positive thinkin'

Thought of the day:

i cant deny the power of positive thinkin'...
it can change what seems impossible to be possible...
(of course u need hard work as well)
but there's a time in life when u juz can't be positive,
even to think positively seems to be the hardest think to do...
i guess it's ok... dont be frustrated and blame yourself for not being positive...
when it's getting harder... that means we need to be recharged...
whether by talking to some wiser ppl,
or by asking for a refreshment from the Lord...
Trying to be positive all the time is a good thing... very good indeed...
but u dont have to fight for it alone... :)

Be positive!! and keep on smiling :)

nothing last forever..

Quote of the day:

If you suffer, it is not because things are impermanent. It is because you believe things are permanent. --Thich Nhat Hanh

birthday celebration

Yesterday, we had a birthday celebration in our church....
when we heard the word "birthday", we'll associate it with party and presents...

but i guess, birthday is much more than that...
birthday is a celebration of life!!!
We celebrate someone's bday, becoz his/her birth has been a blessings for us...
becoz his/her birth has brought joy to our lives...
we celebrate the bday becoz we are thankful that the person's still given another year to be shared with us... and glad that he/she has touched so many lives...
we celebrate someone's bday not becoz it's wot ppl do on the birthday...
but we celebrate it coz be are grateful for someone's life!!
It's the life, that we celebrate...

so, the question is, have u live your life so that it brings joy and celebration to ppl??

why me?!

Renungan singkat...

I wont write much today...
juz reminded to an article that i've read few months ago...
it's about how ppl are complaining when they face trials and obstacles in life...
they'll ask God, "why me?!"... "why should i go thru all these??"
but when it comes down to gaining blessings, there'll be no one ask, "why me?!"...

fighting...

have u ever fight with sumone??
i bet everyone has... and of course i have...
but so far, the fight that i consider as the hardest fight is the one against myself...
i bet u've had one too....
the fight which can has the same winner and loser... ourselves..
sumtimes it's easier juz to let the bad side wins...
and sumtimes even tho the good side wins, i'll still feel as if i'm a loser...

(sigh).. nothing much to write about...
juz wanna encourage all of us to keep the spirit up
and let our good side win the fight... ^_^

The sun is shining - Third Day

Yesterday I found
That everything I knew was wrong
It was upside down
The life I thought I had was gone

But You came and whispered love to me
And You gave me strength to carry on

Oh, the sun is shining
There is hope for me again
A new day's dawning
The sun is shining

Yesterday I lost
Everything I had and loved
Then I cried out for You, Lord
And You came and picked me up

And the sorrow lasted through the night
But the joy came with the morn

I will lift my voice
No, I won't be silent
For You heard my cry
And You turned my mourning into dancing
And so forever I'll sing

back to the old me??

it's raining today...
it was cloudy all day and freezing cold!!
but the weird thing is that i am so happy today... no particular reason...
when i think of it, i have enuf reasons to make me unhappy and blame the weather for having a bad mood... but didnt have any bad mood at all, not even from the beginning of the day... amazing huh?! doest happen often, and i hope it'll happen more often tho.. ^^

well, there're juz too many things to be grateful for...
it's raining today... it's a blessing... coz australia really need a rain... and plenty more...
and today we also celebrated Angga's bday...
it was the last PeKa for the semester.... and i'm so happy with the progress... juz so happy to have a wonderful "family" in uni environment...

as u might notice, i started to post things up on this blog more often...
well, i guess i started to gain interest in the things i used to be interested for...
such as writing and photography... (can't wait till the exams are over and juz going out all day taking pictures of whateva i like... ^0^)
i like who i am today... so different from the one in the last few weeks...
hopefully i can always be the cheerful me that i used to know... ^^

not sure...

