weight loss vs character change...

hari ini, ada yg comment klo gw kurusan... (senangnya!!)
err.. malesh ga seh?? hahaha... well, sebenernya biasa aja sih...
tp ada senengnya juga, artinya gw berhasil mempertahankan pola makan yg nykp gw coba jejelin wkt gw di indo... hahaha... (ma, nv berhasil so far!! ^^)

Hmm... sebenernya ga planning nulis ini sih... tp tiba2 aja kepengen...
lagi mikir ttg relationship antara weight loss n perubahan karakter...
(suka mikir yg ga penting sih emang... hahaha)
yg pasti, persamaan yg bisa gw temuin di keduanya adalah,
dua2nya butuh process, ga terjadi instantly... en kadang kita ga nyadar, tp org di sekitar kita yg bakal notice duluan....

Hmm.. intinya sih, gw cuma pengen bikin org2 yg baca ini blog ikutan mikir....
en sadar akan hal ini...
mgkn ada dari kita yg niat bgt nurunin berat badan (for whateva reason), tp nyoba dengan cara2 yg instant.... it might work for a while, tp akhirannya pasti bakal balik lagi... u/ ilangin berat badan en lemak2 yg numpuk itu, diperluin a constant work... olahraga yg teratur, pola makan yg bener yg dilakuin continuously... gitu juga dengan perubahan karakter ke arah yg lebih baik... ga bakal terjadi dalam sekejap mata... diperluin process yg kadang suka ga enak... tp itulah yg ngebentuk karakter kita jadi lebih kuat en kokoh, ga gampang goyah en balik ke karakter yg lama... so.... pesen gw... jangan pernah capek, don't ever give up.... apapun usaha kita, pasti akan membuahkan hasil suatu saat nanti... hehehe :p

top secret: you are special

Hey!!!
i can't wait to tell you a big secret...
it might not make your life smoother... but hopefully it will make you a little bit happier... ^_^

I've known of this secret for so long, i juz hv never really thought about it yet... and it kindda get lost sumwhere in my head...
this morning, it suddenly came to my mind... and the secret is...

You are special
coz you are...
YOU!!!

As simple as that!!! have u ever realise that??
The bible said, God loves us for who we are.... and it also said that we are special in His eyes... that means we are special in His eyes... YES!! you and me!!!
What can you ask for more??

Ok, now, don't keep this secret to yourself....
share it with others as well... ^_^
have a good day... no, i shud say, have special day... :D
or.... maybe i shud say, have an eXtraOrdinary day!!! ^_^

ps: need more explanation?? juz leave a comment on this posting...

be positive!!

it's been a bz day for me.... well, actually i didnt do much... but my mind wondered a lot.... hahaha.. ^_^

hari ini, ga tw napa, rasanya mood gw mayan oke deh... mgkn karena kmrn dah bete seharian... jadinya hari ini negatif2nya dah abis... hehehe...
tp kayaknya negatipnya gw jadi nular ke org2 laen deh... hehehe :p

anyway, hari ini tuh anzac day di Aussie...
kata temen gw sih, di jalanan td pagi rame bgt, tp berhubung gw seharian di rumah, gw ga tw... pas sore sih emang bny org, tp pasti ga serame anzac day parade...
hari ini, gw banyak merhatiin detail loh, ga tw knp.... en lebih enteng aja perasaannya... lebih gampang senyum... :)

td supir tramnya lucu deh... bikin org2 ketawa... :)
trusnya pas jalan di southgate, yg maen gitar suaranya enak.. lagunya juga enak...
trus langit cerah, udaranya adem....
trusnya... gw lagi seneng aja.. ^_^
mgkn karena pada akhirnya most things are under my control...
assignments gw masi banyak sih, tpnya gw dah ga lost lagi kayak kmrn2...
gw mulai tw musti ngapain... well, moga2 sih positipnya ga hari ini aja...
hehehe :p

udah ah.. musti lanjut lagi...
buat yg sempet gw bikin bete, jangan bete ama gw lama2 ya... en sori....
i'll try to change... ^_^

everlasting love...

pada suatu sore... gw lagi liat2 buku di suatu book shop...
trus, terjadilah conversation between gw en si penjaga bookshop (namanya Ian)...

Ian: i've read a book written by an indian priest, who write about why the marriage in india has a lower case of divorce compare to americans...
Gw: (manggut2)
Ian: he wrote that in India, most marriages are arrange marriage, the couple dont love each other at the beginning, they dont even know each other. Therefore the couple realise that they need to work hard to make their marriage works and results from that they start to know, understand and love each other...
While in America, it's the other way around... they love each other before they decided to get married... after they get married, they never really work thru their marriage, so they ended up lost their love and passion to each other...
Gw: hmmm... an interesting explanation...

Gw ga pernah sih kepikiran ttg hal tsb... tp, it makes sense sih... gw jadi inget ama blog yg pernah gw baca... yg nulis ttg love tank itu musti di isi terus.... klo pada awal relationship love tank itu penuh, during the relationship pasti bakal ada minus2nya... nah, pada wkt ada minusnya, kita musti nambahin lagi lovenya biar jadi penuh lagi... (tanki cinta by Windra S.)... jadi... yg namanya everlasting love tuh, ga mustahil, but we need to work hard for it...

complicated...

people said it is simple,
but i made it complicated...

i don't really understand myself sumtimes....
i don't really know where to go...
i don't really know what to do...
and i don't really know how i should be...

what i do know is that...
i need Your guidance Lord
i need Your love
i need You...
and You are MORE than enough to me...

sunset @uni

skrg gw lagi di uni... en ga seharusnya gw nulis di blog, tp lagi pengen... karena otak gw lagi hang, jadi ga bisa dipake buat nulis yg berat2 kayak assignment... hehehe alesan bgt ya??

Ga berasa, skrg dah mulai winter nih di Melb... mulai dingin.... kmrn aja max 20 derajat... hari ini sih ok lah, max 25... tp skrg baru jam 5 lwt dah mo sunset... langit dah mulai merah... artinya, mulai skrg, gw bakal banyak tidur lagi deh.. hehehe (kayak biasanya ga pernah banyak tdr aja...)

Pengen cerita neh... masi berkisar ttg ultah gw... suasananya masi berasa neh... abisnya kmrn, abis peka, ternyata ada yg bawa kue ultah buat gw... which means, kue ke-4 gw... trus gw dapet kado yg paling besar dari smua kado yg gw pernah terima... it is... LOYANG KUE!!! hehehe ^_^ gw seneng bgt!!! ga ngerti kan knp gw bisa seneng bgt?? ya iya lah!! gimana ga seneng coba?? akhirnya gw bisa punya loyang kue sendiri... lengkap pula!! dari loyang cookies, loyang muffin, sampe loyang bolu smuanya ada... bener2, it's another surprise for me!! gw ga pernah kepikiran bakal ada yg ngasi gw loyang kue... thanks a lot guys!!! gw usahain, begitu assignment gw selese, gw bakal bikin kue lagi deh... hehehe ^_^ jadi semangat neh bikin kue... dah lama bgt gw ga pernah menyentuh mixer en loyang2 kue yg sering jadi sahabat gw klo gw lagi stress... (btw, gw klo stress, biasanya bikin kue buat refreshing.. tp skrg lagi bener2 ga ada wkt n tenaga.. -_-)

hmm... apalagi ya?? gw punya sih banyak hal yg pengen gw ketik...
ttg hidup gw... kemaren ini, gw turn 20... which means gw ga bisa lagi ngaku2 "teenager"... artinya gw musti lebi responsible ama sikap n perkataan gw... bukan lagi kayak teenager yg bisa semaunya ndiri...
trus... pas ultah gw, ada yg ngasi gw kartu en isinya bilang gini, "it's a blessing to know you"... sumhow, it touched me... seumur hidup, kayaknya belom pernah ada org yg bilang gt ke gw... mgkn pernah ada yg bilang how lucky they are to know me... but ga pernah ada org yg bilang mereka felt blessed... en suatu kalimat yg singkat itu, tiba2 bikin gw nyadar en mikir... gw serasa dibangunin dari tidur gw... gw jadi bertanya2 dalem hati... "is it true??"... selama 20 taon ini gw hidup di dunia ini, seberapa sering sih gw make pemberian Tuhan ini buat jadi blessings buat org laen?? gw berasa, yg ada juga, gw cuma bisanya bikin susah org laen doank... tp i'm glad sih, klo emang org yg nulis kartu itu really mean what he/she wrote... that means, at least, dari sekian banyak org yg pernah gw lalui hidupnya, ada satu org yg mendapat blessing melalui gw.. :)

surprise!!!

Melbourne, 14 April 2007

Tanggal di pojok kiri atas adalah hasil rekayasa belaka.... hehehe :p
Iya nih... sebenernya gw pengennya nulis pas the end of the day on 14 April 2007, tpnya gw kecapekan en ga sempet buat nulis karena gw ketiduran begitu pulang dari foundation... hehehe...

Well, spt yg sebagian dari kalian tw, gw ber-ultah 2 hari yg lalu... en i was too tired to expect anything from my friends... yg ada di kepala gw tuh Cuma tugas en istirahat... i dont even remember about it klo ga ada yg ingetin en ngungkit2...

So, gini ceritanya... pada malem sebelom 14 april, gw lagi nyoba ngerjain assignment gw... tp akhirnya gw ngantuk en decided buat tdr beberapa jam en bangun subuh2... nah, akhirnya gw tdr jam 11an... ehhh tengah malem, hp gw bergetar2 membangunkan gw, ternyata telpon n sms dari temen2 buat ngucapin “hepi bday”... so, gw accept en gw tdr lagi.... gw merem-melek2 berkali2 gara2 hp yg bergetar... trusnya, gw mencoba buat tdr lagi... sebelom gw sempet terlelap, tiba2 ada yg buka pintu kamar gw, en dengan kurang ajarnya masuk kamar en narik selimut gw!!! Reflex gw lgs ngeluh, “Gw masi mo tdr!!!” >_< Guys, klo kalian niat surprise-in gw... kalian berhasil telak!!! Hahaha... thx bgt ya... i really didnt expect anything... it was so sweet that kalian capek2 abis nganter Poink, masi sempet2nya singgah buat ngebangunin gw... ^_^ Begitu bgn, gw lgs disodorin kue yg dah berlilin... dan gw dipaksa buat niup sebelom lilinnya abis... trus ga tw gimana, tw2 kuenya dah terpotong2 en lenyap... hahaha... Ini surprise buat gw yg pertama...

Trusnya... temen2 pada pulang, gw berkutat dengan assignment lagi... gw stay mpe 5am en ketdran... bgn lagi dah jam 7am en dah saatnya buat ke kampus, karena gw ada dairy prac... hari itu bener2 special!!! Biasanya gw ga ada kelas pas sabtu, tp i guess karena hari itu bday gw, jadi ada kelas d... hahaha... Kelasnya mayan ok sih... walo otak gw masi rada konslet karena kurang tdr... kita evaluate pizza cheese en ended up makan pizza en ice cream, disertai soft drinks...

Selese kelas, gw masi ada group meeting... karena selama easter break kelompok gw ga meeting, jadinya kita meeting en catch up yg ketinggalan pas sabtu itu... Tak di expect lagi... ternyata temen2 gw yg dr RmiT juga nyiapin kue buat gw!!! Oh tidak!!! Bener2 deh, kok bisa ya gw KENA dua kali!?! Thank you all!!! Appreciate it so much!! Apalagi buat VQ yg dah repot2 pergi beli kue en minjem piso, en felix yg dengan muka tebal minta tissue ke cafe... hehehe :p That was the 2nd surprise...

Trusnya... gw stay di library smp jam 4an, trus pulang...
Otw pulang, ada temen gw yg namanya Angga nelpon... ternyata dy lagi di ct juga, en ngajakin jalan bareng ke arah greja... berhubung rmh dy di Burwood, greja gw di Glenferrie, katanya sih lewat... gw pikir, oke juga lah.... jadi gw ga usah naek train... (i thought it’s gonna be faster)... trusnya ternyata gw malah telat setengah jam buat foundation... trusnya guess what?! Si Angga tuh emang deh, dasaaarrr... dy ngajakin jalan bareng soalnya mo ngasi kado.... really, it’s another surprise for me... ga expect aja dy bakal niat bgt ngasi kado pas hari itu juga, padahal senen kan masi bisa ketemu... tp gpp deh, dah dianterin mpe greja dg selamat.. hehehe :p thx ya Ga... ^_^

Trusnya, the last one... Abis foundation, tw2 Ci Lenny berjalan membawa kue yg berlilin ke arah gw, en tiba2 smua org sang “happy bday”... (Yg gw ga ngerti, kok gw bisa sih dodol bgt?! Ga kepikiran en ga curiga ama skali loh!!! Gw ga nyangka 4-5 meter di depan gw ada kue... hahaha)

Tengkiuuuu so much ppl!!! All i can say is my bday wasnt special till u guys made it special... ^_^ sampe temen2 yg dari Brisbane aja niat2in nelp gw... thx bgt loh ya... :)

PS: buat Xty, thx ya kadonya... buat Lukman n Ci Lenny, thx celengannya.... kebetulan bgt gw lagi butuh satu... jadi musti mulai nabung neh... hehehe :p trus buat smuanya yg ngasi gw kalung, thx juga ya... moga2 gw ga lupa make pas jumat... trus, buat yg ngasi gw gelang, thx juga :) oiya, buat melanie, thx coklatnya... enak bgt!! ^_^ last but not least, buat Angga, thx cd Norah Jones-nya... enak bgt!! :)

a Christian..

