... out of love... with no expectations... it means to put somebody else's interest before ours...
Again!! I knew all that.. but as what my friend said, it's not easy to do...
and that what makes to love is hard to do... and that's also what makes love is so precious and divine...

Sometimes, we want to love, but dont want to make any sacrifices...
keep putting ourselves as number 1...
But, yesterday, i was faced to choices... to choose, whether to make sacrifices to someone i love, to the One i love...
It came to me... that even God, shows His love by making sacrifice... the biggest sacrifice i've ever received... His own the only son... His own life... that is how much He loves me... that's how much He loves all of us... including YOU!!

Do you realise??

2007-09-24T08:10:00.000+10:00

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space -
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun don'-go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize

hate me

2007-09-23T23:24:00.000+10:00

sebel!!!
klo lagi kayak gini, gw paling sebel...
dah tw tiap org punya keterbatasan...
dah tw klo gw ga perfect...
tp knp sih gw masi suka berharap klo gw bisa perfect....
tp knp gw masi suka berharap bisa menuhin keinginan smua org??
knp gw masi mencoba nyenengin hati smua org??
i even ignore myself sometimes...

sebel...
hate myself sometimes... :(

power of thoughts

2007-09-21T08:08:00.000+10:00

so... yep, i've watched the most talked topic "The Secret"...
Now... when i think about it... if there's nothing i couldnt do with my thoughts, that means everything is possible... NOTHING is ImPoSSiBLe!! rite??

So, what would i be thinking to make this world become a better place to live??
(I've juz told u my thoughts.. :p)
What would YOU be thinking??

be a light

2007-09-20T13:58:00.000+10:00

Tired...
Sometimes i'm sick of this life...
Sometimes, juz wanna run away
Hide... in darkness...
So no one can find me...
Leave me alone...
in my loneliness...

They said,
nothing is eternal in this world...
but They said,
LOVE is...
So, i'm searching...
reaching for the Love...
and when i found Love,
I wanna share it with the world...

Then, i started to crawl out of the darkness...
Get out from my hiding place...
Stop from running away...
I juz wanna be,
a light...

your presence...

2007-09-16T11:05:00.000+10:00

Your presence in my life...
sumtimes makes me lonelier than ever...

Your presence in my life...
sumtimes makes me feel weaker than ever...
at times, i shed more tears than i ever shed...
and it also makes me feel dumber than ever...

Your presence...
sometimes i wish i'd never need it...
But your absence,
is the worst thing that i've ever wanted in my life...

PS. I want u to know, i miss u...

do u know??

2007-09-10T17:39:00.000+10:00

Tau ga???
- gw lagi pengen makan green-tea ice cream neh!!!
- gw lagi males ngerjain assignments
- gw lagi kangen rumah
- gw lagi males makan... (maunya green tea ice cream....)
- gw lagi nungguin telpon dari temen, katanya mo nelp...
- gw lagi error kayaknya...

wakakak... ga penting ya?? tp lu ga tw kan??? makanya gw kasi tw... :p
ciao...

Gw mo bikin kopi susu dulu.... sapa tw craving green tea ice creamnya berkurang dikit... hehehe :p

Spring is coming!! ^_^

2007-09-03T10:56:00.000+10:00

Yea, you've read the title... it's spring now.. but it's still cold...
Anyway... td gw ada group interview ama lecturers gw buat QA...
Untung it all went well... Thx God!! ^_^

Selese itu, gw pengen ngerjain tugas gw yg laen... ada Sci Project n Food preservation, tp kok rasanya males ya?? (penyakit lama.. hahaha)
So, gw decide buat baca2 blog gw lagi...
Hari ini, lagi berasa ga guna nih.. abisnya gw ngerasa cuma contribute sedikit ama tugas kelompok gw itu...
Tp gw coba belajar buat mikir positif aja lah.... hal kayak gini ga perlu dipikirin berlarut2... klo gw ngerasa kurang, yaa tinggal do more lah!! susah amet sih?! gitu aja kok di jadiin a big deal?!
iya ga??

Anyway... pas gw baca2 lagi postingan gw taon lalu... diliat2 gw dah banyak juga berubah... hehehe :p dulu tuh negatip thinking abis... skrg, mendingan lah... hehehe :p
En yg pasti, gw selalu ngerasa dikuatin seabis baca tulisan2 gw yg lama... coz i can see how God's hands guiding me all the way thru... beneran deh... klo ga ada Tuhan, gw ga tw jadi apa skrg... He has shaped me slowly... changed me...
Emang, ga gampang berubah totally, apa lagi dari yg jelek, ke yg baik... misalnya aja, penyakit males gw en suka nunda2 ini ga sembuh2... trus ga sabaran juga... trus kerasa kepala ga mo denger pendapat org, etc... Tapi gw coba keep in mind, smua butuh process... pelan2 gw bakal berubah lah... musti percaya ma diri gw juga... :)

Things that I've forgotten to be thankful for..