i'm not too sure what to write here...
it's 1.40am at the moment.... and i've juz come back from Jacklyn's place for Eva's bday celebration.... she's 20 now... ^^ (welcome to the club va.. :p)
I didnt talk much... didnt do much.. didnt interact much wif the others.... felt abit awkward... but it was ok... i can still manage... ^^ plus, i can see their effort to talk to me... but still.... i often felt i'm juz an outsider who's at the wrong place with the wrong ppl... maybe it's juz my negative thinking as some might say.... but it has always been in my mind, it's in my blood... it's not gonna be easy to erase all those negative feelings... i'm learning en still trying tho... and i've promised myself, i wont give up coz i know i can do it... not that i'm strong enuf... it is bcoz i know i have ppl who support me... (so thankful for them...) ^^

well, i guess i shud stop here... it's 1.48am now... my lovely assignments have been waiting for me.... so i gtg.... catch ya later....

where are you??

where were you when i needed u??
i asked..
why cant i see u??
why cant i hear u??
one more time i asked...

then...
i turned to myself...
looked at the image in the mirror...
asked myself...
where were u when they needed u??
were u there??
and what did u do when they tried to approach u??

then tears juz fell down...
my eyes were opened wide...
my mind was cleared...
my heart mended...

i asked myself....
what have i done??
why did i build such a high wall juz to protect myself from your love??
why did i hurt myself juz to find out that it hurts you too, even more??
why did i do all that??

everything is clear to me now...
that you are always there...
and that love that you've given me is always there...
and you are still the same...
nothing has changed...
apart from myself...



Light gives of itself freely, filling all available space. It does not seek anything in return; it asks not whether you are friend or foe. It gives of itself and is not thereby diminished. --Michael Strassfeld

chat with old friends...

This morning, i woke up at 4am, and was really hungry!! LoL...
then i made myself a breakie and went online... my friend (Spence) was online... he's in Perth, and it's around 1am over there... he said he couldn't sleep and i havent been in touch with him for ages... so we caught up, and he told me everything about himself... he's started uni again and has changed his course to electrical engineering n computer science (the course that i thought he shud be doing)... he's so into stars and galaxies stuffs... and suddenly he told me about all that... about nebulae, about black hole, about a birth of a star, about betelgeuse, and much more... i've always been so happy to listen to him.... coz he can explain things very clearly and never get annoyed when i asked lots of questions.... it's all started with, "hey, can u imagine the amount of sand on the whole world?? times it with 4, and that's how many stars there are in the sky".... amazing isnt it?? and i started to think about God's wonders... juz so amaze... and all of a sudden, i've started to talk about God to him... he's juz a typical oz who doesnt believe in God.. but what i like from him is that he doesnt mind me talking bout God and will listen to what i said... even tho he always argue.. lol... (gee, miss him so much!!)
He told me one thing.... he's always happy to talk to me sumhow.... coz even tho i dont agree with him, i'll listen to him and try to understand his point... hmmm... guess that's why i like to talk to him too... everybody's like to be listened... ^_^

Then, this afternoon, i was so desperate for a company.... then i msg my friend in Perth... we often talk to each other esp. the time before exams.... LoL... her name is Irene... she's such a smart-hard working gal, who always put her standard high... (i guess she doesnt realise it)... she often pushed her self more than everyone else, that's why i didnt surprise when i found out that she got the golden key and top student awards... she simply deserves it!
And as usual, when it come to exam preparation time, she's started to get paranoid about her marks... and sumhow she often find peace of mind and encouragement from my words... (who am i that she takes my words seriously?!)... She's a smart gal, and she knew what to do... she juz need an encouragement and sumone to tell her that she's been too hard to her self... she has done her best and what she really needs now is to relax a bit...
When i told her all that, sumfin hit me on the head... they are all the encouragements that i needed... deep down in my heart, i knew what to do... and by helping her, i'm helping myself... it's amazing how things work out this way.... :p

now, i understand better the quote about friends are angels who God send for us...
Friends are like stars... they're might not always seen, but they're always there....
and a good friend is sumone who can sing the song in your heart, when u forget the how to sing...
Dear all my friends, i juz want u to know that it's a privilege for me to have u as my friends... tq vry much.... ^0^

when there's nothing wrong

hey... it's me again...
at the state where all i can do is juz thinkin there's sumfin wrong with me...
sumfin wrong with my life.... but then found out there's nothing wrong...
weird huh?!

i couldn't find peace of mind... dunno why...
even talking to ppl doesnt make me feel any better...
is it the time for me to keep quiet??
or would this quietness harm me??
you know what i mean??
when u started to keep quiet, you'll keep on talkin to yourself... and when your heart and mind arent in a good condition, i guess your thoughts can harm you...

