Pagi semua!!!! ^_^
it's almost 9am now... td pagi, gw bangun jam 6.30an.... trus lari en jalan pagi ma temen gw.... mayan sih... mayan capek maksudnya.... hehehe :p
Moga2 aja badan (esp. kaki) gw sakit besoknya... klo sakit kan, artinya gw dah exercise otot2 gw... hehehe :p
Dah lama bgt ga olah raga... esp. sejak exam preparation ma holiday.... bener2 ga olahraga!!! untung sih gw ga put on weight... malahan loss weight nih gara2 nykp gw dateng ke sini.... nge-limit porsi makan gw... =_= tdnya rada sebel sih, makannya jadi kurang kenyang... tp berkat nykp (thx mum!) kayaknya lambung gw menciut deh, masa makan dikit aja dah kenyang??!?! Kemaren aja temen2 greja gw mpe kaget denger gw ga pesen makan.... LoL
kurang ajar juga sih... kesannya gw tukang makan gt... kebetulan aja sih, pas gw lagi ma mereka, perut gw lagi kosong, jadi kesannya gw selalu kelaperan.... hehehe :p
Oiya, gw mo ngomong soal sport nih.... the reason tiba2 gw mulai sport lagi...
pertama, gw takut ntar klo dah tua jadi sakit2an... skrg aja dah mulai ada tanda2 kayak penyakit org tua... jadi takut...
kedua, pengen biasain selagi muda.... biar jadi lifestyle.... klo dah biasa kan, enak..... jadi ga ngerasa susah buat mulai.... klo start early kan bagus... buat mencegah penyakit yg aneh2....
ketiga, buat nemenin temen gw yg sedang sakit en butuh olahraga... yaaa kita encourage each other lah.... kan gw juga butuh temen, males klo ndirian.... dy juga gt.... trus kita sama2 ga pernah olahraga, jd kan ga malu klo baru lari bentar dah capek... hehehe :p
keempat, dah banyak org yg bilang ke gw buat olahraga (salah satunya diri gw ndiri :p)... nykp bilang, ci evy bilang, sapa lagi ya?? pokoknya banyak deh... badan gw juga kayaknya dah mulai menjerit2 minta dipake alias diolah... jadi ya... harus diolah deh... klo nggak, ntar bisa pengapuran (mang org tua?!) hehehe :p gw juga mo kuatin tulang gw... karena gw jarang minum susu, kan klo exercise bisa nambah calcium dalem tulang... otot juga jadi lebih kuat.... tidur jadi lebih nyenyak.. hidup lebih sehat en teratur.... ya... moga2 mulai hari ini, gw bisa jadiin sport salah satu kebiasaan baik gw deh... hehehe ^_^
Monday, July 24, 2006
Saturday, July 22, 2006
pagi ini...
Pagi ini...
Kubuka mataku lagi...
Rasanya ingin ku teriak...
Ingin ku tumpahkan smua rasa...
Tapi ku tak tau kemana....
Pagi ini...
Gelap... sepi...
Dan kuberanjak dari peraduan...
Berjalan perlahan... mencari-Nya...
Sbab ku rindu Dia...
Pagi ini...
Ku mencoba...
Dengar Dia...
Ku mencoba....
Bicara padaNya...
Pagi ini...
Ku katakan padaNya...
Ku ingin kembali...
Ku ingin...
kembali padaNya...
Kubuka mataku lagi...
Rasanya ingin ku teriak...
Ingin ku tumpahkan smua rasa...
Tapi ku tak tau kemana....
Pagi ini...
Gelap... sepi...
Dan kuberanjak dari peraduan...
Berjalan perlahan... mencari-Nya...
Sbab ku rindu Dia...
Pagi ini...
Ku mencoba...
Dengar Dia...
Ku mencoba....
Bicara padaNya...
Pagi ini...
Ku katakan padaNya...
Ku ingin kembali...
Ku ingin...
kembali padaNya...
felt like left behind...
Gw tw, gw ga boleh ngeluh mulu...
Gw tw, ga smua dalam hidup ini bakal sll sama kayak yg gw expect...
Ppl do change...
Temen datang dan pergi...
Waktu cepat berlalu...
Masa lalu selalu terlihat lebih indah...
Masa depan sll terlihat penuh keraguan dan ketidakpastian...
Tp buat apa khawatir?? Toh kita hidup di masa ini...
Kita hidup sekarang...
Apa yang penting, adalah apa yang telah kita tanam sekarang...
supaya kita bisa petik hasilnya di masa depan...
Mungkin, di masa lalu, gw banyak menebar benih pertemanan...
Well, ga semuanya tumbuh dengan sukses....
Ada yang belom sempet tumbuh, dah mati duluan...
Ada yang sempet tumbuh, tapi lama2 layu dan mati juga...
Ada yang tumbuh, terus tumbuh, tapi ga berbuah2...
Ada yang tumbuh, tp lama2 melenceng en susah diatur...
dan akhirnya harus ditebang...
Ada yang tumbuh, tumbuh, dan terus tumbuh....
dan berbuah!!!
Memang tidak banyak.... tapi mereka berbuah...
mereka tumbuh tinggi... sehingga bisa kasi keteduhan...
mereka tumbuh kuat.... sehingga bisa kasi tempat buat bersandar...
mereka berbuah... kadang tidak selalu manis... kadang buahnya terasa asam..
tp... yg penting adalah, mereka berbuah... dan akan terus tumbuh....
So, napa gw sibuk mikirin yg ga tumbuh??
napa gw sibuk meratapi yang mati??
napa gw sibuk nangisin yg terpaksa gw tebang??
napa gw ga puas aja dengan hasil dari benih yang sudah tumbuh dan berbuah??
Gw tw, ga smua dalam hidup ini bakal sll sama kayak yg gw expect...
Ppl do change...
Temen datang dan pergi...
Waktu cepat berlalu...
Masa lalu selalu terlihat lebih indah...
Masa depan sll terlihat penuh keraguan dan ketidakpastian...
Tp buat apa khawatir?? Toh kita hidup di masa ini...
Kita hidup sekarang...
Apa yang penting, adalah apa yang telah kita tanam sekarang...
supaya kita bisa petik hasilnya di masa depan...
Mungkin, di masa lalu, gw banyak menebar benih pertemanan...
Well, ga semuanya tumbuh dengan sukses....
Ada yang belom sempet tumbuh, dah mati duluan...
Ada yang sempet tumbuh, tapi lama2 layu dan mati juga...
Ada yang tumbuh, terus tumbuh, tapi ga berbuah2...
Ada yang tumbuh, tp lama2 melenceng en susah diatur...
dan akhirnya harus ditebang...
Ada yang tumbuh, tumbuh, dan terus tumbuh....
dan berbuah!!!
Memang tidak banyak.... tapi mereka berbuah...
mereka tumbuh tinggi... sehingga bisa kasi keteduhan...
mereka tumbuh kuat.... sehingga bisa kasi tempat buat bersandar...
mereka berbuah... kadang tidak selalu manis... kadang buahnya terasa asam..
tp... yg penting adalah, mereka berbuah... dan akan terus tumbuh....
So, napa gw sibuk mikirin yg ga tumbuh??
napa gw sibuk meratapi yang mati??
napa gw sibuk nangisin yg terpaksa gw tebang??
napa gw ga puas aja dengan hasil dari benih yang sudah tumbuh dan berbuah??
Friday, July 21, 2006
pray
Just a little longer I wanna pray
Can't get You out of my mind, so I came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me, Your love is so amazing
Oh it changed me
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I copied this from my friend's blog...
hehehe ^^
Can't get You out of my mind, so I came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me, Your love is so amazing
Oh it changed me
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I copied this from my friend's blog...
hehehe ^^
when love's gone...
lagi demen nulis nih..
sebenernya pengen sih nulis pake inggris.. tp... berhubung liburan,
gw lama ga pake inggris.... inggris gw jadi tambah jelek deh... (alesan.... hehehe :p)
well, skrg gw lagi manggang quiche sambil ntn Dr.Phill...
Ga ngerti deh... setiap ntn Dr. Phill, gw jadi takut buat mulai sebuah relationship...
gimana ga takut coba?? abisnya, tiap ari, ada aja pasangan2 yg dtg ke dy buat konsultasi dengan berbagai macam masalah rumah tangga yg aneh2...
Ada yg suami abusive, ada yg istri cheat suaminya...
ada yg ngerasa dah ga cocok lagi, tp ga mo cerai demi anak2...
ada yg tiap hari berantem mulu... etc... banyak deh!!!
Setiap ntn Dr. Phill, pasti kepikiran... kok bisa ya itu smua terjadi??
Klo kita yg ntn mgkn dengan mudahnya bilang...
"wah, itu sih cuma salah paham kecil" ato "ah, itu mah cuma gara2 kurang komunikasi"
ato comment2 lain yg gampang aja deh dilontarkan...
tp... klo dari sudut pandang org yg ngalaminnya... belom tentu masalahnya segampang itu...
kadang.... masalah kecil dipendem2... lama2 jadi gede.... ditambah lagi masalahnya meledak pada saat yg tepat.... waahhh... udah deh.. bisa ancur deh tuh relationship...
Yg suka gw ga ngerti... napa ga dari awal mereka perbaikin??? wkt rusaknya masi kecil en belom parah, napa ga direparasi dulu?? Napa dibiarin mpe parah???
Trus klo mang ngerasa ga cocok... napa ga keliatan ga cocoknya pas pacaran?? napa musti nunggu mpe merit n punya anak, baru nyadar klo ga cocok?? gw ga ngerti dunianya org dewasa... (kan gw masi teenager... LoL) ribet.. too complicated...
sebenernya pengen sih nulis pake inggris.. tp... berhubung liburan,
gw lama ga pake inggris.... inggris gw jadi tambah jelek deh... (alesan.... hehehe :p)
well, skrg gw lagi manggang quiche sambil ntn Dr.Phill...
Ga ngerti deh... setiap ntn Dr. Phill, gw jadi takut buat mulai sebuah relationship...
gimana ga takut coba?? abisnya, tiap ari, ada aja pasangan2 yg dtg ke dy buat konsultasi dengan berbagai macam masalah rumah tangga yg aneh2...
Ada yg suami abusive, ada yg istri cheat suaminya...
ada yg ngerasa dah ga cocok lagi, tp ga mo cerai demi anak2...
ada yg tiap hari berantem mulu... etc... banyak deh!!!
Setiap ntn Dr. Phill, pasti kepikiran... kok bisa ya itu smua terjadi??
Klo kita yg ntn mgkn dengan mudahnya bilang...
"wah, itu sih cuma salah paham kecil" ato "ah, itu mah cuma gara2 kurang komunikasi"
ato comment2 lain yg gampang aja deh dilontarkan...
tp... klo dari sudut pandang org yg ngalaminnya... belom tentu masalahnya segampang itu...
kadang.... masalah kecil dipendem2... lama2 jadi gede.... ditambah lagi masalahnya meledak pada saat yg tepat.... waahhh... udah deh.. bisa ancur deh tuh relationship...
Yg suka gw ga ngerti... napa ga dari awal mereka perbaikin??? wkt rusaknya masi kecil en belom parah, napa ga direparasi dulu?? Napa dibiarin mpe parah???
Trus klo mang ngerasa ga cocok... napa ga keliatan ga cocoknya pas pacaran?? napa musti nunggu mpe merit n punya anak, baru nyadar klo ga cocok?? gw ga ngerti dunianya org dewasa... (kan gw masi teenager... LoL) ribet.. too complicated...
Thursday, July 20, 2006
i'm hurt... i'm sick...
i'm hurting....
and i'm sick...
can u see the difference??
i've juz taken up one of the hardest decision in my life...
i guess, it's nothing more than moving to Melbourne...
it's more...
more uncertainty...
more...
it's juz too much... that i juz wanna stop for a moment...
i'm too scared to take another step forward...
coz i can't see what's waiting in front of me...
sumtimes, i looked back...
and saw that happy moment...
i wish... i stopped there...
but... i didn't... i moved... forward...
coz i wanna learn...
coz i used to be brave...
coz i used to never be afraid...
coz i used to have u beside me...
and... now.... i dunno whether it's gonna be the same...
or not...
coz i can't see anything in front of me....
i wish.... i really wish...
u'd be there still... with me... passing these hard moment...
as u used to be....
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Btw, bedanya i'm sick and i'm hurting...
well, basically, both sentence beda... (tulisannya...)
hehehe ^_^
Gw nulis itu, karena apa ya??? hehehe...
Gini... gw nemu perumpamaan yg mirip and bisa explain situasi gw
skrg exactly!!!
Gw kan skrg lagi sakit pilek... (iya nih... ga sembuh2)
Yg namanya pilek... or flu... or cold... itu penyebabnya virus...
virus itu, adalah creature yg sangat jahat en berbahaya...
mereka selalu ada di dlm kita... tp kita ga sadar....
karena immune sistem kita kuat, makanya virus ga bisa apa2 walau mereka ada di dlm kita....
tp begitu kita lemah... lgs deh dy serang kita.... jadinya kita sakit deh...
nah.. itu sebabnya gw sakit... (sebenernya gw bukan mo cerita ttg virus... hehehe :p)
Gini loh.... sebenernya dari awal juli lalu, gw mustinya dah bisa donor darah lagi...
tp... wat a coincidence.... gw kena flu!!! klo sakit tuh, ga boleh donor darah....
ya iya la... masa darah yg ada penyakitnya mo di kasi ke org yg lebih sakit ke gw?! ada juga tuh org tambah sakit donk!!! gw bete bgt sih... karena gw pengen bgt donor darah.... (freak ya?! LoL) well, ga ada salahnya kan hobi donor darah... dari pada hobi yg aneh2... hehehe :p
Nah.... skrg, gw lagi kejepit di situasi yg mirip tuh ma perihal donor darah gw ini...
intinya... gw ga boleh... tp sebenernya gw mau bgt!!! en mgkn org lain ga ngerti kenapa gw ga lakuin aja... toh ga ada ruginya... well, maybe emang keliatan ga ada ruginya... tp, klo emang belom wktnya.... (seperti perihal donor darah gw.... gw msh sakit, jadi belom wktnya.... walau klo gw mo bandel en egois, gw bisa aja tetep donor, en ga bilang klo gw sakit... tp buat apa?!) ada juga ntar gw malah bukan cuma nyakitin diri ndiri... gw juga bisa nyakitin org lain... org yg paling ga pengen gw sakitin mgkn malah bakal hurt the most... daripada kayak gitu.... bukan kah lebih baik klo gw nunggu aja??? sampe flu gw ilang... sampe gw siap... sampe wkt-Nya tiba.... en gw ga tw kapan.... sama spt gw ga tw kapan flu gw bakal sembuh... hehehe :p
and i'm sick...
can u see the difference??
i've juz taken up one of the hardest decision in my life...
i guess, it's nothing more than moving to Melbourne...
it's more...
more uncertainty...
more...
it's juz too much... that i juz wanna stop for a moment...
i'm too scared to take another step forward...
coz i can't see what's waiting in front of me...
sumtimes, i looked back...
and saw that happy moment...
i wish... i stopped there...
but... i didn't... i moved... forward...
coz i wanna learn...
coz i used to be brave...
coz i used to never be afraid...
coz i used to have u beside me...
and... now.... i dunno whether it's gonna be the same...
or not...
coz i can't see anything in front of me....
i wish.... i really wish...
u'd be there still... with me... passing these hard moment...
as u used to be....
------------------------------------------------------------------
Btw, bedanya i'm sick and i'm hurting...
well, basically, both sentence beda... (tulisannya...)
hehehe ^_^
Gw nulis itu, karena apa ya??? hehehe...
Gini... gw nemu perumpamaan yg mirip and bisa explain situasi gw
skrg exactly!!!
Gw kan skrg lagi sakit pilek... (iya nih... ga sembuh2)
Yg namanya pilek... or flu... or cold... itu penyebabnya virus...
virus itu, adalah creature yg sangat jahat en berbahaya...
mereka selalu ada di dlm kita... tp kita ga sadar....
karena immune sistem kita kuat, makanya virus ga bisa apa2 walau mereka ada di dlm kita....
tp begitu kita lemah... lgs deh dy serang kita.... jadinya kita sakit deh...
nah.. itu sebabnya gw sakit... (sebenernya gw bukan mo cerita ttg virus... hehehe :p)
Gini loh.... sebenernya dari awal juli lalu, gw mustinya dah bisa donor darah lagi...
tp... wat a coincidence.... gw kena flu!!! klo sakit tuh, ga boleh donor darah....
ya iya la... masa darah yg ada penyakitnya mo di kasi ke org yg lebih sakit ke gw?! ada juga tuh org tambah sakit donk!!! gw bete bgt sih... karena gw pengen bgt donor darah.... (freak ya?! LoL) well, ga ada salahnya kan hobi donor darah... dari pada hobi yg aneh2... hehehe :p
Nah.... skrg, gw lagi kejepit di situasi yg mirip tuh ma perihal donor darah gw ini...
intinya... gw ga boleh... tp sebenernya gw mau bgt!!! en mgkn org lain ga ngerti kenapa gw ga lakuin aja... toh ga ada ruginya... well, maybe emang keliatan ga ada ruginya... tp, klo emang belom wktnya.... (seperti perihal donor darah gw.... gw msh sakit, jadi belom wktnya.... walau klo gw mo bandel en egois, gw bisa aja tetep donor, en ga bilang klo gw sakit... tp buat apa?!) ada juga ntar gw malah bukan cuma nyakitin diri ndiri... gw juga bisa nyakitin org lain... org yg paling ga pengen gw sakitin mgkn malah bakal hurt the most... daripada kayak gitu.... bukan kah lebih baik klo gw nunggu aja??? sampe flu gw ilang... sampe gw siap... sampe wkt-Nya tiba.... en gw ga tw kapan.... sama spt gw ga tw kapan flu gw bakal sembuh... hehehe :p
Monday, July 17, 2006
it's ok to fail...
Hmm... i dunno why... this morning, this thought juz came to my mind...
I was thinkin... about failure....
I remembered a time when i was a kid....
when i was too scared to fail... too scared to lose a competition...
that i didn't even try to do it....
And at that time, i was thinking...
I wish, there was sumbody who told me, that it's ok to not to win....
it's ok to lose...
It's ok.... as long as u did your best... there won't be any regret....
It is better to do your best and yet still fail, than didn't do anything,
coz u're juz too scared to be fail....
It's much better to lose a race, than didn't do the race at all....
Coz when u fail... when u have done your best, u can tell yourself that u have done everything that u possibly could... even though u fail, u wont regret it...
And another thing came into my mind....
It is also ok to show your weaknesses...
Have i mentioned it???
Yea.. it's ok to cry...
it's ok to show your sadness....
it's ok to show your emotions...
Coz sum ppl juz can't express their emotions...
and it is sad....
Showing that u r sad, or upset, or maybe heart broken to sumone else
might make u look weak...
but i can guarantee... that u'll feel better after that...
coz everyone has a limit...
u might be able to handle the load atm...
but, soon or later, u'll need sumone....
sumone that u can trust...
sumone that cares about u...
sumone to help u to carry that load...
it's juz so much easier when u open up your heart....
I was thinkin... about failure....
I remembered a time when i was a kid....
when i was too scared to fail... too scared to lose a competition...
that i didn't even try to do it....
And at that time, i was thinking...
I wish, there was sumbody who told me, that it's ok to not to win....
it's ok to lose...
It's ok.... as long as u did your best... there won't be any regret....
It is better to do your best and yet still fail, than didn't do anything,
coz u're juz too scared to be fail....
It's much better to lose a race, than didn't do the race at all....
Coz when u fail... when u have done your best, u can tell yourself that u have done everything that u possibly could... even though u fail, u wont regret it...
And another thing came into my mind....
It is also ok to show your weaknesses...
Have i mentioned it???
Yea.. it's ok to cry...
it's ok to show your sadness....
it's ok to show your emotions...
Coz sum ppl juz can't express their emotions...
and it is sad....
Showing that u r sad, or upset, or maybe heart broken to sumone else
might make u look weak...
but i can guarantee... that u'll feel better after that...
coz everyone has a limit...
u might be able to handle the load atm...
but, soon or later, u'll need sumone....
sumone that u can trust...
sumone that cares about u...
sumone to help u to carry that load...
it's juz so much easier when u open up your heart....
Sunday, July 16, 2006
juz to be there...
I've juz finished watching another episode of "Grey's Anatomy"....
it was a sad one... everyone's got problems in their lives...
some ppl choose to keep it to themselves...
some ppl choose to open up...
let ppl know... and help them to go thru the hard times...
sumtimes it hurts to let others know that u r juz not as strong as thought...
it hurts to let them know... that u can be weak...
and there's time when u need to stop acting like the strongest person,
when all u wanna do is juz lean on sumone else...
There's a scene that i like most from this episode...
where finally Christina open up to Marideth... and told her wot's happened...
and wot Marideth did?? she didnt say anything...
she juz hug Christina... and be there for her...
sumtimes, a gesture is more than a thousand words...
sumtimes, u dont have to say anything to make sumone feel better...
juz be there... it's enuf...
it was a sad one... everyone's got problems in their lives...
some ppl choose to keep it to themselves...
some ppl choose to open up...
let ppl know... and help them to go thru the hard times...
sumtimes it hurts to let others know that u r juz not as strong as thought...
it hurts to let them know... that u can be weak...
and there's time when u need to stop acting like the strongest person,
when all u wanna do is juz lean on sumone else...
There's a scene that i like most from this episode...
where finally Christina open up to Marideth... and told her wot's happened...
and wot Marideth did?? she didnt say anything...
she juz hug Christina... and be there for her...
sumtimes, a gesture is more than a thousand words...
sumtimes, u dont have to say anything to make sumone feel better...
juz be there... it's enuf...
Saturday, July 15, 2006
to be an adult...
To be an adult....
wot does that mean??
wot does that mean for you??
wot does it mean for me???
For me...
It means to be more responsible...
i know it is sucks sumtimes...
but.... to be an adult can be great sumtimes...
making your own decision...
be responsible for wot u have chosen and done...
be responsible for wot u have said...
responsible for yourself...
take care of yourself....
be responsible for others and ppl around u...
nothing is too special about being an adult...
however, it is special...
(maap, ga jelas mo nulis apa... :p)
wot does that mean??
wot does that mean for you??
wot does it mean for me???