2007-08-24T09:27:00.000+10:00

1) God's grace and love
2) My family
3) My true friends (not many of them, but u r one of 'em)
4) The air I breathe
5) The sun rays that lights into my room
6) The water i drank
7) The food i ate
8) To be able to hear laughter around me
9) To see his smile
10) and all the things that i couldnt think of now, but i'll realise how precious they are when they've gone...

God weeps with us

2007-08-24T09:23:00.000+10:00

When we are happy or when we are blue;
God is aware of whatever we do;
All of our sorrows He takes as His own
and He will never leave us alone.
-Hess-

Walking Her Home- By Mark Schultz

2007-08-23T08:26:00.000+10:00

Looking back
He sees it all
It was her first date the night he came to call

Her dad said son
Have her home on time
And promise me you’ll never leave her side
He took her to a show in town
And he was ten feet off the ground

(Chorus)
He was walking her home
And holding her hand
Oh the way she smiled it stole the breath right out of him
Down that old road
With the stars up above
He remembers where he was the night he fell in love
He was walking her home

Ten more years and a waiting room
At half past one
And the doctor said come in and meet your son

His knees went weak
When he saw his wife
She was smiling as she said he’s got your eyes

And as she slept he held her tight
His mind went back to that first night

(Chorus)

He walked her through the best days of her life
Sixty years together and he never left her side

A nursing home
At eighty-five
And the doctor said it could be her last night
And the nurse said Oh
Should we tell him now
Or should he wait until the morning to find out

But when they checked her room that night
He was laying by her side

Oh he was walking her home
And holding her hand
Oh the way she smiled when he said this is not the end
And just for a while they were eighteen
And she was still more beautiful to him than anything
He was walking her home
He was walking her home
Looking back
He sees it all
It was her first date the night he came to call
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Don't u juz love the lyrics?? i think it's a beautiful thing to be written... :)

the power of love

2007-08-15T16:31:00.000+10:00

Yesterday, when i was talking with my friend, she suddenly asked me about that...

"Hey novy, if u are given a power, what power do u wanna have?"

And since we were joking around, i didnt give a long thought before i answer that question... but i've been thinking about it quite often... if i can have a power, i'd like to have a POWER OF LOVE... my friend wasnt quite satisfied with my answer, coz she's expecting an answer like power to control ppl's mind, or power to control time, etc...

Anyway, it's juz an intro about what i wanna write...
Now, when i think about it... i dont need the word "IF" anymore... coz i do have that power, all of us do!! We all have the power of love, it's juz sumtimes we dont realise it and never really make a use of it...
If you know what the power of love can do, u will be amaze on how this power works...
Well, i'm not an expert... coz i'm still learning and getting to know how to use this power... but as far as i knew, this power is great!!! I can use it to mend lots of hearts... It's amazing how u can share this power too!! and the important thing is, everybody needs it...

This power is eternal... It reminds me on a bible passage which says, "Love never fails"... and it's true!! That's why, if i need to choose and pick a power, i will definitely will choose "power of love", coz of course i want a power that can last forever... and a power which can be beneficial to others as well (not only to myself)...

So, the question goes to you.... If u can pick a power, what power will u choose?? and how r u goin to use it??

Seperti yang Kau ingini

2007-08-10T12:14:00.000+10:00

Sebatang bambu yang indah tumbuh di halaman rumah seorang petani. Batang bambu ini tumbuh tinggi menjulang di antara batang-batang bambu lainnya. Suatu hari datanglah sang petani yang empunya pohon bambu itu.

Dia berkata kepada batang bambu," Wahai bambu, maukah engkau kupakai untuk menjadi pipa saluran air, yang sangat berguna untuk mengairi sawahku?"Batang bambu menjawabnya, "Oh tentu aku mau bila dapat berguna bagi engkau, Tuan. Tapi ceritakan apa yang akan kau lakukan untuk membuatku menjadi pipa saluran air itu."

Sang petani menjawab, "Pertama, aku akan menebangmu untuk memisahkan engkau dari rumpunmu yang indah itu. Lalu aku akan membuang cabang-cabangmu yang dapat melukai orang yang memegangmu. Setelah itu aku akan membelah-belah engkau sesuai dengan keperluanku. Terakhir aku akan membuang sekat-sekat yang ada di dalam batangmu, supaya air dapat mengalir dengan lancar. Apabila aku sudah selesai dengan pekerjaanku, engkau akan menjadi pipa yang akan mengalirkan air untuk mengairi sawahku sehingga padi yang kutanam dapat tumbuh dengan subur.

"Mendengar hal ini, batang bambu lama terdiam.....,

(Lanjutan cerita, klik di sini --> Seperti yang Kau ingini)

Trials...

2007-08-10T12:07:00.000+10:00

When trials come on our way, bear in mind that:

We learn lessons in the "school of suffering"
that we can learn in no other way...

and do remember that:

God's whisper of comfort
quiets the noise of our trials...