(sigh).... well, i dunno...
is it juz the weather?? btw, it's raining today!! ^^
oz needs rain badly!! everything was wet, everything was beautiful, except the weather...
hahaha...

mellow lagi...

lately... i've done a lot of thinkin... a lot of searching... search for an identity...
i dont understand how sumtimes i'm still confused about my self...
coz ppl said, if u've known God, u won't be lost anymore... u'll know your identity as a human...
a God's creation...
well, i think i know all that... but what i'm searching for is more specific, like who i really am... like, who is Novy... am i the same person as what i thought i am as what other ppl think i am (ok, who cares about what the others think!! well, i do...)... i juz thought, if it doesnt match... that means there's sumfin wrong.. whether i'm hidding my true personality, or i dunno what.... and i'm so tired of not being the real me... the problem is, i dunno how is the real me... (can anyone help??) hahaha...

hfff... i guess i'm just wasting my time thinkin bout this useless thing...
ppl said, wot i need to do is juz to do my best to live life to the fullest... by serving and love others... esp. the ones in need...

(and i believe, one day, i'll know who i really am... a great creation, which has been created by God... with love and care... to glorify His name...) ^_^

Spiderman 3

I've juz watched this movie last nite... i wasn't planning to, but the temptation is too much that i couldnt reject it... i thought it might be the last time i can watch movies before the exam time... so, there i was, watching the movie in melb central wif 5 other friends...

Basically, i wont tell you what's in the movie...
I juz wanna share what i've got from it... I dunno how, or why, i've learnt a lot of things from that movie... since the beginning, till the end...

Few points that i got...
The 1st one is about being humble... too much pride can harm you... coz it'll make you self-centered....
The 2nd thing is about best friend... once you've found a best friend, dont ever trade them with anything else, coz they are your assets in life!! You might need to sacrifice everything, even your life for your best friend... a best friend is always there and come at the rite time...
The 3rd thing is about life... about choices we have in life... what was said in the ending was so true!! Life is about making choices... you can't say, "I have no choice"... coz it's not true!! everyone have a choice.... and we can choose to be the best of ourselves or to choose not to change, or not to choose at all... it's all our choices...
The 4th thing is about sin... symbolised by the black clothing... dont ever play and compromise with sin... coz once it's get on you, slowly but sure it'll take over you and change who you are... it might feels good at the beginning, but in the end it'll destroy you and bring u to death...

Those are juz a few points that i've got from the movie... if u havent watch the movie, watch it!! and while u r watching it, try to have a look at it from a different perspective... you'll be amaze how a movie can teach u alot!!!

lately...

hellow smua!!! if u r wondering where i've been gone lately, i'll tell u... i've been burried under loads of assignments... and i was really stressed... tp akhirnya smuanya bisa selese juga minggu ini.. but it doesnt mean i dont hv anymore assignments... lots are yet to come... T_T gw dapet break sehari... which is kemaren... en mulai dr skrg, i gotta work hard again if i dont wanna experience last few weeks experiences... hehehe :p

banyak yg gw pelajarin belakangan ini... since gw ga punya banyak wkt buat ngobrol2 en jalan2 bareng temen2 gw... gw banyak sendirian... en, yg pasti pertama2 gw belajar buat GA NUNDA2 kerjaan!! coz yg bakal ngalamin kerugian tuh gw ndiri...
trus, belajar juga buat commit ama plan yg dah gw bikin... jangan telalu sering compromise... buntut2nya jadi nunda2 lagi... in other words, belajar buat DISIPLIN... tell you smthg, it's really hard to train yourself to be discipline... but it's really a good asset that you plant for yourself...
trus belajar BERSYUKUR juga... Give thanks in everything that the Lord has given me.... friends, family, time, support, health, weather, etc... gw belajar u/ ga take things for granted... klo biasanya hal2 kecil itu smuanya gw anggep biasa2 aja, dah sewajarnya, i deserve all that... i've juz learnt that actually i may not deserve all that, but our Father loves me so much that He gave all His blessings abundantly...