For me...
It means to be more responsible...
i know it is sucks sumtimes...
but.... to be an adult can be great sumtimes...
making your own decision...
be responsible for wot u have chosen and done...
be responsible for wot u have said...
responsible for yourself...
take care of yourself....
be responsible for others and ppl around u...
nothing is too special about being an adult...
however, it is special...
(maap, ga jelas mo nulis apa... :p)
Grey's Anatomy
Hari ini.. mendung en ujan all day...
jadi gw ga keluar rumah seharian... (ntar sore sih pasti keluar.. krn ada xcel)
Trus, lagi buka2 compie-nya melt, ternyata dy punya "Grey's Anatomy" dari session 1 sampe 2!!! Ya udah deh.. gw ntn aja...
Gw ga pernah bener2 watch this series... tp gw tw gw suka... karena pernah beberapa kali ntn di tv... en karena, gw ga tw napa, gw suka aja ma anatomy... kedokteran... health... etc... pokoknya yg science2 biology gt deh...
Dari sini, gw belajar banyak hal... padahal gw baru aja ntn 4 episode...
Ternyata, jadi dokter itu ga gampang... esp. a surgeon (dokter bedah)...
spt yg kita smua tw... belajarnya aja dah empot2an...
tp, dibalik smua itu... ternyata jadi dokter bedah, bukan cuma jago ngebedah aja loh!
Mereka juga perlu punya social skill... musti pinter2 ngomong ma pasien... en ngasi semangat ke pasien... trus... musti pinter2 ngatur emosi juga... dalam hidup, ga smua org akan selalu berhasil kan?! gitu juga dengan ahli bedah.. mo sehebat apapun dy operasi org, pasti pernah gagal juga... naahhh, disitu mereka musti belajar buat let the patient go... It's all about life and death...
Ga kebayang deh... hidup en matinya org, ada ditangannya.... serem deh pasti!! banyak pressure...
Gw kagum ma temen2 gw yg pada mau jadi dokter... jadi dokter apa pun kalian nanti, remember to always do your best! ^^
jadi gw ga keluar rumah seharian... (ntar sore sih pasti keluar.. krn ada xcel)
Trus, lagi buka2 compie-nya melt, ternyata dy punya "Grey's Anatomy" dari session 1 sampe 2!!! Ya udah deh.. gw ntn aja...
Gw ga pernah bener2 watch this series... tp gw tw gw suka... karena pernah beberapa kali ntn di tv... en karena, gw ga tw napa, gw suka aja ma anatomy... kedokteran... health... etc... pokoknya yg science2 biology gt deh...
Dari sini, gw belajar banyak hal... padahal gw baru aja ntn 4 episode...
Ternyata, jadi dokter itu ga gampang... esp. a surgeon (dokter bedah)...
spt yg kita smua tw... belajarnya aja dah empot2an...
tp, dibalik smua itu... ternyata jadi dokter bedah, bukan cuma jago ngebedah aja loh!
Mereka juga perlu punya social skill... musti pinter2 ngomong ma pasien... en ngasi semangat ke pasien... trus... musti pinter2 ngatur emosi juga... dalam hidup, ga smua org akan selalu berhasil kan?! gitu juga dengan ahli bedah.. mo sehebat apapun dy operasi org, pasti pernah gagal juga... naahhh, disitu mereka musti belajar buat let the patient go... It's all about life and death...
Ga kebayang deh... hidup en matinya org, ada ditangannya.... serem deh pasti!! banyak pressure...
Gw kagum ma temen2 gw yg pada mau jadi dokter... jadi dokter apa pun kalian nanti, remember to always do your best! ^^
Friday, July 14, 2006
so blessed
I'm so thankful for today...
Didn't do much...
To afraid to talk...
To scared to hear the truth...
So i juz pretend that i dont wanna know the truth...
I'm so happy for wot have happened today...
I'm so blessed that i can still open my eyes in the morning...
Felt the cool morning breeze...
Saw the sunrise...
Breath...
Smile at little things around me...
Laugh at my friends...
Talk to them..
Listen to their story bout their day...
Able to walk back home...
Watch ppl passing by...
Type this message...
and many more blessings that i've received today...
It's not a perfect day for me...
but my day has never been perfect...
so it's kindda ok...
If i'm feeling blessed today...
I hope so are you...
Coz (i'm telling you!) you are!! ^_^
Didn't do much...
To afraid to talk...
To scared to hear the truth...
So i juz pretend that i dont wanna know the truth...
I'm so happy for wot have happened today...
I'm so blessed that i can still open my eyes in the morning...
Felt the cool morning breeze...
Saw the sunrise...
Breath...
Smile at little things around me...
Laugh at my friends...
Talk to them..
Listen to their story bout their day...
Able to walk back home...
Watch ppl passing by...
Type this message...
and many more blessings that i've received today...
It's not a perfect day for me...
but my day has never been perfect...
so it's kindda ok...
If i'm feeling blessed today...
I hope so are you...
Coz (i'm telling you!) you are!! ^_^
tentang W....
Huuhhh... musti ke uni lagi nih hari ini... males bgt...
moga2 aja pencarian gw akan berakhir hari ini...
Anyway, gw lagi pengen nulis ttg seseorang yg dah lama ga gw ajak ngomong...
Dulu, dy pernah jadi salah satu org yg deket ma gw...
Tp itu dah lama... beberapa taon yg lalu...
Jalan kita berpisah... gw yg ninggalin dy...
Tp waktu gw ninggalin dy, gw torehin luka di hatinya...
Gw sempet ngerasa bersalah en bertanggung jawab...
Tp gw ga bisa apa2... gw cuma bisa bedoa buat dy...
Gw minta biar hatinya sembuh en dia bisa nemuin org yg bisa nyembuhin lukanya...
Td pagi, gw bangun kepagian en ga bisa tdr lagi...
Jadi gw browsing2 friendster...
Beberapa wkt yg lalu, gw dah tw, klo dy dah mulai mbuka hati buat org laen...
Hari ini, gw liat foto dy yg tertawa seneng... dengan penyembuh hatinya tentunya... ^_^
Gw jadi seneng dan lega... rasanya... beban gw ilang satu...
Guilt gw rasanya bisa mulai dihapusin perlahan2...
En mgkn skrg, gw bisa mulai ngomong lagi ama dy...
Karena dulu, gw ngerasa ga worth enuf...
Gw takut buat nyakitin hatinya lagi...
Maapin gw buat smua salah gw ke lu...
Gw ga bermaksud...
Tp gw lega skrg, karena gw tw, lu dah move on...
And i'm happy to see your smiling face again...
Coz u finally found your angel...
I will always pray for you...
All the best for you and may God be with u all the way... ^^
moga2 aja pencarian gw akan berakhir hari ini...
Anyway, gw lagi pengen nulis ttg seseorang yg dah lama ga gw ajak ngomong...
Dulu, dy pernah jadi salah satu org yg deket ma gw...
Tp itu dah lama... beberapa taon yg lalu...
Jalan kita berpisah... gw yg ninggalin dy...
Tp waktu gw ninggalin dy, gw torehin luka di hatinya...
Gw sempet ngerasa bersalah en bertanggung jawab...
Tp gw ga bisa apa2... gw cuma bisa bedoa buat dy...
Gw minta biar hatinya sembuh en dia bisa nemuin org yg bisa nyembuhin lukanya...
Td pagi, gw bangun kepagian en ga bisa tdr lagi...
Jadi gw browsing2 friendster...
Beberapa wkt yg lalu, gw dah tw, klo dy dah mulai mbuka hati buat org laen...
Hari ini, gw liat foto dy yg tertawa seneng... dengan penyembuh hatinya tentunya... ^_^
Gw jadi seneng dan lega... rasanya... beban gw ilang satu...
Guilt gw rasanya bisa mulai dihapusin perlahan2...
En mgkn skrg, gw bisa mulai ngomong lagi ama dy...
Karena dulu, gw ngerasa ga worth enuf...
Gw takut buat nyakitin hatinya lagi...
Maapin gw buat smua salah gw ke lu...
Gw ga bermaksud...
Tp gw lega skrg, karena gw tw, lu dah move on...
And i'm happy to see your smiling face again...
Coz u finally found your angel...
I will always pray for you...
All the best for you and may God be with u all the way... ^^
Thursday, July 13, 2006
tentang H...h
Ini adalah posting yg gw tulis buat seorang teman gw...
Namanya.... tak perlu lah disebut...
Orangnya, biasa aja... hehehe...
Yg pasti, gw kenal belom lama ama dy.... (4 bulan, belom lama kan?)
Tapi, gw serasa dah kenal dy lama....
Lama bgt deh.... (kayak dah temen dari kecil)
Pokoknya gw comfortable aja klo ngomong ma dy... (ngambil kata2 dy nih! :p)
Lucunya, gw ga inget saat pertama kali gw kenalan ma dy...
Tp gw inget awal mulanya kita jadi suka ngobrol bareng...
It's all becoz of blogging and music...
Setelah di usut2... ternyata kita bedua punya hobby yg lumayan mirip...
Suka jalan2.. (walau dy lbh easy going)
Suka music yg mayan mirip jg... (walau gw lebih melow..)
Suka coba2 makanan...
Suka isenk...
Suka ngomong en cerita2... ^_^ (jujur, gw seh yg lebih sering cerita)
Suka bintang, alam, pantai, dll...
Suka ga jelas... (walau gw lebih ga jelas)
Pokoknya, kemiripan2 itu, bikin gw ngerasa kenal dy...
(padahal belom tentu) :p
Gw ga tw napa, klo di depan dy, gw ga pernah jaim...
Apa yg jelek dari gw, ga pernah gw tutup2in....
Gw cuma ngerasa, gw bisa jadi gw apa adanya di depan dy....
Klo di depan org laen, mgkn gw sok kuat, sok tegar, sok ceria...
Tp di depan dy, ga tw napa, pasti ketauan aslinya gw...
Cuma dy yg percaya ma gw, wkt gw bilang klo gw ini melankolik...
Gw ngerasa, gw bisa aja percaya ma dy...
That's why gw selalu cerita apa2 ma dy....
Tp kadang gw ngerasa ga enak sih...
Gw suka ngerasa jadi beban buat dy....
(Kayak anak kecil yg ngelayutan di tangan papanya....) hehehe :p
Dulu, gw takut buat buka diri buat org laen....
Karena gw dah telalu capek buat ditinggal ato ninggalin....
Gw ga mo terlalu deket ma org laen,
karena apa artinya klo ntar akhirnya gw bakal sedih??
Akhirnya, gw pikir, ga ada ruginya juga....
Gw bnyk belajar dari dy...
Dari hal2 yg ga guna... mpe hal yg bisa membangun gw.... (hehehe :p)
Gw percaya, dy itu salah satu malaikat yg dikirim Tuhan...
buat nemenin gw di sini...
Mgkn suatu saat, dy bakal ninggalin gw...
ato gw yg ninggalin dy....
pasti ada saatnya jalannya bercabang dan gw ma dy musti berpisah...
Tp gw yakin, saat itu tiba, gw bakal bisa kuat jalan ndiri....
Ato bakal ada malaikat lain yg Tuhan kirim buat gantiin dy....
Sebelom itu terjd, gw mo ngerawat friendship yg ada, sebaik2nya..
Gw mo jadiin itu the best gift i can give...
Seperti dy dah jadi gift buat gw...
Ma kasi ya... ^_^
Namanya.... tak perlu lah disebut...
Orangnya, biasa aja... hehehe...
Yg pasti, gw kenal belom lama ama dy.... (4 bulan, belom lama kan?)
Tapi, gw serasa dah kenal dy lama....
Lama bgt deh.... (kayak dah temen dari kecil)
Pokoknya gw comfortable aja klo ngomong ma dy... (ngambil kata2 dy nih! :p)
Lucunya, gw ga inget saat pertama kali gw kenalan ma dy...
Tp gw inget awal mulanya kita jadi suka ngobrol bareng...
It's all becoz of blogging and music...
Setelah di usut2... ternyata kita bedua punya hobby yg lumayan mirip...
Suka jalan2.. (walau dy lbh easy going)
Suka music yg mayan mirip jg... (walau gw lebih melow..)
Suka coba2 makanan...
Suka isenk...
Suka ngomong en cerita2... ^_^ (jujur, gw seh yg lebih sering cerita)
Suka bintang, alam, pantai, dll...
Suka ga jelas... (walau gw lebih ga jelas)
Pokoknya, kemiripan2 itu, bikin gw ngerasa kenal dy...
(padahal belom tentu) :p
Gw ga tw napa, klo di depan dy, gw ga pernah jaim...
Apa yg jelek dari gw, ga pernah gw tutup2in....
Gw cuma ngerasa, gw bisa jadi gw apa adanya di depan dy....
Klo di depan org laen, mgkn gw sok kuat, sok tegar, sok ceria...
Tp di depan dy, ga tw napa, pasti ketauan aslinya gw...
Cuma dy yg percaya ma gw, wkt gw bilang klo gw ini melankolik...
Gw ngerasa, gw bisa aja percaya ma dy...
That's why gw selalu cerita apa2 ma dy....
Tp kadang gw ngerasa ga enak sih...
Gw suka ngerasa jadi beban buat dy....
(Kayak anak kecil yg ngelayutan di tangan papanya....) hehehe :p
Dulu, gw takut buat buka diri buat org laen....
Karena gw dah telalu capek buat ditinggal ato ninggalin....
Gw ga mo terlalu deket ma org laen,
karena apa artinya klo ntar akhirnya gw bakal sedih??
Akhirnya, gw pikir, ga ada ruginya juga....
Gw bnyk belajar dari dy...
Dari hal2 yg ga guna... mpe hal yg bisa membangun gw.... (hehehe :p)
Gw percaya, dy itu salah satu malaikat yg dikirim Tuhan...
buat nemenin gw di sini...
Mgkn suatu saat, dy bakal ninggalin gw...
ato gw yg ninggalin dy....
pasti ada saatnya jalannya bercabang dan gw ma dy musti berpisah...
Tp gw yakin, saat itu tiba, gw bakal bisa kuat jalan ndiri....
Ato bakal ada malaikat lain yg Tuhan kirim buat gantiin dy....
Sebelom itu terjd, gw mo ngerawat friendship yg ada, sebaik2nya..
Gw mo jadiin itu the best gift i can give...
Seperti dy dah jadi gift buat gw...
Ma kasi ya... ^_^
still about friendship...
Hmm... mgkn ada yg bertanya2.. ada apa dengan Nophee?! kenapa belakangan ini isi testinya ttg temen terus??? well, sebenernya gw ndiri juga bingung sih, ga tw napa, setiap mo nulis... ide yg keluar pasti tentang temen... mgkn karena gw lagi ndirian di rumah kali ya....
Lagian, abis ngelewatin 1 semester ini.... gw bener2 ngerasa, (makin ngerasa), klo gw butuh temen.... selain karena gw makhluk sosial.... umm... kenapa lagi ya? (well, gw ga bisa nemuin alesan laen knp gw butuh temen :p) hehehe... ^^
Sejak gw pindah ke Melbourne... perasaan yg ga pernah ilang, (en gw paling ga suka ma perasaan ini), adl merasa kesepian.... sekarang sih dah ga terlalu... dah improve alot!!! karena gw dah nemuin banyak temen, en gw tw ga bakal pernah sendiri.... karena gw emang dah nemuin temen yg bener2 ga bakal ninggalin gw..... tw kan sapa Dia?? hehehe :p
Gw jadi lupa mo nulis apa... hehehe :p
Oiya, klo di blog2 sebelomnya, gw selalu nulis apa yg temen2 gw dah lakuin buat gw.... sekarang, gw bakal nulis ttg gwnya... sejak gw sadar klo temen gw itu berperan penting dalem hidup gw... gw jadi suka bertanya2 ndiri... have i done sumthing for them?? apa gw dah jadi temen yg baik buat mereka, seperti mereka buat gw?? klo ada temen yg dah ngerubah hidup gw jadi lebih baik, gw jadi bertanya2, ada ga temen yg dah gw ubah jadi lebih baik juga?? karena, selama ini, gw ga pernah ngerasa that i've done sumthing.... gw selalu ngerasa, gw cuma bisa "mengambil" dari mereka, tp gw ga pernah "memberi" kembali....
Tapi.... sekarang gw tau... gw belajar hal baru lagi nih.. ternyata, dalam relationship yg sehat.... effectnya ga pernah cuma bekerja satu arah... dengan memberi, kita otomatis mengambil... dengan mengambil, kita otomatis memberi.... Hmm... gimana ya jelasin konsep ini... gw bingung juga sih cara ngejelasinnya... Contohnya gini deh... klo misalnya temen gw lagi butuh support, gw bakal menghibur dy en kasi semangat ke dy... gara2 gw support-in, dy jadi semangat lagi... dengat gitu gw dah "memberi"... tp secara ga langsung, gw juga "mengambil" ato mgkn kata lainya "mendapat" dari dy.... gw "mendapat" rasa bahwa gw itu berguna, gw bisa do sumfin buat dy, gw jadi feel good bout myself... secara ga langsung, gw juga menjadi ikut seneng wkt ngeliat dy seneng.... gt deh kira2... mgkn contohnya kurang jelas ya?? maap... gw kurang bisa menjelaskan jalan pikiran gw ndiri.. hehehe :p
Masi soal temen nih.... klo gw look back... dari dulu, smp skrg.... gw tuh blessed bgt deh... (jujur aja, suka ga nyadar... en lupa)... Gw ini, di mana pun gw berada... entah masi di TK, di SD, di SMP, SMA, Kuliah, di Jkt, di Perth, di Melbourne.... selalu punya temen yg baik en supportive... mereka ini bisa dibilang malaikat2 yg Tuhan kasi buat gw... wkt gw down, mereka ada di sana buat angkat gw kembali... wkt gw lagi salah jalan, gw dituntun balik ke jalan yg bener.... wkt gw nangis, mereka ada di sana buat minjemin bahunya... wkt gw lagi mo curhat, pasti ada yg minjemin wktnya en telinganya buat denger dengan sabar... wkt gw butuh advice, pasti ada yg dengan sabar nasehatin gw... wkt gw seneng, mereka juga ada di sana buat berbagi tawa ma gw.... wkt gw butuh org yg nyadarin gw, ato "nampar" gw, ato "teriak" ke gw.... mereka selalu ada... emang ga smuanya sll ada... tp salah satu pasti ada.... dan mereka dah serasa sodara yg gw kenal bertahun2 lamanya.... walau ada yg mgkn gw kenal belom lama... Sekali lagi, gw pengen bilang ke org2 yg menganggep gw temen en gw anggep temen.... ma kasih.... (gw ga tw mo bilang apa lagi) :p
Lagian, abis ngelewatin 1 semester ini.... gw bener2 ngerasa, (makin ngerasa), klo gw butuh temen.... selain karena gw makhluk sosial.... umm... kenapa lagi ya? (well, gw ga bisa nemuin alesan laen knp gw butuh temen :p) hehehe... ^^
Sejak gw pindah ke Melbourne... perasaan yg ga pernah ilang, (en gw paling ga suka ma perasaan ini), adl merasa kesepian.... sekarang sih dah ga terlalu... dah improve alot!!! karena gw dah nemuin banyak temen, en gw tw ga bakal pernah sendiri.... karena gw emang dah nemuin temen yg bener2 ga bakal ninggalin gw..... tw kan sapa Dia?? hehehe :p
Gw jadi lupa mo nulis apa... hehehe :p
Oiya, klo di blog2 sebelomnya, gw selalu nulis apa yg temen2 gw dah lakuin buat gw.... sekarang, gw bakal nulis ttg gwnya... sejak gw sadar klo temen gw itu berperan penting dalem hidup gw... gw jadi suka bertanya2 ndiri... have i done sumthing for them?? apa gw dah jadi temen yg baik buat mereka, seperti mereka buat gw?? klo ada temen yg dah ngerubah hidup gw jadi lebih baik, gw jadi bertanya2, ada ga temen yg dah gw ubah jadi lebih baik juga?? karena, selama ini, gw ga pernah ngerasa that i've done sumthing.... gw selalu ngerasa, gw cuma bisa "mengambil" dari mereka, tp gw ga pernah "memberi" kembali....
Tapi.... sekarang gw tau... gw belajar hal baru lagi nih.. ternyata, dalam relationship yg sehat.... effectnya ga pernah cuma bekerja satu arah... dengan memberi, kita otomatis mengambil... dengan mengambil, kita otomatis memberi.... Hmm... gimana ya jelasin konsep ini... gw bingung juga sih cara ngejelasinnya... Contohnya gini deh... klo misalnya temen gw lagi butuh support, gw bakal menghibur dy en kasi semangat ke dy... gara2 gw support-in, dy jadi semangat lagi... dengat gitu gw dah "memberi"... tp secara ga langsung, gw juga "mengambil" ato mgkn kata lainya "mendapat" dari dy.... gw "mendapat" rasa bahwa gw itu berguna, gw bisa do sumfin buat dy, gw jadi feel good bout myself... secara ga langsung, gw juga menjadi ikut seneng wkt ngeliat dy seneng.... gt deh kira2... mgkn contohnya kurang jelas ya?? maap... gw kurang bisa menjelaskan jalan pikiran gw ndiri.. hehehe :p
Masi soal temen nih.... klo gw look back... dari dulu, smp skrg.... gw tuh blessed bgt deh... (jujur aja, suka ga nyadar... en lupa)... Gw ini, di mana pun gw berada... entah masi di TK, di SD, di SMP, SMA, Kuliah, di Jkt, di Perth, di Melbourne.... selalu punya temen yg baik en supportive... mereka ini bisa dibilang malaikat2 yg Tuhan kasi buat gw... wkt gw down, mereka ada di sana buat angkat gw kembali... wkt gw lagi salah jalan, gw dituntun balik ke jalan yg bener.... wkt gw nangis, mereka ada di sana buat minjemin bahunya... wkt gw lagi mo curhat, pasti ada yg minjemin wktnya en telinganya buat denger dengan sabar... wkt gw butuh advice, pasti ada yg dengan sabar nasehatin gw... wkt gw seneng, mereka juga ada di sana buat berbagi tawa ma gw.... wkt gw butuh org yg nyadarin gw, ato "nampar" gw, ato "teriak" ke gw.... mereka selalu ada... emang ga smuanya sll ada... tp salah satu pasti ada.... dan mereka dah serasa sodara yg gw kenal bertahun2 lamanya.... walau ada yg mgkn gw kenal belom lama... Sekali lagi, gw pengen bilang ke org2 yg menganggep gw temen en gw anggep temen.... ma kasih.... (gw ga tw mo bilang apa lagi) :p
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Because you loved me
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
(Celine Dion-Because you loved me)
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This song is for all of you... those i'm lucky enuf to be able to call "friends"....