"I cried out to the Lord because of my affliction,
and He answered me." (Jonah 2 : 2)

The "RoseMan"

2007-08-08T13:45:00.000+10:00

Here's a story about an 85-years old man, giving out roses to everyone in town for FREE!!
And he's doing it becoz he thinks ppl deserve it... ppl deserve to enjoy the beauty of the petals and they deserve to know that somebody cares about them... :)

Pls have a look at the new report by clicking on the link below...
The Rose Man

For me, it shows that roses arent juz flowers.... they're tools to bring happiness and joy to others... ^_^
Maybe not everyone like flowers, but i do believe that no one will ever reject the flowers which are given out of generousity...

Who do u trust??

2007-08-08T13:37:00.000+10:00

Percayalah kepada Tuhan dengan segenap hatimu,
dan janganlah bersandar kepada pengertianmu sendiri.
Akuilah Dia dalam segala lakumu,
maka Ia akan meluruskan jalanmu.
(Amsal 3:5-6)

Sehat??

2007-08-08T13:13:00.001+10:00

If u knew me well, u'll know that i've alwayz got a lot of things goin on in my mind...
and at this moment, i'm thinking about my tummy... i think i'm a bit unwell...

*switch to Indo*

Iya nih, semalem gw ketiduran en lupa buat dinner... subuh2 kebangun dengan perasaan yg ga enak, ternyata gw baru sadar klo gw kelaperan.. huehehe :p
Tp gw males bangun, jadi lanjutin tidur lagi.... bangun2 dah siang, en gw masi juga males buat keluar kamar... so, gw ended up makanin makanan yg ada di kamar gw, yg notabene cuma cemilan2 yg ga sehat... trus, akhirnya gw decide buat keluar kamar buat cari makan yg proper, eeehh gw melihat sekotak susu coklat, en gw malah berakhir dengan minum sekotak susu itu sebagai makan siang gw... alhasil, perut gw ga enak skrg... bayangin aja, dah malem dah berisi angin, trus ditambah makanan ringan yg biasanya nambahin kadar angin, trus minum susu coklat dingin yg nambah jumlah angin di perut... en skrg, gw jadi kembung ga jelas gini...

Ternyata, hidup sehat itu emang ga mudah... apalagi klo kemalasan itu dipiara.. huehehe :p
Ya udah deh, sekian dulu celoteh ga penting gw ini... enjoy your lunch!! ^_^

Brand new day

2007-08-06T07:42:00.000+10:00

Yes!! Another brand new day in August...
Kayaknya semangat gw dah balik lagi setelah puas tidur semalem...
I was soooo tired, that jam 9.30an aja gw dah tdr!!! (jarang2 gw bisa tdr sepagi itu), en hampir tdr selama 10jam!! hahaha... sleep like a baby...

Semoga semangatnya bener2 balik deh, even at uni... (biasanya kan klo di rumah semangat, sampe kelas, malesnya kambuh) hehehe :p
Ya sudah..... juz wanna say good morning to everyone!! ^_^
Have a good day!!! GBU all....

slacker...

2007-07-31T18:00:00.000+10:00

Hehehe... seperti judul blognya, begitu lah gw sekarang... lagi rada slacking...
dah tw banyak tugas, malah masi enak2 nyantai2 en maen2...

Bingung nih...
Kenapa penyakit melo2 en males gw kambuh lagi??
Kayaknya perlu didoain deh... hahaha...
Klo kata nykp gw, perlu dikasi "obat rajin", makan "pil ga males", etc...
hahaha... emang, si mama mah suka becanda deh... :p
Apa gara2 weather yg winter gini ya?? bikin apa2 jadi ga niat...
ato gara2 makan n tidur ga teratur??
Sudahlah... ga penting neh postingan... hahaha....

Benci!!! Benci!!!

2007-07-29T19:49:00.000+10:00

Pernah ga sih?? Kesel sendiri?? kayaknya gw aja sih yg lagi sensi.... tp bener2 ngeselin bgt, klo kita lagi kesel en org2 ga tw... (bagi gw loh ya...)
Makanya... itu lah jeleknya gw... klo lagi kesel, paling suka bikin org laen ikut kesel juga... jadi gw punya temen gt... huehehe :p

Kayak skrg... gw tuh lagi kesel bgt... sebenernya cuma gara2 masalah sepele...
Mgkn ada yg kirain, gara2 HD gw rusak... sebenernya bukan itu masalah utamanya... gw juga ga tw gw kesel ama apa ato sama sapa... tp yg pasti gw lagi bad mood aja... en klo lagi bad mood, smua2nya keliatan negatip aja di mata gw...

Td gw nelp temen gw... ceritanya, gw pengen numpahin ke-kesel-an gw... tp gw ended up kesel ama dy... trus gw juga jadi kesel ama diri ndiri juga... karena gw dah ingkarin janji ke diri sendiri buat bisa ngontrol emosi gw... but i juz cant help it!! Klo kesel, rasanya pengen ngedumel aja... tp gw tw, klo gw ngedumel ga jelas, yg ada bukannya gw feel better, tp malah tanpa sadar gw bakal nyakitin ato nyinggung org laen... en gw ga mo itu terjadi... makanya gw serba salah...

Duhh... Tuhan...
Tolong nv donk...

