my retreat story....

hey!! i wanna share my experiences that i got from the retreat few days ago....
so, here's the story....

It was 14 April... and i couldnt sleep... coz i was to excited to go to the retreat and of course because it's also my b'day... anyway... finally i managed to sleep at 2.30am... and then i had to wake up by 7am (luckily, my friend rang me to wake me up-thx Harph ^^)... had shower... had breakie... then go to level 8 to see Imel n the others.... there i met Novi and Iin... by 8am, we off to the church where we usually have our fellowship... then... i met lotsa new friends from Brisbane... i juz couldnt stop talking... i was too excited... even tho i was so tired....

anyway... after everyone is there... we started to march to Eildon... there were 11 cars if i'm not mistaken... and heaps of ppl...

i was planning to sleep in the car... it took 2hrs drive to get there... so i'll give me enuf time to sleep.... but i couldnt... my eyes juz doesnt wanna shut.... and i'm glad that i didnt sleep coz the view was incredible.... it reminds me to Puncak... but it was much better... much more beutiful...


i like nature so much... maybe that's why it's a refreshment for me.... esp. coz where i live now, i wont be able to see view like that.... i can only see buildings and street lights.... that's why i'm so happy to see the view... there are sum cattles and vineyards too on the side of the road.... it's so country!!


ummm sorry... i'm out of track... (hehhee... too excited tokin bout the view) :p
btw, i hv a picture of sum ppl that i met during the retreat.... hv a look...


It was raining, but everyone were so excited... they were posing under the colourful umbrella and cant standing still coz it was so windy and cold... wakakaka ^0^

There's none like YOU...

THERE IS NONE LIKE YOU

There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart
Like You do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like You

Your mercy flows like a river wide
And healing comes from Your hands
Suffering children are safe in your arms
There is none like You
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

This is one of the songs that were sung during the retreat alot of times... and it becomes one of my favourite... coz it really touches my heart n reminds me that my God is the God who loves.... God who's very patient.... He's always there.... and always waiting for me to go home... to go back to Him...

tired...

hhfff... so tired today... guess it's carried on from the retreat....
since the retreat, i haven't hv a good nite sleep... didnt sleep long enough...
i know i'm tired and need to sleep, but my body juz doesnt wanna sleep...
i always find sumfin to do... and lately, i cannot sleep before i tok to somebody...
every nite, i always ring sumbody before i go to bed... anyone... can be my mum or my friends...

btw, i've juz cumback from Coles.... i went there juz to get a can of apricot nectar (for the cake i wanna make) but then, i couldnt help myself.... i bought more things than wot i was planning to buy.... oh well... i was hungry... hehehehe :p

it's showering outside... and so windy...
and before i went to coles, my housemate (Melanie) asked me to be her model....
(btw, she's studying photography in RMIT...) i couldnt say no... so, we went to Vic Mart and i had to squat at the side of the road... and wot i can tell u is... that it was FREEZING!!!

umm... wot else can i tell u??? i think that's all for now... i'm so hungry and cant think and type anymore..... i ran out of energy... (>_<) :p

hepi bday to me...

Hey! it's 14 April!!! which means.... it's my bday!!! ^^
huehehe... i dont really like to expose my bday... but thru this post, i wanna share my happiness.... that God gives me another day to live and to develop in Him...

thanks for all of my friends who have tried really hard to remember my bday... and congratulate me thru phone or sms.... ^^ even sum ppl congratulate me a day earlier.... LoL ^_^
i appreciate it a loT!!! i'm glad i have u guys... and i'm more than happy to share this moment wif u all....

btw, i gtg go now... can't type much... coz it's so late already... and i need to pack up my stuff for the retreat tmrw (have to leave home by 8am >_< ).... feel so excited!!! retreat, here i come!!!! ^^

bored....

hey... it's me again... still at uni... waiting for my next tutorial....
it's gonna be a long day for me... start at 9am and finish at 8pm.... :(

dunno wot to say....
oh!!! juz remember sumfin...
yesterday.. i finally bought the mp3 player that i've always wanted....
its a "black creative nano zen plus"!!!


