a reflection on life

Hmm... sumhow lately, I have a lot of time to reflect on my life (yea, life is my favourite topic...)
Well, I didn't reflect particularly only on my life, but probably more about life in general...

Yesterday, my friend's daughter celebrated her 2nd birthday... And the adults were all busy preparing the food, clean up the house and do other things related to the party...
While the bdae girl didn't seem to realise that we're doing all these stuffs for her sake...
She was tired due to lack of sleep from the previous night and not in a good mood due to the hot weather... (ohh, poor little nat2...) She was cranky a few times and created some troubles for herself... Because she was cranky, her mum was getting annoyed and mad... and came the thunder!
If you have been in that kind of situation, you'll know what I mean... hot day, tired, limited preparation time... not a good combination for a 2 year old party....
Anyway, while I was helping (didn't do much since I was lack in energy as well), I was thinking... How ironic this situation is... the mum (no offense here... buat yg ngerasa, jangan tersinggung...) tried to do her best to make her daughter happy... She thought she'll give the best for her kid... when in fact, what her daughter really needed is her time, her attention, her mummy... Well, I don't blame the mother... she's tried her best... also becoz she's one of my best friends, and I know how hard her life has been... but, it's juz so ironic... when life seems so complicated, and when u think of it again, it kindda simple if we don't try to please everyone...
It's juz a lesson I've got from yesterday...

Lately, I've been trying to work out what I need to do in life...
Not sure which way I should go... I try to make the best and wisest decision I can make by considering the advices I've received from friends and relatives... but in the end, I'm goin no where... ohhh, so frustrating!! >_<
Hahaha... I sounded so like sumone who don't have faith in God...
I kind of know why I'm so confused, it's becoz I don't know what I'm looking for in life... I haven't found my purpose and therefore I don't know where to go coz I haven't decide on the destination yet...
I know I don't want to live for money, coz I have heard so many stories about ppl and money...
Neiher fame and power.... What I wanna do is helping people... give hope to others... show love to the unloved... but I don't know what to do or where to start... and I'm far from an angel... I'm such an evil sumtimes that I don't think I will be able to do it...

Anyway... That's an update news bout my life... ;)

Father's Love Letter

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you. (Psalm 139:1)

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. (Psalm 139:2)

I am familiar with all your ways. (Psalm 139:3)

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. (Matthew 10:29-31)

For you were made in my image. (Genesis 1:27)

In me you live and move and have your being.(Acts 17:28)

For you are my offspring. (Acts 17:28)

I knew you even before you were conceived. (Jeremiah 1:4-5)

I chose you when I planned creation. (Ephesians 1:11-12)

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. (Psalm 139:15-16)

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. (Acts 17:26)

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14)

I knit you together in your mother's womb. (Psalm 139:13)

And brought you forth on the day you were born. (Psalm 71:6)

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. (John 8:41-44)

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. (1 John 4:16)

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. (1 John 3:1)

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. (1 John 3:1)

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. (Matthew 7:11)

For I am the perfect father. (Matthew 5:48)

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. (James 1:17)

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. (Matthew 6:31-33)

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Because I love you with an everlasting love. (Jeremiah 31:3)

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. (Psalms 139:17-18)

And I rejoice over you with singing. (Zephaniah 3:17)

I will never stop doing good to you. (Jeremiah 32:40)

For you are my treasured possession. (Exodus 19:5)

I desire to establish youwith all my heart and all my soul. (Jeremiah 32:41)

And I want to show you great and marvelous things. (Jeremiah 33:3)

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. (Deuteronomy 4:29)

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4)

For it is I who gave you those desires. (Philippians 2:13)

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. (Ephesians 3:20)

For I am your greatest encourager. (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. (Psalm 34:18)

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. (Isaiah 40:11)

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. (Revelation 21:3-4)

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. (Revelation 21:3-4)

I am your Father,
and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. (John 17:23)

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. (John 17:26)