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean living.'"
I'm whispering "I was lost,
now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

bertambah usia...

hmm... here i am again... di malam hari tanggal 13 april.... malam sebelom usia gw resmi bertambah satu... hehehe :p

well, sebenernya ga ada yg special sih.... gw bener2 berasa biasa aja.... even gw sempet lupa, klo bukan gara2 temen2 gw yg ngingetin... ato nykp gw yg mengungkit2... karena, bsk tuh gw bakal ngejalanin rutinitas gw kayak biasa... mana ada kelas lagi!! tp gpp, di kelas bsk, gw bakal nyicip2 keju lagi... tp kejunya bakalan pizza cheese, jadi i guess selese kelas, kita bakal makan2 pizza... hahaha... serunya...

trus ya, td mgkn tampang gw serem bgt kali ya?? mgkn gw keliatan capek n cemberut... ada 2 hal yg bikin gw jadi seneng en start to get excited... hal kecil sih... yg pertama, td gw jalan pulang dari greja, 5 menit lagi trainnya dtg, jadinya gw buru2 gt... trus jarang2, ada org tak dikenal nyapa gw n senyum gt ke gw... tuh co nanya, "hey, how r u?"... simple sih... tp bikin gw seneng.. even tuh org ga kenal gw, ada gt yg peduli ama gw... :) trusnya, pas di lift wkt mo ke atas... ada 2 org bule gt... trus mereka turun satu lantai sebelom gw, trus sebelom keluar dari lift org yg atunya bilang, "have a good nite" ke gw... again... simple thing that made me smile... :)

Gw thank God aja... saat rasanya hidup ini biasa aja, datar aja... Dia selalu ingetin gw... klo gw ini special di mataNya... buktinya, Dia dah nunjukin careNya melalui org2 di sekitar gw... walo org2 itu ga kenal gw, n gw ga kenal mereka... :)

eXtraOrdinary...

Gw baru aja balik dari ret2 di Goldcoast (QLD)... begitu balik, 1jam kemudian gw dah berada di uni, en 2 jam kemudian, gw dah berada di dalem lecture room... (rajin kan gw???) huehehe :p

Anyway.... banyak sih yg pengen gw bagiin dari pengalaman di ret2 ini, cuma klo gw ceritain smuanya, kayaknya yg baca bakal berkunang2 deh matanya saking panjangnya...
Basically, intinya, kita itu sebagai manusia yg normal, seharusnya punya hidup yg XO (extra ordinary)... klo kita suka ngerasa bosen ama hidup yg biasa2 aja, datar2 aja.... itu artinya, sudah saatnya bagi kita untuk berubah (to change)... berubah yg seperti apa?? yaah berubah yg semakin menyerupai image pencipta kita (imago dei)...
Well, segitu deh summary singkat tentang apa yg gw dapet di ret2.. hehehe :p

Pas ret2, smua yg diajarin sih berasa oke2 aja... rasanya it's not too hard to gain an XO life... tp... pas dah balik ke kehidupan sehari2... berasa bgt susahnya... susah bgt nyari wkt u/ sate... susah bgt nyelipin wkt buat stop n think n be thankful for what He's done... ga gampang emang, tp pasti bisa deh... moga2 aja api smangatnya ga ilang tertiup badai kehidupan... hehehe :p

we often think that we are just ordinary people,
but with God, we can gain extraodinary lives...

10 things that make me smile :)

1. A blue sky with bright sun shine :)
2. somebody smiling back at me :)
3. a message from an old friend :)
4. a phone call from a friend :)
5. nice homemade food (by my mum) :)
6. to see my family :)
7. to be able to spend time with my friends :)
8. opening old photo albums :)
9. silly memories :)
10. to see the ones i love happy :)

felt worn out....

rasanya tepar bgt gw hari ini...
padahal ga ngapa2in...
gw lagi mellow bgt nih...

pernah ga sih, ngerasa pengen ditemenin, tp pengen sendiri juga??
sebenernya gw ga lagi lonely2 bgt, tp rasanya sepi...
tp gw juga lagi ga pengen rame2...
pengennya ngindarin org...
lagi pengen diem aja...
knp ya?? ga gw bgt gt loh!! hahaha...
pengen ngontakin org2, tp takut ganggu...
lagian, gw dah ga ada tenaga buat ngomong,
en ga pny konsentrasi buat dengerin....
kayaknya, di saat2 kayak gini, yg harus gw lakuin a/ tidur...
ga usah banyak mikir... hahaha...

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the full moon shines brightly in the night sky
and i'm here, wondering why my heart felt dark and empty

24 hours...

For me, 24 hours in a day is not enuf...
Today's been a long day for me... guess what?! i didn't realise that tomorrow is sunday, till my housemate told me so... i guess, i need a rest... too bz today....
I've tried my best to allocate my time... for study... for church... for family.. for friends... and for those who are special to me... but, it seemed that i havent been doing a good job...
Sometimes, i want to be in more than one place at the same time... i wanted to be with my friends, but also wanted to be with my family (which is imposible).... i really tried my best to give my time for my friends, for those who i cared about... but... am i wrong if i ask sumtime for myself?? I need sumtime for me.... i need my "novy time"... lately, i felt a bit exhausted... apart from my lack of sleep, i think the other reason is the lack of my "novy time"... hehehe :p

anyway, basically, i juz wanted to say sorry to my friends and to whom i care about if i can't spend enuf time wif u guys... i've tried my best tho... that's why i said 24 hours in a day is not enuf... if i could, i would choose to spend my whole time wif you....

keletihankuw...

capek!!!.... (ga boleh ngeluh!!)
hehehe :p

iya nih, ga tw knp (sebenernya tw sih knp :p), cpk bgt...
pengen tdr, tp ga bs tdr... kayaknya kelamaan depan kompie en kelamaan di library ga baek u/ kesehatan... hahaha...

hari ini, berasa sibuk bgt.. jam 10.30 baru nyampe rumah...
dingin bgt malem ini... u/ gw bawa jaket...
pegel bgt badan gw... mgkn karena tas yg berat... (lagi2 ngeluh) hahaha...

kangen bgt ama rumah...
klo di rumah ada mama yg bisa mijit gw...
ada kehangatan.... ada org yg nunggu gw pulang...
di sini... no one really cares... (well, ada sih... :p)

hari ini pengen say thanks to my friends...
thx buat yg nemenin gw di library,
thx buat yg nemenin gw di telpon sambil jalan pulang,
thx yg dah nganterin makanan buat dinner (the macroni was so yummy!!),
thx buat yg dah ngusahain dateng buat do assignment together...
thx juga buat yg mencoba buat nelp tp ga bisa msk karena gw lagi pake telp... hehehe :p
thx buat yg dah nemenin gw smsan sebelom tdr...
wifout u all, hidup gw bakalan sepi...
berkat kalian lah, biarpun gw capek2 en tepar hari ini,
gw masi bisa senyum keesokan harinya.. thx ya ^_^

today...

pengen cerita!!!
hari ini... a lot happening in my life... dari bangun tdr... sampe skrg... gw rasanya blm sempet yg bener2 ga sibuk....
gw bangun siang hari ini... klo ga salah jam 10an gt.... lumayan lah, tidurnya nambah satu jam karena day light saving dah abis.... hehehe ^_^
trusnya gw sarapan, mandi, en tidak lama kemudian, temen gw dateng karena mo minjem alat2 buat bbq... trusnya dy ngobrol2 dulu ama gw gt... jadi gw ga bisa ngapa2in en stuck ama dy for 30 menitan...
lalu, gw berasa laper lagi, so gw lunch... en ga kerasa, it's time for me to go to church...
ya udah, gw pegi deh dari rumah... lalu, gw nyoba rute laen... gw naek city circle tram, lalu ke parliement... (pertama kalinya gw ke parliement stn)...
trus, sampe di glenferrie, gw jalan secepet mgkn ke greja, karena gw supposed to nyiapin afternoon tea... plus ushering... tp untungnya dah di siapin ama Imel (thx mel ^_^)... trusnya sepanjang kebaktian, mgkn karena dingin en gw tugas juga, rasanya rada ga tenang gt... ga tw deh....
trusnya abis greja, gw juga sibuk beres2 sisa2 afternoon tea... lalu tdnya yg mo lgs pulang, ga jadi... karena mo nengok vivin dulu di rumah sakit.. (dy baru aja ngelahirin kemaren loh!!!)... anaknya cakep bgt!!!! ^_^
tpnya sebelom nyampe rumah sakit, ada ceritanya nih... mobil Imel yg gw tumpangin, bannya kempes en parah bgt yg kita dah ga bisa jalan lagi... so, musti nungguin adenya Imel dateng buat gantiin ban... the good point is, kita smua pada belajar caranya ganti ban mobil... hahaha... klo negativenya.. yaaa gw yg niatnya mo pulang cepet, malah jadi lama.... tp gpp... smua yg ga enak, langsung ke hapus wkt liat Joshua (anaknya Vivin n Cipto)... ^_^
lalu, gw di dropin sampe rumah ama Imel.. trusnya gw dah laper, karena dah jam 8.30an en gw masi blm dinner... selese dinner, eeehhh temen lama gw, Sandy, nelpon!!! ^_^ seneng bgt deh!!! ga nyangka aja... jauh2 nelp gw dari HongKong.. feel bad dikit sih, karena emailnya ga gw bales2... tp, gw seneng bgt aja dy sempet2in nelp gw ^_^
trus, skrg i'm supposed to study en ngerjain assignments yg dah numpuk, tp gw ngantuk n rada males... not a good thing!!! ayo nov, smangat!!! hehehe :p

manja...

entah kenapa... hari ini gw berasa gw lagi manja bgt... hehehe :p
well, bukan manja yg kolokan seh... tpnya tetep aja, manja....
manjanya tuh yg gw ga enak badan dikit aja dah pengen bolos lecture...
trus, males bgn dari tmp tdr.... maunya tdr2an mulu... gt deh...

hari ini, panas en cerah bgt.... lagi pengen bgt ke taman... tp, dipikir2 panas sih, jadi mendingan ngadem di rumah... hehehe :p
tadinya pulang uni dah pengen langsung pulang... tpnya akhirnya gw malah pegi lunch dulu ma temen gw.... ga tw, hari ini berasa pengen aja ditemenin... dasar temen gw pada sibuk... hiks... gw dilupakan... hehehe :p (becanda)...

udah deh... mo ngerjain assignment dulu... ga bole manja2 lagi nih!!! walo badan pegel2 en rasanya pengen bgt tdr aja... i wish my mum is here... ada yg mijitin gw.. huehehe :p

*panic mode on*

pagi ini, gw memulai hari gw dengan tenang... lalu entah karena kurang tdr ato ceroboh, gw jadi panik karena gw telat ke kelas hari ini.... en kelas itu penting bgt, dimana gw ga boleh telat... kelas gw tuh jam 8am, en gw baru jalan dari rumah jam 7.55am!!! so, dah ketauan bgt klo gw telat pagi ini... tp masalahnya, gw ga nyadar... entah bagaimana, otak gw tidak berfungsi dengan baik pagi tadi...

anyway... gw males cerita detailnya... intinya gara2 gw telat ke kelas, gw jadi panic...
en temen2 se-team gw aja bilang, klo gw keliatan panic bgt, padahal gw ga perlu panic...
jadi ngerasa diingetin buat belajar lebih calm lagi dalem segala situasi... hehehe :p
bisa ga ya??

long day...

hfff... *long sigh*
it's been a long day for me... well, ga panjang2 bgt sih... hehehe :p
hari ini gw bangun jam 8an... trus skrg dah hampir jam 12 malem, en gw masi blm tdr walo gw capek bgt... sumhow, walo gw tw gw butuh extra istirahat, en gw perlu belajar, gw milih buat ngerefleksiin hidup gw hari ini...

hmm... let's see...
hari ini, hvnt done much... cuma ke kampus, ada prac, trusnya gw nemenin temen gw ngerjain tugas, trus pegi belanja... bawa belanjaan yg beratnya amit2... sampe badan gw pegel2 skrg... trus pulang, trus gw buang sampah, trus cuci baju, trus mandi, trus balik lagi ke kampus karena ada acara club (ICM)... trus... makan malem... trus... nelpon2an... trus mandi lagi... trus bengong di depan komputer ga tw mo ngapain.. hahaha...

keliatannya hidup gw berlalu gitu aja ya?? nothing much happens... tp walo keliatannya singkat, hari ini gw belajar sesuatu lagi... seperti biasa, gw selalu dapet pelajaran tiap hari... kali ini, gw diingetin lagi buat jadi org yg ga telalu perfectionist en jgn telalu mentingin detail... ga usa gampang stress karena hal2 kecil... trusnya, care ama org laen itu bagus, tp jangan sampe bikin lu ndiri stress... itu sih yg gw lagi coba belajar... ^_^ sebenernya hidup ini seru sih klo kita mo liat dari bright side-nya... tiap hari selalu jadi kesempatan yg baru... tiap hari selalu ada hal baru yg bisa lu dapetin... gw belajar untuk melihat hidup ini sebagai suatu surprise... selalu baru, en exciting ^_^...

moga2 klo ada temen2 yg lagi jenuh ama hidup yg gitu2 aja... coba liat deh apa aj yg dah lu dapetin hari ini... even hal yg kecil, klo kita bener2 syukurin, bakal jadi suatu berkat yg besar.. ^_^

if life is so short..