masi banyak lagi sih... cuma enuf segini dulu aja deh.... musti ngerjain assignment lagi... hiks... T_T
(ups, ga boleh mengeluh!! banyak yg bilang ke gw, nukmatin masa2 kuliah, coz i'm gonna missed it once i graduated... so, bersukacitalah senatiasa!!) ^_^

so blessed...

klo ada yg punya msn gw, pasti dah baca nick gw...
"give thanks"... gw sengaja nulis itu, as a reminder buat gw.... biar selalu give thanks to God atas apa yg dah dikasi ke gw... i am soooooo blessed... and sumtimes, i forgot to give thanks.. bukannya bersyukur atas apa yg gw punya, gw malah ngeluh atas apa yg gw ga punya... (yaaahhh gt deh yg namanya manusia... ga pernah puas...) =_='

belakangan, beberapa org bilang ke gw buat jangan telalu mikirin yg berat2...
padahal gw ga pernah cerita apa2 ma org2... i guess, tampang gw keliatan bgt klo lagi mikirin masalah2 gt... hahaha... (penyakit turunan...) :p
dan hari ini, gw disadarin lagi, klo gw itu bleeeeeeesssssedddd bgt!!!...
bayangin aja, ada org yg mau dengerin gw hampir 2 jam di telpon.... padahal dengerin gw cerita itu bukan sesuatu yg gampang... biasanya klo gw cerita, pasti suka bikin org laen jadi kesel... dan ini org dengan tabah en sabarnya dengerin gw berceloteh... hahaha... thx ya...
trus, ada yg care ke gw, dengan nanyain kabar gw... ada yg approach gw, en nasehatin buat jgn telalu stres... klo gw kadang berpikir ga ada yg peduli ama gw, terbukti klo gw salah total!!!
banyak yg peduli... tergantung, gw milih u/ terima sikap mereka sebagai kepedulian, ato malah nganggep mereka cuma cerewetin gw...

gt juga dengan loe.. iya, LOE, yg lagi baca blog ini... mau terus ngasihanin diri lu, en ngambek ma Tuhan klo lu ga dipeduliin... ato mo mulai buka mata lu, telinga lu en hati lu buat nerima care, love, en grace yg Tuhan kasi, salah satunya melalui org2 disekitar loe... sadarin klo lu itu so blessed... en give thanks... :)

weight loss vs character change...

hari ini, ada yg comment klo gw kurusan... (senangnya!!)
err.. malesh ga seh?? hahaha... well, sebenernya biasa aja sih...
tp ada senengnya juga, artinya gw berhasil mempertahankan pola makan yg nykp gw coba jejelin wkt gw di indo... hahaha... (ma, nv berhasil so far!! ^^)

Hmm... sebenernya ga planning nulis ini sih... tp tiba2 aja kepengen...
lagi mikir ttg relationship antara weight loss n perubahan karakter...
(suka mikir yg ga penting sih emang... hahaha)
yg pasti, persamaan yg bisa gw temuin di keduanya adalah,
dua2nya butuh process, ga terjadi instantly... en kadang kita ga nyadar, tp org di sekitar kita yg bakal notice duluan....

Hmm.. intinya sih, gw cuma pengen bikin org2 yg baca ini blog ikutan mikir....
en sadar akan hal ini...
mgkn ada dari kita yg niat bgt nurunin berat badan (for whateva reason), tp nyoba dengan cara2 yg instant.... it might work for a while, tp akhirannya pasti bakal balik lagi... u/ ilangin berat badan en lemak2 yg numpuk itu, diperluin a constant work... olahraga yg teratur, pola makan yg bener yg dilakuin continuously... gitu juga dengan perubahan karakter ke arah yg lebih baik... ga bakal terjadi dalam sekejap mata... diperluin process yg kadang suka ga enak... tp itulah yg ngebentuk karakter kita jadi lebih kuat en kokoh, ga gampang goyah en balik ke karakter yg lama... so.... pesen gw... jangan pernah capek, don't ever give up.... apapun usaha kita, pasti akan membuahkan hasil suatu saat nanti... hehehe :p

top secret: you are special

Hey!!!
i can't wait to tell you a big secret...
it might not make your life smoother... but hopefully it will make you a little bit happier... ^_^

I've known of this secret for so long, i juz hv never really thought about it yet... and it kindda get lost sumwhere in my head...
this morning, it suddenly came to my mind... and the secret is...