He is the exact representation of my being. (Hebrews 1:3)

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you. (Romans 8:31)

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. (1 John 4:10)

I gave up everything I lovedthat I might gain your love. (Romans 8:31-32)

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. (1 John 2:23)

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. (Romans 8:38-39)

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.(Luke 15:7)

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.(Ephesians 3:14-15)

My question is…
Will you be my child? (John 1:12-13)

I am waiting for you. (Luke 15:11-32)

Love,
Your Dad
Almighty God

happiness

Hmm... i guess we're all too familiar with phrases like "live happily ever after", "don't worry, be happy", etc.
They are all about happiness....
Which shows that humans are looking for happiness... all their lives, they do everything, go everywhere, spend anything to reach that happiness that they're yearning for....
but at the end.. they can only found emptiness....
Why??
It's not that "live happily ever after" will never happen....
It's not that it's only happen in the story....
It's becoz we've been looking for the wrong happiness...
We're looking for things to fulfill our own desire...
and there's nothing that can fulfill us except one thing...
actually, it's not a thing... it's a person...
The Only Person which can fulfill us....
He's the only One who can make us complete...
And at the end... it's not juz happiness that He'll bring to our lives...
it's more than that... coz He's promised an overflowing JOY!
So, ask yourself... have you been looking for happiness in the right place?
Open your heart, and let Him in...
Only Jesus can...

No Greater Love

(John 15:13)

Verse 1:

You loved me,

When I was so unlovely,

You sought me

When I was lost;

You showed me

How much You really loved me,

When You bought me

At the highest cost

Chorus:

There’s no greater love than this,

There’s no greater love than this,

That a man would give his life for a friend;

There’s no higher sacrifice

Than a man would give his life,

You have paid

A precious price for me

Verse 2:

You chose me,

When I was so unworthy

You cleansed me

With Your own blood;

You clothed me

With righteousness and mercy,

And You crowned me

With Your steadfast love

(Repeat Chorus 2 times)

Coda:

You have paid

A precious price for me

You have paid

A precious price for me

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Really, the lyric of this song is so true... There's NO greater love than God's love for the world - for you and me...

John 3:16 said "God so loved the world that He gave his begotten son that whosoever believe in Him should not perish but have everlasting life."

GOD.................the greatest LOVER
SO LOVED............the greatest DEGREE
THE WORLD...........the greatest NUMBER
THAT HE GAVE........the greatest ACT
HIS BEGOTTEN SON....the greatest GIFT
THAT WHOSOEVER......the greatest INVITATION
BELIEVETH...........the greatest SIMPLICITY
IN HIM..............the greatest PERSON
SHOULD NOT PERISH...the greatest DELIVERANCE
BUT.................the greatest DIFFERENCE
HAVE................the greatest CERTAINTY
EVERLASTING LIFE....the greatest POSSESSION

A Broken Spirit

A Broken Spirit


A broken spirit, and a contrite
You will not despise, You will not despise;
You desire truth, in the inward parts,
A broken spirit and a contrite heart


Lord my heart is prone to wander,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here’s my heart,
Lord, take and seal it,
Seal it for Your courts above


You desire truth, in the inward parts
A broken spirit and a contrite heart
A broken spirit and a contrite heart

juz a thought before bed time

Pengen ngepost sumfin malem ini, tp ga tw mo nulis ttg apa...
Mgkn gw bakal mulai dengan cerita kegiatan gw hari ini aja....

First of all, suatu keajaiban gw masi melek sampe jam segini (2.30 pagi), padahal kmrn2 gw kurang tdr... dan gw masi blm ngantuk2 bgt.... padahal bsk gw musti bangun pagi nih...
I wonder why... knp ya gw blm ngantuk??
Is it the effect of caffeine yg gw minum td? Ato karena gw ga ngerasa peaceful??
Sumhow, gw ngerasa, gw lagi mencoba u/ ngebohongin diri gw sendiri.... esp. hari ini....
I don't really know what I'm doing.... yg gw inget, I smiled a lot.... dan hari berlalu begitu cepat...
Dan setelah hari dah berlalu, gw masi berpikir ttg alasan gw melakukan smua hal yg gw lakukan hari ini...