Sebenernya kepikiran mo ngetik dari kemaren sih, tp blm sempet...
baru skrg deh sempetnya... perasaan gw sibuk bgt deh, padahal ga tw sibuk ngapain aja... hahaha...

kemaren, seharian tuh gw serasa dikejar2 ama wkt...
dari bangun tdr (kesiangan), sampe tidur pun di kejar2...
berhubung gw kesiangan, gw belom nyiapin diri buat practical hari itu, padahal gw seharusnya dah siap, mana gw leadernya lagi!!! masa team leader malah ga siap??!! alhasil, gw jalan secepet gw bisa, gw naek tram secepet bgt, pokoknya pengen sampe uni secepet mgkn biar gw ga telat en sempet buat nyiapin diri... trus dah gt, gw telat 5 menit buat prac, trus di prac-nya juga musti buru2, soalnya banyak yg harus dikerjain, en klo sampe ga selese, yaa ga dapet result yg artinya gw ga bisa nulis reportnya... lalu... selese prac, gw masi buru2 buat lunch karena breaknya cuma 1 jam... trus buru2 balik lagi ke uni buat lecture... selese lecture, sedikit lega... tp gw buru2 pengen pulang karena gw ngantuk bgt (semalemnya kurang tdr)... trus... saat adrenalin gw masi kerja n jantung gw masi dag dig dug... tram yg gw naekin hampir aja nabrak seorang pengendara motor, yg ga tw gimana untungnya selamet... tiba2 saat itu juga, gw serasa disadarin... hey!! don't live your life like in emergency room... capek sendiri... take it easy but seriously...

Gitu deh pengalaman gw kemaren... gw jadi kepikiran aja... org kebanyakan buru2 mo ke sana ke sini, tp suka ga mikirin keselamatan sendiri... kayak misalnya gw, klo dah telat lecture, yg dipikirin lecture doank, trus nyebrang jalan sembarangan, ga pernah mikir klo misalnya gw lagi meleng, bisa aja ketabrak... en seandainya sampe kayak gt, kan ga worth bgt gw keilangan nyawa gw cuma demi lecture... (bukan berarti gw encourage org laen buat telat ke lecture loh!!)... gw berasa sih... diingetin buat CALM DOWN... live in peace... tp bukan berarti jadi lelet... tetep harus be on time... hehehe ^_^

cinta...

Quotes of the day...

Ada yg bilang cinta itu buta,
tp menurutku cinta itu indah.
Segala sesuatu dan semua org bisa merasakan cinta
-burung2, manusia, dan binatang-
smua makhluk hidup.
Cinta berarti mau memperhatikan
dan menunjukkan pengertian.
Cinta berarti mau mendampingi
yg sedang membutuhkan.
Cinta berarti mau menjadi sahabat.
Kau bisa mencintai binatang peliharaanmu,
bonekamu, kursi kesayanganmu,
teman2 dan keluargamu.
Cinta bisa berwujud apa saja yg kau inginkan
cinta adalah sebuah pilihan.

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Ngomong2 soal yg namanya cinta, gw tw, hari valentine dah lama lewat... tp gpp kan klo kita ngebahas soal topik yg atu ini?? emang nih, ga ada abisnya...

Menurut gw, untuk bisa mencintai (ato gw sih lebih suka pake kata "mengasihi") org laen, kita perlu bisa mencintai diri sendiri dulu... bukan artinya jadi egois ato apa... tp dalem situasi tertentu, emang kadang tuh kita dihadapin ke pilihan di mana kita emang harus ngutamain diri sendiri dulu, baru org laen... menurut gw sih, klo lu ga bisa mencintai diri lu sendiri, mana bisa lu cinta ama org laen??... wkt lu dah bisa cinta ma diri lu, en nerima diri lu apa adanya... en you know that u r loved... at that time, we can love others juz like we love ourselves...

any comments ppl??

belajar nerima

hmm... td pagi, bangun dari tidur gw... en tiba2 kepikiran ttg org2 yg gw sayangin... en org2 yg sayang ma gw... (kangen rumah >_<)
Kepikiran ama ortu, dd2 gw, ama-akong gw, temen2 gw... smuanya deh!! Trus... first thing that came into my mind was, how lucky and blessed i am...

Trus... jadi kepikiran ttg topik ini deh... ttg unconditional love... alias kasih yg tanpa pamrih...
Mgkn tanpa kita sadarin, kita dah sering nerima ato ngasi kasih (ato cinta ato sayang, whateva u wanna call it)... tp kadang it can be bersyarat... kadang juga ga bersyarat...

Pengen cerita aja sih... gw ini org yg mgkn lebih mudah ngasi, daripada nerima... (which can be a bad thing)... kadang gw tanpa sadar bisa kasi sgala macem care ma org2 di sekitar gw, tp, gw susah nerima klo org laen baek ma gw... gw pasti coba "pay-back" sebisa mgkn... sumtimes, gw berasa risih klo ada org yg telalu baek ma gw...

Inilah egoisnya gw... kita smua tw, klo memberi itu pny kepuasan tersendiri... tp gw egois, cuma mo ngasi, tp ga mo kasi kesempatan buat org laen buat ngasi ke gw, en ngedapetin kepuasan yg sama... (i've just realise that few years ago n i try to change it)
Taon ini, gw diingetin lagi buat berubah... en gw belajar, ternyata dengan nyoba buat buka diri untuk kebaikan dari org laen itu bukan sesuatu yg buruk kok... malahan bisa ngasi kepuasan n kegembiraan buat org laen n diri sendiri juga... ^_^

bday...

First of all, i want to say hepi bday for my dear friend...
ga kerasa... dah 21 taon lu hidup di dunia ini... (en ngotorin bumi) hahaha
well, banyak sih yg mo gw ucapin ke lu... tp capek ngetiknya... hehehe...
asal lu tw aja, smua yg mo gw ucapin adalah hal2 yg baek2, doa2 buat masa depan loe, en nasehat2 buat ke depan... seperti yg kita smua dah tw, hidup ini sll ga pernah jelas.... pasti ada ups n downs-nya... tp satu hal yg sll pasti, u r never alone... so, klo lagi ngerasa alone, inget aja, ada gw... ada temen2 yg laen... en ada Jesus... ^^

sekali lagi hepi bday... and i really truly wish that u r happy on your bday... keep on smiling, keep on shining, keep on growing!! ^^

something stupid

Every time I wake up in the morning… there’s one thing that always comes into my head… about how stupid I am… I guess, it’s normal… everybody has been stupid at least once in their lives…

Daripada “stupid”, gw prefer “bodoh”… just simply becoz “bodoh” lebih enak buat diucapin en lebih kerasa pol wkt ngomongnya… hahaha…
Mgkn ada yg bertanya2, kebodohan apa sih yg dah gw lakuin?? Well, sebenernya gw bodoh karena gw ceroboh en ga sabaran… jadinya gw melakukan sesuatu hanya ngikutin emosi gw wkt itu aja… klo pake peribahasa indo, “gara2 setitik nila, rusak susu sebelanga”… kira2 gt deh… sesuatu yg dah susah payah dibina, akhirnya rusak gara2 wkt itu gw kebawa emosi en ga sabaran.... :p en sebagai konsekuensinya, gw mgkn bisa kehilangan seseorang yg lately tanpa gw sadari dah jadi bagian yg penting dalem hidup gw…

So, intinya gw nulis ini adalah… biar lu pada yg baca, ga jadi se-bodoh gw… jangan kebawa emosi, en takes some time to think it over before u do something or say something… rugi bgt loh klo akhirnya jadi kayak gw… en saran gw yg terakhir, apa pun yg lu lakuin, usahain doa dulu, en discuss dulu deh ma sang Penasehat… temen curhat yg paling setia… pribadi yg paling mengenal kita smua… ^_^

life is a choice

Life is a choice…
To live today, at this very moment, is a choice…
A choice that I’ve chosen…
We make a lot of choices everyday…
From the time we wake up,
Till the time we close our eyes…
Sometimes, it is easy to make a choice,
But at other times, it is hard to make a choice
and the RIGHT decision…
I hated it when it is hard to choose…
But I’ve learnt… we live, we learn, by making choices…
Choose to live
Choose to breath
Choose to open our eyes in the morning
Choose to take every opportunity
Choose to never give up
Choose to fight for life
Choose to love
It’s all our choices…

keilangan hp

Jakarta, 28 Januari 2007


Hey!!! Gw punya cerita... hari ini, gw baru aja biz jalan dari gading bareng nykp n dd gw... seperti kebiasaan taonan, klo dah mo imlek, kita2 jalan2 cari baju baru gt deh... hehehe... ^^ jadi intinya, mall lagi rame bgt... apalagi hari ini tuh hari minggu...
Trus... gw langsung ke inti permasalahannya aja ya.... trus.... hp gw ilang!!! Hahahaha... (loh, gila ya?? Kok masi bisa ketawa??)

Gw ga ngerti gimana.... tp, gw ga nyadar klo hp gw ilang, sampe pada suatu saat, gw sedang menanti telpon dari temen gw yg tak kunjung2 menelpon... pas gw mo nelpon dy, ternyata hp gw dah lenyap!!! Dan tw ga apa yg gw pikirin pertama kali?? (lu pasti ga bakal percaya)... yg ada di otak gw wkt itu adalah... “yaaahhhh!!! Gimana donk?? foto2 di hp gw blom sempet gw transfer ke kompie...” hahahaha... gila ya gw?? Well, maybe gw emang dah ga waras.... tp yaaa gt deh gw... i dunno how, at that moment, i was so calm.... kayaknya gw dah terlanjur pasrah.... toh ga bisa diapa2in lagi.... yaaa mental anak jakarta..... barang ilang, ya udah... percuma panik2 juga... hahaha....

Hmm.... sebenernya, yg mo gw ceritain itu adalah hikmah dari kehilangan hp di mall... ga tw gimana, banyak bgt hal yg bisa gw syukurin wkt gw sadar hp gw ilang... pertama2, wkt hp gw ilang, gw bersyukur yg ilang tuh hp, bukan barang laen (spt dompet ato kunci mobil)... trus, wkt itu, gw lagi ama temen gw yg sedang bawa hp n punya pulsa, jadi gw bisa nelpon nykp n temen gw yg blm tw klo hp gw ilang.... trus, gw bersyukur hp itu ilang pas gw dah sempet berbagi kenangan bersama selama 1 taon bersama hp itu.... (i’m gonna miss ya.... *apa sih?? Gelo deh!!!*) hahaha.... wkt hp gw ilang, gw sumhow ga marah2 ma yg nyolong.... karena gw masi berpikir itu adalah kecerobohan gw.... intinya, itu salah gw ndiri... sapa suruh gw ga naro di tempat yg aman... sapa suruh gw ga nyadar.... dan bisa aja sebenernya tuh hp bukan di colong org, walo bukti2 n tanda2 yg ada lebih mengarah ke kemungkinan bahwa hp gw dicolong.... pasalnya, setelah hp gw ilang, hp gw mati.... nah loh, padahal baterenya masi banyak....