(hosh..hosh..) istirahat bentar...
udahlah... gw ngerjain tugas dulu aja.. daripada ngedumel ga jelas... :p
hopefully, by besok, gw dah bisa senyum lagi... :))
Karena gw yakin, banyak hal baik yg dah menanti.. en i dont wanna miss it by kesel terus2an..

Love (= kasih)

2007-07-25T18:39:00.000+10:00

Sebenernya gw lagi cari bacaan yg laen... then gw stumbled on this reading...

"... jika aku tidak mempunyai kasih, aku sama sekali tidak berguna....
Kasih itu sabar;
kasih itu murah hati;
ia tidak cemburu.
Ia tidak memegahkan diri dan tidak sombong.
Ia tidak melakukan yang tidak sopan dan tidak mencari keuntungan diri sendiri.
Ia tidak pemarah dan tidak menyimpan kesalahan orang lain.
Ia tidak bersukacita karena ketidakadilan, tetapi karena kebenaran.
Ia menutupi segala sesuatu, percaya segala sesuatu, sabar menanggung segala sesuatu.
Kasih tidak berkesudahan..."

Bikin gw jadi mikir... selama ini... sudahkah gw mengasihi??
(ternyata kriteria kasih tuh banyak euy..)

Psalm 32:8

2007-07-23T04:55:00.000+10:00

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will guide you with My eye."
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"Aku hendak mengajar dan menunjukkan kepadamu
jalan yang harus kautempuh;
Aku hendak memberi nasihat,
mataKu tertuju kepadamu."

Yes 55:8

2007-07-22T11:42:00.000+10:00

"Sebab rancanganKu bukanlah rancanganmu,
dan jalanmu bukanlah jalanKu,
demikianlah firman TUHAN."
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"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

emotion

2007-07-19T00:38:00.000+10:00

Duhh....
Belakangan susah ngontrol emosi... not a good sign for the beginning of the semester...
belom2 gw dah stres... masa uni baru mulai 3 hari, gw dah punya tugas... banyak pula! Rasanya masi ga rela buat ninggalin masa hura2 wkt liburan... hahaha...

Belakangan, kayaknya gw kecapekan deh...
Gw butuh "break".... (padahal barusan aja liburan)
perlu bertapa di gunung kali ya??
ato menyendiri di tepi pantai?? (dingin2 gini ke pantai??)
hahaha...
Really missed those peaceful times...
Abisnya, belakangan gw suka sok sibuk ndiri...
suka ga ada wkt buat renungan...
ga ada wkt buat bener2 spend time buat diri ndiri...
(tp apa menyendiri itu jawaban yg paling pas buat masalah gw?)

Gw jadi suka marah2 ndiri...
suka sensi...
diajak ngomong baek2, bales bentak...
suka neting ama org..
and the worst is hating my self...

Nooo!!! not a good start for the semester...
have to change!!!

Call On Jesus

2007-07-19T00:25:00.000+10:00

by Nicole C. Mullen

Verse 1:
I'm so very ordinary, nothing special on my own.
Oh, I have never walked on water,
And I have never calmed a storm.
Sometimes I'm hiding away from the madness around me
Like a child who's afraid of the dark

Chorus:
But when I call on Jesus,
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles' and soar
When I call on Jesus,
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven and earth to come rescue me when I call

Verse 2:
Weary brother, broken daughter,
Little widow mother, you're not alone
If you're tired and scared of the madness around you
If you can't find the strength to carry on

Chorus:
When you call on Jesus,
All things are possible
You can mount on wings like eagles' and soar
When you call on Jesus,
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven and earth to come rescue you when you--

Bridge:
Call Him in the mornin', in the afternoon time
Late in the evenin' He'll be there
When your heart is broken,
And you feel discouraged,
You can just remember that He said
He'll be there

Chorus (2x)

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Buat yg ga pernah denger lagunya... mungkin lyric di atas ga berarti apa2...
walo gw baru pernah denger ini lagu sekali doank, it means a lot to me...
soalnya "tiba2" ini lagu diputer di radio yg lagi gw denger... en tepat di saat gw lagi feel discouraged...
gw diingetin lagi klo "thru Him, all things are possible... and i only need to count on Him..."
it really feels like He was talking to me thru the song lyric... He knows what i'm going thru and He'll be there... :)

List kata2 yg lagi ada di kepala gw

2007-07-18T12:01:00.000+10:00

dont u hate it??
males neh..
dingin...
ga boleh nyerah...
juz give ur best
it will be alrite in the end
trust Him
you're loved
dont be too hard on yourself
jangan males!!!
ayo! get up! and move! move! move!
NATO!!

udah ah... listnya ga bakal berenti... hahaha... segini dulu list ga penting ini... lagi isenk doank :p

We see in part; God sees the whole

2007-07-18T11:21:00.000+10:00

There's so much now i cannot see,
my eyesight's far too dim,
but come what may, I'll simply trust
and leave it all to Him
(Overton)

Libur telah berakhir!!!