Ahhh, ga tw lah....
Rasanya ngantuk mulai datang menghampiri...
Saatnya tidur...

Gnite everyone..... ;)

Quote of the day....

"An offense against your neighbor is a fence between you and God"

slow down... and stop for a while...

Impatience is often why we hurry. It’s simply a lack of trust. When you’re impatient you’re saying, “God, I don’t really trust you. I don’t think you have my best interest at heart. You don’t know when I need it, and I’m in a hurry.” Is fast always better? No. It is not. Not always.

God has a plan for your life. You know that. But he also has a timetable for your life. Unfortunately, God never explains his timetable. And that can be frustrating! I couldn’t understand God’s timing. But God knew exactly what he was doing.

It’s painful when you’re in a hurry and God’s not. But it’s part of maturing, part of growing up. Children have to learn the difference between “no” and “not yet.” God knows the right time and the right way. He has a plan and a timetable.

The key is to TRUST GOD'S TIMING!

(Source: "How to slow your life down" by Rick Warren, http://legacy.pastors.com/RWMT/default.asp?id=362&artid=11425&expand=1)

Recipe for love

Never sleep on an angry word.
Never make the other feel absurd.
Always believe in each other's dreams.
Keep communication flowing like a stream.
Speak to each other with a tender heart.
Remember each day how you felt at the start.
Treat each other with kindness and respect.
Love grows only with care not neglect.
Never forget a special day.
Never miss a chance to say,
All the good things that you feel,
A loving kiss can always heal.
Desire should make you swoon,
Each and everyday should be a honeymoon.
Nothing can ever be more important than your lover.
Never give a passionate thought to any other.
To make love last for all eternity,
The "ME" must become "WE".
When your heart is full of affection,
Love will always know the right direction.

(by Charlene Strong)

inside = outside

what's in the inside, shown on the outside....

Pasti pernah denger donk phrase ini??
Gw rasa, ada benernya juga....
Apa yg ada di dalam, biasanya bisa keliatan dr luar...

Thought of the day

You do not know what will happen tomorrow.
For what is your life?
It is even a vapor that appears for a little time
and then vanishes away.
—James 4:14

if tomorrow never comes

Thought of the day....

"If you live your life preparing for tomorrow,
then if tomorrow doesn't come,
what are you living for today?"

miscommunication

Akhirnyaaaa bisa juga gw punya wkt buat duduk dan curahin isi pikiran gw ke blog...
Hari ini, entah mengapa, rasanya gw beberapa kali come across kata "miscommunication"...
Tadi di tmp kerja, terjadi miscommunication antara bos A dan bos B... sampe ada argument panjang... padahal cuma salah tangkep aja... untung akhirnya bisa nyambung juga en jadi clear...

Trus barusan baca article ttg miscommunication...
bikin gw keinget ama seseorg yg belakangan emang kepikiran, karena gw takutnya udah salah kirim unspoken msg ke org itu... miscommunication lagi deh... hehehe :p

Lagi dilema nih belakangan...
Sumhow, lagi berasa ga tenang... umm... gimana ya jelasinnya... rasanya lagi dikejar2 ama sesuatu, en gw pengen kabur dan ngumpet aja... tp ga bisa... hehehe :p
karena selama masalahnya ga dihadapin, ya ga bakal pernah beres...
tapi gw berasa capek aja... masa kejadian yg sama terjadi lagi??!!
Duhhh kan capek... gimme a break larrr.... >_<