Saat itu, yg bisa gw pikirin Cuma, gimana cara gw bisa sampein ke org yg nyolong hp gw utk ga nerusin apa yg dia lakuin... gimana cara ngasi tw, klo gw tuh ikhlasin hp gw.... asal ga ada korban laen lagi.... yaaa pokoknya intinya gw ga marah deh... hehehehe :p

Emang sih, gw nyadar klo ga ada hp, jaman skrg ini susah deh... ga bisa ngontak org.... ga bs dikontak pula... en you know what?? Biz gw menyayangkan foto2 di hp yg blom sempet gw simpen, gw baru nyadar, klo smua contact number gw ada di hp... yg berarti gw kehilangan nomor2 telpon temen2 gw!!!! Huaaaa!!!! Sadis!!!! Masa gw musti mintain nomor2 org lg atu2... hiks... padahal... BANYAK!!! >_< and it brings me to another blessing.... gw baru nyadar, klo gw punya banyak temen.... and i’m so thankful and realise that i’m so blessed.... hehehe... :p emang, org di sktr gw selalu bilang ke gw klo gw tuh orgnya kurang bersyukur.... dan mgkn ini salah satu cara Tuhan nyadarin gw seberapa diberkatinya gw.... jadi inget satu quote yg intinya bilang klo Tuhan sll mendatangkan kebaikan dari segala sesuatu.... dan itu bener bgt!!!
Intinya, dari sesuatu yg keliatannya jelek, klo kita mau mencoba melihat dari sisi yg positif, pasti bakal keliatan sisi baiknya.... In every “kesusahan”, there’s a blessing hidden... di dalam suatu kesusahan, tersimpan sebuah berkat....

-novy-

ps: hp kuw.... mgkn ini saatnya loe ilang dan tak kembali padakuw.... karena ini ketiga kalinya lu ilang... pertama di pesawat... kedua di mobil cipto.... skrg, ilang di gading.... kau tlah meninggalkan kuw tuh selamanya.... selamat jalan kawan.... gonna miss the time we spent together.... hiks... (huahahaha.... mesra bgt ya gw ma hp gw??!)

quote of the day

there's time to hold back...
and there's time to let go...

it took me almost my whole holiday to understand and accept it...
hahahaha ^0^

annoying question

Hmm… it’s raining at the moment… I’m still in Jakarta… there’re 4 weeks to go till I go back to Melbourne… kindda miss that place… hahaha…

Btw, I’ve been wanting to write a post for ages… but the internet connection here doesn’t allow me to do it… even to log in to the blog took me almost half an hour!!!
Ok, now let me tell you my stories…

Few days ago, I saw my friend…. I knew her for about 6 years… so, she knew me quite well… we were talking about the usual stuffs girls would talk about… except she isn’t a girl anymore… she is 7 years older than me… hohohoho…. (kebiasaan begaul ma org2 yg lebi tua.. hahaha). She told me about her work… and her future bf… and it brought me to “that” topic… the topic that I don’t really wanna talk about… the topic where at my age, ppl will talk about and you cannot run from it…. Yea… it’s about boyfriend/girlfriend stuff… hahaha…

I can’t believe how this topic comes out more often than before… and not only my girlfriend, even my cousin who I always called “Koko” asked me and gave me some advices!! Can’t believe this!!! I’ve just realised that ppl are care so much about me, esp. my love life… hahaha….

And yea… honestly, it really gets into my mind…. I couldn’t get it out… made me keep on thinking about it…. At a certain point what they told me were true… but I guess I’m still too stubborn to follow what they said…. Hfff…. Dunno… I’ll just let the time gives me the answer and let the flow brings me to the answer….

in indo again...

hey!!! akhirnya... gw bisa ol lagi!!! ^^
hahaha.... senangnya... tak ku sangka, aku bisa hidup tanpa internet buat hampir sebulan...
kangen sih pake inet lagi... apalagi kayak yg di oz, bisa cepet... tp disini sih, bisa ol aja dah seneng... ga usa cepet2 juga gpp... belajar buat berasabar en bersyukur kali ya... hahaha ^^

oiya, sekalian, mo bilang hepi new year 2007 ya buat yg baca blog gw... ^^
kangen melb nih... (ga nyangka gw bakal pernah nulis gini... hahaha)

my results...

hey!! how r u guys??!!
i wanna share a good news wif u all...
i've just checked my results for this semester...
and guess what?? amazingly, i passed all the subjects!!
altho i dont get any HD, i'm still very happy and thankful to God...
to pass all my units is a miracle for me...
but i know, it's a small thing for Him...
so, always do ur best, then let Him do His part... the impossible part...

Buat temen2 yg masi nunggu results... jangan kuatir...
percayain aja ma Tuhan... karena Dia setia en pasti mau yg terbaik buat kita...
even klo kita fail, pasti ada yg mau Dia sampein.... Dia pasti punya alesan dibalik smua itu... percaya ma Dia... trust Him.. it's all that i can say...
All the best for u all... ^_^

last night in melb..

hey everyone... it's gonna be the last night for me in melbourne for this year....
i'll go back to indo tmrw.. and will be back next february... yea.. it's gonna be a very long holiday for me.. 3 months!!! hopefully, i'll be fruitful in indo.... do sumfin useful back home... of course i'm gonna miss ya all... i'm gonna miss my independence... my friends... and the sea breeze of melbourne...

today, i spent the whole day outside... meet up wif my friends... photos taking around city... italian lunch... gelati after lunch... max brenner for dinner... hahaha... i spoilt my self too much... coz i know, i wont be able to enjoy such food in indo... but i'm sure, i wont miss those food much, coz indo has so many kinds of food to be explored... so, indo.. jakarta.. i'm comiiiinggg!!!!!!!!!! ^_^

heartprints

O God, wherever I go today
help me leave heartprints!
Heartprints of compassion, understanding, and love.
Heartprints of kindness and genuine concern.
May my heart touch a lonely neighbour
or runaway daughter or anxious mother
or even an aged grandfather.
Send me out today to leave heartprints.
And if someone should say,
"I felt your touch,"
may that one sense Your love touching through me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ok, mgkn dah bisa ditebak, klo tulisan di atas, bukan hasil karya gw ndiri... betul sekali!!!
Gw mgkn ga mampu merangkai kata2, sebagus doa di atas... tp doa ini ngelukisin isi hati gw... jadinya ya gw copy2 dikit boleh lah ya... hahaha.. ^0^

Jadi inget... hari ini, on the way ke city, wkt gw di tram... org yg duduk depan gw, ga tw napa keliatan sedih gt.... seorang cewek... bersama seorang cowok, yg gw assume cowoknya... tuh cewek sedih bgt deh, sampe dy nangis di tram... kayaknya shock en depress... yahh campur lah.... trus cowoknya yg nge-rub punggungnya gt... meluk dy... trus, akhirnya dy minta tissue ma org india di sebrangnya... trus tuh org india ga punya tissue yg proper, adanya paper towel... emang, klo kata org jaman dulu, "tak ada rotan, akar pun jadi", so di pake lah paper towel itu buat ngelap air matanya en bersiin idungnya... hehhe :p tp gw ga tega lah ngeliat dy gt... kan paper towel tuh kasar... untungnya gw sll bawa tissue kemana2.. so, gw bagi lah sebungkus.. toh cuma tissue... dah mo abis lagi... huehehe :p (niat ga sih?!)
trus... dy kayak kaget gt, ga nyangka kali ya gw perhatiin dari td... trus, dy bilang "thank you"...
then, juz before she got off (soalnya dy turun duluan), dy bilang thx lagi ma gw, SAMBIL SENYUM!!! ^_^ seeeeeeee..... it's important to bring tissue with u all the time!!! wakakaka... bukan itu deh intinya... intinya, gw seneng, little thing that i did, can make her smile again... ^^ padahal gwnya dah lupa.. hahaha...
Kita ga pernah tw, en sadar, apapun yg kita lakuin sll ninggalin jejak di hati org2 yg dah kita "touch" hatinya...hidupnya... juz like we left our fingerprints on everything that we touched... kita juga ninggalin heartprints on the hearts of ppl around us... ^_^ mari kita sebarkan heartprints yg indah, yg mencerminkan kasih Tuhan, di hati org2 di sekitar kita... no matter who they are...

romantic movies...

duhhh sumtimes i hate romantic movies... it's all juz a lie...
hahaha... sedih bgt ya gw... segitu desperado-nya kah, sampe menghina klo kejadian2 di film romantis itu ga ada di dunia nyata??

baru aja selese nonton satu romantic drama... judulnya "The Family Stone"...
filmnya ga romantis smua sih.... ada yg nyinggung2 ttg kebersamaan keluarga... pokoknya film tipenya gw banget deh... bisa ngocok2 perasaan gw... bentar gw bisa ketawa, bentar ikutan netesin air mata, bentar bisa kesel2 juga, bisa deg2an juga, bisa berbunga2 juga... hahaha...
Hebat ya... film itu klo ntn-nya bener2 dihayatin, kita bisa serasa ada di dalamnya..
tp gimana pun, film itu semu... esp klo film romantis...

Walopun gw suka ma film ini... gw tetep aja suka mengritik dalem hati....
contohnya, wkt adegan love at the 1st sight.... gw ga percaya ma yg namanya love at the 1st sight... masa seorang cowok, bisa dengan gampangnya ninggalin ceweknya yg dah hampir mau dia lamar, demi seorang cewek yg baru dia kenal beberapa hari?? pokoknya ga make sense deh.. tp tetep aja, wkt adegan cowok itu ngejar cewek yg dy suka itu, gw jg ikutan deg2an... wkt tuh cowok di tolak, gw ikut ngerasa sedih... wkt mereka akhirnya jadian... gw ikut tersenyum... pokoknya, segimana pun nih film ga make any sense, tetep aja gw suka... hahaha... abisnya ntnnya ga usa mikir.... daripada klo dibandingin ma "The Prestige"... td baru aja dari Knox City, buat ntn... duhhh filmnya sih bagus, yg maen juga lumayan buat cuci mata.... tp capek euy!! musti mikir en konsen gitu... LoL... maklum, otak gw cuti buat sementara sejak exam dah selese... :p

back to the topic, apa yg bikin gw sebel klo ntn romantic movies??
itu loh... perasaan kayak kesepian.. kayaknya desperado bgt... karena jomblo itu ga ada di kamus-nya romantic movies.... makanya gw sebel... hahaha... tp gpp lah, gw tetep suka... :p
apalagi yg gw sebelin?? romantic movies tuh, cuma suka nonjolin sisi2 bagusnya suatu percintaan... pokoknya yg dikasi liat tuh yg hepi2 doank... smua kesusahan yg org2 normal alamin di dunia nyata, ga dikasi liat... jadi, secara ga langsung, romantic movies tuh bikin mata org2 (esp. cewe2) jadi buta... yg dikejar cuma romantisme doank... padahal sebuah relationship is more than a romantism... ga pernah kepikiran kan ttg masalah keuangan?? tentang agama?? tentang beda pendapat... beda tradisi... beda keluarga... etc2... pokoknya jeleknya, susahnya, tantangan2 yg ada di kehidupan nyata, ga pernah dimunculin deh di romantic movies... jadinya klo keseringan ntn film model kayak gini, bisa bahaya juga loh.... bisa jadi racun... jadi ati2 ya... esp. cewe2 remaja... hehehe :p

PS: walo gw kesannya memandang negative pada romantic movies... gw tetep suka loh!!! hehehe :p

pretty...

This posting i dedicated to my girlfriends...

I've juz finished watching a movie, called "Friends with Money"...
one scene that draw my attention is when there were a couple in the car, they were juz get back from a gathering... the wife has had a really bad day... and keep winging about everything... she was very down, and felt ugly... but once when her husband try to cheer her up, and said that she was the prettiest in that gathering, she smiled and felt much better... she juz stop winging...

It makes me think... when guys said that girls are complicated, actually, we're not that complicated... we're simple enuf that such a little thing, can make us become the happiest person... ^^ and make me also realise that the heart of a girl is very2 soft that such a simple thing can touch her heart so easily...

I never really realise it, but i guess to be called pretty or beautiful is important for girls (or women)... if it isnt, why girls can spend so much money juz for clothings and make ups? or for their hair... or for their faces?? it's all to make them feel beautiful... and confident...
if it isnt, why to be called beautiful can create a smile and a glow in their eyes??
So, i think it is important and does make women feel special...