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
(Celine Dion-Because you loved me)
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This song is for all of you... those i'm lucky enuf to be able to call "friends"....
That's what friends are for?
I want to dedicate this posting to my friends....
I want to thank Irene, for being there for me when i was down...
Mungkin lu ga bakal pernah baca nih blog... tp gw pengen aj kasi tw lu, klo gw beruntung bgt dah kenal lu... Klo lu suka bilang, gw dah banyak ngebantu en ngedukung lu, apa yang ada di mata gw tuh, malahan kebalikannya....
Gw juga mo lu tw, klo biar gw dah ga tinggal di satu kota ma lu, bukan berarti lu ga bisa minta bantuan gw wkt lu butuh gw.... I'll try the best i can to help u and "be there" for u... ^_^
For my other friend, [Harph], thanks juga... walau gw belom kenal lu lama....
Gw beruntung jg bisa kenal en pny temen kayak lu... klo ga ada lu, ga tw deh gw bakal jadi apa.... Mungkin jadi org yg selalu putus asa en ga bisa ngeliat bright side dr stiap peristiwa yg gw alamin....
Buat Ivana... Thanks juga dah selalu mo dengerin gw... Gw ga bakal pernah nyesel nganggep lu "best friend" gw.... lu paling tw cara bikin gw ketawa, biarpun gw baru aja netesin air mata... ^_^ Thanks....
Buat Ci Evy.... thanks ya dah jadi "cici" buat gw.... thanks selalu mau dengerin keluh kesah gw.... en kasi advice ke gw soal pelajaran.... ^^
Buat Tia... gw juga ngerasa beruntung bisa kenal lu.... gw belajar banyak dari lu... walau lebih muda dari gw... hehehe :p klo butuh apa2, jangan ragu buat kontak2 gw ya!! ^^
Buat mama... luv ya, and makasi dah jadi temen nv wkt nv butuh.... ^_^ You're the best!!
En paling penting... buat Yesus... makasi juga dah mau jadi temen nv.... makasi buat smuanya.... nv ga tw bakal jadi apa wifout u... u r the only one that's always been there for me.... no matter wot happen.... and i'm so blessed to have u as my "bestest friend"...
Buat smua yg ga bisa gw sebutin atu2.... juz wanna let u all know... klo lu smua dah have an impact in my life... (gw ga tw bad or good, hopefully good ones)... en itu smua dah ngebentuk gw jadi gw yg skrg.... en juga dah help me go thru everything in my life so far... klo ga ada lu2 smua, gw ga bakal bisa di mana gw berdiri skrg.... so, gw mo kasi tw, gimana pun, kalian tuh penting buat gw, you're all special to me... the best gift ever!!!
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Sometimes, in our lives
We all have pain, we all have sorrow
But, if we are wise
We know there's always tomorrow
Lean on me
When you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
We all need somebody to lean on
If there is a load you have to bear
that you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me...
(Lean On Me--Bill Withers)
I want to thank Irene, for being there for me when i was down...
Mungkin lu ga bakal pernah baca nih blog... tp gw pengen aj kasi tw lu, klo gw beruntung bgt dah kenal lu... Klo lu suka bilang, gw dah banyak ngebantu en ngedukung lu, apa yang ada di mata gw tuh, malahan kebalikannya....
Gw juga mo lu tw, klo biar gw dah ga tinggal di satu kota ma lu, bukan berarti lu ga bisa minta bantuan gw wkt lu butuh gw.... I'll try the best i can to help u and "be there" for u... ^_^
For my other friend, [Harph], thanks juga... walau gw belom kenal lu lama....
Gw beruntung jg bisa kenal en pny temen kayak lu... klo ga ada lu, ga tw deh gw bakal jadi apa.... Mungkin jadi org yg selalu putus asa en ga bisa ngeliat bright side dr stiap peristiwa yg gw alamin....
Buat Ivana... Thanks juga dah selalu mo dengerin gw... Gw ga bakal pernah nyesel nganggep lu "best friend" gw.... lu paling tw cara bikin gw ketawa, biarpun gw baru aja netesin air mata... ^_^ Thanks....
Buat Ci Evy.... thanks ya dah jadi "cici" buat gw.... thanks selalu mau dengerin keluh kesah gw.... en kasi advice ke gw soal pelajaran.... ^^
Buat Tia... gw juga ngerasa beruntung bisa kenal lu.... gw belajar banyak dari lu... walau lebih muda dari gw... hehehe :p klo butuh apa2, jangan ragu buat kontak2 gw ya!! ^^
Buat mama... luv ya, and makasi dah jadi temen nv wkt nv butuh.... ^_^ You're the best!!
En paling penting... buat Yesus... makasi juga dah mau jadi temen nv.... makasi buat smuanya.... nv ga tw bakal jadi apa wifout u... u r the only one that's always been there for me.... no matter wot happen.... and i'm so blessed to have u as my "bestest friend"...
Buat smua yg ga bisa gw sebutin atu2.... juz wanna let u all know... klo lu smua dah have an impact in my life... (gw ga tw bad or good, hopefully good ones)... en itu smua dah ngebentuk gw jadi gw yg skrg.... en juga dah help me go thru everything in my life so far... klo ga ada lu2 smua, gw ga bakal bisa di mana gw berdiri skrg.... so, gw mo kasi tw, gimana pun, kalian tuh penting buat gw, you're all special to me... the best gift ever!!!
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Sometimes, in our lives
We all have pain, we all have sorrow
But, if we are wise
We know there's always tomorrow
Lean on me
When you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
We all need somebody to lean on
If there is a load you have to bear
that you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me...
(Lean On Me--Bill Withers)
Yesus KumemerlukanMu
Apa yang Kau ijinkan terjadi
Terkadang membuatku tak mengerti
Dan semua yang tak kupahami
Namun tanganMu menyertai
Kudengar suara lembut memanggil
Bri damai sukacita di hati
Satu hal kutahu Tuhan hadir
'Tuk mendatangkan kebaikan
Kau mengenal hatiku
lebih dari yang kumengerti
Kau mengenal jalan2 dalam hidupku
Dan smua yang terjadi
Membuatku lebih dekat padaMu
Yesus kumemerlukanMu
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Lucu deh.... gw lagi bingung nih skrg...
trus lagi maenin kaset dari temen gw di kamar Melt (housemate gw)...
Tiba2 gw nemuin cd lagu gt... gw maenin aja...
eh, ada lagu yg liriknya pas bgt yg bisa ngungkapin perasaan gw....
which is lyric di atas... ^_^
Terkadang membuatku tak mengerti
Dan semua yang tak kupahami
Namun tanganMu menyertai
Kudengar suara lembut memanggil
Bri damai sukacita di hati
Satu hal kutahu Tuhan hadir
'Tuk mendatangkan kebaikan
Kau mengenal hatiku
lebih dari yang kumengerti
Kau mengenal jalan2 dalam hidupku
Dan smua yang terjadi
Membuatku lebih dekat padaMu
Yesus kumemerlukanMu
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Lucu deh.... gw lagi bingung nih skrg...
trus lagi maenin kaset dari temen gw di kamar Melt (housemate gw)...
Tiba2 gw nemuin cd lagu gt... gw maenin aja...
eh, ada lagu yg liriknya pas bgt yg bisa ngungkapin perasaan gw....
which is lyric di atas... ^_^
Monday, July 10, 2006
ndiri lagi deh...
Yaaa…. Sekarang rumah sepi deh…. Nykp en ade2 gw dah balik ke indo kmrn…. Trus Italy menang world cup... (eh?!) Ga nyambung ya? Hehehe :p maap2...
Iya nih, kemaren kan gw nganterin mereka ke airport.... trus nungguin mpe mrk masuk ke pesawat.... trus gw pulang.... (btw, klo ada yg wondering, gw ga sedi loh!!! Ntar juga ketemu lagi, jadi ga ada acara nangis2 bombay :p)... biz pulang... gw tidur... wuaahhh!!! Enak bgt tuh!!! Puas bgt deh... rasanya selama ini gw kurang tdr bgt... tp gpp, skrg dah kebayar utang tdrnya... hehehe...
Hmm... i’m all alone again.... Tara (housemate gw) belom balik.... Melanie (housemate gw yg atu lagi) belom balik juga... So, ndirian deh... gw sih asik2 aja sih ^_^ kan dulu juga kayak gini pas di Rockingham.... klo host mum gw musti nemenin host dad gw di hospital, ya gw ndirian deh ma Peachy (doggynya host mum)... :p
Sekarang, masi pengen males2an.... abis masa males2an gw selese, gw pengennya nyoba2 bikin kue yg blm pernah gw coba (mumpung dapur bisa gw kuasai sepenuhnya!) huaehehehe :p trus lanjutin acara jalan2 gw keliling melbourne... masi serasa tourist nih gw... hehehe :p
Oiya, gw sakit neh... ya ga sakit gimana2 sih.... Cuma pilek aja, biasalah.... ade2 gw dari jkt, bawa oleh2 virus.... hahaha... tp untung mereka bawa obat juga, jadi ya smoga ga lama lagi gw bisa sembuh.... dah wktnya donor darah lagi, tp gara2 gw lagi pilek, ga bisa deh.... :(
Iya nih, kemaren kan gw nganterin mereka ke airport.... trus nungguin mpe mrk masuk ke pesawat.... trus gw pulang.... (btw, klo ada yg wondering, gw ga sedi loh!!! Ntar juga ketemu lagi, jadi ga ada acara nangis2 bombay :p)... biz pulang... gw tidur... wuaahhh!!! Enak bgt tuh!!! Puas bgt deh... rasanya selama ini gw kurang tdr bgt... tp gpp, skrg dah kebayar utang tdrnya... hehehe...
Hmm... i’m all alone again.... Tara (housemate gw) belom balik.... Melanie (housemate gw yg atu lagi) belom balik juga... So, ndirian deh... gw sih asik2 aja sih ^_^ kan dulu juga kayak gini pas di Rockingham.... klo host mum gw musti nemenin host dad gw di hospital, ya gw ndirian deh ma Peachy (doggynya host mum)... :p
Sekarang, masi pengen males2an.... abis masa males2an gw selese, gw pengennya nyoba2 bikin kue yg blm pernah gw coba (mumpung dapur bisa gw kuasai sepenuhnya!) huaehehehe :p trus lanjutin acara jalan2 gw keliling melbourne... masi serasa tourist nih gw... hehehe :p
Oiya, gw sakit neh... ya ga sakit gimana2 sih.... Cuma pilek aja, biasalah.... ade2 gw dari jkt, bawa oleh2 virus.... hahaha... tp untung mereka bawa obat juga, jadi ya smoga ga lama lagi gw bisa sembuh.... dah wktnya donor darah lagi, tp gara2 gw lagi pilek, ga bisa deh.... :(
Saturday, July 08, 2006
My Holz2
Hmm... berhubung ada yg minta... gw lanjutin deh cerita ttg liburan gw bersama keluarga...
Akhirnya gw pegi ke Melbourne Zoo!!! ^_^
well... awalnya sih, kita smua pada males... terutama gw en Linda... tp berhubung ga mo ngecewain Nelly... Kita tetep pegi deh walaupun mendung... (akhirnya gerimis2 gt sih)...
Melb zoo ternyata ga segede yg gw kira... tp ada satu tempat yg gw suka... yaitu Butterfly House... gw suka itu tempat karena beberapa alasan.... pertama, tempatnya anget bgt!! gw mpe kepanasan... karena abis dari luar dingin2, pake baju tebel, scarf etc, sampe sana lgs keringetan.... abisnya kan kupu2 cuma bisa idup di tmp tropis... jd lingkungannya musti di bikin mirip ma habitat asli mereka.... Alasan kedua... gw seneng liat kupu2 banyak bgt... (walau gw bukan a fan of insects)... warnanya macem2... en bagus bgt... gw belom pernah di kelilingin kupu2 sebanyak itu seumur idup gw... :p trus.... Alasan ketiga... apa ya... ga ada... LoL ^_^
Abis dari zoo, kita nguber2 ke vic mart sebelom tuh pasar tutup, soalnya pengen beli wine en nykp pengen liat2 coat lagi... tp ternyata yg bagian baju dah pada bubar... untung yg jualan wine masi ada... ^_^ trus apalagi ya??? gw lupa... oiya, akhirnya pegi ke greja... trus buru2 pulang lagi abis kebaktian buat nguber IMAX.... twnya ga keburu... akhirnya kita pada makan di Chom2 deh... hehehe ^^ untung aja pada suka... fiuhhh!!!
Trus abis makan, kita pulang... pada tepar... lgs tdr... LoL ^^
Pertualangannya ga berenti disitu... bsknya, kita smua musti bangun pagi lagi buat trip selanjutnya... which is DFO!!! Direct Factory Outlet... naahhh klo yg ini... yg seneng tuh Linda en gw... hehehe... gw ga beli baju sih... tp gw beli mangkok... Pyrex loh!!! hehehe... dengan seharga $20, gw bisa dapet 3 mangkok dengan 3 ukuran... senangnya!!! ^_^ akhirnya gw juga beli tempat buat standing kue or cookies... abisnya di rumah ga ada... puas deh belanjanya... kantong gw mpe kempes... ^^
Abis itu kita pulang, dianter ma Johan... oiya, Ci Irene juga ikut... tdnya bakal lebih banyak lagi yg bakal ikut (Poink ma Harfil), tp karena suatu hal dan banyak alasan, mereka ga jadi ikut... :(
Sampe rumah, ga lama pada terlelap... mgkn gara2 lagu di kamar gw yg melow2... :p
Malem itu, malem terakhir nykp en ade2 gw di Melb... berhubung ga jadi ntn IMAX kemarennya... kita ntn deh malem itu... judulnya "Deep Sea 3D"... berhubung 3D, kita musti ntn pake kacamata 3D, biar keliatan 3Dnya... gt... pertama2nya sih seru... lama2 bosen juga... untung aja filmnya ga panjang2... cuma 45 menit... trus abis itu, gw ajak kel ke Lygon St... banyak alesan napa gw milih Lygon St buat makan malem terakhir bersama... pertama, gw bosen makan chinese food mulu... kedua, gw dah ga tw lagi mo ajak kemana... ketiga, mereka blm perna ke Lygon... keempat, ada es krim yg enak di sana en gw dah janji ma Nelly buat beliin dy ice cream... kelima, lagi kepengen makan pizza... hehehe ^^ akhirnya, kita beli es krim di Gelato (enak bgt loh!!!) trus makan pizza porsi kecil... (karena Linda ga suka pizza, cuma gw ma nykp yg makan)... enak bgt!!! (Harph kapan2 gw traktir lu makan deh disana... tp ga tw kapan... hehehe :p)
Setelah seharian keluar rumah... pada tepar lagi... jadi pulang2 lgs pada tdr... tp nykp beres2 barang dulu... karena ga kerasa, mereka dah musti balik besok paginya... T_T
Segitu deh cerita gw ttg liburan gw bersama keluarga...
Akhirnya gw pegi ke Melbourne Zoo!!! ^_^
well... awalnya sih, kita smua pada males... terutama gw en Linda... tp berhubung ga mo ngecewain Nelly... Kita tetep pegi deh walaupun mendung... (akhirnya gerimis2 gt sih)...
Melb zoo ternyata ga segede yg gw kira... tp ada satu tempat yg gw suka... yaitu Butterfly House... gw suka itu tempat karena beberapa alasan.... pertama, tempatnya anget bgt!! gw mpe kepanasan... karena abis dari luar dingin2, pake baju tebel, scarf etc, sampe sana lgs keringetan.... abisnya kan kupu2 cuma bisa idup di tmp tropis... jd lingkungannya musti di bikin mirip ma habitat asli mereka.... Alasan kedua... gw seneng liat kupu2 banyak bgt... (walau gw bukan a fan of insects)... warnanya macem2... en bagus bgt... gw belom pernah di kelilingin kupu2 sebanyak itu seumur idup gw... :p trus.... Alasan ketiga... apa ya... ga ada... LoL ^_^
Abis dari zoo, kita nguber2 ke vic mart sebelom tuh pasar tutup, soalnya pengen beli wine en nykp pengen liat2 coat lagi... tp ternyata yg bagian baju dah pada bubar... untung yg jualan wine masi ada... ^_^ trus apalagi ya??? gw lupa... oiya, akhirnya pegi ke greja... trus buru2 pulang lagi abis kebaktian buat nguber IMAX.... twnya ga keburu... akhirnya kita pada makan di Chom2 deh... hehehe ^^ untung aja pada suka... fiuhhh!!!
Trus abis makan, kita pulang... pada tepar... lgs tdr... LoL ^^
Pertualangannya ga berenti disitu... bsknya, kita smua musti bangun pagi lagi buat trip selanjutnya... which is DFO!!! Direct Factory Outlet... naahhh klo yg ini... yg seneng tuh Linda en gw... hehehe... gw ga beli baju sih... tp gw beli mangkok... Pyrex loh!!! hehehe... dengan seharga $20, gw bisa dapet 3 mangkok dengan 3 ukuran... senangnya!!! ^_^ akhirnya gw juga beli tempat buat standing kue or cookies... abisnya di rumah ga ada... puas deh belanjanya... kantong gw mpe kempes... ^^
Abis itu kita pulang, dianter ma Johan... oiya, Ci Irene juga ikut... tdnya bakal lebih banyak lagi yg bakal ikut (Poink ma Harfil), tp karena suatu hal dan banyak alasan, mereka ga jadi ikut... :(
Sampe rumah, ga lama pada terlelap... mgkn gara2 lagu di kamar gw yg melow2... :p
Malem itu, malem terakhir nykp en ade2 gw di Melb... berhubung ga jadi ntn IMAX kemarennya... kita ntn deh malem itu... judulnya "Deep Sea 3D"... berhubung 3D, kita musti ntn pake kacamata 3D, biar keliatan 3Dnya... gt... pertama2nya sih seru... lama2 bosen juga... untung aja filmnya ga panjang2... cuma 45 menit... trus abis itu, gw ajak kel ke Lygon St... banyak alesan napa gw milih Lygon St buat makan malem terakhir bersama... pertama, gw bosen makan chinese food mulu... kedua, gw dah ga tw lagi mo ajak kemana... ketiga, mereka blm perna ke Lygon... keempat, ada es krim yg enak di sana en gw dah janji ma Nelly buat beliin dy ice cream... kelima, lagi kepengen makan pizza... hehehe ^^ akhirnya, kita beli es krim di Gelato (enak bgt loh!!!) trus makan pizza porsi kecil... (karena Linda ga suka pizza, cuma gw ma nykp yg makan)... enak bgt!!! (Harph kapan2 gw traktir lu makan deh disana... tp ga tw kapan... hehehe :p)
Setelah seharian keluar rumah... pada tepar lagi... jadi pulang2 lgs pada tdr... tp nykp beres2 barang dulu... karena ga kerasa, mereka dah musti balik besok paginya... T_T
Segitu deh cerita gw ttg liburan gw bersama keluarga...
Friday, July 07, 2006
my Holz1
Hmm…dah lama juga ya gw ga cerita2 di blog… abisnya…. Skrg di rumah lagi ga ada internet…. Panjang deh ceritanya.... Sejak tgl 28 juni, sambungan internet di rumah gw, officially terputus, karena plannya mang dah abis.... trus, berhubung housemate gw dua2nya pada MUDIK, gw putuskan buat nunggu mereka balik dulu, baru deh bikin contract internet yg baru....
Skrg, nykp en ade2 gw lagi maen ke Melb.... datengnya dah dari tgl 29 juni kemaren.... Cuma baru skrg deh gw sempet cerita.... karena berbagai macam sebab, salah satunya ya alesan yg di atas.... :p
Hmm.... bingung neh mo cerita dari mana.... soalnya dah banyak bgt hal yg terjadi dalem seminggu ini.... en smuanya seru2.... rasanya perlu gw ceritain smua... (ga peduli deh klo yg baca blog gw eneg2) hehehe :p
Ini cerita sambungan dari yg seabis gw nyelesein exam gw.... minggu depannya, gw kerjaannya cuma maen2 en jalan2 aja.... gw kurang inget hari apa, gw keluar ma temen2 ke Springvale.... itu sih cuma pasar.... tp.... berhubung gw ini org yg suka dengan makanan.... diajak jalan2 ke pasar adl sesuatu yg ga bisa gw tolak... huehehe :p apalagi peginya pake mobil, jadinya kan ga usah bawa belanjaan berat2.... hehehe :p seru sih..... walau lumayan jauh... pagi2 kita makan kwe tiao... porsinya gila2an... sampe2 gw musti tapao (bungkus pulang)... trus jalan2 keliling pasarnya... trusnya ke Chadston!!! Akhirnya, gw pegi juga ke sana.... so, skrg klo org nanya gw, gw bisa dengan bangga bilang klo gw dah pegi.... hehehe ^^ Hmmm... apalagi ya??? Most of the days, gw maen ke rumah The Husni sih..... ma Irene bikin kue (yg walau bentuknya bantet, rasanya muuaanteb abis!!!) trus.... diajarin Soni maen CapSa.... (skrg dah mulai lupa2, soalnya ga pernah dilatih :p).... trus nyicip pempek juga..... yummy.... ^_^
Oiya, gw juga latean buat drama... walau peran gw tuh cuma peran kecil en dialog gw ga lebih dari 5 baris.... tetep aja susah buat gw.... pertama, karena peran gw tuh bertolak belakang ma kepribadian gw.... susah bgt!!! (ceritanya gw jadi cewe yg suka gonta-ganti cowok, en centil, modis gt.... hampir putus asa gw...) hehehe :p Dramanya sih dah lewat.... Jumat kemaren ini.... kebetulan nykp en ade2 gw dateng, gw ajak aja ke Replique (nama greja gw.. keren kan?!) :p yaaa... itung2 sekalian liat gw maen drama lah.... (walau gw peran gw kecil... :p jarang2 kan mereka bisa liat gw di panggung.... LoL).... Gara2 gw keasikan sibuk ma persiapan drama, gw sempet ngerasa bersalah juga sih menelantarkan keluarga gw yg jauh2 ngunjungin gw dari Jkt... tp pas gw dah selese dramanya.... hampir tiap hari kita keluar rumah buat jalan2 mulu....