2007-07-16T16:33:00.000+10:00

Hari berlalu satu demi satu
tak terasa smua terlewati begitu saja
Keping-keping yang kukumpulkan
masi belum tersusun sempurna
tapi waktu yang kupunya tak banyak

Aku terus terpusat pada satu hal
tanpa kusadari, hal lain mulai bermunculan
kini ku tak tau mana yang harus kudahulukan
Ku masih terus mengumpulkan keping-keping itu
dan tak kugubris hal yang lain

Waktu terus bergulir
tak banyak yang tersisa
Dan ku masih terus mencoba
kumpulkan keping-keping yang sama
untuk jadikannya utuh sempurna

(intinya sih... "TIDAK!!!! Liburan dah abis!!!") >_<

2007-07-10T17:01:00.000+10:00

A letter to A friend

Sobat, lama gw ga nulis buat lu...
Even skrg gw nulis pun, ada kemungkinan lu ga bakal baca...
All i wanna say is "i'm sorry"...
emang, kedengarannya enteng bgt...
dah ngelakuin kesalahan, tinggal minta maaf aja...
tp sebenernya ga segampang itu...
Walo gw dah minta maaf dengan mulut gw.. tp gw prefer buat nulis ke lu...
I really meant what i said...

Gw tw, gw sering bikin lu kesel...
dengan alesan2 yg sebenernya kekanak2an...
en gw tw, lu dah capek ati ama gw... (hahaha...)
Tapi, penyesalan emang selalu dateng terlambat...
gw selalu nyadar, setelah gw dah terlanjur bikin lu bete...
en nothing i could do to fix it, coz i'm juz to arrogant to admit that i was wrong...

Ada satu pertanyaan yg gw ga berani tanyain,
karena gw ga berani denger jawabannya...
Sempet terbersit dipikiran gw,
"Have u ever thought about how different your life would be without me?"
Is your life gonna be so much better??
Mgkn lu bisa bilang, gw cuma suka mikir negatif...
tp, kalo diliat2, yg bisa gw bawa ke hidup lu cuma lah kesuraman...
(lagi negatip thinkin' nih ceritanya..)
Sometimes, i thought, it'll be much better for u if u never knew me...
if i've never turned up in your life...
But again...
gw ga berhak mikir kayak gitu...
sapa gw??
Satu hal yg bisa gw pegang,
Tuhan tempatin lu di hidup gw,
en gw di hidup lu...
there must be something He has planned for us..
and God always plan something good...
so, the reason that lies behind my existence should be something good as well...

Anyway, segitu dulu isi curhat gw buat lu...
Di mana pun lu berada, i wish u well...
And i'll always pray for u,
coz u r one of the most valuable gift that God has given me... ^_^

Thank you for being my friend...
-your friend-

2007-07-10T17:00:00.000+10:00

Hey, i've never thought that i'd be busier during the holiday than during the school time... but yeah, that's what happen now...
Gw hampir ga pernah sempet males2an, ada aja yg musti dikerjain en bikin gw musti keluar rumah... pengen deh, sehariiii aja ndiri, enjoying my own time for self only... without having to worry bout anything else...
Well, bukan berarti liburan ini gw yg sibuk bgt juga sih... gw masi bisa bgn siang2... gw masi sempet napas kok... hahaha... tp, rasanya pikiran gw ga pernah kosong... baru selese mikirin satu hal, hal laen bakal ikutan dateng... gitu deh... emang, mgkn gw ini orgnya ga betah diem, baru diem bentar, dah mikirin hal yg bisa dilakuin...
Tp kadang yg gw kecewain dari diri gw, gw keliatan sibuk... tapi... ga ada satupun hasilnya!! >_< sebel deh kadang... rasanya capek, tp gw capek2 for nuthin... sebel ga sih??
Makanya, liburan ini, gw belajar u/ lebih organise lagi... en belajar buat ga sungkan2 nerima ato minta bantuan org laen (honestly, susah loh buat gw!!)... gw juga belajar slow down... en take things more easily... basically, hal2 yg gw pelajarin selama liburan ini, ga jauh2 dari hal2 yg gw coba kuasain seumur hidup gw... huehehe... :p
ya begitu deh sekilas kabar gw selama liburan... dah dulu deh, gw musti cabut neh... bye! :)

2007-07-09T12:47:00.000+10:00

Akhirnya!!! Gw bisa nulis lagi.. :)
Hm.. liburan ga berasa dah mo berakhir... en klo lu tanya gw, apa aja yg dah gw lakuin, gw bakal jawab, "not much"... Tapi, gw belajar banyak hal...

Anyway, hari ini results gw keluar... ga seperti sebelom2nya, gw ga deg2an kali ini...
Gw bener2 biasa2 aja... en ternyata result gw juga biasa2 aja sih... (sesuai dengan usahanya) hehehe :p
Thanks God, gw pass smua units... which means gw ga perlu ngulang any subjects... :)
Jujur aja, gw rada ga telalu hepi begitu liat result gw... tp pas gw bandingin ama semester lalu, sebenernya nilai gw lebih bagus sih... en sebenernya lagi, it's amazing klo gw bisa pass smua units, karena klo ada yg pernah liat gw belajar, gw hampir ga pernah belajar!!! >_<
Makanya, gw bisa bilang, klo nilai yg gw dapet skrg ini bukan hasil dari usaha gw ndiri, but it's the grace of God... en becoz of that, i shud be thankful... :)

Btw, i gtg... masi banyak hal yg harus gw lakuin...
Hopefully, di semester yg baru nanti, gw bisa jadi a better student, a better human, a better daughter of God... Amin!!! ^_^

the old me? real me?