But for me personally... to be called pretty once in a while, when u do feel that u are, or when u dont... is a sweet little gift... but if it is said too often.... especially u know that the person who says it didn't really meant it, it is such an insult... and in indonesian, i'll call it "gombal"!!! hahaha ^0^ don't u agree, gals??!!

Note for guys:
Dont ever say to a woman that she is pretty when u dont think so, or when u dont meant it...
and when u do think that a woman looks pretty (can be anyone, ur sister, your mum, your friend, your girlfriend), tell her... coz she deserves it! ^^

wanna be alone

skrg dah mlm.. hampir jam 12 mlm... en gw blm tdr, walo gw dah ngantuk bgt...
hari ini dah sibuk seharian dengan hal2 yg ga penting... gw ga ngapa2in, tp rasanya capek bgt....
i've been surrounded by many friends today, but when the nite comes and i sit alone tonite... i felt loneliness... not the same loneliness that i felt before... it's the one when i'm far from Him... ga tw gimana jelasinnya.. rasanya ada yg ilang... ada yg kurang... mo sepenuh gimana pun, tetep aja ada kosongnya....

hari ini, bisa dibilang hidup gw penuh keramaian.... dari pagi dah ngobrol di telp, gw cuap2 dengan serunya... trus pas siangan, temen gw dateng, bikin kue bareng, trus gw xcel... rame2 juga... smua ngobrol, becanda2... tp, rasanya gw cuma pengen suatu kesunyian, suatu ketenangan... gw pengen sendiri... dah lama rasanya gw ga bener2 sendiri yg ga diganggu oleh pikiran apapun... i juz wanna be alone and spend my time with Him.... kangen saat2 itu... rasanya dah beberapa hari belakangan, gw ga pernah bener2 nyempetin diri buat Dia doank... gw telalu disibukin ama ini-itu, yg bener2 ga penting... yaa... this time, He called me, and I simply be still, listen, and said... "Yes, Father, i'm here... ready to listen to You..."

panic!!!

huaaahhH??!!!
hiks..... gara2 gw bandel, suka coba isenk2 klik sana sini... comments2 di blog gw ilang!!!
duhhh knp ya gw panikan bgt?? sebel juga sih kadang2...

sebenernya gw lagi mo isenk2 coba ganti2 template.. kirain bisa diganti balik...
tp ternyata wkt mo gw balikin, tidak bisa.... karena ada kekurangan di template gw yg lama...
gw ga ngerti deh apaan penyebabnya... duh.... gw kok gaptek bgt ya??
hiks.... (buat org yg sudah repot2 gantiin skin blog gw wkt dulu, maaph ya...) >_<

exam is over...

hey everyone!!! have i told you that my exam is over?? if i havent, there you go... i've told u juz now... btw... (switch to indo).. dah selese exam, klo temen2 lu pada blm selese, ada ga enaknya loh... selaen lu ga ada yg nemenin, rasanya ngerasa bersalah juga "haha-hihi" while di suatu tempat yg laen, temen2 kita lagi pada stress belajar buat exam... gitu deh yg lagi gw rasain...

Hari ini, bener2 sibuk all day... sibuk dalem tanda kutip... keluar rumah, makan diluar, jalan2 keliling city, trus ke pantai... trus pulang... rasanya dah lama bgt ga sebebas ini... td sempet ke uni bentar, ngurusin enrolment... rasanya aneh, pergi ke uni, bukan dengan tujuan untuk belajar... soalnya selama ini kan uni diidentikkan dengan belajar... jadi rasanya aneh deh ke uni tp ga belajar... hehehe :p

Oiya, bentar lagi gw juga bakal balik indo.... jadi kemungkinan gw bakal lama nge-blog... hehehe :p well, buat yg ga tw, di indo tuh internetnya lelet abis... buat connect aja dah setengah mati... jadi gw bakalan males lah ngepost... hehehe :p duhhh dah ga tahan pengen bgt pulang... walo di indo bakal panas... bakal ga sebebas di sini... bakal bosen in the end... there's no other place like home... gimana pun.. home tetep aja the best!!! ^^ apalagi smua keluarga gw ada di sana... dah kangen ma smuanya!!! walo gw tw sih, pas ketemu ade2 gw, pasti bakal berantem juga... hehehe.. namanya juga sodara.. saking kentelnya darah, ada yg kurang klo ga berantem.... hehehe :p

udah deh... sekian dulu postingan gw... ga penting sih ya isinya??
laen kali gw nulis sesuatu yg lebi ninggalin kesan en ngasi pelajaran deh.. sekali2 gw break dari ''mikir'' kan bole kan?? hehehe... ciao!!!

u r special to me

I'll be straight to the point this time...
before u read any further...
if u love sumone... if u think that sumbody is special to you...
i recommend u to tell that person how much you love him/her...
and tell them how special they are... what make them special and loved...

Why did i write those paragraph above??
i've juz read the story about sumone who love her dad, and her family always celebrate her father's bday on the Thanksgiving day... on his last bday (her dad was very old already), her family celebrated it in the nursing home... and she got the idea to let everyone, every member of the family to tell her father what they like and love about him... so they shared all the stories, memories, smile and laughter on that day... and the most important thing is, they did it as her father still alive, so that he listened to it... and be able to share it with the ppl that he loved...

Sumtimes, it's often too late when we realise that we havent told the people that we love how special they are... and believe it or not, to be told that u r special, that somebody loves u, that u r always be thought of, that there's sumthin in you that is special... is the most wonderful gift you'll ever received and the best gift u'll ever given... it doesn't even cost a cent...

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Words do matter, and they are enough. We just need to say them, to speak them publicly to the ones we love, for everyone else to hear. That's the way to give back love, and our chance to celebrate a person in life.

When love takes you in

I know you’ve heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You’ve heard about a place called home
But there doesn’t seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream

Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in

And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever
cause this love to lose its hold

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in
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Emang.. there's no other place like home...
kok jadi excited mo pulang ya gw?? hehehe :p

ps: keracunan poink nih, jadi suka lagu ini...

gila!!!

i dunno wot i'm doin...
by 2pm today, i'll be in the examination room...
and guess what?? i havent finished studying... yet i dont feel like studying...
and it's almost 3am now.... there's no sign that i'll be sleeping soon...
geez... hate this exam period... luckily, tmrw is my last.... and then i'm free!!
but before that freedom, i still need to work hard now...
jiayou noph!!! ^^

Message from The Creator

Message from The Creator

When I created heaven and earth I said the words and there created heaven and earth.

When I created man, I formed him and blow the breath of life into his nostrils. But you, woman, I decorated you after I have blown into the nostrils of man because yours are too delicate.

I let the man fell sound asleep so that I could patiently and perfectly formed you. I have let the man fallen asleep so that he did not interfere with My works.

I decorated you from one chosen bone. I picked the bone which gave the man a protection for his life. I picked the rib that protected and supported the heart and the lungs, the functions that exactly you must do. From this very bone I formed you perfectly and beautifully.

You nature is that of a rib, strong but delicate and fragile. You provide a protection to the most delicate organs of the man - his heart and lungs. His heart is the center of his life, his lungs hold the breath of life. A rib will let itself be broken before it lets damage to destroy the heart. Support the man in such a way that a rib protects his body.

You were not picked up from his leg to be stepped on, nor were you picked up from his head to be his boss. You were picked up from his side, to stand beside him and to be hugged. You are My perfect angel. You are my pretty little girl. You have grown up to be a perfect woman, and My eyes are satisfied when I see your heart.

Your eyes -- don't ever change them. Your lips are so beautiful when used to say a prayer. Your nose is so perfect in shape. Your hands are so soft to the touch. I have given so much attention to the details of your face when you were asleep. I hold your heart close to Mine. Of all the living things that breathe, you resemble Me the most.

Adam walked with me in a cold day and he was lonely. He could neither see nor touch Me. He could only feel My presence. All that I wanted to share with Adam I formed it inside of you. My strength, My purity, My love, My protection and My support. You are special as you are the extension of My hands.

The man represents My image - the woman, My feelings. Together... you two represent the true GOD.

Therefore,

Man - treat the woman nicely. Love her, respect her, because she is so tender. To hurt her is to hurt Me. Whatever you do to her you do it to Me. If you break her you're only breaking your own heart, your FATHER's heart... which is also her FATHER's.

Woman - support the man. In modesty, show him the strength of your feelings that I have given to you. In solitude, show him your strength. In love, show him that you indeed are his protective rib.

lesson of life...

hmm... havent been sending a posting for a while... hehehe :p
i guess i juz had a little break from this blogging world...

few things happened today...
my best friend celebrates her bday...
and the same as last year, i'm not able to be around her... :(

and i heard then read the news that Belinda (Rove McManus's wife) has just passed away...
she was diagnosed wif a cancer and has been fighting for 8 years... and the cancer won...
not a happy ending really... i hate it when it's not as what we expected...
it's funny how we often think that we gonna live forever... and when the time comes, and the ppl that we love leave us from this world, we r so surprised and unprepared...
Anyway... look at the bright side... at least she's not suffering anymore... :)
and the good thing is, she has done a lot of good things when she lives in this world... (that's the point of our lives)... she has touched so many lives and be a good example for those around her... she has lived her life with dignity and courage...

all these reminded me to live my life to the fullest...
yea.. i often forget how important a life is... so many things that i can do...
but i kept on looking at the things that i couldnt do and regret it...
another lesson that i've learnt... look at the things that i can do, and DO IT!!
make my life useful for others... touch as many lives as possible... and be a good example....

poem ga jelas

sumtimes what we see
doesnt go with what we feel...
and what we feel,
doesnt go with what we see...

it seemed far,
but it felt close...
but when it seemed close,
it felt so farrr away....
out of reach... neither my hand nor my heart...

sumtimes follow the heart is not the best answer
neither following the mind...
sumtimes confusion is so strong...
cannot choose... dont want to take a decision...
leave it there where it is
and I stay where I am...

gini aja bingung...

hari ini... baru selese another exam...
not too bad, but not too good either... intinya sih gw jawab smua... tp, ga tw deh hasilnya gimana... klo bisa pass, gw dah seneng... aniwei, td abis exam, ternyata vq nungguin gw.. biasanya kan dy lgs pulang.. trus, lgs ngajakin gw makan... trus, gwnya bilang ga bisa... karena gw dah janji mo makan ma temen gw yg laen... tp gw feel bad ma dy... dah berapa kali gw ga jadi ke rmh dy, bilang mo belajar bareng, gagal mulu... trusnya, dy becanda sih kayak biasa... bilang gw sombong lah... dy sebel ma gw lah.. tp ga tw napa, gw rasa gw lagi telalu sensi, smuanya gw masukin ke ati... dasar tuh anak, bikin gw makin ngerasa bersalah aja... akhirnya sih dy nelp temennya yg laen, ngajak makan bareng... trus gw ngeloyor pergi, mojok di computer lab.. ngetik nih posting... hehehe :p gw decide, buat ga makan sama dua2nya... tw sih, bodoh... tp... it makes me feel good... i know to sacrifice myself wont do anybody any good, but it makes me feel not so guilty... :p

udaaa... forget it... posting ga penting... hehehe :p

sumfin missing

There's sumfin missing today...
i lost my interest in writing....
knp ya?? ini gw nulis cuma gara2 lagi bosen aja... baru belajar bentar, dah bosen, padahal examnya besok.. duhhh mo jadi apa gw ntar?? skrg aja malesnya dah ga ketulungan.... really can't wait till all these done... but i know, when i finally graduated, i'll miss this moment... exam moments... lack of sleep moment... try to cram everything in one nite... so, i'll try to enjoy every second of it, coz time won't turn back....

tong kosong nyaring loh!

Pasti pernah denger kan pribahasa yg bilang, ''Tong kosong, nyaring bunyinya''??
Belakangan... kepikiran aja sih, rasanya gw kayak tong yg kosong... alias banyak ngomong, tp ga banyak isi... laen bgt ma org2 yg berpengatahuan luas... ga banyak ngomong, tp sekali ngomong, kata2nya guna en dalem.... sedang gw, asal cuap2 ga dipikir dulu... keluarnya cuma kata2 ga guna yg suka jadi bahan ketawaan org...