I have thought to buy it since last year... but i'm not sure which type or colour that i wanted...
after a long discussion wif my cousin (koko) and my friends.... i still wasnt sure yet....
But i really need it... coz i wanna use it for voice recording....
The more i think about it, the more i get confused and stressed....
and finally it's come to the point where my koko said... "Nov, it's juz an mp3.... juz pick one, and buy one... dont think to much about it..." Hmm... it really made me realise that i was stressing to much bout a little thing.... and it affects almost every aspects in my life at that moment....
anyway, so i decided to pick one and buy it straight away yesterday... it feels so good....
coz i finally get wot i wanted... and the most important thing is that i finally be able to decide.... MAKING a DECISION and taking a RISK.... thats wot it's all about.... (i guess...)

I dunno since when.... i'm juz too scared to make a quick decision and taking risks...
it can take me ages to decide on buying sumthing that i know i really like... and it can ended up not buying it at all.... for example a parfume from the body shop.... i really like sum scents... and i couldnt decide which one i should pick.... and until now i havent picked one....
i have a reason for this tho... for me, perfume is sumthing that is really personal....
i want it to express my personality.... that's why i'm so careful in choosing it...

anyway, that's about me and my problems.... :p
wanna say sumthing too? pls post your comment in the comment box provided.... thx.... ^_^

English...

Hey! I'm at uni now... finished my lecture half an hr earlier.... so i thought why don't i write down sumthing on my blog... ^^

Firstly, i wanna say sorry to ppl who's have a look at my blog and dissapointed coz u cant understand it... i know i should've write it in english.... but sumtimes i juz couldnt find the right word in english... then, i started to write in indo... but from now on.... i will try harder to write more in english for u ppl!!! ^^

anyway.... i can't wait for the holiday.... it's 2days to go!!!!
alsoo cant wait for the retreat.... i'll go to (ummm... forgot wot it's called :p), it's sumwhere out of the city... i need a break from the city's bz-ness.... :p

ok, i gtg now.... my next lec will start in 5 minutes... cya!!! ^^

oNLiNe..

Yeee!!! dah bisa online lagi!!! pake kompie gw ndiri loh!!! ^^
walau cuma buat sementara... tetep aja seneng bgt!!! ^^

Hari ini gw seharian ngutak2 komputer melanie n punya tara.. punya mereka internetnya dah bisa jalan... tp punya gw blom bisa... eeehhh, ga twnya skrg dah bisa!!! ^^ seneng abies!!! ^^
mulai sekarang (hopefully) gw bisa lebih sering kirim posting2 deh ^^ i really wanna share my happiness with someone... but no one is at home atm... so.... i send this post, so that i can share it to all of u! ^^ hehehe :p

dah dulu deh ya, mo belajar dulu nih, senen selasa ada midtest, tp blom bljr, gara2 seharian ngutak ngatik kompie...

(kayaknya gw seharusnya belajar IT ato comp sci deh... hehehe :p)

DiABoLo

Hey, i learned sumthin new yesterday @ ICM...
I learned to play DIABOLO!!! I guess most of u have never heard of it... neither have i... till last nite.... ^^

Here is the picture.... I guess u've seen it before... especially if u've watched a circus before... (if u r interested to find more info bout it... u can click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diabolo)

It's quite similar to Yoyo... but not exactly the same.... and it's also a good fun to do.... last nite, i spent like 2hours non stop playing this thing... coz it makes me so curious... it can be tricky and hard sumtimes... esp. when u r trying harder tricks...

Anyway, it's fun for me... thanks for Soni who has introduced it to me... ^^

I've had a bad day...

Ihhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sebel... sebel....sebel.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bego bgt sih gw!!!!!

Pernah ga sih?! Dalam satu hari ngerasa itu adalah a good day... and suddenly... juz becoz u forgot to validate your ticket, all of a sudden it turns to a very22222 BAD day!!!!
Wot i hate most is that i can not blame anyone, coz it's my own fault!!!
WOt on earth was on my mind??!!! how come i forgot??!!!
n how come that guy came to me and check my ticket at the exact time when i forgot to validate it??!!! where were you when i have a validated ticket??!!! DAMN!!!

now... i dunno wot's gonna happen to me.... juz have to wait and see... and prepare sum money.... (to pay the fine....) T_T hiks...

My Diary

This is something i extract from my diary...


Kenapa??? (by Novy 10/6/05)

Kenapa ya seorang manusia tuh ga pernah puas akan apa yg dy punya?
Knapa ya?? Aku ga tw mo bilang apa... sebagai seorang manusia, aku tidak punya jawabannya.... walaupun aku sendiri mengalaminya....