Ok, sekarang, gw ceritain ya, minggu ini gw ngapain aja... Jumat, pulang dari Replique, nykp en ade2 gw dah tepar... gw masi keluar lagi, ketemuan ma Audrey (temen dari Curtin).... tdnya cuma mo ambil apple struddle titipan gw... (it’s the best apple struddle in Perth, musti coba!)... akhirnya kita bedua ngafe dulu en ngobrol2 mpe malem.... Sabtu... ga keluar jauh2... cuma keluar pas malemnya buat dinner... gw ajak jalan2 sekitar rumah.... which is di daerah Southgate ma Crown.... trus Minggu, seharian ke Melbourne Aquarium... trus malemnya, gw en kel en Audrey makan di daerah Federation Square di Chocolate Buddha.... Trus abis itu, Audrey maen ke rumah.... Senen, gw beres2 kamar (akhirnya!!! Karena nyokap juga sih :p) en menata kembali kamar gw.... mayan olah raga juga tuh.... trus gw janjian ma temen gw buat cari info soal trip ke Bendigo en tempat2 wisata laen... ehhh.... karena berbagai macam hal (kelemotan gw, en kesalahpahaman) akhirnya nykp en ade2 gw juga pada ikut.... trus akhirnya kita smua wondering around city, ga tw mo ngapain, mpe gw laper... trus kita pada makan di A1 deh.... ternyata smuanya pada suka!!! (senangnyaaa... ^_^).... Selasa, gw en kel pegi seharian ke Philip Island.... seru juga... ikut tour gt deh... kelompoknya kecil sih, cuma 12an org... guidenya cool (namanya Shawn).... Pertama2 kita pegi ke wineries, trus coba2 wine.... dari smua minuman beralkohol, yg gw paling suka tuh wine!!! Makanya gw seneng coba2 minum winenya.... yg gw paling suka sih yg Chardonnay.... itu adl salah satu jenis white wine.... trus dari sana kita pegi ke wild life park buat liat koala, wombat, kangoroo, dingo, emu.... pokoknya binatang2nya oz deh.... gw sih dah pernah liat, jadi biasa aja, tp ade gw yg paling kecil (Nelly) kan belom pernah..... jadi dy seneng bgt gt.... Dari situ, kita pegi ke Philip Island.... bagus bgt deh!!!! Pantainya tuh... bener2 bersih, bagus deh! Ombaknya juga gede, klo suka surfing, pasti suka deh ma tuh pantai.... trus akhirnya pas dah sunset, kita pegi liat pinguin parade..... lucu deh pinguinnya.... kasian juga sih, privacy-nya diganggu manusia.... Cuma seru aja ngeliat mereka.... kecil, pendek, bulet2..... lucu ^^ (jadi keinget sesuatu yg gw pelajari dari mengamatin mereka..... pinguin itu setia bgt.... setia kawan deh pokoknya!! Klo ga ngerti apa yg gw omongin, sekali2 pergi deh ke Philip Island en amatin deh mereka).... Rabu, not much.... cuma naek city circle tram (Nelly paling seneng naek tram), trus makan Belgium waffle, trus shopping2 dikit, trus lunch.... after lunch, ke safeway beli bahan buat bikin kue, ketemuan ma Audrey, en jalan2 keliling Melbourne Uni.... abis itu, makan Trampoline (salah satu ice cream fav gw).... trus ke Rialto Tower buat ke Observation deck... dari sana, gw bisa ngeliat seluruh Melbourne dari atas, krn Rialto tuh gedung tertinggi di Melb.... keren bgt deh!!!! Bagus bgt!!! Klo maen ke Melb, ini adl salah satu tempat yg harus dikunjungin!!! Kamis, pegi ke Belgrave buat naek Puffing Billy.... wuaaahhh...... senengnya, ga bisa gw lukiskan.... tp enegnya.... juga tak terlukiskan!!! Huahahaa.... ceritanya lucu deh..... gara2 salah naek kereta, akhirnya gw malah balik lagi ke tmp yg dah gw kunjungin.... duhhh, dari seneng duduk di kretanya, mpe bosen.... pantat gw mpe tepos deh duduk mulu..... mana dingin... tp gw ga nyesel sih.... karena bener2 puas!!! ^_^ tp jadi ga enak ma seseorang.... karena gara2 gw, kita smua salah naek trainnya trus dy jadi ga bisa latian.... moga2 aja ga dimarahin sapa2.... hehehe :p (maapin ya, saya memang suka merepotkan!! >_<).... Jumat.... masi belom.... rencananya besok mo ke Melbourne zoo.... ntar deh gw ceritain lagi.... bersambung ya.... gw dah ngantuk neh.... good nite ^_^
Skrg, nykp en ade2 gw lagi maen ke Melb.... datengnya dah dari tgl 29 juni kemaren.... Cuma baru skrg deh gw sempet cerita.... karena berbagai macam sebab, salah satunya ya alesan yg di atas.... :p
Hmm.... bingung neh mo cerita dari mana.... soalnya dah banyak bgt hal yg terjadi dalem seminggu ini.... en smuanya seru2.... rasanya perlu gw ceritain smua... (ga peduli deh klo yg baca blog gw eneg2) hehehe :p
Ini cerita sambungan dari yg seabis gw nyelesein exam gw.... minggu depannya, gw kerjaannya cuma maen2 en jalan2 aja.... gw kurang inget hari apa, gw keluar ma temen2 ke Springvale.... itu sih cuma pasar.... tp.... berhubung gw ini org yg suka dengan makanan.... diajak jalan2 ke pasar adl sesuatu yg ga bisa gw tolak... huehehe :p apalagi peginya pake mobil, jadinya kan ga usah bawa belanjaan berat2.... hehehe :p seru sih..... walau lumayan jauh... pagi2 kita makan kwe tiao... porsinya gila2an... sampe2 gw musti tapao (bungkus pulang)... trus jalan2 keliling pasarnya... trusnya ke Chadston!!! Akhirnya, gw pegi juga ke sana.... so, skrg klo org nanya gw, gw bisa dengan bangga bilang klo gw dah pegi.... hehehe ^^ Hmmm... apalagi ya??? Most of the days, gw maen ke rumah The Husni sih..... ma Irene bikin kue (yg walau bentuknya bantet, rasanya muuaanteb abis!!!) trus.... diajarin Soni maen CapSa.... (skrg dah mulai lupa2, soalnya ga pernah dilatih :p).... trus nyicip pempek juga..... yummy.... ^_^
Oiya, gw juga latean buat drama... walau peran gw tuh cuma peran kecil en dialog gw ga lebih dari 5 baris.... tetep aja susah buat gw.... pertama, karena peran gw tuh bertolak belakang ma kepribadian gw.... susah bgt!!! (ceritanya gw jadi cewe yg suka gonta-ganti cowok, en centil, modis gt.... hampir putus asa gw...) hehehe :p Dramanya sih dah lewat.... Jumat kemaren ini.... kebetulan nykp en ade2 gw dateng, gw ajak aja ke Replique (nama greja gw.. keren kan?!) :p yaaa... itung2 sekalian liat gw maen drama lah.... (walau gw peran gw kecil... :p jarang2 kan mereka bisa liat gw di panggung.... LoL).... Gara2 gw keasikan sibuk ma persiapan drama, gw sempet ngerasa bersalah juga sih menelantarkan keluarga gw yg jauh2 ngunjungin gw dari Jkt... tp pas gw dah selese dramanya.... hampir tiap hari kita keluar rumah buat jalan2 mulu....
Ok, sekarang, gw ceritain ya, minggu ini gw ngapain aja... Jumat, pulang dari Replique, nykp en ade2 gw dah tepar... gw masi keluar lagi, ketemuan ma Audrey (temen dari Curtin).... tdnya cuma mo ambil apple struddle titipan gw... (it’s the best apple struddle in Perth, musti coba!)... akhirnya kita bedua ngafe dulu en ngobrol2 mpe malem.... Sabtu... ga keluar jauh2... cuma keluar pas malemnya buat dinner... gw ajak jalan2 sekitar rumah.... which is di daerah Southgate ma Crown.... trus Minggu, seharian ke Melbourne Aquarium... trus malemnya, gw en kel en Audrey makan di daerah Federation Square di Chocolate Buddha.... Trus abis itu, Audrey maen ke rumah.... Senen, gw beres2 kamar (akhirnya!!! Karena nyokap juga sih :p) en menata kembali kamar gw.... mayan olah raga juga tuh.... trus gw janjian ma temen gw buat cari info soal trip ke Bendigo en tempat2 wisata laen... ehhh.... karena berbagai macam hal (kelemotan gw, en kesalahpahaman) akhirnya nykp en ade2 gw juga pada ikut.... trus akhirnya kita smua wondering around city, ga tw mo ngapain, mpe gw laper... trus kita pada makan di A1 deh.... ternyata smuanya pada suka!!! (senangnyaaa... ^_^).... Selasa, gw en kel pegi seharian ke Philip Island.... seru juga... ikut tour gt deh... kelompoknya kecil sih, cuma 12an org... guidenya cool (namanya Shawn).... Pertama2 kita pegi ke wineries, trus coba2 wine.... dari smua minuman beralkohol, yg gw paling suka tuh wine!!! Makanya gw seneng coba2 minum winenya.... yg gw paling suka sih yg Chardonnay.... itu adl salah satu jenis white wine.... trus dari sana kita pegi ke wild life park buat liat koala, wombat, kangoroo, dingo, emu.... pokoknya binatang2nya oz deh.... gw sih dah pernah liat, jadi biasa aja, tp ade gw yg paling kecil (Nelly) kan belom pernah..... jadi dy seneng bgt gt.... Dari situ, kita pegi ke Philip Island.... bagus bgt deh!!!! Pantainya tuh... bener2 bersih, bagus deh! Ombaknya juga gede, klo suka surfing, pasti suka deh ma tuh pantai.... trus akhirnya pas dah sunset, kita pegi liat pinguin parade..... lucu deh pinguinnya.... kasian juga sih, privacy-nya diganggu manusia.... Cuma seru aja ngeliat mereka.... kecil, pendek, bulet2..... lucu ^^ (jadi keinget sesuatu yg gw pelajari dari mengamatin mereka..... pinguin itu setia bgt.... setia kawan deh pokoknya!! Klo ga ngerti apa yg gw omongin, sekali2 pergi deh ke Philip Island en amatin deh mereka).... Rabu, not much.... cuma naek city circle tram (Nelly paling seneng naek tram), trus makan Belgium waffle, trus shopping2 dikit, trus lunch.... after lunch, ke safeway beli bahan buat bikin kue, ketemuan ma Audrey, en jalan2 keliling Melbourne Uni.... abis itu, makan Trampoline (salah satu ice cream fav gw).... trus ke Rialto Tower buat ke Observation deck... dari sana, gw bisa ngeliat seluruh Melbourne dari atas, krn Rialto tuh gedung tertinggi di Melb.... keren bgt deh!!!! Bagus bgt!!! Klo maen ke Melb, ini adl salah satu tempat yg harus dikunjungin!!! Kamis, pegi ke Belgrave buat naek Puffing Billy.... wuaaahhh...... senengnya, ga bisa gw lukiskan.... tp enegnya.... juga tak terlukiskan!!! Huahahaa.... ceritanya lucu deh..... gara2 salah naek kereta, akhirnya gw malah balik lagi ke tmp yg dah gw kunjungin.... duhhh, dari seneng duduk di kretanya, mpe bosen.... pantat gw mpe tepos deh duduk mulu..... mana dingin... tp gw ga nyesel sih.... karena bener2 puas!!! ^_^ tp jadi ga enak ma seseorang.... karena gara2 gw, kita smua salah naek trainnya trus dy jadi ga bisa latian.... moga2 aja ga dimarahin sapa2.... hehehe :p (maapin ya, saya memang suka merepotkan!! >_<).... Jumat.... masi belom.... rencananya besok mo ke Melbourne zoo.... ntar deh gw ceritain lagi.... bersambung ya.... gw dah ngantuk neh.... good nite ^_^
Sunday, June 25, 2006
my life news update
hey2!!! Lama ya gw ga cerita2...
belakangan gw kirim posting, tp cuma lirik2 lagu doank....
abisnya lagi males ngomong... ga tw napa...
mgkn gw laper en ngantuk.... jadinya ga bisa ngerangkai kata2nya....
soalnya kurang energy, otak ga bisa bekerja dengan baik...
*ada energy aja, masi bekerja kurang baik, apalagi klo kurang?!*
hehehe :p
anyway.... ga kerasa, seminggu dah berlalu lagi...
hari demi hari, lewat....
kadang gw nyadar klo harinya lewat, apalagi pas persiapan exam....
tp abis exam... harinya lewat gitu aja....
gw bangun... ga ngapa2in... do this, do that.... tw2 dah malem...
tw2 dah wktnya tdr lagi.... baru terlelap, ga kerasa, tw2 dah hari yg baru....
en dah saatnya gw bangun lagi....
Belakangan, rasanya kayak gitu....
mgkn ada yg berpendapat, gw ngerasa gt, karena gw bosen...
tp, gw ga bosen kok.... lagian klo bosen, bukannya malahan ngerasa wkt berjalan lama bgt?!
Bingung jg sih... kok bisa gini.... dah lama ga ngerasa kayak gini....
Makanya.... gw ngerasa perlu menyendiri.... gw PERLU ndiri....
tp.... (nah ini masalahnya)... gw lagi ga PENGEN sendirian... lagi PENGEN di temenin....
tapi makin gw ngerasa perlu ditemenin.... gw makin nyadar, klo gw PERLU sendiri....
Nah loh!!!?!?! bingung ga sih?!
Begini lah gw skrg.... lagi penuh kebingungan.... tp gw pecaya.... soon, everything will be clear again..... as clear as crystal (well, maybe less :p)
belakangan gw kirim posting, tp cuma lirik2 lagu doank....
abisnya lagi males ngomong... ga tw napa...
mgkn gw laper en ngantuk.... jadinya ga bisa ngerangkai kata2nya....
soalnya kurang energy, otak ga bisa bekerja dengan baik...
*ada energy aja, masi bekerja kurang baik, apalagi klo kurang?!*
hehehe :p
anyway.... ga kerasa, seminggu dah berlalu lagi...
hari demi hari, lewat....
kadang gw nyadar klo harinya lewat, apalagi pas persiapan exam....
tp abis exam... harinya lewat gitu aja....
gw bangun... ga ngapa2in... do this, do that.... tw2 dah malem...
tw2 dah wktnya tdr lagi.... baru terlelap, ga kerasa, tw2 dah hari yg baru....
en dah saatnya gw bangun lagi....
Belakangan, rasanya kayak gitu....
mgkn ada yg berpendapat, gw ngerasa gt, karena gw bosen...
tp, gw ga bosen kok.... lagian klo bosen, bukannya malahan ngerasa wkt berjalan lama bgt?!
Bingung jg sih... kok bisa gini.... dah lama ga ngerasa kayak gini....
Makanya.... gw ngerasa perlu menyendiri.... gw PERLU ndiri....
tp.... (nah ini masalahnya)... gw lagi ga PENGEN sendirian... lagi PENGEN di temenin....
tapi makin gw ngerasa perlu ditemenin.... gw makin nyadar, klo gw PERLU sendiri....
Nah loh!!!?!?! bingung ga sih?!
Begini lah gw skrg.... lagi penuh kebingungan.... tp gw pecaya.... soon, everything will be clear again..... as clear as crystal (well, maybe less :p)
MELAYANI MENGASIHI
Berjuta jiwa tak tahu kemana 'kan pergi
Berjuta hati t'lah lama menantikan kasih
Tuhan jadikanlah hidupku alat kasihMu
Yang memuliakanMu seumur hidupku
Melayani mengasihi
Ku ingin lebih lagi
Melayani mengasihi
Ku ingin lebih lagi
Melayani mengasihi
Ku ingin lebih lagi
Melayani dan mengasihi
Berjuta jiwa tak tahu kemana 'kan pergi
Berjuta tangan terulur menantikan kasih
O Tuhan jadikanlah hidup alat kasihMu
Yang memuliakanMu seumur hidupku
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Sejak pertama kali gw denger nih lagu, gw suka bgt....
Kata2nya tuh nge-sum-up apa yg rasain...
PS: Thanks buat Poink... (dy yg ngasi lyric-nya ke gw) ^_^
Berjuta jiwa tak tahu kemana 'kan pergi
Berjuta hati t'lah lama menantikan kasih
Tuhan jadikanlah hidupku alat kasihMu
Yang memuliakanMu seumur hidupku
Melayani mengasihi
Ku ingin lebih lagi
Melayani mengasihi
Ku ingin lebih lagi
Melayani mengasihi
Ku ingin lebih lagi
Melayani dan mengasihi
Berjuta jiwa tak tahu kemana 'kan pergi
Berjuta tangan terulur menantikan kasih
O Tuhan jadikanlah hidup alat kasihMu
Yang memuliakanMu seumur hidupku
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Sejak pertama kali gw denger nih lagu, gw suka bgt....
Kata2nya tuh nge-sum-up apa yg rasain...
PS: Thanks buat Poink... (dy yg ngasi lyric-nya ke gw) ^_^
Thursday, June 22, 2006
RINDU KEHADIRANMU - Ebiet G ADE
RINDU KEHADIRANMU - Ebiet G ADE
Betapun jauhnya aku mengembara
Tak dapat kulepaskan
SuaraMu berbisik lewat kedalaman jiwa
Ketika ombak di lautan melambung
memecah keheningan
Aku rindu kehadiranMu
meski hanya lewat mimpi
Reff:
Kukirimkan untaian kata indah
dalam nyanyian
Lewat matahari, rembulan
dan taburan bintang
Kauberikan cintaMu maha luas
bak bentangan samudera
Kuarungi dengan sujud dan ketulusan
Betapa rindunya aku
ingin bertemu denganMu
Terasa panjang hari-hari
yang harus kulewati
Betapa banyak kanvas kugores
lukisan wajahMu
Namun tak dapat kureka keteduhanNya
(Reff)
Betapun jauhnya aku mengembara
Tak dapat kulepaskan
SuaraMu berbisik lewat kedalaman jiwa
Ketika ombak di lautan melambung
memecah keheningan
Aku rindu kehadiranMu
meski hanya lewat mimpi
Reff:
Kukirimkan untaian kata indah
dalam nyanyian
Lewat matahari, rembulan
dan taburan bintang
Kauberikan cintaMu maha luas
bak bentangan samudera
Kuarungi dengan sujud dan ketulusan
Betapa rindunya aku
ingin bertemu denganMu
Terasa panjang hari-hari
yang harus kulewati
Betapa banyak kanvas kugores
lukisan wajahMu
Namun tak dapat kureka keteduhanNya
(Reff)
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
tiket tram
Hari ini... gw bangun siang banget!!!
Jam 10am baru bgn.... lumayan puas sih tdrnya.... tp bgn2 capek gitu... mgkn gara2 kelamaan tdrnya.... hehehe :p
Berhubung exam dah selese.... gw dah ga nge-rush buat bangun.... dah ga ada yg namanya "feel guilty" gara2 bgn kesiangan... ga perlu belajar lagi.... tp... gw jadi bingung mo ngapain... so, akhirnya gw putuskan u/ tidur2an lagi sambil baca buku....
Kan kemaren gw beli buku di Word, judulnya "90 minutes in Heaven".... gw pikir judulnya menarik, so gw beli deh, trus td pagi gw baca deh.... abisnya dah ga sabar pengen tw apa kata penulisnya ttg Heaven.... (ntar klo gw dah selesein bukunya, gw baru ceritain deh ya....)
abis itu, gw mandi.... bersih2... en siap2 mo lanjutin baca lagi... eh, tiba2 housemate gw yg belom pulang (yg atunya dah pulang semalem....) ngajakin gw ke konjen buat lapor alamat..... akhirnya dengan perasaan sedikit malas.... gw ikut dy deh... sekalian nemenin, sekalian ngeberesin satu "tugas" yg sudah gw cuekin lama2... trus.... kita naek tram nih....
klo naek tram tuh, ga gratis... musti beli tiket.... (housemate gw en gw ndiri dah pernah ketangkep ga pny valid tiket)... gara2 pernah ketangkep (walau mpe skrg gw blom dpt fine) gw bener2 ati2.... gw skrg selalu beli tiket bulanan... sedangkan housemate gw, dy kelihatan lumayan kapok... karena beberapa kali gw naek tram ma dy (esp. to exam venue), gw liat dy sll beli tiket.... trus hari ini juga, dy bilang, dy mo beli tiket dulu wkt kita naek ke tram... (di dlm tram, ada mesin tiketnya, tp cuma bisa nerima coin)... lalu... duduklah kami berdua... setelah beberapa saat.... datang lah petugas pemeriksa tiket, ato yg suka disebut "tuti" alias "tukang tiket".... gw sih tenang2 aja lah... gw pikir, kita bedua dah beli tiket kok... eh.... tak disangka... tak dinyana.... ternyata, housemate gw itu tidak beli tiket!!!! which means, dy tidak punya valid tiket.... yg artinya... dia kena fine LAGI!!!
Saat itu, yg ada dipikiran gw cuma "Adduuhhh!!! Gimana ini?! duuuhh!!! kenapa ga bilang??!!! wot shud i do?! etc"... pokoknya lebih ke arah blamming myself lah... gw feel bad bgt, karena gw ga bisa nolongin dy.... sebenernya gw masi bisa nolongin dy klo gw tw dy ga beli tiket.... gw tw wkt "tuti" dateng.... klo gw tw dy ga ada tiket, gw bisa ajak dy turun sebelom petugasnya naek... but i didn't know.... trus, alesan dy ga beli tiket tuh, gara2 dy ga punya coin.... klo dy ada bilang ma gw, kan gw bisa pinjemin coin gw.... but (again) she didn't tell me... :(
Akhirnya... sampailah kita bedua di tempat tujuan.... gw bener2 ga tw mo ngomong apa... klo mo sok menghibur.... susah juga... gw juga ga bisa nyalahin dy... ntar dy tambah BT.... satu hal yg gw inget dari apa yg keluar dr mulut dy... "Huuhh, sial bgt sih hari ini!".... saat itu... rasanya gw pengen bgt ngomong.... tp gw tahan, karena gw tau itu bukan saat yg tepat....