Somehow, pribahasa ini juz came into my mind... bener juga sih... tong yg kosong, klo dipukul, pasti bunyinya nyaring, klo tong yg penuh, bunyinya teredam, jadi ga bisa nyaring...
Klo diliat2, banyak juga sih org2 yg biasanya ga banyak tw, tp lagaknya dah kayak yg paling ahli... (kadang gw kayak gt... hehehe :p)... sedang klo org yg bener2 emang tw, ato dah ahli, biasanya ga banyak ngomong... palingan klo dy denger org yg ga tll tw itu ngomong sesuatu yg salah, paling2 dy cuma membenarkan... dy yg ga bakal cuap2 banyak2 ttg apa yg dy tw... ga bakal banyak pamer... mgkn bener juga ya kata org, klo pengetahuan adalah sumber dari kebijaksanaan... org yg pinter belom tentu bijaksana sih... tp org yg bijaksana itu, biasanya pinter (cerdik)...

Gw ga mo jadi tong kosong yg nyaring lagi ah... walo mgkn sekarang gw ini kosong, gw mo jadi tong yg mau diisi, biar ga kosong lagi... dan ga nyaring2 amet bunyinya... hehehe :p

another idea to be written

kok gw bisa2nya ga pernah keabisan ide buat ditulis ya??
yaaa bersyukur aja deh gw masi bisa nulis...

kali ini... gw mo cerita ttg gw lagi... hehehe... as always..
klo ga salah, gw dah pernah nulis sebelomnya, klo ternyata, ada org2 yg ga gw sangka, baca blog gw... entah itu temen sd gw, ato temen greja gw... ato my long lost friends... gw ga nyangka mereka baca.... dan yg lebih kaget lagi, kadang apa yg gw tulis, bisa kasi masukan buat mereka... bisa kasi impact buat mereka... gw sih bersyukur gw masi bisa nulis, dan gw disadarin, klo gw ini being watched by ppl... secara ga langsung, apapun yg gw lakuin, ato gw tulis, ato gw katakan.. smuanya being watched by ppl dan gw bisa kasi impact buat mereka...

Naahhh skrg, terserah gwnya, mau kasi impact yg baik, ato yg buruk??
yaaa smua org juga pastinya maunya jadi contoh yg baik lah ya... yg kasi impact yg baik buat sekitarnya... makanya.... mulai skrg, i think, gw musti sortir2 sedikit apa yg gw tulis... ga baik mengeluh2 terus di blog... hehehe :p semoga dari apa yg gw tulis, gw bisa memberikan kata2 yg bisa ngebangun org lain... yg bisa encourage org laen...

ngomong2 soal encouragement, td gw baru aja minjem sebuah buku, yg judulnya Silver Boxes: The gift of encouragement... gw baru mulai baca sih, jadi blm bisa cerita banyak... intinya sih, ada di Efesus 4:29 ''Janganlah ada perkataan kotor keluar dari mulutmu, tetapi pakailah perkataan yg baik untuk membangun, di mana perlu, supaya mereka yang mendengarnya, beroleh kasih karunia'' ato klo terjemahan inggrisnya... ''Don't use bad language. Say only what is good and helpful to those you are talking to, and what will give them a blessing''...
Intinya, si penulis mau ngajak para pembacanya buat stop saying bad things, tp learn to say good things, good words which can benefit others who hears it... biar kata2 yg kita keluarkan dari mulut kita (ato kata2 yg kita tulis di blog misalnya.. :p) adalah kata2 yg kasi encouragement bagaikan kado... a gift.. like little silver boxes with bows on top... :)

being tomboy...

sekali lagi gw mo berkeluh kesah...
sebenernya, gw ga mo mulai posting ini dengan keluhan sih... ok deh, gw mulai dengan ucapan syukur aja... Thanks God, gw dah nyelesein 2 exams... 2 more to go.... so far, gw ngerasa cukup pede... pede dalem artian, gw bakal pass the exam... gw ga peduli dapet bagus apa nggak, yg ptg gw pass dulu... hehehe :p (klo org2 beranggepan gw perfectionist, i've set my standard to the lowest that i can accept....) :p

Makanya.. kmrn gw rasanya lega bgt... seneng bgt aja gt ^_^
tp... yg 2 exam pertama itu, adl subject2 gw yg ''tergampang''... klo yg the next two, tuh yg ''killer''... jadinya yaaa serem2 dikit juga sih.. perjuangan masi panjang nop!! hahaha ^0^

Nah, skrg, baru deh gw berkeluh kesah...
keluhan gw ga penting sih... cuma mo nanya, kenapa sih klo cewek di identikan dengan feminisme... knp klo ce MUSTI feminim?? skali2 tomboy juga gpp kan?? asal sikon-nya pas... pasalnya gini, kmrn tuh kan gw exam, klo yg namanya exam, gw tuh sll milih berpakaian se-comfy mungkin... gw ga peduli lah org mo bilang apa, wong gw mo exam, peduli amet ma penampilan, yg penting tuh penampilan otak gw... hehehe :p trusnya, ternyata biz exam, gw ga sempet pulang lagi, jadi gw lgs ke greja... rasanya aneh sih emang, gw pake baju yg ga biasa gw pake ke greja... cuma... gw pikir, who cares anyway, yg penting kan hatinya... Tuhan mana nilai pakaian sih?? gw punya alesan aniwei... trus ya udah... begitu lah penampilan gw, dengan celana jeans, kaos oblong (yg gambarnya di-comment-in seseorg childish bgt), sepatu sport... (klo ga kebayang.. buat org yg kenal gw wkt smp, kira2 dandanan gw ga jauh beda lah.. hahaha)
So, suatu saat mlm itu, ada yg comment ke gw... cowok bgt sih lu?? hahaha... gw dah biasa sih di comment kayak gini... sampe dah males dengernya.. (apa gw musti dengerin ya?? mumpung masi ada yg mo nasehatin?? tp cuma satu org kok yg komen, jadi gw masi cuekin :p)... excuse gw, gw yg selama ini, dah banyak ngerubah penampilan gw (is it juz to please them??).... klo sekali2 gw balik ke penampilan yg lama, yg urakan, yg make me feel comfy, boleh donk?? gimme a break!!! i know i'm not gonna be able to wear high heels everyday... i will still prefer snickers... coz wearing those high heels juz gonna brake my feet and hurt my back.... believe me guys, it's not as beautiful as it looks.... it's hurting most of the time... maybe what my friend said is right, "it's painful to be beautiful".... hahaha ^0^

never forget the Lord...

HuaahH!! gw gagal lagi buat ga nge-blog... tapi beneran... kali ini gw ngerasa bener2 musti ditulis... hehehe :p

Kemaren, gw dengerin radio, seorg ce cerita klo beberapa wkt yg lalu, dy sempet punya masalah gt deh ma pita suaranya... gw ga tw dy di-diagnose sakit apa, tp intinya, dy ga dibolehin ngomong selama 3 bulan!!! bayangin!! klo ga bole ngomong selama 3 bulan, bakal jadi apa lu?? well, buat gw sih, gw mgkn awalnya susah.... tp lama2 bisa juga lah... sama ky ce ini... berhubung dy itu org Kristen, ya pasti lah cari kekuatannya dari Tuhan... dy cerita, 1 bulan pertama, dy frustasi... bulan ke 2 dy mulai belajar en nerima keadaan... tp tetep depressed.... pas bulan ke 3 inilah... dy banyak belajar en dibentuk ma Tuhan... dy belajar buat mendengarkan... bukan cuma denger (hear), tp dy belajar buat mendengerkan (listen)!! beda loh ya!! anyway, akhirnya dy bisa ngomong lagi sih...

Nahh apa hubungannya sama apa yg mo gw tulis?? Umm... hari ini, gw diingetin lagi buat ga pernah lupain Tuhan dalam setiap segi kehidupan gw... intinya: ''Never forget the Lord''... Klo contoh di atas, wkt lagi ngalamin kesulitan, kita sih pasti ga usah disuruh 2 kali, dah lgs cari pertolongan ke Tuhan... minta kekuatan, minta kesabaran, minta macem2 deh.... tp... pernah kepikiran ga klo kita lagi seneng??? klo hidup kita kayaknya lagi ga ada masalah... smua lancar2 aja... bisnis lancar.. duit ga kekurangan... makanan, baju, rumah smuanya punya... skolah lancar... smuanya sehat... pokoknya ga ada masalah deh... masi inget ga kita ma Tuhan?? bisa dibilang, cobaan paling susah tuh mgkn wkt kita justru lagi ga ngalamin kesusahan... apa kita masi setia ma Dia??

Well, itu aja sih yg mo tulis... cuma mo ingetin temen2, spt gw dah di ingetin... jangan inget Tuhan cuma pas di masa exam... (ga salah kok cari Tuhan pas exam)... tp jangan pas lagi susah2 aja... abis exam Tuhan-nya disumpelin di pojokan... hahaha... marilah kita inget terus ma Dia... ga lupa utk mengasihi Dia setiap wkt, krn itu adl perintah yg utama (Ul 6:12)... mo wkt susah... dan terlebih lagi saat kita senang... ^^

my prayer to you...

I pray that God would fill your heart with dreams
And that faith gives you the courage
To dare to do great things
I'm here for you whatever this life brings
So let my love give you roots
And help you find your wings

(Mark Harris-Find Your Wings)

it's not easy...

Pernah denger kan lagu yg judulnya ''It's not easy (to be me)''??
Well, gw bukan mo nulis apa susahnya jadi seorang GUE...
Gw cuma ngerasa... tahun ini, saat usia gw menginjak 19 taon... life seems not as easy as before...
it's not easy to be 19!! (that's what i wanna say..)

Mungkin org yg baca blog gw, klo dah ngelewatin masa belasan taon, bakal bilang, it's not as hard as 20's... well, gw kan belom masuk 20's jadi menurut gw, 19 is not easy... hehehe :p
Kenapa gw bisa bilang gini?? karena... 19 itu taon terakhir masa ''teenager''... masa remaja... 19 itu bisa dibilang masa transisi... masa di mana, seorang manusia dituntut untuk ninggalin masa yg kekanak2an... masa yg tenang... masa yg ga banyak dipusingin... masa yg innocence is sumthing that u can survive with... masa yg... pokoknya ga bisa di-hold terus klo mo move on to the 20's... bagi org yg dah ngalamin masa ini dan dah melaluinya... mgkn beranggapan gw terlalu membesar2kan... gw telalu pusingin hal ga penting kayak gini... mgkn bakal ada yg berpendapat, klo sebenernya, mo 19, ato 20, ga ada bedanya... well... klo itu sih.. gw ga tw yahhh ^^ cuma menurut gw sih, mustinya (normalnya) klo org bertambah umurnya, pasti secara ga langsung tuh org bakal berubah, jadi lebi dewasa... klo ada org yg umurnya dah 25 misalnya, kelakuannya masi kayak anak umur 15, umm... itu mgkn karena pas masa transisi ini lah dy ga pake bener2 wktnya buat m'persiapkan diri buat masa ''org dewasa''... hehehe :p (ga penting ya??)

trus... menurut gw, kenapa berada di usia 19 itu ga gampang, karena bisa dibilang, ini tuh usia dimana org, klo diibaratin ma bunga, lagi mekar semekar2nya... jadi yaaa emang ga gampang buat mekar semaksimal mgkn... pasti ada sakit2nya... pasti ada pengorbanannya... pasti ada susah en sedihnya.. pasti ada jatohnya... pasti ada gagalnya.... tp.. dari situlah banyak pelajaran yg bisa dipetik... biar kita bisa jadi makin mateng... en siap buat ''dunia org dewasa''... hehehe :p
sperti yg temen gw tulis... nothing great comes easy...

hal yg suka gw berasa bener2 susah tuh... klo misalnya deh, gw musti belajar... sebagian dari diri gw yg masi anak2 maunya maen terus.... masa bodo deh ama belajar... pokoknya mau have fun aja... tp bagian dari diri gw yg dah mulai dewasa en mikir jangka panjang, ngasi tw gw keuntungan2 klo gw belajar... ngasi tw gw akibat2nya klo gw ga belajar... etc... susahnya, saat dimana gw musti ambil decision... mo tetep jadi child ato mo belajar mulai ninggalin ke child-ish-an gw... en belajar move on... learn to be maturer... di usia ini... gw banyak bgt belajar... dan lama2 gw bisa ngeliat sesuatu dari sisi pandang org dewasa... kadang wkt gw masi kecil, gw suka ga ngerti kenapa ortu gw ambil suatu keputusan yg ga masuk akal buat gw.... tp skrg, wkt gw belajar cara pikir mereka, cara pandang mereka, gw bisa lebi ngerti... gw bisa terima alesan mereka... lucu emang... kadang gw mikir, Tuhan tuh hebat bgt... Dia kasi kita pelajaran2 ttg kehidupan tahap per tahap... ga langsung di-bombardir dalam 10 taon pertama hidup misalnya.... makanya gw percaya, tiap taon dalam hidup gw... jangankan tiap taon deh, tiap hari aja... gw bakal selalu punya sesuatu yg exciting, yg baru, buat di tunggu2 untuk dipelajari...