Aku tidak pernah puas karena aku adalah aku....
Kadang aku ingin jadi seperti dia...
Padahal dia dan aku itu berbeda...
Dan perbedaan yg ada itu ada karena suatu alasan...
Bukan kebetulan...

Yang menciptakan aku dan dia berpendapat bahwa perbedaan itu baik...
Tapi kenapa yg diciptakan malah tidak suka???
Padahal yg mencipta tau yg terbaik bagi yg diciptakan....
Aneehhh....

Aku tau aku ini seperti ini karena inilah yg terbaik bagiku....
Tapi kok aku kadang tdk suka ya?
Aku mau jadi lebih pintar (tapi males belajar...)
Aku mau jadi lebih baik dari org lain...
Aku mau jadi lebih sukses dari org lain...
Aku mau jadi lebih cantik dari org lain....
Aku mau jadi lebih kaya dari org lain...
Aku mau jadi lebih hebat dari org lain (sombong bener....)
Aku mau jadi LEBIH!!!!

Kenapa???
Kenapa aku ga puas aja sama keadaanku sekarang?
Alasannya org yg puas dengan keadaannya itu ga punya ambisi...
Ga punya tujuan hidup...
Tp klo aku sudah jadi lebih, mau apa aku nanti?
Akankah aku kehilangan tujuan hidupku?
Memangnya apa sih tujuan hidupku?
Kenapa aku mau lebih?
Padahal yg mencipta aku bilang aku itu sudah lebih dari ‘lebih’...
Aku ini sudah sempurna dimataNya wkt aku diciptakan...
Yg menyedihkan lagi...
Apa yg aku mau lebih, adalah hal2 duniawi...

Kenapa aku tidak pernah mau jadi lebih dekat denganNya?
Kenapa aku tidak pernah mau jadi lebih mengasihiNya?
Kenapa aku tidak pernah mau jadi lebih mengenalNya?
Itulah tujuan hidupku....
Tapi kenapa aku malah tidak pernah mau???
Aneehhh...

....

I've juz got home.... tonite is so windy and cold outside... it's not winter yet and i can't stand the cold already... how will i cope with the winter in Melbourne??!!!

Anyway... i woke up late this morning... hahaha... it's my 1st time in Melbourne... so practically, i missed 1 of my lecture tday... fortunately, it wasnt very important... juz sum IT stuff.... i guess i'm gonna be late more often from now on.... :p

Yesterday... i spent most of my afternoon talking to my friend in indo on the phone.... and now.... i dunno wot to do... it doesnt mean i dun have anything to do... i juz dont wanna do it... i sort of losing my purpose... i dunno why i chose to move to this place.... i dunno why i'm taking this course... i dunno why i'm here??!!! have u ever been in my situation?? where u think that it's not really wot ur heart tells u.... but u still keep go on.... coz u juz cant really turn back anymore...

hfff... i dunno.... my life seems more complicated than it's ever been... i sort of running out of time now... i cant find peace anymore.... i need peace... i need a break... i need sumthing.... but i dunno wot that is... it's the "shadow" in my dream...

pernah ga???

Lu pada pernah ga sih?? yg suka ma co/ce... trusnya, temen baek lu ternyata suka juga ma org yg sama... trus ternyata lagi, hal yg paling nyesek tuh.... co/ce itu malah suka ma temen baek lu!!! DAMN banget kan??!! Itu rasanya dah kayak di tusuk dari belakang trus ketimpa tangga pula... hehehe :p

Barusan, ada temen gw curhat soal "love life"-nya... kejadiannya sama kayak yg di atas... gw juga ga tw mo bantu gimana... soalnya emang ga ada yg bisa gw lakuin... dah dari dulu gw bilang ama dy buat lupain tuh co... tp emang ngomong itu lebih gampang daripada prakteknya... :p Sampe skrg, dy masi ga bisa lupain... n ternyata tuh co malah suka ma ce laen yg (sialnya!!) temen baeknya dy ndiri!!! Emang sih, temen baeknya itu lebih cantik, lebih feminin.... lebih segala2nya deh... she's the type of girl yg co2 ga bakal bisa tolak... tp knp ya?? kita seringkali liat org dari luarnya aja??? gw ga bisa nyalahin co selalu cari ce yg "cantik"... soalnya ce ndiri juga klo milih co, pasti liat luarnya dulu juga.... gw cuma sedih aja buat temen gw... mgkn mustinya gw ga bole sedih buat dy... soalnya who knows, sebenernya Tuhan dah ngerencanain sesuatu yg lebih baik dari yg bisa manusia liat n bayangin... we never know...