Kita, (gw deh misalnya), suka bgt protes soal hidup kita....
Gw dulu suka bilang, sial bgt gw hari ini (klo hari lagi jelek)... ato untung bgt gw hari ini (klo hari lagi baek).... tp... lama2 gw belajar en sadar..... klo smua itu, sebenernya adalah pilihan kita... kita bisa kok belajar buat ngeliat sesuatu yg "sial" jadi sesuatu yg "untung"... it's all in our hands... it's all our choice... terserah kita mo liat dari sudut yg mana....
Balik lagi ke kisah ttg tiket.... wkt gw yg ketangkep, gw juga BETEnya bukan maen!!! Rasanya sebeeeell bgt..... klo ga percaya, baca aja blog gw yg ttg tiket.... hehehe ^^
Perasaan gw dongkolnya bukan maen.... gara2nya, gw dah beli tiketnya yg harganya ga kira2 mahalnya... tp gara2 gw lupa validate, gw kena fine!!! kesel kan?! klo ga punya tiketnya sih, mgkn gw masi lebih ga kesel2 bgt.... tp.... gw belajar buat ngeliat "kesialan" gw dari sisi laen.... gw belajar, buat ngeliat klo ini adalah "teguran" dari Tuhan buat gw... Dia ingetin gw buat jujur.... (karena itu a/ apa yg gw doain tiap hari: "Buat nuntun gw sesuai dgn jalan-Nya", en Dia kabulin)... dari situ, gw bisa belajar melihat "kesialan" sebagain "berkat"....
Dah gitu, untung juga gw punya ortu yg wise... gw cerita ke nyokap.... en apa yg dy bilang ke gw?! dy bilang, klo fine-nya dateng, ya bayar aja lah... anggep aja sebagai pelajaran.... toh ga rugi apa2, cuma uang.... gw ga yg sampe harus di black list, ato musti ke pengadilan... ato harus dipulangkan ke indo.... gw masi "untung" kok.... itu yg nykp gw ajarin ke gw.... ngeliat sesuatu dari the bright side... jangan selalu ngasihanin diri sendiri en nyalahin org laen gara2 keputusan sendiri..... gw belajar dari sini, klo hidup ini adalah pilihan kita....
So, klo kita mo punya a good life, make a good decision, and when your decision is not good enuf, learn from it and look at the bright side!!!
Jam 10am baru bgn.... lumayan puas sih tdrnya.... tp bgn2 capek gitu... mgkn gara2 kelamaan tdrnya.... hehehe :p
Berhubung exam dah selese.... gw dah ga nge-rush buat bangun.... dah ga ada yg namanya "feel guilty" gara2 bgn kesiangan... ga perlu belajar lagi.... tp... gw jadi bingung mo ngapain... so, akhirnya gw putuskan u/ tidur2an lagi sambil baca buku....
Kan kemaren gw beli buku di Word, judulnya "90 minutes in Heaven".... gw pikir judulnya menarik, so gw beli deh, trus td pagi gw baca deh.... abisnya dah ga sabar pengen tw apa kata penulisnya ttg Heaven.... (ntar klo gw dah selesein bukunya, gw baru ceritain deh ya....)
abis itu, gw mandi.... bersih2... en siap2 mo lanjutin baca lagi... eh, tiba2 housemate gw yg belom pulang (yg atunya dah pulang semalem....
klo naek tram tuh, ga gratis... musti beli tiket.... (housemate gw en gw ndiri dah pernah ketangkep ga pny valid tiket)... gara2 pernah ketangkep (walau mpe skrg gw blom dpt fine) gw bener2 ati2.... gw skrg selalu beli tiket bulanan... sedangkan housemate gw, dy kelihatan lumayan kapok... karena beberapa kali gw naek tram ma dy (esp. to exam venue), gw liat dy sll beli tiket.... trus hari ini juga, dy bilang, dy mo beli tiket dulu wkt kita naek ke tram... (di dlm tram, ada mesin tiketnya, tp cuma bisa nerima coin)... lalu... duduklah kami berdua... setelah beberapa saat.... datang lah petugas pemeriksa tiket, ato yg suka disebut "tuti" alias "tukang tiket".... gw sih tenang2 aja lah... gw pikir, kita bedua dah beli tiket kok... eh.... tak disangka... tak dinyana.... ternyata, housemate gw itu tidak beli tiket!!!! which means, dy tidak punya valid tiket.... yg artinya... dia kena fine LAGI!!!
Saat itu, yg ada dipikiran gw cuma "Adduuhhh!!! Gimana ini?! duuuhh!!! kenapa ga bilang??!!! wot shud i do?! etc"... pokoknya lebih ke arah blamming myself lah... gw feel bad bgt, karena gw ga bisa nolongin dy.... sebenernya gw masi bisa nolongin dy klo gw tw dy ga beli tiket.... gw tw wkt "tuti" dateng.... klo gw tw dy ga ada tiket, gw bisa ajak dy turun sebelom petugasnya naek... but i didn't know.... trus, alesan dy ga beli tiket tuh, gara2 dy ga punya coin.... klo dy ada bilang ma gw, kan gw bisa pinjemin coin gw.... but (again) she didn't tell me... :(
Akhirnya... sampailah kita bedua di tempat tujuan.... gw bener2 ga tw mo ngomong apa... klo mo sok menghibur.... susah juga... gw juga ga bisa nyalahin dy... ntar dy tambah BT.... satu hal yg gw inget dari apa yg keluar dr mulut dy... "Huuhh, sial bgt sih hari ini!".... saat itu... rasanya gw pengen bgt ngomong.... tp gw tahan, karena gw tau itu bukan saat yg tepat....
Kita, (gw deh misalnya), suka bgt protes soal hidup kita....
Gw dulu suka bilang, sial bgt gw hari ini (klo hari lagi jelek)... ato untung bgt gw hari ini (klo hari lagi baek).... tp... lama2 gw belajar en sadar..... klo smua itu, sebenernya adalah pilihan kita... kita bisa kok belajar buat ngeliat sesuatu yg "sial" jadi sesuatu yg "untung"... it's all in our hands... it's all our choice... terserah kita mo liat dari sudut yg mana....
Balik lagi ke kisah ttg tiket.... wkt gw yg ketangkep, gw juga BETEnya bukan maen!!! Rasanya sebeeeell bgt..... klo ga percaya, baca aja blog gw yg ttg tiket.... hehehe ^^
Perasaan gw dongkolnya bukan maen.... gara2nya, gw dah beli tiketnya yg harganya ga kira2 mahalnya... tp gara2 gw lupa validate, gw kena fine!!! kesel kan?! klo ga punya tiketnya sih, mgkn gw masi lebih ga kesel2 bgt.... tp.... gw belajar buat ngeliat "kesialan" gw dari sisi laen.... gw belajar, buat ngeliat klo ini adalah "teguran" dari Tuhan buat gw... Dia ingetin gw buat jujur.... (karena itu a/ apa yg gw doain tiap hari: "Buat nuntun gw sesuai dgn jalan-Nya", en Dia kabulin)... dari situ, gw bisa belajar melihat "kesialan" sebagain "berkat"....
Dah gitu, untung juga gw punya ortu yg wise... gw cerita ke nyokap.... en apa yg dy bilang ke gw?! dy bilang, klo fine-nya dateng, ya bayar aja lah... anggep aja sebagai pelajaran.... toh ga rugi apa2, cuma uang.... gw ga yg sampe harus di black list, ato musti ke pengadilan... ato harus dipulangkan ke indo.... gw masi "untung" kok.... itu yg nykp gw ajarin ke gw.... ngeliat sesuatu dari the bright side... jangan selalu ngasihanin diri sendiri en nyalahin org laen gara2 keputusan sendiri..... gw belajar dari sini, klo hidup ini adalah pilihan kita....
So, klo kita mo punya a good life, make a good decision, and when your decision is not good enuf, learn from it and look at the bright side!!!
exam is over...
FINALLY!!!! the exams are over!!! it's been like the longest 3 weeks in my life!!! >_<
but it's all over now.. ^_^
i had my last exam yesterday.... the 19th of june, ended @12.30...
it was a perfect day to celebrate...
my last exam was my fav subject (maths) and i felt losta pressure on me coz i wanna do well...
i was so stressed.... but when it's all done, i felt so relieved..
since it was a BEAUTIFUL day, i didn't go home after the exam... i had lunch in the city...
then walk around by myself.. then i get bored... i rang my friend... then... suddenly by 4pm we've been on the train to brighton!!! I was so excited.... couldn't help not to smile or grin... :p
Once we arrived, we went straight to the beach and took lotsa photos...
As i mentioned before... it was a beautiful day... it was so perfect for walking along the beach...
Sunny (actually, the sun was started to set when we arrived), clear blue sky (absolutely no clouds!-can u believe it?! rarely happen in melb!!), mild cool wind.... i really wouldnt forget how i felt at that time!!! i feel FREE!!! juz free.... feels like nothing can worry me... so peaceful...
And it's not the end... after the sun set, the sky turn dark in instant... and i can see STARS!!!
If u wondering why im so happy bout that.... it's becoz i cant always see stars in the city sky.... it's always too bright or too cloudy.... but last nite... the sky was so clear that i almost able to see the whole Milky way!!! such a wonderful experience.... juz being there... looking at those beauty... reminded me to the Creator... so creative... so artistic.... ^_^
Anyway, I think it was the best day i have ever had in Melbourne....
PS: for my friend, thanks for being there and be able to share the happiness wif me ^^
but it's all over now.. ^_^
i had my last exam yesterday.... the 19th of june, ended @12.30...
it was a perfect day to celebrate...
my last exam was my fav subject (maths) and i felt losta pressure on me coz i wanna do well...
i was so stressed.... but when it's all done, i felt so relieved..
since it was a BEAUTIFUL day, i didn't go home after the exam... i had lunch in the city...
then walk around by myself.. then i get bored... i rang my friend... then... suddenly by 4pm we've been on the train to brighton!!! I was so excited.... couldn't help not to smile or grin... :p
Once we arrived, we went straight to the beach and took lotsa photos...
As i mentioned before... it was a beautiful day... it was so perfect for walking along the beach...
Sunny (actually, the sun was started to set when we arrived), clear blue sky (absolutely no clouds!-can u believe it?! rarely happen in melb!!), mild cool wind.... i really wouldnt forget how i felt at that time!!! i feel FREE!!! juz free.... feels like nothing can worry me... so peaceful...
And it's not the end... after the sun set, the sky turn dark in instant... and i can see STARS!!!
If u wondering why im so happy bout that.... it's becoz i cant always see stars in the city sky.... it's always too bright or too cloudy.... but last nite... the sky was so clear that i almost able to see the whole Milky way!!! such a wonderful experience.... juz being there... looking at those beauty... reminded me to the Creator... so creative... so artistic.... ^_^
Anyway, I think it was the best day i have ever had in Melbourne....
PS: for my friend, thanks for being there and be able to share the happiness wif me ^^
Sunday, June 18, 2006
bosen!!!
huaaahhhh!!!
seumur2 gw blom pernah ngerasa sebosen ini.... *kayaknya ga pernah sih*
apalagi penyebabnya gara2 belajar.... trus yg bikin sengsara tuh, gw blom bisa2 bgt,
jadi gw ga bole pegi2 en maen2... =_=
hiks... tidak sabar menunggu hari esok, tp ga pengen cepet2 besok juga, karena gw blom yakin bisa... blom pernah nih ujian se-ga-siap ini... kok bisa ya??
gw kurang belajar neh during the semester... takut...
tp klo takut kan mustinya ga males n belajarnya makin serius...
klo gw kok nggak ya??
ya udah lah... mo belajar lagi neh.... =_=;
-novy yg lagi error-
seumur2 gw blom pernah ngerasa sebosen ini.... *kayaknya ga pernah sih*
apalagi penyebabnya gara2 belajar.... trus yg bikin sengsara tuh, gw blom bisa2 bgt,
jadi gw ga bole pegi2 en maen2... =_=
hiks... tidak sabar menunggu hari esok, tp ga pengen cepet2 besok juga, karena gw blom yakin bisa... blom pernah nih ujian se-ga-siap ini... kok bisa ya??
gw kurang belajar neh during the semester... takut...
tp klo takut kan mustinya ga males n belajarnya makin serius...
klo gw kok nggak ya??
ya udah lah... mo belajar lagi neh.... =_=;
-novy yg lagi error-
Saturday, June 17, 2006
journey..
Duuhhh!!! dah lama bgt ya gw ga nge-post... tp gpp juga sih, toh ga ada yg baca.... hehehe ^^
it's more like my personal diary.... yg tentu aja bisa dibaca ma public...
aniwei... as everyone knows.... minggu2 ini adalah minggu2 exam... alias exam week....
so, that's why gw dah lama bgt ga nulis.... pertama, mang ga ada wkt, walau banyak bgt yg pengen gw tulis.... kedua, buat ol, gw musti minjem kompie housemate gw.... sedangkan minggu2 yg lalu, dy lagi ngerjain projectnya yg due minggu ini... so gw ga bisa ol....
nah, berhubung projectnya dah sls.... skrg gw bisa deh sering2 ol lagi... can be good and bad in a way...
Iya nih, pengen cerita....
belakangan, idup gw rasanya berantakan abis....
mgkn gara2 kamar gw rada berantakan kali ya? jadi impactnya mpe ke hidup gw... (??)
hehehe :p ga jelas...
gw kepikiran mo pindah uni LAGI!!!
emang sih, kerasa gila bgt!!! en blom pasti juga, gw bakal cari tw dulu....
klo dah lagi disituasi kayak gini, gw jd suka keinget ma lagu, yg judulnya JOURNEY....
yg sebagian lyricnya tuh kayak gini....
"it's a long, long journey
till i know where i'm supposed to be...
wondering what's my purpose (in life)...
sometimes it feels no one understand,
i don't even know why i do the things i do...
when everything seems to make me lose control...
and (i know) i need to be close to You..."
The song is not exactly like that, but those are the main points that i like from the song...
klo yg pernah nonton "Dolphin Bay" pasti tw lagu ini.... hehehe :p
sumhow, sejak pertama kali denger nih lagu, gw langsung ngerasa "pas bgt ma cerita hidup gw"... skrg sih dah ga telalu cocok.... tp tetep aja... gw ngerasa... my life is a long, long journey... till i live in iternity...
it's more like my personal diary.... yg tentu aja bisa dibaca ma public...
aniwei... as everyone knows.... minggu2 ini adalah minggu2 exam... alias exam week....
so, that's why gw dah lama bgt ga nulis.... pertama, mang ga ada wkt, walau banyak bgt yg pengen gw tulis.... kedua, buat ol, gw musti minjem kompie housemate gw.... sedangkan minggu2 yg lalu, dy lagi ngerjain projectnya yg due minggu ini... so gw ga bisa ol....
nah, berhubung projectnya dah sls.... skrg gw bisa deh sering2 ol lagi... can be good and bad in a way...
Iya nih, pengen cerita....
belakangan, idup gw rasanya berantakan abis....
mgkn gara2 kamar gw rada berantakan kali ya? jadi impactnya mpe ke hidup gw... (??)
hehehe :p ga jelas...
gw kepikiran mo pindah uni LAGI!!!
emang sih, kerasa gila bgt!!! en blom pasti juga, gw bakal cari tw dulu....
klo dah lagi disituasi kayak gini, gw jd suka keinget ma lagu, yg judulnya JOURNEY....
yg sebagian lyricnya tuh kayak gini....
"it's a long, long journey
till i know where i'm supposed to be...
wondering what's my purpose (in life)...
sometimes it feels no one understand,
i don't even know why i do the things i do...
when everything seems to make me lose control...
and (i know) i need to be close to You..."
The song is not exactly like that, but those are the main points that i like from the song...
klo yg pernah nonton "Dolphin Bay" pasti tw lagu ini.... hehehe :p
sumhow, sejak pertama kali denger nih lagu, gw langsung ngerasa "pas bgt ma cerita hidup gw"... skrg sih dah ga telalu cocok.... tp tetep aja... gw ngerasa... my life is a long, long journey... till i live in iternity...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
rokok
I hate rokok!!!!!
pasti pada bingung deh, napa gw tiba2 nulis ga jelas gini...
well... dari semalem mpe pagi ini, gw annoyed bgt ama bau rokok...
gw ini perokok pasif.... so, obviously, gw ga tahan ama bau rokok....
tp sialnya, environment gw tuh ga mendukung kesehatan gw....
org2 disktr gw tuh ngerokok....
apalagi ditambah ama udara yg mulai dingin skrg....
wajar lah org2 ngerokok...
akibatnya... mata gw berair, hidung gw mulai mampet....
en akhirnya napas gw mulai sesak....
kadang gw sebel bgt ama org yg nemuin rokok...
apalagi yg ngedapetin untung dari jualan rokok...
apalagi yg ngerokok!!!
udara melbourne yg seger gini, tiba2 terpolusi dengan gas yg ga jelas baunya..
en yg pasti banyak racunnya....
en parahnya, org2 tuh dah tw bahayanya ngerokok, tp masi aja ngerokok....
pernah ga sih mikirin org laen???!!!
lebih gondoknya lagi tuh....
perokok pasif itu justru yg bakal kena lebih banyak dampak buruk dari asep rokok
daripada si perokoknya sendiri...
rugi bgt ga sih???!!!
dah ga ngerokok,
ngerasa keganggu ma baunya,
trus kena penyakitnya paling banyak pula!!!!
salah apa sih gw???!!!
pls, buat yg ngerokok,
berhentilah sebelom lu ga bisa ngerokok lagi...
lagian apa sih untungnya?
dah duit abis, trus ntar penyakitan lagi!!!
trusnya, disebelin ama gw...
ga enak kan??!!! hehehe :p
(walau gw ketawa2, gw serius neh!!!)
pasti pada bingung deh, napa gw tiba2 nulis ga jelas gini...
well... dari semalem mpe pagi ini, gw annoyed bgt ama bau rokok...
gw ini perokok pasif.... so, obviously, gw ga tahan ama bau rokok....
tp sialnya, environment gw tuh ga mendukung kesehatan gw....
org2 disktr gw tuh ngerokok....
apalagi ditambah ama udara yg mulai dingin skrg....
wajar lah org2 ngerokok...
akibatnya... mata gw berair, hidung gw mulai mampet....
en akhirnya napas gw mulai sesak....
kadang gw sebel bgt ama org yg nemuin rokok...
apalagi yg ngedapetin untung dari jualan rokok...
apalagi yg ngerokok!!!
udara melbourne yg seger gini, tiba2 terpolusi dengan gas yg ga jelas baunya..
en yg pasti banyak racunnya....
en parahnya, org2 tuh dah tw bahayanya ngerokok, tp masi aja ngerokok....
pernah ga sih mikirin org laen???!!!
lebih gondoknya lagi tuh....
perokok pasif itu justru yg bakal kena lebih banyak dampak buruk dari asep rokok
daripada si perokoknya sendiri...
rugi bgt ga sih???!!!
dah ga ngerokok,
ngerasa keganggu ma baunya,
trus kena penyakitnya paling banyak pula!!!!
salah apa sih gw???!!!
pls, buat yg ngerokok,
berhentilah sebelom lu ga bisa ngerokok lagi...
lagian apa sih untungnya?
dah duit abis, trus ntar penyakitan lagi!!!
trusnya, disebelin ama gw...
ga enak kan??!!! hehehe :p
(walau gw ketawa2, gw serius neh!!!)
Friday, May 26, 2006
rich or poor
I've got this story from an email from my friend....
i think it's a good story, therefore i posted it... ^_^
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RICH OR POOR???
One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to
the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people
live.
They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be
considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the
trip?"
"It was great, Dad."
"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.
"Oh yeah," said the son.
"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.
The son answered:
"I saw that we have one dog and they had four.
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a
creek that has no end.
We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at
night.
Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.
We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go
beyond our sight.
We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.
We buy our food, but they grow theirs.
We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to
protect them."
The boy's father was speechless.
Then his son added, "Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are."
Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen
if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about
what we don't have.
Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!
"Life is too short and friends are too few."
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PS: thanks to ci evy who has sent me this email... :)
i think it's a good story, therefore i posted it... ^_^
------------------------------------------------------------------------------
RICH OR POOR???
One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to
the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people
live.
They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be
considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the
trip?"
"It was great, Dad."
"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.
"Oh yeah," said the son.
"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.
The son answered:
"I saw that we have one dog and they had four.
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a
creek that has no end.
We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at
night.
Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.
We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go
beyond our sight.
We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.
We buy our food, but they grow theirs.
We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to
protect them."
The boy's father was speechless.
Then his son added, "Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are."
Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen
if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about
what we don't have.
Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!
"Life is too short and friends are too few."
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PS: thanks to ci evy who has sent me this email... :)
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
ga kerasa
Waktu cepat berlalu....
Wuihhh!!! ga kerasa bgt.. skrg dah genap 3 bulan gw di Melbourne....
ga kerasa.... 3 bulan tuh ternyata bisa cepet en lama bgt in a way...
seperti yg gw dah tulis di blog gw sebelomnya..
dah banyak hal yg terjadi dalam hidup gw dalem wkt yg singkat itu...
gw dah kenal ma banyak org baru...
malahan, wkt gw di dlm kesusahan, gw dibantu org yg tadinya gw ga kenal...
en gara2 dibantu, jadi kenal deh... hehehe ^_^
ga kerasa juga, dah banyak yg gw pelajarin...
dalam artian... pelajaran kehidupan PLUS pelajaran di uni...
ga kerasa juga... seminggu lagi, gw UJIAN!!! EXAMS!!!
en gw bakal di test ttg pelajaran yg BUANYAKNYA AMIT2 itu!!!