2007-06-28T00:04:00.000+10:00

it's cloudy and raining outside... today's weather isn't my favourite...
btw, i really wanna write sumfin down, but i dont really have a particular topic to write about, so i guess i'll juz write whateva i wanna write.. lol ^0^

yeah, so, i've talked about the weather...
it's so windy today... i was planning to go out for lunch with my friend this afternoon, then i changed my mind... i thought, "nar, the weather is too rough, i'll juz stay at home today.."
hahaha... so i cancelled the lunch...

talking about the weather, my mood isn't too far from the weather...
i kindda mellow today.... started to go back to the old me... which i dont really like... :(
have tried so hard.... i've changed a bit, then, everything that i've been trying so hard for, juz changed back in a split of second by chance!! (well, not exactly by chance..)

sebel deh klo lagi kayak gini... smuanya bisa aja keliatan negativenya di mata gw... :(
even yg seharusnya positive pun, jadi negative... what's wrong with me???
kayaknya gw bener2 need a break... gw bener2 butuh wkt buat gw sendiri...
bener2 sendiri...
ga kebayang, gimana ada org yg tiap hari sibuk... gw baru keluar rumah berturut2 5 hari aja, dah kayak gini... ini juga cuma buat sementara... klo ada org yg harus live like this, gw bener2 ga kebayang how can that person live?! how can that person has a life?!
anyway... it's juz me yg lagi melo.... hahhaa... sudah lah, i'd better have some rest...
dah kebanyakan makan juga neh hari ini... not good... :( need some exercise... hehehe :p
nite everyone... :)

life's fragile...

2007-06-27T00:44:00.000+10:00

Pengen bgt nulis ttg betapa rapuhnya hidup...
i'll try to make it short...

Sebenernya, dah kepikiran ttg topic ini dari kemaren...
ilhamnya dateng pas lagi maen drama....
ada satu temen gw, yg pas lagi meranin peran yg dibunuh, tiba2 dy ketakutan karena ngerasa bakal dibunuh beneran.... en tiba2 dy jadi mikirin.... en satu kalimat yg dia ucapin, yg bikin gw pengen nulis adalah... "Kayaknya gw blm siap buat mati..."

Yep! Kayaknya, ga ada seorang pun yg 100% siap buat mati... tp klo gw, at least, gw ga takut... karena gw percaya, gw bisa pegang janji yg Tuhan dah kasih.... i believe there's an after life...
Apa yg temen gw bilang, emang bener... dy bilang klo hidup ini, bener2 rapuh... kita ga pernah tw kapan kita bakal ga bernyawa, alias dead... sekarang kita bisa ketawa2, kita ga pernah tw klo bsknya kita bakal bersedih.... kita bisa ngejalanin rutinitas kita tiap hari, en kita ga pernah tw, klo mgkn aja hari esok ga pernah dateng lagi...

So, my point is... hidup ini rapuh.... jalanin hidup ini to the max.... lakuin sgala yg terbaik yg bisa kita lakuin... jgn cuma ngejar apa yg ada di dunia, karena toh akhirnya ga bakal bisa kita bawa en ga bisa di pake klo kita dah ga hidup di dunia ini... kejar lah yg lebih penting.... kejar Tuhan... kejar Kerajaan Allah... get to know The Truth... and one thing i can guarantee u, at least, lu tw, klo lu dah ga sia2in hidup lu...

keep in touch

2007-06-26T00:14:00.000+10:00

Why is it so hard to keep in touch with a good friend???
Sometimes i wonder..
Like today, I've juz spent all my mobile credit to call my friends in Perth...
To be honest, i dont really care how much i spend....
For me, a friend is much more important than money...
and u cant buy a good friend...
i treasure a good friend so much...
But when it comes to the end of the month, when all bills are due,
when there are a lot to pay... much money to spend....
Sometimes i juz wonder...
Why is it so hard to keep in touch with a good friend??
Some say, a great treasure doesnt come easily, it needs a sacrifice...
and i really dont mind to sacrifice a little bit for my friends...
esp. a really good friend... :)

reminder for myself: be still...

2007-06-24T22:26:00.001+10:00

Umm... ga tw mau nulis apa... too many things going on in my mind... and too much that i need to do... and guess what i really wanna do now??!
Honestly... i juz wanna be alone... and have sum time for myself... (if possible)...
Kayaknya belakangan gw dah telalu "sok" sibuk... hahaha...
I guess, sumtimes i tried so hard, when actually i dont really need to.... i dunno...
I'm juz trying to be the best that i can be, and give the best that i can give...

Hmm.. i guess i better go to sleep now... dah ngaret 30 menit dari rencana....
hahaha... good nite everyone... :)

kesibukan kuw...