So... berapapun usia lu skrg... enjoy every second of it... and keep on learning!!!
tapi sumpehh... to be 19 is not easy!!! hehehe :p

attitude...

Today... it seems like everything that i read, told me to change my attitude...
i'm not quite sure what attitude is, so i opened up my Oxford Learner's Pocket Dictionary... and i found that attitude means the way of thinking or behaving...
Hmm.... juz thinkin.... and letting that definition sink in to my mind... maybe that's what i need...
a change or maybe changes on my attitude... change my way of thinking or behaving or maybe both!!

Lately, i've been feeling unsatisfied wif my life... i juz felt there's sumthing wrong, sumfin is missing... i got an email that told me that a change starts from the inside... totally agree wif that... maybe there's nothing wrong with my life.. it's juz me!! maybe what i need is only to change my way of thinking... try to see things differently... be positive... look at the bright side... and also change sum of my bad behaviour... be on time... never leave everything to the last minute... don't stress out easily... sumtimes what i need is juz to let life flows...
All of that starts from the inside.... from our mind... from our heart... believe it or not, our mind is the centre of (almost) everything and it controls most of our decisions and what we did in our lives... and with a good and pure heart... i believe, we can change our lives to be better or i will say we can change the way we live our lives... make it better and more positive... it's all started from us... from you... from me... from the inside!!! mind and heart...

belahan diriku

waktu aku sendirian...
saat tak ada org lain yg memperhatikan...
aku kerap berbincang dengan belahan diriku yg lain...
saat aku sedang gembira, kan ku sapa dia dengan senyuman dan keramahan...
''Hey, apa kabar?? Kau tampak manis saat tersenyum.. ^_^''
tp saat ku sedih atau merasa gagal, aku sering kali melukainya dan berkata kasar...
"Hey, mau jadi apa kamu, klo begini aja ga bisa??!''
atau saat ku merasa kesepian... akan ku tegur dia dan berbincang dengannya...
''Kemana ya org2?? kok kayaknya pada ilang?? untung ada kamu... ^^''
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Hahaha.... yg baca ini pasti kirain gw gila deh... sering ngomong sendiri...
tp jujur aja deh, masa sih kalian ga pernah ngomong ma diri sendiri??
well, mgkn ga kayak yg gw tulis di atas sih.... tp pasti at least ada sekali kan??
Klo ga pernah, mgkn ada baiknya kita mulai deh ngobrol ma belahan diri kita yg laen....
biar dia ga ngerasa kesepian... ^^

satu exam berlalu...

satu exam berlalu sudah...
jangan tanya gw gimana hasilnya... ga suka membahas yg sudah berlalu... hehehe :p
td pulang abis exam, gw ke saveway, beli tissue buat toilet yg dah lama abis... (ga ada yg beli neh!!!) trus... akhirnya beli macem2 cemilan juga buat stock selama exam... so i guess, i'm gonna put on more weight this month... but who cares... hahaha...

dari td rencananya mo belajar buat the next exam, which is jumat ini...
tp berhubung td gw baru beli dvd kosong, en dah lama bgt berniat buat nge-burn smua data yg ga kepake yg cuma menuh2in kompie gw, gw jadi mo ngeburn dulu...
ehhhh ga twnya musti download software baru juga... alhasil, 4 jam gw spend buat smua itu, tp tetep aja, mpe skrg gw masi ga bisa burn data2 itu ke dvd... kompie gw tetep aja lambatnya amit2... duhhh i wish koko ada di sini... hiks... ntar gw balik, koko juga ga ada... minta sapa ya utak2 kompie gw?? hfff... susah deh klo jadi org gaptek... =_=''

buat yg baca blog gw, sori ya klo belakangan isinya ga bermutu... (biasanya emangnya bermutu??) hahaha... well, intinya isinya lebi ga bermutu dari biasanya lah.... hehehe :p
gw lagi ga punya inspirasi buat nulis... (ada sih, tp males...) :p segini dulu deh ya... daaaahhh!!

my friends wedding...

Pertama2, gw mo ingetin temen2 yg di Melb klo mulai hari ini, kita dah DAYLIGHT SAVING loh!!! which means Melb-Indo jadi beda 4 jam skrg... other meaning, jam tdr gw kurang 1 jam!!! >_< parah!!!

Oiya, pengen cerita ttg kemaren... temen gw, yg skrg bakal gw panggil Ci Lenny en Ko Lukman, menikah!!! huehehe... akhirnya!!! hari yg telah ditunggu2 tiba juga... i guess mereka seneng bgt sampe ga bisa describe... gw aja yg baru kenal mereka bentar, dah seneng bgt buat mereka, apalagi merekanya sendiri.... bisa dibilang ini adl wedding ceremony pertama yg pernah gw hadirin di Melb... and klo ga salah yg ke-3 dalem hidup gw... 2 yg pertama aja itu weddingnya om2 gw.. jadi gw masi kecil dan ga ngerti wkt itu... hehehe :p but i can tell u sumfin... the ceremony was one of the most moving moment (''mengharukan'') in ppl's lives... wkt itu gw jadi usher sih, jadi rada2 sibuk en ga bener2 dengerin kotbahnya... but there's one thing yg gw inget... Ko Dj nanya, ''Apa yg bakal jadi saat yg paling membahagiakan selain hari ini??''... jawabannya adl saat dimana 30-40 taon ke depan, keduanya masi bisa saling bergandengan tangan dan berbagi kasih... it was... a beautiful thought...

Ngomong2 soal pernikahan... saat2 yg paling gw tunggu tuh wkt pengucapan vows... eh.... sedikit mengecewakan, ternyata vows-nya cukup standard... yaaa gpp lah, percuma klo bagus2 tp akhirnya ga dijalanin, cuma buat gombal doank... mendingan standard tp dijalanin bener2.. ^^ pokoknya gw seneng bgt deh buat mereka!!! selamet ya buat Ci Le en Ko Luk... hahaha.. ^0^ (punya julukan baru)... ga ngerti kenapa, kok klo disaat yg paling membahagiakan, tetep aja bisa bikin terharu ya?? hehehe... dasar cewek... :p

invisible

Invisible (by Ashlee Simpson)

Like a grain on the beach
Like a star in the sky
Far too many to count
With the naked eye
They will see you
Go ahead walk on by
You don't know I'm alive
Maybe one day you'll find
You should open your eyes (your eyes)
You don't know me

You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible

Little things adding up
Try so hard not to rush
Giving in, letting go
Of the world we know
They won't see you
Force it down, lose the taste
We don't think it's a waste
We don't need to believe
Every word they say now (say now)
They don't know me

You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible

It's so easy
To be lost
But maybe
You're not lost at all
Whoa Whoa
Do you recognize me?
Whoa Whoa
Do you know who I am?
Whoa Whoa
Do you see me now?
Whoa whoa
Do you see me now?

You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was whoa
Invisible
I'm invisible
I'm invisible
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dunno why, sumhow this song juz stuck on my mind the whole day...

my happy dream...

I'd like to keep a record of my dream... coz i dont usually dreaming in my sleep... and this particular dream that i'm about to write is one of the happy ones...

Last nite i slept very2 early... i think it was about 6.30pm... and then i woke up at 4am in the morning... what a long sleep!!! (i woke up in between tho)... i was dreaming about going back to indo... i dreamt that i was in indo already... got off of the plane, then went straight to the mall wif my best friends... having bubble tea... then, went for a dinner wif my family... having a happy convo and chit-chatting about all my school stuffs and friends in melbourne.... having jokes... i remembered that i was so happy!!! that i laugh in my sleep... (coz i was woken up by my own laugh... then i continued my dream... funny isnt it??? coz it felt so real!!!)... then, in my dream, my mum asked me where my return ticket and pasport is... then, suddenly i realised, i dont have my pasport wif me.... then i started to think back, how come i passed all the custom officers in the airport... this cant be rite... then, my brain juz tell me.... "You idiot!! it's juz a dream!!!" and i woke up, still looking for my pasport... and really realised that it was juz a happy dream of mine... :( i wish it's true... dont have to go thru this exams time.... hated it a lot!!! cant believe i have to go thru this time every year!!!

anyway... after that dream, i woke up and do sumfin... try to study, but couldnt be bothered... still so sleepy (after those hours of sleep?!)... then, i went online and chat wif few friends who still awake around that time... then i went to sleep again coz i got a lil bit of headache.... and guess what?! i dreamt again!!! this time, still involving my family, and also some of my melbourne friends... it was a funny dream.... in my dream, the distance btw, melbourne and malaysia was juz 2hours drive by car... hahaha ^0^ (so impossible!!!) in my dream, i was woken up in a strange place... looks like a dorm and felt like my own house.... i felt comfortable there, but i know it's not my house.... then, there was a convo btw mum n my sis, Linda said she wanted to stay in a dorm and study in Malaysia.... (what?!) becoz of that convo, i realised for the 2nd time that i was dreaming... coz this cant be real!!! Linda would never ask to study overseas... these dreams are so wrong!!! but at least they gave me a lil bit of happiness... even tho it's all juz a dream.... LoL ^0^

bantuin org boong...

Hueh... akhirnya... selese juga kerjaan gw hari ini... tapi bukan berarti gw bisa nyantai2 neh... dalam 1, 2, 3, 4, 5... LIMA hari lagi gw bakal exam!!! dan gw belom belajar!!! gila!!! bener2 deh... klo gw bisa lulus mah, ini sebuah miracle...

Anyway, td pagi2 temen gw di perth sms... minta ijin mo pake nama gw...
berhubung pas baru bgn bacanya, gw ga connect gitu... gw bingung, kenapa dy minta ijin pake nama gw?? mangnya nama gw bagus?? huehehe :p ternyata eh ternyata, dy mo pake nama gw biar dy bisa pegi ke darwin... duhh... susah neh... gw ga mo bantuin dy boong, tp klo gw ga bantuin, dy bisa sedih... kan dy jarang bgt jalan2... so akhirnya, gw bales deh sms dy pas dah siangan... gw kasi dia ijin buat pake nama gw buat boong tp untuk yg terakhir kalinya... semoga aja deh dy ga aneh2 di darwin... ntar nama gw bisa jadi tercoreng... huehehe :p

dah ah... laper neh... dari pagi belom makan gara2 ngerjain report gw tersayang... huahahaha ^0^ mo pulang, makan, mandi, bobo, bgn lagi, belajar... =_=

ps: maaaa... cepetan balik... nv mo ngobrol... hiks... T_T

Miss Perfect

Miss Perfect...
itulah aku... huehehe :p
I know I used to be very2 perfectionist... sampe2 stress sendiri, karena no body's perfect, but I still expect everyone, everything, even myself to be perfect...
Then, aku coba berubah... karena smuanya cuma bikin aku stress sendiri...
Tadinya aku kira, aku dah cukup berubah... dah lebih ga perfectionist (emang sih...)
Tapi ternyata, org2 disekelilingku masi aja bisa ngeliat betapa perfectionistnya aku...
hehehe :p

(buka kartu sendiri nih....)

Iya... td tuh, aku nelpon temen lamaku di Indo... dia dah kayak cici buat aku...
aku aja manggil dia ''cici''... aku kenal dy dah dari aku kelas 1 SMP, which is 6 taon yg lalu... kita beda 8 taon, tp ga menghambat persabahatan kita... dia salah satu org yg kenal aku luar dalem... dan mau ngajar serta nge-kritik aku wkt aku salah... beruntung bgt deh bisa punya temen kayak dia... selaen bisa belajar banyak (karena dy lebi berpengalaman), bisa mempersiapkan diri buat dunia org dewasa juga (karena dy juga suka cerita2 ttg pengalaman dy)...

Tadi tuh, ngobrol ngalor ngidul.. trus ga tw ngebahas apa, dia ngomong klo aku tuh sebenernya emang lebih dewasa ketimbang temen2 seumuranku... (huehehehe :p jadi terbang deh...)
Aku tw sih, tp ga nyangka, dari sejak aku SMP dah keliatan kayak gt... mgkn inilah yg bikin aku suka telalu stress tentang hidup... tentang masa depan... temen2ku kayaknya nyantai2 aja, kok aku suka dah mikir kejauhan en pusing sendiri.... trus dia pesen ke aku, ''juz let it flow''... smuanya dalam hidup ini butuh process, ga perlu buru2... enjoy every single step of your life... karena smuanya ga bakal balik lagi... ga usa telalu stress en overwhelm ma smuanya... terima aja dan atasin satu per satu... hmmm... berhubung dah lebih dari satu org yg ngomong ke gw kayak gt... i guess gw musti bener2 dengerin... hehehe :p

Klo gt mulai skrg, saya berjanji, mo belajar buat lebi rileks dalem menghadapi apa yg singgah dalam kehidupanku... (yaaa jangan sampe terlalu lay back juga tapinya!!!)... belajar buat ga panikan lagi... hehehe :p and i will learn to enjoy every single minute of my life... every second of it... coz they are all come from God's grace for me... ^_^

PS: makasi ci buat nasehatnya... ^^
and notes for myself (klo gw sampe fail)... failure is not the end of the world... it's juz the beginning of a lesson... where u learn to stand up after your fall.... then, learn to stand firmer...

older = smarter??