>_<
en gw sekarang rada ngerasa takut en khawatir...
bukannya gara2 examsnya dah deket, tp karena gw kok ga ngerasa deg2an...
biasanya klo mo exams kan, suasananya beda gitu...
ada pressure2nya.. kok kali ini gw ga ngerasain pressure ya??
ini gwnya yg tll cuek, ato gwnya dah ga peka ma pressure di sktr ya??
yaaahhh apapun penyebabnya...
gw bakal try my best!!! ^_^
cia yo!!! ganbarre!!!
ps: buat yg bakal exams, ato dah lagi exams, good luck and keep up your hard work ya!!!
inget, lu ga ndiri!!! ^_^
Wuihhh!!! ga kerasa bgt.. skrg dah genap 3 bulan gw di Melbourne....
ga kerasa.... 3 bulan tuh ternyata bisa cepet en lama bgt in a way...
seperti yg gw dah tulis di blog gw sebelomnya..
dah banyak hal yg terjadi dalam hidup gw dalem wkt yg singkat itu...
gw dah kenal ma banyak org baru...
malahan, wkt gw di dlm kesusahan, gw dibantu org yg tadinya gw ga kenal...
en gara2 dibantu, jadi kenal deh... hehehe ^_^
ga kerasa juga, dah banyak yg gw pelajarin...
dalam artian... pelajaran kehidupan PLUS pelajaran di uni...
ga kerasa juga... seminggu lagi, gw UJIAN!!! EXAMS!!!
en gw bakal di test ttg pelajaran yg BUANYAKNYA AMIT2 itu!!!
>_<
en gw sekarang rada ngerasa takut en khawatir...
bukannya gara2 examsnya dah deket, tp karena gw kok ga ngerasa deg2an...
biasanya klo mo exams kan, suasananya beda gitu...
ada pressure2nya.. kok kali ini gw ga ngerasain pressure ya??
ini gwnya yg tll cuek, ato gwnya dah ga peka ma pressure di sktr ya??
yaaahhh apapun penyebabnya...
gw bakal try my best!!! ^_^
cia yo!!! ganbarre!!!
ps: buat yg bakal exams, ato dah lagi exams, good luck and keep up your hard work ya!!!
inget, lu ga ndiri!!! ^_^
Sunday, May 21, 2006
people in your life...
i got this from my friend...
pls read and have a look.. hopefully it can answer the questions that you have in your mind...
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People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually (or for you to offer the same FOR or to THEM). They may seem like a godsend and they are..
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire filled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the
person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime!!! ^_^
pls read and have a look.. hopefully it can answer the questions that you have in your mind...
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People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually (or for you to offer the same FOR or to THEM). They may seem like a godsend and they are..
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire filled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the
person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime!!! ^_^
Friday, May 19, 2006
i wish u enough
I wish you enough...
I wish you enough sun
to keep your attitude bright
I wish you enough rain
to appreciate the sun more
I wish you enough happiness
to keep your spirit alive
I wish you enough pain
so that the smallest joys in life
appear much bigger
I wish you enough gain
to satisfy your wanting
I wish you enough loss
to appreciate all that you possess
I wish you enough hellos
to get you through the final good-bye...
I wish you enough sun
to keep your attitude bright
I wish you enough rain
to appreciate the sun more
I wish you enough happiness
to keep your spirit alive
I wish you enough pain
so that the smallest joys in life
appear much bigger
I wish you enough gain
to satisfy your wanting
I wish you enough loss
to appreciate all that you possess
I wish you enough hellos
to get you through the final good-bye...
Thursday, May 18, 2006
aku belajar...
aku belajar....
bahwa hidup itu tidak mudah...
bahwa disaat aku merasa kesepian, aku tidak sendiri...
bahwa aku bisa mencoba untuk baik pada smua org,
tapi tidak smua org akan suka padaku...
bahwa disaat aku merasa waktu tidak pernah cukup,
berarti aku telah mencoba melakukan terlalu banyak,
lebih dari yang dikehendaki-Nya...
bahwa aku ini diciptakan baik adanya...
bahwa aku tidak dapat mengubah org lain,
untuk menjadi seperti yg kuinginkan...
untuk melihat pintu lain yg terbuka,
disaat pintu yg kukejar telah tertutup...
aku belajar.... dan masih akan terus belajar....
karena hidup ini adalah suatu pelajaran...
bahwa hidup itu tidak mudah...
bahwa disaat aku merasa kesepian, aku tidak sendiri...
bahwa aku bisa mencoba untuk baik pada smua org,
tapi tidak smua org akan suka padaku...
bahwa disaat aku merasa waktu tidak pernah cukup,
berarti aku telah mencoba melakukan terlalu banyak,
lebih dari yang dikehendaki-Nya...
bahwa aku ini diciptakan baik adanya...
bahwa aku tidak dapat mengubah org lain,
untuk menjadi seperti yg kuinginkan...
untuk melihat pintu lain yg terbuka,
disaat pintu yg kukejar telah tertutup...
aku belajar.... dan masih akan terus belajar....
karena hidup ini adalah suatu pelajaran...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
awal dari suatu hubungan
Awal dari suatu hubungan....
pernah ga mikir balik???
misalnya lu dah punya temen yg dah temenan lama bgt...
ato punya pacar, yg dah pacaran lama bgt...
trus tiba2 kepikiran...
Ummm... dulu pertama kali ketemu kayak gimana ya??
dulu kok gw bisa tertarik ma dy ya???
dulu kok gw bisa mulai ngomong ama dy???
gimana cerita asal mulanya hubungan yg dah ada ini ya??
pernah ga sih mikir kayak gitu???
(to be continued...)
(continued...)
gimana pun hubungan itu dimulai....
ga penting....
yang penting, apakah hubungan itu bikin kita makin bertumbuh...
jadi org yg lebih baek ato nggak...
gw percaya...
org2 yg ada di masa lalu gw, masa kini en yg bakal hadir dimasa depan gw...
hadir dengan suatu alasan....
mereka punya misi yg dikasi Tuhan buat nge-shape gw....
skrg gw ngerti napa Tuhan ciptain org laen2....
smuanya unik, ga da yg sama... even twins!!!
supaya kita bisa saling belajar satu sama lain...
en saling mengisi hidup yg satu dan yg lain....
(klo orgnya sama smua, apanya yg bisa dipelajari lagi??
wong, apa yg ada di dy, dah ada di kita... tul ga?!) ^^
pernah ga mikir balik???
misalnya lu dah punya temen yg dah temenan lama bgt...
ato punya pacar, yg dah pacaran lama bgt...
trus tiba2 kepikiran...
Ummm... dulu pertama kali ketemu kayak gimana ya??
dulu kok gw bisa tertarik ma dy ya???
dulu kok gw bisa mulai ngomong ama dy???
gimana cerita asal mulanya hubungan yg dah ada ini ya??
pernah ga sih mikir kayak gitu???
(to be continued...)
(continued...)
gimana pun hubungan itu dimulai....
ga penting....
yang penting, apakah hubungan itu bikin kita makin bertumbuh...
jadi org yg lebih baek ato nggak...
gw percaya...
org2 yg ada di masa lalu gw, masa kini en yg bakal hadir dimasa depan gw...
hadir dengan suatu alasan....
mereka punya misi yg dikasi Tuhan buat nge-shape gw....
skrg gw ngerti napa Tuhan ciptain org laen2....
smuanya unik, ga da yg sama... even twins!!!
supaya kita bisa saling belajar satu sama lain...
en saling mengisi hidup yg satu dan yg lain....
(klo orgnya sama smua, apanya yg bisa dipelajari lagi??
wong, apa yg ada di dy, dah ada di kita... tul ga?!) ^^
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Tuhan mengubah hidupmu
Gw punya text lagu yg gw dapet wkt gw choir di Perth (di ICYO)... setiap gw denger ato nyanyiin ini lagu... pasti gw selalu terharu n tersentuh ma kata2nya... karema liriknya ngegambarin klo Tuhan tuh cinta bgt ma gw.... ma lu... ma kita smua...
Tuhan Mengubah Hidupmu
Kenangan abadi perjamuan suci
saat Kau berkati secawan anggur dan roti.
Sungguh tak terperi kasih cinta di hati,
walaupun Kalvari telah menanti.
Kini kami datang kepadaMu, ya Tuhan
cemas dan gelisah akan beban kehidupan.
Namun diri Yesus menjadi teladan
bakti pada Bapa jadi tujuan.
Lupakan cemas dan kegelisahanmu,
lupakan duka derita di hatimu.
Sambutlah Kristus dengan hati murni,
Dia 'kan masuk hatimu.
Percaya padaNya setulus hatimu,
berpegang padaNya sepanjang hidupmu.
Tuhanlah batu karang kuat teguh,
landasan yang tak 'kan runtuh.
Dalam kegelapan Kau terangi jalanku,
lewat jurang curam, Tuhanlah penunjuk jalan.
Di saat ku jatuh, Tuhan menuntunku
pulang ke rumahMu yang penuh kasih.
Bimbinglah kami menurut teladanMu
teguh setia dalam tiap cobaan.
Walau badai hidup kuat menerjam,
bidukku tak 'kan tenggelam.
Segala mata dan hati 'kan terbuka,
segala cemas dan kegelisah 'kan sirna.
Bila kau percaya akan janjiNya,
Tuhan mengubah hidupmu...
Tuhan Mengubah Hidupmu
Kenangan abadi perjamuan suci
saat Kau berkati secawan anggur dan roti.
Sungguh tak terperi kasih cinta di hati,
walaupun Kalvari telah menanti.
Kini kami datang kepadaMu, ya Tuhan
cemas dan gelisah akan beban kehidupan.
Namun diri Yesus menjadi teladan
bakti pada Bapa jadi tujuan.
Lupakan cemas dan kegelisahanmu,
lupakan duka derita di hatimu.
Sambutlah Kristus dengan hati murni,
Dia 'kan masuk hatimu.
Percaya padaNya setulus hatimu,
berpegang padaNya sepanjang hidupmu.
Tuhanlah batu karang kuat teguh,
landasan yang tak 'kan runtuh.
Dalam kegelapan Kau terangi jalanku,
lewat jurang curam, Tuhanlah penunjuk jalan.
Di saat ku jatuh, Tuhan menuntunku
pulang ke rumahMu yang penuh kasih.
Bimbinglah kami menurut teladanMu
teguh setia dalam tiap cobaan.
Walau badai hidup kuat menerjam,
bidukku tak 'kan tenggelam.
Segala mata dan hati 'kan terbuka,
segala cemas dan kegelisah 'kan sirna.
Bila kau percaya akan janjiNya,
Tuhan mengubah hidupmu...
Thursday, May 11, 2006
MaU aPa...
hmm... dont feel like writing in english... sorry to you who can't understand indo....
hari ini... gw jalanin kayak biasa aja....
yaaa sebenernya sih, ga biasa... laen dari biasanya...
kenapa laen dari biasanya??!!!
karena hari ini gw memulai hari dengan rasa sangat amat gembira sekali....
berhubung hari2 yg lalu, dah gw lewati dengan kurang tdr, gara2 assignment 'yg gw kira ga bakal pernah beres' (untung akhirnya bisa diselesaikan dengan dukungan dari org2 sktr)...
td mlm, gw bisa tdr dengan sangat amat puas sekali!!! ^_^
percaya deh ma gw, a good nite sleep after few nites with out sleep tuh serasa kayak heaven bgt!!!
trus hari ini, gw bisa bgn siang pula.... n ke uni rada siangan.... trus gw juga berhasil menyelesaikan assignment gw berikutnya sebelum due datenya....
jadi feel good gitu.... kayak dah mbyr rasa bad gw atas assignment yg gw kira ga bakal pernah beres itu.... hehehe :p
anyway... abis itu smua dah beres... kok gw tiba2 kayak kehilangan tujuan hidup lagi sih ya??!!
gw serasa jalan tanpa tujuan.... ga tw mo jalan ke arah mana... tp gw bukannya stop, malah keep going... gw bukannya stop cari pegangan... cari petunjuk jalan... gw malah jalaaaaaannnn terus.... mpe akhirnya gw nyadar klo gw tuh lost... tp napa gw masi ga mo berenti??!!!
Duuuhhh!!! ga ngerti deh....
kadang gw ngerasa gw ga ngerti sapa gw yg sebenernya...
kadang gw kira gw dah kenal sapa gw...
tp ternyata, terkadang gw bisa jadi org yg ga gw kenal...
org yg lagi lost... lagi ga punya tujuan...
(kok gw melow bgt ya??!!!) :p
hari ini... gw jalanin kayak biasa aja....
yaaa sebenernya sih, ga biasa... laen dari biasanya...
kenapa laen dari biasanya??!!!
karena hari ini gw memulai hari dengan rasa sangat amat gembira sekali....
berhubung hari2 yg lalu, dah gw lewati dengan kurang tdr, gara2 assignment 'yg gw kira ga bakal pernah beres' (untung akhirnya bisa diselesaikan dengan dukungan dari org2 sktr)...
td mlm, gw bisa tdr dengan sangat amat puas sekali!!! ^_^
percaya deh ma gw, a good nite sleep after few nites with out sleep tuh serasa kayak heaven bgt!!!
trus hari ini, gw bisa bgn siang pula.... n ke uni rada siangan.... trus gw juga berhasil menyelesaikan assignment gw berikutnya sebelum due datenya....
jadi feel good gitu.... kayak dah mbyr rasa bad gw atas assignment yg gw kira ga bakal pernah beres itu.... hehehe :p
anyway... abis itu smua dah beres... kok gw tiba2 kayak kehilangan tujuan hidup lagi sih ya??!!
gw serasa jalan tanpa tujuan.... ga tw mo jalan ke arah mana... tp gw bukannya stop, malah keep going... gw bukannya stop cari pegangan... cari petunjuk jalan... gw malah jalaaaaaannnn terus.... mpe akhirnya gw nyadar klo gw tuh lost... tp napa gw masi ga mo berenti??!!!
Duuuhhh!!! ga ngerti deh....
kadang gw ngerasa gw ga ngerti sapa gw yg sebenernya...
kadang gw kira gw dah kenal sapa gw...
tp ternyata, terkadang gw bisa jadi org yg ga gw kenal...
org yg lagi lost... lagi ga punya tujuan...
(kok gw melow bgt ya??!!!) :p
Monday, May 08, 2006
About Pho2
LosT...
i haven't been writing on my blog for quite sum time...
i really feel like writing at the moment...
People come and go...
They left their footsteps in my life...
and my life will never be the same...
Today... i lost sum one...
Sum one that i knew, i will lost in the end...
when the time comes...
I thought i'll be prepared...
but i still couldn't believe that she has gone...
And i really regret that i havent told her,
how much i love her when i saw her for the last time....
But i do believe...
that she's gone for her good...
i can juz keep praying.... and wish her the best...
Pho2 (grandma)... I'm gonna miss you...
luv,
Novy
i haven't been writing on my blog for quite sum time...
i really feel like writing at the moment...
People come and go...
They left their footsteps in my life...
and my life will never be the same...
Today... i lost sum one...
Sum one that i knew, i will lost in the end...
when the time comes...
I thought i'll be prepared...
but i still couldn't believe that she has gone...
And i really regret that i havent told her,
how much i love her when i saw her for the last time....
But i do believe...
that she's gone for her good...
i can juz keep praying.... and wish her the best...
Pho2 (grandma)... I'm gonna miss you...
luv,
Novy
Monday, May 01, 2006
...
i've never really appreciate what i have...
till... i lose 'em...
regret always comes later in life...
so, do what you can do now...
and you'll never regretting your life...
coz u've done your best...
till... i lose 'em...
regret always comes later in life...
so, do what you can do now...
and you'll never regretting your life...
coz u've done your best...
Saturday, April 29, 2006
One Litre of Tears
OST One Litre of Tears
Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa
Nani ga bokura wo matteru
Nigeru tame ja naku
Yume ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazu sa
Tooi natsu no ano hi
Ashita sae mieta nara
Tame iki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae he susume
Amagumo ga kireta nara
Nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga ashiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae he susume
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(translation)
On the other shore of sadness,
It is said that there is a smile
Finally we arrived.
But what are we waiting for?
The purpose is not to run away.
It's to chase after dreams.
We should have gone out to travel,
on that summer day so long ago
Even tomorrow, if you see it.
Though there isn't a sigh either.
Like a ship going against the current flow.
Right now, go forward, move ahead.
Even if it cuts through the rain and clouds
The wet roads shine.
Only the dark will teach,
A stronger and stronger light
Be strong, go forward, move ahead.
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I got this song from a japanese drama called "One Litre of Tears".... i havent finished watching it... but i recommend you to watch it, i believe it will change your life and you will see your life from a different perspective.... It's based on true story, about a 15 yo girl called Muraki Aya... She is a smart, pretty and active girl... one day, she discovered that she has a disease called Spinocerebellar degeneration... (for ppl who dunno, it's a brain disorder that can affect your movement, speech, and sight) there wasn't any cure for that disease... but she didnt give up and become a light for her sorroundings... the main point is... Be strong... dont run away from life... chase your dream... and move on...
ps: for Aya... thanks for the courage.... ^^
Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa
Nani ga bokura wo matteru
Nigeru tame ja naku
Yume ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazu sa
Tooi natsu no ano hi
Ashita sae mieta nara
Tame iki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae he susume
Amagumo ga kireta nara
Nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga ashiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae he susume
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(translation)
On the other shore of sadness,
It is said that there is a smile
Finally we arrived.
But what are we waiting for?
The purpose is not to run away.
It's to chase after dreams.
We should have gone out to travel,
on that summer day so long ago
Even tomorrow, if you see it.
Though there isn't a sigh either.
Like a ship going against the current flow.
Right now, go forward, move ahead.
Even if it cuts through the rain and clouds
The wet roads shine.
Only the dark will teach,
A stronger and stronger light
Be strong, go forward, move ahead.
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I got this song from a japanese drama called "One Litre of Tears".... i havent finished watching it... but i recommend you to watch it, i believe it will change your life and you will see your life from a different perspective.... It's based on true story, about a 15 yo girl called Muraki Aya... She is a smart, pretty and active girl... one day, she discovered that she has a disease called Spinocerebellar degeneration... (for ppl who dunno, it's a brain disorder that can affect your movement, speech, and sight) there wasn't any cure for that disease... but she didnt give up and become a light for her sorroundings... the main point is... Be strong... dont run away from life... chase your dream... and move on...
ps: for Aya... thanks for the courage.... ^^
God's TooLs...
Hey2!! i can't hardly wait to tell u this story....
Guess who i met last nite?? His name is Richard... he's one of the guys who has been in ICM (Indonesian Campus Ministry) since the 1st time ICM exists...
Well, i dunno him at the 1st time... for me, he was juz a stranger....
then, we started a conversation.... then... i found out sumthing that's really important!!! (for me anyway)
He told me that he works for IDP Jakarta... juz for your information, IDP is an organisation that organised my transference from Curtin Uni (Perth) to Melbourne Uni (Melbourne)....
I was like.. wot??!!! really??!!
And guess wot??!!
Suddenly, from a stranger, he became sumbody that i believe God has used to complete His plan... coz he's the guy who fought and tried to keep me and Tara (my friend who's also transferred to Melb) in the list... he told me that in the meeting, there were 3 guys who adviced him to leave my case... (coz my case was so complicated that it wasnt worth enuf to be fought for :p)... but sumhow... he kept it and fought for it... if he didnt take the decision to keep my case... i wont be here now... so i believe... that it's part of God's plan for my life...
I used to be asking myself and God... have i disobeyed Him by following my own will to move to Melbourne??? but... now i know and believe.... that it is part of His plan... if this is not His plan, i dont think i would be able to be transferred...
PS: Thanks for Richard, Gama, en Ci April... you guys have changed my life... ^_^
For Tara, dont ever regret wot u have done... juz move on... live your life to the max and keep believing in Him... Hopefully, u also believe that this pathway of our lives has been planned by Him...
Guess who i met last nite?? His name is Richard... he's one of the guys who has been in ICM (Indonesian Campus Ministry) since the 1st time ICM exists...
Well, i dunno him at the 1st time... for me, he was juz a stranger....
then, we started a conversation.... then... i found out sumthing that's really important!!! (for me anyway)
He told me that he works for IDP Jakarta... juz for your information, IDP is an organisation that organised my transference from Curtin Uni (Perth) to Melbourne Uni (Melbourne)....
I was like.. wot??!!! really??!!
And guess wot??!!
Suddenly, from a stranger, he became sumbody that i believe God has used to complete His plan... coz he's the guy who fought and tried to keep me and Tara (my friend who's also transferred to Melb) in the list... he told me that in the meeting, there were 3 guys who adviced him to leave my case... (coz my case was so complicated that it wasnt worth enuf to be fought for :p)... but sumhow... he kept it and fought for it... if he didnt take the decision to keep my case... i wont be here now... so i believe... that it's part of God's plan for my life...
I used to be asking myself and God... have i disobeyed Him by following my own will to move to Melbourne??? but... now i know and believe.... that it is part of His plan... if this is not His plan, i dont think i would be able to be transferred...
PS: Thanks for Richard, Gama, en Ci April... you guys have changed my life... ^_^
For Tara, dont ever regret wot u have done... juz move on... live your life to the max and keep believing in Him... Hopefully, u also believe that this pathway of our lives has been planned by Him...
Friday, April 28, 2006
Posting For MyBestFriend
Dear My Friend...
I know life has been hard for u lately...
I'm so sorry that i can't really do anything for u...
I'm sorry that i can't be at your side when u need me...
I can only listen to your story...
I can only be a place where u can throw all your sadness...
I can only try to make u smile when u cry...
I can only pray for you from here...
Hope that u will be able to heal your heart...
Hope that i can make you feel a lil bit better...
Hope that i've given enuf light and love when u needed me...
Hope that u'll be ok in the end...
Don't forget to get up, be strong and move on...
And where ever u r... i'll be there to support u....
remind u how to fly when u forgot how to fly...
remind u how to smile when u forgot how to smile...
remind u... that u've got a friend in ME!! ^^
I know life has been hard for u lately...
I'm so sorry that i can't really do anything for u...
I'm sorry that i can't be at your side when u need me...
I can only listen to your story...
I can only be a place where u can throw all your sadness...
I can only try to make u smile when u cry...
I can only pray for you from here...
Hope that u will be able to heal your heart...
Hope that i can make you feel a lil bit better...
Hope that i've given enuf light and love when u needed me...
Hope that u'll be ok in the end...
Don't forget to get up, be strong and move on...