2007-06-22T04:53:00.000+10:00

Dah lama bgt ya gw ga nge-post... sebenernya dah lama gw pengen nge-post... tp blm ada wkt... en mlm ini, gw sempet2in... sebelom mood gw buat nulis ilang... hehehe :p

Gw dah selese exam minggu lalu, tepatnya pas seminggu yg lalu... gw kira, selese exam berarti banyak wkt luang, gw bakal nganggur kayak org bego yg ga tw musti ngapain... ternyata ga juga... ternyata, apa yg gw pikirin salah.... ternyata banyak hal yg bisa gw lakuin, en gw ended up sibuk pas minggu pertama liburan ini... :) sempet stress malah.. hahaha...
dah janji ini itu ama temen2.... belom ada satupun yg kesampean.... mgkn udah ada, tp baru sebagian kecil bgt... belakangan ini lagi sibuk nyiapin acara special peka rmit... can't wait till the D-day... and when it's all over.... hopefully i can get a good nite sleep again... :)

btw... ada beberapa topic yg pengen gw tulis... tp, sekarang ini blm sempet... :((
i'll write it down ASAP when i've got a time... so, so long for now... :)

is it coffee-effect??

2007-06-13T04:02:00.000+10:00

*sigh*
Find myself can't sleep again tonite... it's 4am... and guess what?! i havent even touched my bed yet... i dunno why, i keep telling myself not to sleep... and so here i am... with eyes wide awake, tired body and mind.... but cant sleep.... i really should hold on to my words that i wouldnt drink anymore coffee except during the critical moment...
I think, i'd better study now.... and hopefully i'll be able to sleep soon, coz i'll be having a class tmrw... and i find that keep awake for too long is not good for my mind, since i started to think about unimportant things...

nitez everyone....

congratulation or book cover??

2007-06-12T21:41:00.000+10:00

hmmm... if u read the title of this posting, u might think, "what's the relationship between congratulation and a book cover??".... actually, there are some topics that i'd like to write on tonite... but i wasn't sure which one i should write... so, i guess, i'll juz write both... hahaha... ^0^

The first topic.. "CONGRATULATION"...
I've been wanting to write this topic since this morning... i thought of it when i had my shower (as usual... hehehe :p)...
Suddenly, i was reminded to my friend when i was in junior high.... i still remember boldly the day when she told me that she has been dating a senior at school... well, this friend of mine was a close friend of mine when we were in the 1st grade, but afterwards, we grew apart... anyway, when i heard about the news, i didnt congratulate her... and guess what she said?? she asked me why i didnt congratulate her, so i did (juz becoz she asked me to.. lol)...

Well, i have some reasons for my act... firstly, i've met that senior once... and honestly, i didn't really like him... i mean, i dont think he can be a good boyfriend for my friend... they only knew each other for a very short time, and suddenly she told me they are dating already... so i thought that guy wasnt really wise... that's the first minus from me... the second reason, i didnt congratulate her is simply juz becoz i think there's nothing to be congratulate... as simple as that!
You might think, "are u blind, nov?? your friend found someone to love, it needs a congratulation.."... Honestly, i dont agree.. for me, i dont want to take back my words when they split up (which unfortunately, they were....)... There's no way i'm gonna congratulate them before their marriage..!! Sounds too serious, huh? hahaha... well, if u understand my reason, hopefully u'll understand my act...

For me, when two people are started dating or courtship, or whateva u wanna call it... there's nothing to be congratulate for, except for their courage to start to another stage of life... that's how i see it... to start dating doesnt mean they are going to live happily ever after... to start dating means they are brave enough to take more responsibilities in life... brave enough to learn to live more selflessly... the only thing i'll be congratulate for is their bravery to take the decision and be ready for all what lies on the way...

hmm... it's been a pretty long posting... so i guess i'll keep the "book cover" topic for next time then... ^_^

a 'perfect' day...

2007-06-11T19:40:00.000+10:00

Today, i learned that how my life's gonna be depends on my decision how i'm going to live it...
hmmm... what a long sentence... let me break it down and make it simpler...
what i'm trying to say is... that how my life is going to be... whether it's going to be good or bad.... it doesnt depend on my circumtances... it is completely depend on my decision...

For example...
Everyone who knows me well enough knew that i often have a negative thinking out of everything... (an attitude that i've been working on to change)... i can always complaining about anything... but... today, i'm tired of all that.... i've decided that today is going to be a good day... i have decided, nothing is going to erase the joy in my heart... i've decided that i'll be happy today... and guess what?! i did!!! i was happy... and i'm still happy... :) (doesnt mean i'm not worry bout my exam tmrw)...

This morning, i woke up as planned... but i left home a bit later that what i planned.... but it's ok, i told myself... then, once i was out of the apartment, the tram arrived... what a good timing... but then i missed the 2nd tram... i have 2 choices.. to let tram ruin my mood, or to be happy to walk... look at the bright side, at least i had a chance to exercise... :) then, i studied in library... found a good spot... had a good lunch... got a block of chocolate from my friend who stopped by... then when i went home, the rain fall juz after i got on the tram... and guess what?! juz before i got off the tram, the rain stopped!! I would say, it's a "perfect" day for me!! :) coz i've chosen to make it "perfect"...

well, enough of the story... i'd better start studying for tmrw... and make another "perfect" day... :)

kiss

2007-06-07T20:18:00.000+10:00

Berapa kali pun gw ntn video klip ini, rasanya ga pernah bosen....
esp. wkt lagi butuh refreshing sebelom exam... hehehe :p
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Father's love letter for you...