MuLeS... >_<

Adduuuhhh... mules nih... kayaknya gw salah makan nih hari ini.... >_<
Hari ini mayan dingin, tp ga kayak kemaren.. trus, gara2 hari ini rada dingin... gw jadi kepengen bikin cookies.... trus, pas gw crita ke Tara... dy mendukung gw buat bikin... akhirnya, gw pulang dr uni, lgs bikin cookies deh.... tp kayaknya gw salah beli butter n kayaknya kurang flour juga.. jadinya menurut gw sih rada bantet.... enak sih... tp... bikin gw jadi mules... Duuuhhh!!! jangan2 food poisoning nih.... huehehe ^^ (kok dah keracunan masi bisa ketawa ya?!)

Oiya, hari ini kan assignment Aust Agriculture gw dah selese... dah gw handed in... trus... jadi ngerasa rada bebas deh... (padahal masi belom tuh... masi bnyk tugas...) Trus ada yg ngajakin nonton V for Vendetta... ato apa gitu... pokoknya yg ada V-nya... hehehe... tp tuh org bilang kayaknya ga jadi... jadinya gw blom tw deh bakal nonton ato ga...

duuhhh... sakit perut... >_<

ApRiL..

GUeSs wot?!! it's the 1st day of April todaY!!! ^^
i dunno why, i always feel excited when April comes... i guess becoz it means the holiday is getting closer... the easter is closer... and my BDAY is coming soon!!! hehehe ^^
I juz like April so much... anything which is related to April....
If i'm not mistaken, on the other side of the world... (i mean US)... the spring is started in April... that's why, i associate April with new life... ^^ bright colours... new spirit.... etc...

btw, it's also an April fool day today! i've juz realised that... hehehe ^^

b4 i go to bed...

Hey everyone.. (hopefully there are some ppl reading this blog)
If u have seen my blog before, u'll know that there's a big change here...
Thanks for my friend who has done it for me... ^^
I juz would like to write sumthing before i go to bed.. juz to celebrate... coz my blog has a new skin now... (which my friend think looks better -and i think so too-)

Anyway, i'm so tired now.... need a good nite sleep...
Good nite... ^^
Zzz...

Another story...

Hey lagi... ^^
I decided to write again... hehehe :p
Pake indo aja deh... lagi males mikir nih...

Oiya, buat yg belom tw (pengumuman aja sih)... gw sekarang dah di Melbourne... n kul di Mel-U.... so, gw dah ga di Curtin, Perth lagi... ngomong soal melbourne... nih city ga ada matinya... i mean... bener2 ga pernah mati... rameeeee terus... apalagi skrg gw tinggal deket cassino.... duuuuhhh pusing deh.... serasa masi di jkt aja.... kadang2 ga tahan sih... kangen ama ketenangan di perth... tp gw rasa ini semua cuma bagian dari proses adaptasi... sampe kapanpun klo gw selalu ngebanding2in melb n perth, ga bakal pernah puas deh gw... jadi ya terima aja lah apa adanya.... lagian kan ini dah pilihan gw... mau ga mau, ya harus mau.... :)

Hari ini, mayan panas nih... 32 derajat.... mayan yah?! klo keluar dari rumah, rasanya dah kayak masuk oven gitu... duuuhhhh... jadi males belajar.... (bukan gara2 panas sih) hehehe :p
Klo ketauan bonyok gw, bisa digaplok gw! dah minta pindah jauh2... klo ga belajar bener2 buat apa??? tp kan.... (uummm.... *kehabisan kata2*)

I really dont understand myself hey! Why i dont feel happier??? Maybe wot my friend said was rite.... i set my expectation too high... it's really hard to not to expect anything from sumthing... im not kind of person who can juz accept everything easily.... i always set an expectation out of sumthing.... well, i think this started to get too complicated n stressful... i'll stop here :p i need a rest... i need sabbath... hehehe :p

Long...Long...time...

Hey everybody!!! ^^ I'm back!!! i havent posted anything in this blog for a very long time... i think it's been more than a year!!! wow!!! and you know what? i've even forgotten the password and my username already.... hahaha.... luckily i found it... so i can continue to use this blog...