And where ever u r... i'll be there to support u....
remind u how to fly when u forgot how to fly...
remind u how to smile when u forgot how to smile...
remind u... that u've got a friend in ME!! ^^
WoMeN...
One Flaw In Women
By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything with only two hands."
The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."
But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."
The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."
The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected,
"that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."
And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colours.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR
WORTH.
So, i post this message juz to remind all WOMEN just how amazing WE are.
By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything with only two hands."
The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."
But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."
The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."
The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected,
"that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."
And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colours.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR
WORTH.
So, i post this message juz to remind all WOMEN just how amazing WE are.
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Tangan Tuhan...
tangan Tuhan
(by: nikita)
apa yang kau alami kini
mungkin tak dapat engkau mengerti
satu hal tanamkan dihati
indah semua yang Tuhan b'ri
Tuhanku tak akan memberi ular beracun
pada yang minta roti
cobaan yang engkau alami
tak melebihi kekuatanmu
tangan Tuhan sedang merenda
suatu karya yang agung mulia
saatnya 'kan tiba nanti
kau lihat pelangi kasih-Nya
-----------------------------------------------
Ga tw napa... hari ini, gw pulang uni, trus rasanya kepengen aja baca renungan... trus, abis renungan.. tiba2 keinget ama lagu ini... gw dulu tuh suka bgt nyanyiin lagu ini.... (pas ga ada org tentunya... klo ada org, mana berani gw nyanyi) hehehe :p
(by: nikita)
apa yang kau alami kini
mungkin tak dapat engkau mengerti
satu hal tanamkan dihati
indah semua yang Tuhan b'ri
Tuhanku tak akan memberi ular beracun
pada yang minta roti
cobaan yang engkau alami
tak melebihi kekuatanmu
tangan Tuhan sedang merenda
suatu karya yang agung mulia
saatnya 'kan tiba nanti
kau lihat pelangi kasih-Nya
-----------------------------------------------
Ga tw napa... hari ini, gw pulang uni, trus rasanya kepengen aja baca renungan... trus, abis renungan.. tiba2 keinget ama lagu ini... gw dulu tuh suka bgt nyanyiin lagu ini.... (pas ga ada org tentunya... klo ada org, mana berani gw nyanyi) hehehe :p
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
soooo tireeeed.... >_<
hey... i'm so tired at the moment... but i dont wanna sleep yet...
last nite, i rang my friend and talked for bout 2 hours... from dunno when, till 5am!!!
i didnt realise that it was morning already... LoL.... then i slept at 6am... woke up at 11am...
it's not enuf.... at least i have to have 8hrs sleep....
anyway, i played laser zone today... it was pretty fun.. but i got tired easily...
on the 1st game, i was tired already.... and on the 2nd game... i didnt care anymore if sumbody shoot me... coz i juz couldnt be bothered to run.... then, on the 3rd game... my energy came back... and i really enjoyed the 3rd game ^^
next time, i will try paint ball... my friends said it's hurt.... but i guess it'll be fun... ^^
tmrw, have to go back to school... :( dont really like my uni... coz i often feel lonely....
eventho i hv few friends to talk to, it's not enuf.... need sumbody that i can share my thought with... oh well, i guess juz need to wait n see.... n keep on trying ^^
last nite, i rang my friend and talked for bout 2 hours... from dunno when, till 5am!!!
i didnt realise that it was morning already... LoL.... then i slept at 6am... woke up at 11am...
it's not enuf.... at least i have to have 8hrs sleep....
anyway, i played laser zone today... it was pretty fun.. but i got tired easily...
on the 1st game, i was tired already.... and on the 2nd game... i didnt care anymore if sumbody shoot me... coz i juz couldnt be bothered to run.... then, on the 3rd game... my energy came back... and i really enjoyed the 3rd game ^^
next time, i will try paint ball... my friends said it's hurt.... but i guess it'll be fun... ^^
tmrw, have to go back to school... :( dont really like my uni... coz i often feel lonely....
eventho i hv few friends to talk to, it's not enuf.... need sumbody that i can share my thought with... oh well, i guess juz need to wait n see.... n keep on trying ^^
Monday, April 24, 2006
Segala sesuatu, ada wktnya...
Pagi ini, susah bgt mo bgn.. dingin.. masi gelap.. rasanya enak bgt klo ngumpet di dlm selimut aja... anget.. hehehe :p
trusnya berhubung uni dah mulai... harus bgn deh... lumayan semangat sih pagi ini... soalnya dari kemaren dah disemangatin banyak org... gw ga mau usaha mereka sia2... ^^ jd gw usahain buat semangat pagi ini.. trus pas gw buka mata... gw liat kamar yg dah rapih... Wuaahhh senangnya!!! ^^ soalnya sejak pulang dr ret2 kan gw kluar rumah mulu... jarang beresin kamar... trus kmrn, gw tuh beresin kamar, meja belajar, n lemari... rasanya seneng bgt ngeliat smua dah rapih...
anyway... trus... hal berikutnya yg gw lakukan adalah ambil alkitab n bedoa... (gw jarang loh kayak gini... cuma gw dah janji ma diri ndiri, gw ga mo naro Tuhan diurutan terakhir... jadi mulai skrg, gw usahain devotion pagi2).... trus... pas bgt deh.. masa bacaannya tuh ttg "waktu".... pasti tw kan?? yg intinya si Pengkotbah bilang, di dunia ini segala sesuatu ada wktnya... n smuanya ini tuh dah direncanain sebaik2nya ma yg nyiptain kita.... trus... gw jadi keinget aja ma obrolan gw ma temen gw td malem...
Buat yg belom tw.. gw cerita lagi deh... wkt gw pertama kali pindah ke Melbourne... sebenernya bisa dibilang tuh gw ga punya tempat tgl.... trus untung aja temen gw punya sodara di sini, jadi kita bedua numpang dulu buat sementara... trusnya lagi, gw punya kenalan (yg sebenernya gw ga kenal2 bgt... soalnya cuma kenal lwt tour) yg punya temen.. trus temennya kenalin ke temennya temennya ke gw... pokonya pjg bgt deh ribet klo diceritain smua... finally.. gw nemu tmp tinggal gw skrg ini.. bisa dibilang atas bantuan "stranger"... emang it's really amazing when i think about it... gw pecaya smua ini bukan kebetulan.... it's all has been planned...
Trus ada lagi nih satu hal.. yg ga pernah lepas dari pikiran gw... en gw juga yakin lu smua pernah ngalamin... yaitu soal PACAR... hehehe :p
Kemaren ini, gw lagi ngerasa kesepian gitu, soalnya housemate gw pegi smua... trusnya gw ga ada temen ngobrol... akhirnya, gw telp ade gw... ngobrol ma dy... trus gw bilang lagi kesepian... eeeehhhh dy dgn belagunya ngomong ke gw... "makanya, cari pacar donk!"... kurang ajar ga sih??!! emang sih, ade gw itu dah punya co... tp ya.... namanya juga masi sma... gw ga tw lah.. susah ngomong ma dy... prinsip gw ma dy laen.... Buat gw tuh, pacar gunanya bukan buat dijadiin temen klo lagi kesepian doank... pacar itu adl calon temen hidup gw... pacar itu adl org yg gw mau spend the rest of my life with... pasti kedengerannya kok cupu bgt ya?? bodo ah... bnyk org bilang ke gw.... klo ga usaha, ga bakal dapet pacar.. pacar ga bakal dateng ndiri... ada juga yg blg... jaman skrg masi aja mikir kayak gitu... emang sih kadang gw bisa goyah dlm megang prinsip gw.... tp biasanya gw nyadar n lgs inget lagi sih ma prinsip gw... buat gw... pacaran tuh bukan maenan.... makanya gw rada ga ngerti napa org bisa ganti2 pacar... cepet bgt lagi... buat gw, pacar itu musti di cari pelan2, di pilih pelan2.... di pikir baek2... mgkn kedengeran tll serius... tp pacaran itu kan emang hal yg serius.... masa ditanggepinnya maen2 coba?!
Buat para jomblo out there.... ini pesen gw... jangan deh terburu2 cari pacar... gw tw, jaman sekarang klo ga punya pacar, kesannya ga cool.... ga laku... tp kan masi banyak hal dlm hidup ini yg bisa dilakuin daripada cari pacar n meratapi nasib jomblo kita..... mendingan dipake semaksimal mgkn, mumpung masi free... hehehee ^^
Inget, kita ini dah disiapin pasangan hidup ama Tuhan.. jadi ga usah takut ga dapet... Segala sesuatu ada wktnya... n Tuhan bakal bikin itu indah pada wktnya.... klo lu buru2, ntar malah salah pilih n yg ada cuma penyesalan aja.... ga mau kan??!!
trusnya berhubung uni dah mulai... harus bgn deh... lumayan semangat sih pagi ini... soalnya dari kemaren dah disemangatin banyak org... gw ga mau usaha mereka sia2... ^^ jd gw usahain buat semangat pagi ini.. trus pas gw buka mata... gw liat kamar yg dah rapih... Wuaahhh senangnya!!! ^^ soalnya sejak pulang dr ret2 kan gw kluar rumah mulu... jarang beresin kamar... trus kmrn, gw tuh beresin kamar, meja belajar, n lemari... rasanya seneng bgt ngeliat smua dah rapih...
anyway... trus... hal berikutnya yg gw lakukan adalah ambil alkitab n bedoa... (gw jarang loh kayak gini... cuma gw dah janji ma diri ndiri, gw ga mo naro Tuhan diurutan terakhir... jadi mulai skrg, gw usahain devotion pagi2).... trus... pas bgt deh.. masa bacaannya tuh ttg "waktu".... pasti tw kan?? yg intinya si Pengkotbah bilang, di dunia ini segala sesuatu ada wktnya... n smuanya ini tuh dah direncanain sebaik2nya ma yg nyiptain kita.... trus... gw jadi keinget aja ma obrolan gw ma temen gw td malem...
Buat yg belom tw.. gw cerita lagi deh... wkt gw pertama kali pindah ke Melbourne... sebenernya bisa dibilang tuh gw ga punya tempat tgl.... trus untung aja temen gw punya sodara di sini, jadi kita bedua numpang dulu buat sementara... trusnya lagi, gw punya kenalan (yg sebenernya gw ga kenal2 bgt... soalnya cuma kenal lwt tour) yg punya temen.. trus temennya kenalin ke temennya temennya ke gw... pokonya pjg bgt deh ribet klo diceritain smua... finally.. gw nemu tmp tinggal gw skrg ini.. bisa dibilang atas bantuan "stranger"... emang it's really amazing when i think about it... gw pecaya smua ini bukan kebetulan.... it's all has been planned...
Trus ada lagi nih satu hal.. yg ga pernah lepas dari pikiran gw... en gw juga yakin lu smua pernah ngalamin... yaitu soal PACAR... hehehe :p
Kemaren ini, gw lagi ngerasa kesepian gitu, soalnya housemate gw pegi smua... trusnya gw ga ada temen ngobrol... akhirnya, gw telp ade gw... ngobrol ma dy... trus gw bilang lagi kesepian... eeeehhhh dy dgn belagunya ngomong ke gw... "makanya, cari pacar donk!"... kurang ajar ga sih??!! emang sih, ade gw itu dah punya co... tp ya.... namanya juga masi sma... gw ga tw lah.. susah ngomong ma dy... prinsip gw ma dy laen.... Buat gw tuh, pacar gunanya bukan buat dijadiin temen klo lagi kesepian doank... pacar itu adl calon temen hidup gw... pacar itu adl org yg gw mau spend the rest of my life with... pasti kedengerannya kok cupu bgt ya?? bodo ah... bnyk org bilang ke gw.... klo ga usaha, ga bakal dapet pacar.. pacar ga bakal dateng ndiri... ada juga yg blg... jaman skrg masi aja mikir kayak gitu... emang sih kadang gw bisa goyah dlm megang prinsip gw.... tp biasanya gw nyadar n lgs inget lagi sih ma prinsip gw... buat gw... pacaran tuh bukan maenan.... makanya gw rada ga ngerti napa org bisa ganti2 pacar... cepet bgt lagi... buat gw, pacar itu musti di cari pelan2, di pilih pelan2.... di pikir baek2... mgkn kedengeran tll serius... tp pacaran itu kan emang hal yg serius.... masa ditanggepinnya maen2 coba?!
Buat para jomblo out there.... ini pesen gw... jangan deh terburu2 cari pacar... gw tw, jaman sekarang klo ga punya pacar, kesannya ga cool.... ga laku... tp kan masi banyak hal dlm hidup ini yg bisa dilakuin daripada cari pacar n meratapi nasib jomblo kita..... mendingan dipake semaksimal mgkn, mumpung masi free... hehehee ^^
Inget, kita ini dah disiapin pasangan hidup ama Tuhan.. jadi ga usah takut ga dapet... Segala sesuatu ada wktnya... n Tuhan bakal bikin itu indah pada wktnya.... klo lu buru2, ntar malah salah pilih n yg ada cuma penyesalan aja.... ga mau kan??!!
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Am I Lucky?? (yesss...)
hey... juz feel like sending a posting about sumthing that i've been wanted to write but neva really in the mood... and now, dunno why, i think it's the rite moment...
I think we all have felt that we're not lucky enuf, at least once in our lives...
well, that's wots happen to me few times when i was at the low point of my life...
but.... i'm so lucky... that i'm surrounded by ppl who always remind me how lucky i'm...
firstly is my mum... when i started to winge and winge and winge...
she'll listen to me patiently... and will give an advice which makes me feel better...
once, i told her that i'm so unlucky... on that day, i have been thru a lot of bad things...
(but, when i look back and think about that time, it wasn't that bad... it could be worst...)
anyway.... continuing my story... then my mum said sumthing that made me realise how lucky i am... she said... "so, dont u feel that u're lucky??"... and suddenly, i juz couldnt say anything...
she didnt told me not to winge (coz it's good for my emotional health... :p)... but, by saying that sentence... she reminded me... it's like she's saying that "my girl, u r lucky... and i dont care how u feel... how bad is your mood at that moment... i'll be there for u.... i'm here for u... isn't that enuf for u??"... i realise i'm soooooooooo lucky!!!!
there has been alot of blessings that i've got in my life... i still have my family... i can still breath... i can see... i can speak... i can type this msg... i can do anything that i wanted... i'm free... (i dont wanna sound so religious... but the luckiest thing in my life is that i have God who loves me the way i am... who always there...)
next thing... i have friends who want to accept me the way i am...
they r always there for me... when i'm down.... there's always sumbody who supports me...
and again... i will say that i'm so lucky to have all of this in my life...
few days ago, one of my friends asked me... he asked what presents i got for my bday...
i told him... i didnt get any of the things that he called as 'presents'... but... i get everything that i needed... and it's more than a 'present'... it's more than anything... wot can i ask for more??? on my bday, i got retreat as a present... i got new friends as a present... i got God's blessings, i got messages from my friends (means they remember me n my bday)... i got a phone call on my mobile in the morning from my family (they dont usually ring me to mobile... expensive :p)... the most important present is that i got LOVE... it's more that anything... coz i can't buy love... and it will last forever... coz love will last for eternity... thank you for everything... for all of u who has read this.... my msg for u... when u feel that u r unlucky... always remember that u r luckier than wot u think... ^_^
I think we all have felt that we're not lucky enuf, at least once in our lives...
well, that's wots happen to me few times when i was at the low point of my life...
but.... i'm so lucky... that i'm surrounded by ppl who always remind me how lucky i'm...
firstly is my mum... when i started to winge and winge and winge...
she'll listen to me patiently... and will give an advice which makes me feel better...
once, i told her that i'm so unlucky... on that day, i have been thru a lot of bad things...
(but, when i look back and think about that time, it wasn't that bad... it could be worst...)
anyway.... continuing my story... then my mum said sumthing that made me realise how lucky i am... she said... "so, dont u feel that u're lucky??"... and suddenly, i juz couldnt say anything...
she didnt told me not to winge (coz it's good for my emotional health... :p)... but, by saying that sentence... she reminded me... it's like she's saying that "my girl, u r lucky... and i dont care how u feel... how bad is your mood at that moment... i'll be there for u.... i'm here for u... isn't that enuf for u??"... i realise i'm soooooooooo lucky!!!!
there has been alot of blessings that i've got in my life... i still have my family... i can still breath... i can see... i can speak... i can type this msg... i can do anything that i wanted... i'm free... (i dont wanna sound so religious... but the luckiest thing in my life is that i have God who loves me the way i am... who always there...)
next thing... i have friends who want to accept me the way i am...
they r always there for me... when i'm down.... there's always sumbody who supports me...
and again... i will say that i'm so lucky to have all of this in my life...
few days ago, one of my friends asked me... he asked what presents i got for my bday...
i told him... i didnt get any of the things that he called as 'presents'... but... i get everything that i needed... and it's more than a 'present'... it's more than anything... wot can i ask for more??? on my bday, i got retreat as a present... i got new friends as a present... i got God's blessings, i got messages from my friends (means they remember me n my bday)... i got a phone call on my mobile in the morning from my family (they dont usually ring me to mobile... expensive :p)... the most important present is that i got LOVE... it's more that anything... coz i can't buy love... and it will last forever... coz love will last for eternity... thank you for everything... for all of u who has read this.... my msg for u... when u feel that u r unlucky... always remember that u r luckier than wot u think... ^_^
Saturday, April 22, 2006
my retreat story....
hey!! i wanna share my experiences that i got from the retreat few days ago....
so, here's the story....
It was 14 April... and i couldnt sleep... coz i was to excited to go to the retreat and of course because it's also my b'day... anyway... finally i managed to sleep at 2.30am... and then i had to wake up by 7am (luckily, my friend rang me to wake me up-thx Harph ^^)... had shower... had breakie... then go to level 8 to see Imel n the others.... there i met Novi and Iin... by 8am, we off to the church where we usually have our fellowship... then... i met lotsa new friends from Brisbane... i juz couldnt stop talking... i was too excited... even tho i was so tired....
anyway... after everyone is there... we started to march to Eildon... there were 11 cars if i'm not mistaken... and heaps of ppl...
i was planning to sleep in the car... it took 2hrs drive to get there... so i'll give me enuf time to sleep.... but i couldnt... my eyes juz doesnt wanna shut.... and i'm glad that i didnt sleep coz the view was incredible.... it reminds me to Puncak... but it was much better... much more beutiful...
i like nature so much... maybe that's why it's a refreshment for me.... esp. coz where i live now, i wont be able to see view like that.... i can only see buildings and street lights.... that's why i'm so happy to see the view... there are sum cattles and vineyards too on the side of the road.... it's so country!!
ummm sorry... i'm out of track... (hehhee... too excited tokin bout the view) :p
btw, i hv a picture of sum ppl that i met during the retreat.... hv a look...
It was raining, but everyone were so excited... they were posing under the colourful umbrella and cant standing still coz it was so windy and cold... wakakaka ^0^
so, here's the story....
It was 14 April... and i couldnt sleep... coz i was to excited to go to the retreat and of course because it's also my b'day... anyway... finally i managed to sleep at 2.30am... and then i had to wake up by 7am (luckily, my friend rang me to wake me up-thx Harph ^^)... had shower... had breakie... then go to level 8 to see Imel n the others.... there i met Novi and Iin... by 8am, we off to the church where we usually have our fellowship... then... i met lotsa new friends from Brisbane... i juz couldnt stop talking... i was too excited... even tho i was so tired....
anyway... after everyone is there... we started to march to Eildon... there were 11 cars if i'm not mistaken... and heaps of ppl...
i was planning to sleep in the car... it took 2hrs drive to get there... so i'll give me enuf time to sleep.... but i couldnt... my eyes juz doesnt wanna shut.... and i'm glad that i didnt sleep coz the view was incredible.... it reminds me to Puncak... but it was much better... much more beutiful...
i like nature so much... maybe that's why it's a refreshment for me.... esp. coz where i live now, i wont be able to see view like that.... i can only see buildings and street lights.... that's why i'm so happy to see the view... there are sum cattles and vineyards too on the side of the road.... it's so country!!
ummm sorry... i'm out of track... (hehhee... too excited tokin bout the view) :p
btw, i hv a picture of sum ppl that i met during the retreat.... hv a look...
It was raining, but everyone were so excited... they were posing under the colourful umbrella and cant standing still coz it was so windy and cold... wakakaka ^0^
There's none like YOU...
THERE IS NONE LIKE YOU
There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart
Like You do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like You
Your mercy flows like a river wide
And healing comes from Your hands
Suffering children are safe in your arms
There is none like You
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This is one of the songs that were sung during the retreat alot of times... and it becomes one of my favourite... coz it really touches my heart n reminds me that my God is the God who loves.... God who's very patient.... He's always there.... and always waiting for me to go home... to go back to Him...
There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart
Like You do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like You
Your mercy flows like a river wide
And healing comes from Your hands
Suffering children are safe in your arms
There is none like You
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This is one of the songs that were sung during the retreat alot of times... and it becomes one of my favourite... coz it really touches my heart n reminds me that my God is the God who loves.... God who's very patient.... He's always there.... and always waiting for me to go home... to go back to Him...
Thursday, April 20, 2006
tired...
hhfff... so tired today... guess it's carried on from the retreat....
since the retreat, i haven't hv a good nite sleep... didnt sleep long enough...
i know i'm tired and need to sleep, but my body juz doesnt wanna sleep...
i always find sumfin to do... and lately, i cannot sleep before i tok to somebody...
every nite, i always ring sumbody before i go to bed... anyone... can be my mum or my friends...
btw, i've juz cumback from Coles.... i went there juz to get a can of apricot nectar (for the cake i wanna make) but then, i couldnt help myself.... i bought more things than wot i was planning to buy.... oh well... i was hungry... hehehehe :p
it's showering outside... and so windy...
and before i went to coles, my housemate (Melanie) asked me to be her model....
(btw, she's studying photography in RMIT...) i couldnt say no... so, we went to Vic Mart and i had to squat at the side of the road... and wot i can tell u is... that it was FREEZING!!!
umm... wot else can i tell u??? i think that's all for now... i'm so hungry and cant think and type anymore..... i ran out of energy... (>_<) :p
since the retreat, i haven't hv a good nite sleep... didnt sleep long enough...
i know i'm tired and need to sleep, but my body juz doesnt wanna sleep...
i always find sumfin to do... and lately, i cannot sleep before i tok to somebody...
every nite, i always ring sumbody before i go to bed... anyone... can be my mum or my friends...
btw, i've juz cumback from Coles.... i went there juz to get a can of apricot nectar (for the cake i wanna make) but then, i couldnt help myself.... i bought more things than wot i was planning to buy.... oh well... i was hungry... hehehehe :p
it's showering outside... and so windy...
and before i went to coles, my housemate (Melanie) asked me to be her model....