2007-06-07T20:00:00.000+10:00

When i cleaned up my room, i found this love letter...
The love letter from the Father... for me... for u... for all of us...
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missing u..

2007-06-07T09:48:00.001+10:00

Within you I lose myself...
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again.
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Love this quote... got it sumwhere from the net, juz before my 1st exam... >_<
aww!!! miss ya all... miss all those moments...

one step at a time...

2007-06-06T10:54:00.000+10:00

Nothing in life is too big.
Just break it down into smaller steps.
You can achieve anything, one step at a time.
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I assume most of us are busy with preparation for exams...
and i think "stress" isn't an uncommon word between us...
if u think u're too stressed and cant cope with it anymore,
why dont u take a break for a while and read this article...
Hopefully it's going to help u a lil bit and afterwards u'll be ready to revise the next chapter in your textbook! ;)

Shift happens...

2007-06-05T15:50:00.000+10:00

It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change. --Charles Darwin

rubbish??

2007-06-02T12:01:00.000+10:00

have u ever go back and read what u have written in the past??
like a diary, or maybe some old letters, or maybe older posting in your blog??
sumtimes, i can laugh at my silliness in the past...
or sumtimes, i can also learn from my past experiences...
but sumtimes, i regret what i have wrote...
i might wrote sumfin which seems right at that time,
but a moment later... when i go back and read it, they're all make me seem stupid...
or contradict what im doing in the future...
which means i cant keep my own words...
and now i'm wondering....
are all those postings that i've written juz going to be rubbish in the future??

cant sleep tonite

2007-06-02T02:46:00.001+10:00

ga tw kenapa... gw ga bisa tidur malem ini... padahal i'm pretty sure klo gw tuh capek bgt.... rasanya pengen lgs tdr aja di tmp tdr, but there's sumfin that keeps me from falling asleep... even ngobrol ma temen di telp, ga bikin gw a lil bit more comfortable.... gw paling sebel klo dah kayak gini... perasaan yg paling nyebelin... karena bikin gw ga bisa tidur, sedangkan gw paling suka tdr!!!

maybe it's time for me to go back to Him and talk to Him...
there's no other way...
when i started to get lost,
and when everything looks blur...
i know that's the time when i have to go back...

positive thinkin'

2007-05-28T07:21:00.000+10:00

Thought of the day:

i cant deny the power of positive thinkin'...
it can change what seems impossible to be possible...
(of course u need hard work as well)
but there's a time in life when u juz can't be positive,
even to think positively seems to be the hardest think to do...
i guess it's ok... dont be frustrated and blame yourself for not being positive...
when it's getting harder... that means we need to be recharged...
whether by talking to some wiser ppl,
or by asking for a refreshment from the Lord...
Trying to be positive all the time is a good thing... very good indeed...
but u dont have to fight for it alone... :)

Be positive!! and keep on smiling :)

nothing last forever..

2007-05-27T13:06:00.000+10:00

Quote of the day:

If you suffer, it is not because things are impermanent. It is because you believe things are permanent. --Thich Nhat Hanh

birthday celebration

2007-05-27T12:32:00.000+10:00

Yesterday, we had a birthday celebration in our church....
when we heard the word "birthday", we'll associate it with party and presents...

but i guess, birthday is much more than that...
birthday is a celebration of life!!!
We celebrate someone's bday, becoz his/her birth has been a blessings for us...
becoz his/her birth has brought joy to our lives...
we celebrate the bday becoz we are thankful that the person's still given another year to be shared with us... and glad that he/she has touched so many lives...
we celebrate someone's bday not becoz it's wot ppl do on the birthday...
but we celebrate it coz be are grateful for someone's life!!
It's the life, that we celebrate...

so, the question is, have u live your life so that it brings joy and celebration to ppl??

why me?!

2007-05-27T12:26:00.001+10:00

Renungan singkat...

I wont write much today...
juz reminded to an article that i've read few months ago...
it's about how ppl are complaining when they face trials and obstacles in life...
they'll ask God, "why me?!"... "why should i go thru all these??"
but when it comes down to gaining blessings, there'll be no one ask, "why me?!"...

fighting...

2007-05-24T20:13:00.000+10:00

have u ever fight with sumone??
i bet everyone has... and of course i have...
but so far, the fight that i consider as the hardest fight is the one against myself...
i bet u've had one too....
the fight which can has the same winner and loser... ourselves..
sumtimes it's easier juz to let the bad side wins...
and sumtimes even tho the good side wins, i'll still feel as if i'm a loser...

(sigh).. nothing much to write about...
juz wanna encourage all of us to keep the spirit up
and let our good side win the fight... ^_^