Anyway... if you wondering wots bring me back to this blog... it's because of a new friend that i met at church... he inspired me to write wot i think... to share my thoughts with ppl... and actually i enjoyed sharing my thoughts with ppl, esp. when i get feedback.... but sumtimes... it's juz hard to get started... u know wot i mean? when u have lots of ideas to write... but dunno where to start... and another thing, is the language... english is my 2nd language, and sumtimes it's hard to write a certain thing in english.... so, sorry ppl if i write in indonesian sumtimes and u cant understand it... ^^

hmm... i think... thats all for now... and hopefully, i'll send my next posting soon.... ^^ cya!!!!

huah....senangnya!!!

eh, sebenernya gw dah nulis blog ttg ini di friendster... tp pake bahasa ing, so gw mo pake indo di sini.... lebih enak aja gitu.... bisa ngomong lebih banyak en ga usah mikir telalu lama...

oiya, hari ini mothers day loh di oz... gwbeliin flora kayak pajangan gitu deh... trus gw pasang foto gw ma dia.... kayaknya sih seneng bgt... she said it's gorgeous... syukur deh klo dy suka....

anyway... yg mo gw omongin tuh... ttg kemaren....
gw nelp temen lama gw... coba tebak sapa?! gw nelp DIO!!!
gile deh dah lama bgt ga ngomong ama tuh anak.... long lost friend...
sbenernya sih pertama2 gw mo nelp ivana, tp akhirnya putus asa, abisnya ga nyambung2...
trus gw pikir sekalian aj coba nelp dio sapa tw bisa nyambung... lagian kan gw blom ngucapin selamat ultah ke dy... gw ga bisa email dy, soalnya dah ga aktif... mo kirim surat, alamatnya ketinggalan di jkt.... anyway.... pas gw nelp.. ternyata nyambung... trus kita ngobrol lama bgt sampe satu setengah jaman gitu... lama juga ya... trus dy crita banyak.... soal ceweknya lah, soal Ria... soal nyokapnya yg mo dy balik ke indo.... etc...
trus dy juga encourage gw buat ngomong inggris.. abisnya sejak taon ini... sejak di curtin.... inggris gw menurun drastis deh kayaknya... sometimes i cant speak english properly.... parah deh.... i think he's rite... gw musti mulai tegas lagi ama diri gw n ngomong ing.... soalnya what's the point gw dateng ke sini, belajar jauh2, trus pulang2 masi aja ingnya ga lancar.... gw mo kayak ko andrew... ngomong indonya sampe ada aksen inggrisnya... hehehe....
btw, back to the topic..... seandainya gw bisa ketemu lagi ama dio en ngomong2 lagi en becanda n maen kayak dulu... bareng ria dll lagi enak bgt ya.... tp yah.. hidup emang ga se simple itu.... we'll see lah... whats happen next.... ^^

segini dulu ya... mo belajar nih... banyak tugas.... hiks....
-novy-

my 18th BeTdEy!!!

hey everyone, i wanna tell u something... today is my 18th bday!!!! ^^
i had a stressfull day but also a great fun... tday, i did my 1st oral presentation for Food Sci and Nutrition.... bout soybean... i was so stressed out... that i can't think of anything else other than soybean.... but thank God, the presentation goes well and i get a quite good mark... ^^
Today, i also feel so excited, firstly coz of my presentation, secondly coz of my bday...
my mum woke me up by phone and sang happy bday to me!! ^^ simple thing that makes me feel happy.... then, Flora (my host mum) also say happy bday.... and i got some sms from my friends.... i didn't plan anything for my bday.... eventhough for some ppl, it's a big thing, for me it's not really special.... but today, i feel really special.... ^^ when i got home from uni, the ppl in my homestay already plan everything for me.... even Angela! i also got some presents... Flora bought me a beautiful ring, Charlotte gave me a cute card, and Angela gave me a mobile hanger... Sian and both of her students (Tomoko and Claire) also come for the cake! i really enjoyed today.... and i will never forget this moment ^^ i'm so lucky to be here and have ppl who really care about me....

so sad...

i dunno why.. i become so emotional today... yesterday i felt so happy coz finally i can met some of my rocko friends esp. lucy... then, when i realise that i have to say goodbye to her... i feel so sad.... :( but i don't wanna be... i should think more positive... i know i'll meet her again in the future... i know i'm gonna miss her heaps! i feel so lucky to meet her and to be her friend.... now i know what ppl mean with friendship is the most precious thing u'll ever had... coz u can't buy a best friend... u need to find them... and believe it or not... they're always be around u....

anyway, happy easter to u all! ^^ (i feel beta now)