Nick name seorg teman lamaku membuatku berpikir...
"Is it when u get older the u r expected to get smarter??"
What a good question, i think...

Lalu, kupikirkan kalimat itu...
Sebenarnya, ga juga sih.. klo dipikir2, kita ga harus be smarter when we get older...
i guess, we juz need to be wiser... smart kan belom tentu wise...
Tp kalimat di atas ada benernya juga... kita juga ga bisa stay di kepandaian yg itu2 aja as we get older... contohnya aja, wkt tk, mgkn kita dah seneng bisa ngitung sampe 10, masa klo dah umur 20, tetep aja seneng dengan kepandaian se-anak TK?? huehh... ribet ya klo mikirin hal kayak gini... ga penting sih sebenernya... hehehe :p berhubung ga penting, aku sudahi saja deh postingan ini... selamat mikirin kalimat di atas ya... ato baca aja blog lain... hehehe :p

My Intelligence...

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others. Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

ego...

EGO..

Everyone has an ego...
Sumtimes, ego drives us to do what we are doing...
Ego doesn't help us to grow..
coz with ego, we can't grow...
We won't listen to others...
and when our ego grows bigger and bigger more than anything...
it's the time when it'll eat u alive!!

So, the question is, do u want to let your ego wins??
or u prefer to control it and learn to be humble...

u/ seorg teman

mgkn hari ini bukanlah hari yg terbaik
tp hari ini bukanlah hari yg buruk
walau masi sulit untuk menarik seulas lengkung di wajah
warnaku tak sekelabu hari yg lalu

walau aku sendiri
ku tau, aku tidaklah seorang diri
selalu ada yg menemani
dalam senang dan sedih

walau ku tlah sakiti banyak hati
lukai banyak perasaan
masi sll ada yg mau peduli
masi sll hadir seorang kawan

kupelajari lagi satu hal hari ini
bila ku memilih tuk melihat dari suatu sisi
sisi yg positif...
sesuatu yg kelihatan buruk, tidaklah selalu buruk
itu smua tergantung dari sudut mana kita berdiri

thx mum

doehhhh... kenapa ya gw jadi kecanduan nge-blog en baca2 blog org???
kayak ga ada kerjaan aja... padahal gw banyak yg musti dikerjain...
reports masi belom ada satupun yg selese... mana bsk ada chem test lagi!!
belom belajar pula!!! lengkap lah sudah hidupku ini....

biarpun kesannya skul gw parah bgt...
gw bersyukur masi punya seorg sahabat yg baek yg mo dengerin gw setiap saat...
yg lebih bijak dari gw... lebih sabar dari gw... dan yg pasti sayang ma gw... ^^
haikz... itulah nyokap gw!!! ^^

td gw nelp nykp, rencananya cuma buat ngomong soal colokan kamera...
soalnya dy nanya2 gt ma gw.... daripada gw jelasin lwt sms, mending gw telp lah...
ehhh... akhirannya gw malah jadi curhat... hehehe :p
dah ga sabar mo balik indo... mum... miss ya!!! huhuhu T_T

a day after another...

phew... berlalu juga hari ini...
btw dah lama ya gw ga cerita ttg hari2 gw... ^^
hmm... hari ini sebenernya ga ada yg special... as usual...
minggu ini bakal berlalu dengan cepet...
dan bulan ini bener2 ga kerasa, tw2 dah ditengah bulan...

hari ini, gw ke uni kayak biasa... bangun pagi... jam 6an...
dan masi ngantuk walo dah tdr dari jam 9an.... huehehe :p
hari ini cuma ada lab selama 3 jam... akhirnya chemistry project gw selese juga...
tinggal bikin reportnya deh... T_T
masi ga nyadar juga klo hari ini hari selasa.... gw beranggapan jumat masi lama...
pdhl tinggal 3 hari lagi dah jumat lagi!!! oh no!! kenapa waktu ini muter cepet bgt??!!!
kemana aja gw selama ini?? ngapain aja gw selama ini??
kok tw2 dah pertengahan october??!! kok tw2 2 minggu lagi gw bakal exam??
kok tw2 in about a month gw bakal dah di indo lagi?? gosh!!! time flies!!!
kata guru gw... time flies when u have fun... tp ternyata time flies too when u r not having fun... hehehe :p

td dinner di dessert house ditemenin VQ... (dah lama ga pernah masak lagi....)
trus naek tram pulang... jalan kaki dikit... nyebrang jalan... sampe rumah deh..
trus ganti baju... panas abies!!! hari ini tuh bener2 weathernya ngejek org...
pagi2 dingin... siang panas bgt... malem dingin lagi....
walo siang2 panas gt, gw pake sepatu plus kaos kaki, karena gw ada practical...
menyedihkan.... rasanya kaki gw lagi di sauna... huehehe :p
untung skrg dah cooled down...

udah deh ceritanya... gw musti ngebut ngerjain tugas2 gw yg sudah menanti dan manggil2 gw... hehehe :p tha tha smuanya!!!

show me Your ways - hillsong

Show me Your ways
That I may walk with You
Show me Your ways
I put my hope in You

The cry of my heart
Is to love You more
To live with the
Touch of Your hand
Stronger each day
Show me Your ways

???

one drop after another...
it hurts inside that i want to explode...
couldn't explain what this is...
maybe it is sadness... emptiness...
in the darkness... in my loneliness...
try to search for the answer...
answer for no questions...

meaning of life...

i believe, i'm not the only person who ask this question...
"What is the meaning of life"... what does your life mean to you?? or to others??
does it have a meaning??

i've thought about it before... when i was in junior high, i didn't find the answer...
now... i'm stumbled on this question again... what is it with life??? why does it seem complicated yet simple... it's unpredictable... it's meaningful yet meaningless.. it's all depends on how you live your life i guess...

i did a search on blogs which talking about meaning of life....
it doesn't amaze me that i'm not the only one who think about this and ask the same questions...
i guess, it's all becoz we are all juz too bz wif ourlives sumtimes... and forgot the point, the purpose of our lives... all we've done in our lives juz become a routinity... life become meaningless... there is one blog that i read, talked about the balance in life between procreation, love, and work... she said that we need to be able to fulfill all of those aspects of ourlives to be able to feel happy... but the next question is... does happiness makes your life meaningful?? aha!! another tricky question... :p

i know i have an answer to my question... but i don't think everyone will be agree wif me...
i believe the meaning of life is to life your life to the fullest with sumthing to focus on and we strive to reach that goal... to have a meaningful life means to have a contented life.... and (for me) the only situation that can make me content and find the meaning of my life is in God... He's the purpose, He's the goal and He's the reason and the meaning of my life... and YOUR life!!

waiting...

waiting room
by shane barnard

i will run when i cannot walk
i will sing when there is no song
i will pray when there is no prayer
i will listen when i cannot hear

sitting in the waiting room of silence
waiting for that still soft voice i know
offering my words up to the rooftop to Your heart
trusting that this closet's where You are

Lord i know if i change my mind
You will change my heart in time
Sovereign Lord this time's from You
so i sit in the waiting room of silence
cause its all about You

i will fight when i cannot feel
i will trust when You dont seem real
i will tell when i cannot speak
i will step when i cannot see

When trouble comes....

Wkt masalah datang dan menghampiri hidup kita...
Kemana kita kan pergi??
Kepada siapa kita akan bersandar??
Apa yg akan kita lakukan??
Apa kita mampu atasi masalah itu??
Atau malah lari dan bersembunyi,
dan berharap masalah itu pergi dengan sendirinya??

Sekali2 pikirkan lah itu...
Karena apa yg kita lakukan saat masalah datang,
akan menentukan keberhasilan ato kegagalan kita...
Aku memilih untuk menghadapinya, belajar, dan memperoleh keberhasilan...
walau jalan itu tidak mudah... tp aku tw aku bisa, karena Dia besertaku... ^^

ga pernah tw...

Hidup ini lucu kadang2...
Gw ga pernah tw berapa org yg baca tulisan gw di blog ini, ato blog gw yg laen...
Kadang apa yg gw lakuin cuma nyurahin apa yg gw pikirin...
apa yg gw rasain...
Tp ga pernah nyangka klo bisa punya efek ke org laen...
Tentu itu salah satu harapan gw wkt nulis blog...
Gw selalu berharap bisa bantu org laen...
tp sifat pesimis gw selalu bikin gw berpikir itu hanya mimpi yg semu...
Pdhl sudah terbukti beberapa kali, klo hal itu bisa jadi nyata...
dan sudah menjadi nyata...
Ternyata emang tiap dari kita punya efek, yg bisa mempengaruhi org di sekitar kita...
dan itu ga mustahil...
Kita bisa jadikan sekeliling kita menjadi lebih baik, simply dengan memberi contoh yg baik...
Mulai dari diri kita dulu... ubah sgala sesuatu yg jelek dari kita...
dan kita bisa mengubah dunia... make it better.... a better place... ^_^

Life between the DASH

LIFE BETWEEN THE 'DASH'

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
from the beginning...to the end.

He noted that first came her date of birth
and spoke the following date with tears,
but he said what mattered most of all
was the 'dash' between those years. (1934 -1998)

For that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive on earth...
and now only those who loved her
know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own;
the cars...the house...the cash,
what matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our 'dash'.

So think about this long and hard...
are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real,
and always try to understand
the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger,
and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives
like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,
and more often wear a smile...
remembering that this special 'dash'
might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy's being read
with your life's actions to rehash...
would you be proud of the things they say
about how you spent your 'dash'?

(Author Unknown)
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Suatu hari, wkt gw lagi di uni, this story caught my eyes...
Gw baca en bikin gw merenung... sependek itu kah hidup ini... cuma se-dash??
Dan sekali lagi gw bertanya ma diri gw... dah berisi apakah 'dash' gw itu??
Am i happy with what i've done?? is there anything that i could improve in my 'dash'??

temen ato pacar??

td baru aja nelp temen gw yg di indo... dah lama bgt ga nelp dy...
gw paling seneng ngobrol ma dy, walo dah lama ga contact, pasti begitu ngomong, dah kayak baru ketemu kemaren aja... ^_^ (jadi kangen... pengen cepet2 balik indo...)

buat gw temen itu penting en berharga bgt... gw ga kebayang klo gw musti keilangan temen... apalagi seorang sahabat... td, kita bedua ngomongin soal 2 org sahabat yg lagi berantem... gw sedih juga sih denger mereka berantem... apalagi berantemnya gara2 seorang cowok... menurut gw, tuh cowok ga worth it... ga seberharga persahabatan yg dah mereka punya selama 7 taon... kadang gw berpikir.... segitu rapuhnya kah manusia?? cuma gara2 suatu hal yg bisa dibilang sepele, bisa berubah 180 derajat... (moga2 hal ky gini ga bakal pernah terjadi ke gw)

klo suatu hari gw harus milih antara temen ato co... gw rasa, gw ga bakal ragu2 gw milih temen... itu jawaban gw wkt dulu... tp klo skrg, gw ga bisa bilang 100% gw pasti jawab gt... karena hidup ini punya banyak possibilities... tp gimana pun, gw bakal lebih utamain temen dan sahabat sih daripada co.... hehehe :p sahabat itu susah dicari... klo dibikin perumpamaan, menemukan sahabat tuh, kayak nemuin sebutir mutiara di dlm timbunan pasir... (karang gw ndiri.. :p) makanya klo mo enaknya, cari co yg jadi bisa jadi sahabat.... hehehe :p (duuuhh gw nulis apa ini?! dah mulai ngaco... kayaknya dah ngantuk deh....)

iya nih.. inti tulisan gw sih gitu.... klo lu.. iya, elo yg lagi baca blog ini... lagi menghadapi pilihan antara ngorbanin sahabat ato pacar... gw saranin, lu pikir lagi deh bener2 klo lu sedang mempertimbangkan buat sacrifice persahabatan lu.... is he or she worth enuf to sacrifice your friendships??