(btw, she's studying photography in RMIT...) i couldnt say no... so, we went to Vic Mart and i had to squat at the side of the road... and wot i can tell u is... that it was FREEZING!!!
umm... wot else can i tell u??? i think that's all for now... i'm so hungry and cant think and type anymore..... i ran out of energy... (>_<) :p
Friday, April 14, 2006
hepi bday to me...
Hey! it's 14 April!!! which means.... it's my bday!!! ^^
huehehe... i dont really like to expose my bday... but thru this post, i wanna share my happiness.... that God gives me another day to live and to develop in Him...
thanks for all of my friends who have tried really hard to remember my bday... and congratulate me thru phone or sms.... ^^ even sum ppl congratulate me a day earlier.... LoL ^_^
i appreciate it a loT!!! i'm glad i have u guys... and i'm more than happy to share this moment wif u all....
btw, i gtg go now... can't type much... coz it's so late already... and i need to pack up my stuff for the retreat tmrw (have to leave home by 8am >_< ).... feel so excited!!! retreat, here i come!!!! ^^
huehehe... i dont really like to expose my bday... but thru this post, i wanna share my happiness.... that God gives me another day to live and to develop in Him...
thanks for all of my friends who have tried really hard to remember my bday... and congratulate me thru phone or sms.... ^^ even sum ppl congratulate me a day earlier.... LoL ^_^
i appreciate it a loT!!! i'm glad i have u guys... and i'm more than happy to share this moment wif u all....
btw, i gtg go now... can't type much... coz it's so late already... and i need to pack up my stuff for the retreat tmrw (have to leave home by 8am >_< ).... feel so excited!!! retreat, here i come!!!! ^^
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
bored....
hey... it's me again... still at uni... waiting for my next tutorial....
it's gonna be a long day for me... start at 9am and finish at 8pm.... :(
dunno wot to say....
oh!!! juz remember sumfin...
yesterday.. i finally bought the mp3 player that i've always wanted....
its a "black creative nano zen plus"!!!
I have thought to buy it since last year... but i'm not sure which type or colour that i wanted...
after a long discussion wif my cousin (koko) and my friends.... i still wasnt sure yet....
But i really need it... coz i wanna use it for voice recording....
The more i think about it, the more i get confused and stressed....
and finally it's come to the point where my koko said... "Nov, it's juz an mp3.... juz pick one, and buy one... dont think to much about it..." Hmm... it really made me realise that i was stressing to much bout a little thing.... and it affects almost every aspects in my life at that moment....
anyway, so i decided to pick one and buy it straight away yesterday... it feels so good....
coz i finally get wot i wanted... and the most important thing is that i finally be able to decide.... MAKING a DECISION and taking a RISK.... thats wot it's all about.... (i guess...)
I dunno since when.... i'm juz too scared to make a quick decision and taking risks...
it can take me ages to decide on buying sumthing that i know i really like... and it can ended up not buying it at all.... for example a parfume from the body shop.... i really like sum scents... and i couldnt decide which one i should pick.... and until now i havent picked one....
i have a reason for this tho... for me, perfume is sumthing that is really personal....
i want it to express my personality.... that's why i'm so careful in choosing it...
anyway, that's about me and my problems.... :p
wanna say sumthing too? pls post your comment in the comment box provided.... thx.... ^_^
it's gonna be a long day for me... start at 9am and finish at 8pm.... :(
dunno wot to say....
oh!!! juz remember sumfin...
yesterday.. i finally bought the mp3 player that i've always wanted....
its a "black creative nano zen plus"!!!
I have thought to buy it since last year... but i'm not sure which type or colour that i wanted...
after a long discussion wif my cousin (koko) and my friends.... i still wasnt sure yet....
But i really need it... coz i wanna use it for voice recording....
The more i think about it, the more i get confused and stressed....
and finally it's come to the point where my koko said... "Nov, it's juz an mp3.... juz pick one, and buy one... dont think to much about it..." Hmm... it really made me realise that i was stressing to much bout a little thing.... and it affects almost every aspects in my life at that moment....
anyway, so i decided to pick one and buy it straight away yesterday... it feels so good....
coz i finally get wot i wanted... and the most important thing is that i finally be able to decide.... MAKING a DECISION and taking a RISK.... thats wot it's all about.... (i guess...)
I dunno since when.... i'm juz too scared to make a quick decision and taking risks...
it can take me ages to decide on buying sumthing that i know i really like... and it can ended up not buying it at all.... for example a parfume from the body shop.... i really like sum scents... and i couldnt decide which one i should pick.... and until now i havent picked one....
i have a reason for this tho... for me, perfume is sumthing that is really personal....
i want it to express my personality.... that's why i'm so careful in choosing it...
anyway, that's about me and my problems.... :p
wanna say sumthing too? pls post your comment in the comment box provided.... thx.... ^_^
English...
Hey! I'm at uni now... finished my lecture half an hr earlier.... so i thought why don't i write down sumthing on my blog... ^^
Firstly, i wanna say sorry to ppl who's have a look at my blog and dissapointed coz u cant understand it... i know i should've write it in english.... but sumtimes i juz couldnt find the right word in english... then, i started to write in indo... but from now on.... i will try harder to write more in english for u ppl!!! ^^
anyway.... i can't wait for the holiday.... it's 2days to go!!!!
alsoo cant wait for the retreat.... i'll go to (ummm... forgot wot it's called :p), it's sumwhere out of the city... i need a break from the city's bz-ness.... :p
ok, i gtg now.... my next lec will start in 5 minutes... cya!!! ^^
Firstly, i wanna say sorry to ppl who's have a look at my blog and dissapointed coz u cant understand it... i know i should've write it in english.... but sumtimes i juz couldnt find the right word in english... then, i started to write in indo... but from now on.... i will try harder to write more in english for u ppl!!! ^^
anyway.... i can't wait for the holiday.... it's 2days to go!!!!
alsoo cant wait for the retreat.... i'll go to (ummm... forgot wot it's called :p), it's sumwhere out of the city... i need a break from the city's bz-ness.... :p
ok, i gtg now.... my next lec will start in 5 minutes... cya!!! ^^
Saturday, April 08, 2006
oNLiNe..
Yeee!!! dah bisa online lagi!!! pake kompie gw ndiri loh!!! ^^
walau cuma buat sementara... tetep aja seneng bgt!!! ^^
Hari ini gw seharian ngutak2 komputer melanie n punya tara.. punya mereka internetnya dah bisa jalan... tp punya gw blom bisa... eeehhh, ga twnya skrg dah bisa!!! ^^ seneng abies!!! ^^
mulai sekarang (hopefully) gw bisa lebih sering kirim posting2 deh ^^ i really wanna share my happiness with someone... but no one is at home atm... so.... i send this post, so that i can share it to all of u! ^^ hehehe :p
dah dulu deh ya, mo belajar dulu nih, senen selasa ada midtest, tp blom bljr, gara2 seharian ngutak ngatik kompie...
(kayaknya gw seharusnya belajar IT ato comp sci deh... hehehe :p)
walau cuma buat sementara... tetep aja seneng bgt!!! ^^
Hari ini gw seharian ngutak2 komputer melanie n punya tara.. punya mereka internetnya dah bisa jalan... tp punya gw blom bisa... eeehhh, ga twnya skrg dah bisa!!! ^^ seneng abies!!! ^^
mulai sekarang (hopefully) gw bisa lebih sering kirim posting2 deh ^^ i really wanna share my happiness with someone... but no one is at home atm... so.... i send this post, so that i can share it to all of u! ^^ hehehe :p
dah dulu deh ya, mo belajar dulu nih, senen selasa ada midtest, tp blom bljr, gara2 seharian ngutak ngatik kompie...
(kayaknya gw seharusnya belajar IT ato comp sci deh... hehehe :p)
DiABoLo
Hey, i learned sumthin new yesterday @ ICM...
I learned to play DIABOLO!!! I guess most of u have never heard of it... neither have i... till last nite.... ^^
Here is the picture.... I guess u've seen it before... especially if u've watched a circus before... (if u r interested to find more info bout it... u can click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diabolo)
Anyway, it's fun for me... thanks for Soni who has introduced it to me... ^^
I learned to play DIABOLO!!! I guess most of u have never heard of it... neither have i... till last nite.... ^^
Here is the picture.... I guess u've seen it before... especially if u've watched a circus before... (if u r interested to find more info bout it... u can click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diabolo)
Anyway, it's fun for me... thanks for Soni who has introduced it to me... ^^
Thursday, April 06, 2006
I've had a bad day...
Ihhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sebel... sebel....sebel.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bego bgt sih gw!!!!!
Pernah ga sih?! Dalam satu hari ngerasa itu adalah a good day... and suddenly... juz becoz u forgot to validate your ticket, all of a sudden it turns to a very22222 BAD day!!!!
Wot i hate most is that i can not blame anyone, coz it's my own fault!!!
WOt on earth was on my mind??!!! how come i forgot??!!!
n how come that guy came to me and check my ticket at the exact time when i forgot to validate it??!!! where were you when i have a validated ticket??!!! DAMN!!!
now... i dunno wot's gonna happen to me.... juz have to wait and see... and prepare sum money.... (to pay the fine....) T_T hiks...
sebel... sebel....sebel.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bego bgt sih gw!!!!!
Pernah ga sih?! Dalam satu hari ngerasa itu adalah a good day... and suddenly... juz becoz u forgot to validate your ticket, all of a sudden it turns to a very22222 BAD day!!!!
Wot i hate most is that i can not blame anyone, coz it's my own fault!!!
WOt on earth was on my mind??!!! how come i forgot??!!!
n how come that guy came to me and check my ticket at the exact time when i forgot to validate it??!!! where were you when i have a validated ticket??!!! DAMN!!!
now... i dunno wot's gonna happen to me.... juz have to wait and see... and prepare sum money.... (to pay the fine....) T_T hiks...
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
My Diary
This is something i extract from my diary...
Kenapa??? (by Novy 10/6/05)
Kenapa ya seorang manusia tuh ga pernah puas akan apa yg dy punya?
Knapa ya?? Aku ga tw mo bilang apa... sebagai seorang manusia, aku tidak punya jawabannya.... walaupun aku sendiri mengalaminya....
Aku tidak pernah puas karena aku adalah aku....
Kadang aku ingin jadi seperti dia...
Padahal dia dan aku itu berbeda...
Dan perbedaan yg ada itu ada karena suatu alasan...
Bukan kebetulan...
Yang menciptakan aku dan dia berpendapat bahwa perbedaan itu baik...
Tapi kenapa yg diciptakan malah tidak suka???
Padahal yg mencipta tau yg terbaik bagi yg diciptakan....
Aneehhh....
Aku tau aku ini seperti ini karena inilah yg terbaik bagiku....
Tapi kok aku kadang tdk suka ya?
Aku mau jadi lebih pintar (tapi males belajar...)
Aku mau jadi lebih baik dari org lain...
Aku mau jadi lebih sukses dari org lain...
Aku mau jadi lebih cantik dari org lain....
Aku mau jadi lebih kaya dari org lain...
Aku mau jadi lebih hebat dari org lain (sombong bener....)
Aku mau jadi LEBIH!!!!
Kenapa???
Kenapa aku ga puas aja sama keadaanku sekarang?
Alasannya org yg puas dengan keadaannya itu ga punya ambisi...
Ga punya tujuan hidup...
Tp klo aku sudah jadi lebih, mau apa aku nanti?
Akankah aku kehilangan tujuan hidupku?
Memangnya apa sih tujuan hidupku?
Kenapa aku mau lebih?
Padahal yg mencipta aku bilang aku itu sudah lebih dari ‘lebih’...
Aku ini sudah sempurna dimataNya wkt aku diciptakan...
Yg menyedihkan lagi...
Apa yg aku mau lebih, adalah hal2 duniawi...
Kenapa aku tidak pernah mau jadi lebih dekat denganNya?
Kenapa aku tidak pernah mau jadi lebih mengasihiNya?
Kenapa aku tidak pernah mau jadi lebih mengenalNya?
Itulah tujuan hidupku....
Tapi kenapa aku malah tidak pernah mau???
Aneehhh...
Kenapa??? (by Novy 10/6/05)
Kenapa ya seorang manusia tuh ga pernah puas akan apa yg dy punya?
Knapa ya?? Aku ga tw mo bilang apa... sebagai seorang manusia, aku tidak punya jawabannya.... walaupun aku sendiri mengalaminya....
Aku tidak pernah puas karena aku adalah aku....
Kadang aku ingin jadi seperti dia...
Padahal dia dan aku itu berbeda...
Dan perbedaan yg ada itu ada karena suatu alasan...
Bukan kebetulan...
Yang menciptakan aku dan dia berpendapat bahwa perbedaan itu baik...
Tapi kenapa yg diciptakan malah tidak suka???
Padahal yg mencipta tau yg terbaik bagi yg diciptakan....
Aneehhh....
Aku tau aku ini seperti ini karena inilah yg terbaik bagiku....
Tapi kok aku kadang tdk suka ya?
Aku mau jadi lebih pintar (tapi males belajar...)
Aku mau jadi lebih baik dari org lain...
Aku mau jadi lebih sukses dari org lain...
Aku mau jadi lebih cantik dari org lain....
Aku mau jadi lebih kaya dari org lain...
Aku mau jadi lebih hebat dari org lain (sombong bener....)
Aku mau jadi LEBIH!!!!
Kenapa???
Kenapa aku ga puas aja sama keadaanku sekarang?
Alasannya org yg puas dengan keadaannya itu ga punya ambisi...
Ga punya tujuan hidup...
Tp klo aku sudah jadi lebih, mau apa aku nanti?
Akankah aku kehilangan tujuan hidupku?
Memangnya apa sih tujuan hidupku?
Kenapa aku mau lebih?
Padahal yg mencipta aku bilang aku itu sudah lebih dari ‘lebih’...
Aku ini sudah sempurna dimataNya wkt aku diciptakan...
Yg menyedihkan lagi...
Apa yg aku mau lebih, adalah hal2 duniawi...
Kenapa aku tidak pernah mau jadi lebih dekat denganNya?
Kenapa aku tidak pernah mau jadi lebih mengasihiNya?
Kenapa aku tidak pernah mau jadi lebih mengenalNya?
Itulah tujuan hidupku....
Tapi kenapa aku malah tidak pernah mau???
Aneehhh...
....
I've juz got home.... tonite is so windy and cold outside... it's not winter yet and i can't stand the cold already... how will i cope with the winter in Melbourne??!!!
Anyway... i woke up late this morning... hahaha... it's my 1st time in Melbourne... so practically, i missed 1 of my lecture tday... fortunately, it wasnt very important... juz sum IT stuff.... i guess i'm gonna be late more often from now on.... :p
Yesterday... i spent most of my afternoon talking to my friend in indo on the phone.... and now.... i dunno wot to do... it doesnt mean i dun have anything to do... i juz dont wanna do it... i sort of losing my purpose... i dunno why i chose to move to this place.... i dunno why i'm taking this course... i dunno why i'm here??!!! have u ever been in my situation?? where u think that it's not really wot ur heart tells u.... but u still keep go on.... coz u juz cant really turn back anymore...
hfff... i dunno.... my life seems more complicated than it's ever been... i sort of running out of time now... i cant find peace anymore.... i need peace... i need a break... i need sumthing.... but i dunno wot that is... it's the "shadow" in my dream...
Anyway... i woke up late this morning... hahaha... it's my 1st time in Melbourne... so practically, i missed 1 of my lecture tday... fortunately, it wasnt very important... juz sum IT stuff.... i guess i'm gonna be late more often from now on.... :p
Yesterday... i spent most of my afternoon talking to my friend in indo on the phone.... and now.... i dunno wot to do... it doesnt mean i dun have anything to do... i juz dont wanna do it... i sort of losing my purpose... i dunno why i chose to move to this place.... i dunno why i'm taking this course... i dunno why i'm here??!!! have u ever been in my situation?? where u think that it's not really wot ur heart tells u.... but u still keep go on.... coz u juz cant really turn back anymore...
hfff... i dunno.... my life seems more complicated than it's ever been... i sort of running out of time now... i cant find peace anymore.... i need peace... i need a break... i need sumthing.... but i dunno wot that is... it's the "shadow" in my dream...
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
pernah ga???
Lu pada pernah ga sih?? yg suka ma co/ce... trusnya, temen baek lu ternyata suka juga ma org yg sama... trus ternyata lagi, hal yg paling nyesek tuh.... co/ce itu malah suka ma temen baek lu!!! DAMN banget kan??!! Itu rasanya dah kayak di tusuk dari belakang trus ketimpa tangga pula... hehehe :p
Barusan, ada temen gw curhat soal "love life"-nya... kejadiannya sama kayak yg di atas... gw juga ga tw mo bantu gimana... soalnya emang ga ada yg bisa gw lakuin... dah dari dulu gw bilang ama dy buat lupain tuh co... tp emang ngomong itu lebih gampang daripada prakteknya... :p Sampe skrg, dy masi ga bisa lupain... n ternyata tuh co malah suka ma ce laen yg (sialnya!!) temen baeknya dy ndiri!!! Emang sih, temen baeknya itu lebih cantik, lebih feminin.... lebih segala2nya deh... she's the type of girl yg co2 ga bakal bisa tolak... tp knp ya?? kita seringkali liat org dari luarnya aja??? gw ga bisa nyalahin co selalu cari ce yg "cantik"... soalnya ce ndiri juga klo milih co, pasti liat luarnya dulu juga.... gw cuma sedih aja buat temen gw... mgkn mustinya gw ga bole sedih buat dy... soalnya who knows, sebenernya Tuhan dah ngerencanain sesuatu yg lebih baik dari yg bisa manusia liat n bayangin... we never know...
Barusan, ada temen gw curhat soal "love life"-nya... kejadiannya sama kayak yg di atas... gw juga ga tw mo bantu gimana... soalnya emang ga ada yg bisa gw lakuin... dah dari dulu gw bilang ama dy buat lupain tuh co... tp emang ngomong itu lebih gampang daripada prakteknya... :p Sampe skrg, dy masi ga bisa lupain... n ternyata tuh co malah suka ma ce laen yg (sialnya!!) temen baeknya dy ndiri!!! Emang sih, temen baeknya itu lebih cantik, lebih feminin.... lebih segala2nya deh... she's the type of girl yg co2 ga bakal bisa tolak... tp knp ya?? kita seringkali liat org dari luarnya aja??? gw ga bisa nyalahin co selalu cari ce yg "cantik"... soalnya ce ndiri juga klo milih co, pasti liat luarnya dulu juga.... gw cuma sedih aja buat temen gw... mgkn mustinya gw ga bole sedih buat dy... soalnya who knows, sebenernya Tuhan dah ngerencanain sesuatu yg lebih baik dari yg bisa manusia liat n bayangin... we never know...
MuLeS... >_<
Adduuuhhh... mules nih... kayaknya gw salah makan nih hari ini.... >_<
Hari ini mayan dingin, tp ga kayak kemaren.. trus, gara2 hari ini rada dingin... gw jadi kepengen bikin cookies.... trus, pas gw crita ke Tara... dy mendukung gw buat bikin... akhirnya, gw pulang dr uni, lgs bikin cookies deh.... tp kayaknya gw salah beli butter n kayaknya kurang flour juga.. jadinya menurut gw sih rada bantet.... enak sih... tp... bikin gw jadi mules... Duuuhhh!!! jangan2 food poisoning nih.... huehehe ^^ (kok dah keracunan masi bisa ketawa ya?!)
Oiya, hari ini kan assignment Aust Agriculture gw dah selese... dah gw handed in... trus... jadi ngerasa rada bebas deh... (padahal masi belom tuh... masi bnyk tugas...) Trus ada yg ngajakin nonton V for Vendetta... ato apa gitu... pokoknya yg ada V-nya... hehehe... tp tuh org bilang kayaknya ga jadi... jadinya gw blom tw deh bakal nonton ato ga...
duuhhh... sakit perut... >_<
Hari ini mayan dingin, tp ga kayak kemaren.. trus, gara2 hari ini rada dingin... gw jadi kepengen bikin cookies.... trus, pas gw crita ke Tara... dy mendukung gw buat bikin... akhirnya, gw pulang dr uni, lgs bikin cookies deh.... tp kayaknya gw salah beli butter n kayaknya kurang flour juga.. jadinya menurut gw sih rada bantet.... enak sih... tp... bikin gw jadi mules... Duuuhhh!!! jangan2 food poisoning nih.... huehehe ^^ (kok dah keracunan masi bisa ketawa ya?!)
Oiya, hari ini kan assignment Aust Agriculture gw dah selese... dah gw handed in... trus... jadi ngerasa rada bebas deh... (padahal masi belom tuh... masi bnyk tugas...) Trus ada yg ngajakin nonton V for Vendetta... ato apa gitu... pokoknya yg ada V-nya... hehehe... tp tuh org bilang kayaknya ga jadi... jadinya gw blom tw deh bakal nonton ato ga...
duuhhh... sakit perut... >_<
Saturday, April 01, 2006
ApRiL..
GUeSs wot?!! it's the 1st day of April todaY!!! ^^
i dunno why, i always feel excited when April comes... i guess becoz it means the holiday is getting closer... the easter is closer... and my BDAY is coming soon!!! hehehe ^^
I juz like April so much... anything which is related to April....
If i'm not mistaken, on the other side of the world... (i mean US)... the spring is started in April... that's why, i associate April with new life... ^^ bright colours... new spirit.... etc...
btw, it's also an April fool day today! i've juz realised that... hehehe ^^
i dunno why, i always feel excited when April comes... i guess becoz it means the holiday is getting closer... the easter is closer... and my BDAY is coming soon!!! hehehe ^^
I juz like April so much... anything which is related to April....
If i'm not mistaken, on the other side of the world... (i mean US)... the spring is started in April... that's why, i associate April with new life... ^^ bright colours... new spirit.... etc...
btw, it's also an April fool day today! i've juz realised that... hehehe ^^
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