You are special
coz you are...
YOU!!!

As simple as that!!! have u ever realise that??
The bible said, God loves us for who we are.... and it also said that we are special in His eyes... that means we are special in His eyes... YES!! you and me!!!
What can you ask for more??

Ok, now, don't keep this secret to yourself....
share it with others as well... ^_^
have a good day... no, i shud say, have special day... :D
or.... maybe i shud say, have an eXtraOrdinary day!!! ^_^

ps: need more explanation?? juz leave a comment on this posting...

be positive!!

it's been a bz day for me.... well, actually i didnt do much... but my mind wondered a lot.... hahaha.. ^_^

hari ini, ga tw napa, rasanya mood gw mayan oke deh... mgkn karena kmrn dah bete seharian... jadinya hari ini negatif2nya dah abis... hehehe...
tp kayaknya negatipnya gw jadi nular ke org2 laen deh... hehehe :p

anyway, hari ini tuh anzac day di Aussie...
kata temen gw sih, di jalanan td pagi rame bgt, tp berhubung gw seharian di rumah, gw ga tw... pas sore sih emang bny org, tp pasti ga serame anzac day parade...
hari ini, gw banyak merhatiin detail loh, ga tw knp.... en lebih enteng aja perasaannya... lebih gampang senyum... :)

td supir tramnya lucu deh... bikin org2 ketawa... :)
trusnya pas jalan di southgate, yg maen gitar suaranya enak.. lagunya juga enak...
trus langit cerah, udaranya adem....
trusnya... gw lagi seneng aja.. ^_^
mgkn karena pada akhirnya most things are under my control...
assignments gw masi banyak sih, tpnya gw dah ga lost lagi kayak kmrn2...
gw mulai tw musti ngapain... well, moga2 sih positipnya ga hari ini aja...
hehehe :p

udah ah.. musti lanjut lagi...
buat yg sempet gw bikin bete, jangan bete ama gw lama2 ya... en sori....
i'll try to change... ^_^

everlasting love...

pada suatu sore... gw lagi liat2 buku di suatu book shop...
trus, terjadilah conversation between gw en si penjaga bookshop (namanya Ian)...

Ian: i've read a book written by an indian priest, who write about why the marriage in india has a lower case of divorce compare to americans...
Gw: (manggut2)
Ian: he wrote that in India, most marriages are arrange marriage, the couple dont love each other at the beginning, they dont even know each other. Therefore the couple realise that they need to work hard to make their marriage works and results from that they start to know, understand and love each other...
While in America, it's the other way around... they love each other before they decided to get married... after they get married, they never really work thru their marriage, so they ended up lost their love and passion to each other...
Gw: hmmm... an interesting explanation...

Gw ga pernah sih kepikiran ttg hal tsb... tp, it makes sense sih... gw jadi inget ama blog yg pernah gw baca... yg nulis ttg love tank itu musti di isi terus.... klo pada awal relationship love tank itu penuh, during the relationship pasti bakal ada minus2nya... nah, pada wkt ada minusnya, kita musti nambahin lagi lovenya biar jadi penuh lagi... (tanki cinta by Windra S.)... jadi... yg namanya everlasting love tuh, ga mustahil, but we need to work hard for it...

complicated...

people said it is simple,
but i made it complicated...

i don't really understand myself sumtimes....
i don't really know where to go...
i don't really know what to do...
and i don't really know how i should be...

what i do know is that...
i need Your guidance Lord
i need Your love
i need You...
and You are MORE than enough to me...