Loh, kok jadi curhat ya?? hahaha...
Back to the 1st topic... ngomong2 soal miscommunication, gw jadi refleksi diri abis baca article itu... (oh, biar nyambung, baca ndiri aja nih articlenya... The Art of Miscommunication)
Selama ini, secara sadar ato ga sadar, kita itu constantly sending msg ke org2 di sekitar kita... dan yg jadi masalah, biasanya klo msgnya ga clear, ya bisa bikin org salah tangkep...
Nah... klo msg yg ditangkep itu salah en merugikan org laen, kan kesian org itu... kita dah sia2in entah wkt, uang, tenaga, ato perasaan org tsb... makanya... being clear and honest itu penting loh dalem berkomunikasi... esp. dg lawan jenis, spt yg dibahas di article tsb...

S'perti Mata Air

Pada-Mu ada kehidupan

yang dunia tak dapat berikan

mengalir dari takhta mulia

semuanya yang kuperlukan

Ku berpegang pada Yesus

Kau sumber kehidupanku

S'perti mata air

yang slalu mengalir

tak pernah habis di masa kering

Kar'na aku ada di dalam-Mu, Tuhan

sumber yang kekal dan sejati bagiku.

metamorphosis

Pasti dah ga asing lagi kan dengan kata Metamorphosis??
Yang pernah belajar IPA ato Biologi, pasti langsung ngebayangin kupu2, atau katak...
Menurut kamus online, metamorphosis punya arti "transformation"; "a marked change in appearance, character, condition, or function"....

Yah... betul, metamorphosis pasti melibatkan perubahan... namanya aja metamorph...
Klo dipecah, meta artinya berubah (to transform), morph artinya bentuk...
Dan bagi gw personally, begitu denger kata metamorphosis, pasti langsung kebayang kupu yg lagi terbang dengan indahnya di antara bunga2... (wuihhh... dah kayak taman bunga...)

Somehow, I'm so facinated by butterflies....
Mind you, I'm not a fan of insects... tapi butterflies adalah pengecualian....
Gw terlalu kagum sama yg nyiptain kupu2, abisnya kreatif banget sih!!!
Sapa yg nyangka sih, kupu2 yg indah itu, tadinya adalah ulat yg gendut dan serakah yang cuma bisa ngerugiin org laen....
Kadang gw juga ngerasa, kehidupan manusia berdosa yang akhirnya nerima Tuhan itu seperti metamorphosis dari seekor ulat menjadi kupu2... it's not easy... and there's a possibility bisa mati ditengah process...
Secara garis besarnya, stages metamorphosis ulat menjadi kupu2 bisa dijabarkan sbb:
- ulat (larva)
- kepompong (pupa) --> inactive state
- kupu2 dewasa

Nah, klo kalian masi kuat bacanya... penjabarannya kira2 kayak gini...
Di fase pertama, sebagai ulat, biasanya manusia ini tuh dianggep masi belum dewasa, bisanya cuma nyedot makanan dari org laen aja... dan dalam stage ini, pertumbuhan yg dialami sangat pesat... wajar lah ya pertumbuhannya pesat, kerjaannya makan doank... hahaha...

Kemudian di fase kedua, saat sang ulat dah puas makan dan bertumbuh cukup besar untuk menjalani fase berikutnya, perlahan2 kepompong mulai terbentuk... Di fase kedua ini, basically tubuh ulat itu mati perlahan2 dari dalam keluar, dan terbentuk tubuh baru u/ jadi kupu2... (duhhh makin tau ttg kupu2, makin salut gw sama Tuhan!!!)... Dan mirip sama manusia... Klo kita dah terima Tuhan, mau ga mau, kita yg lama harus mati dan kita lahir baru lagi... mirip bgt kan sama kupu2???!!!
Fase kedua ini, bisa dibilang fase yg paling ga enak... soalnya masa dimana sang ulat tuh inactive... ga bisa ngapa2in, cuma terkurung didalem kepompong aja buat mempersiapkan diri u/ jadi kupu2 nantinya...
misalnya, dy perlu ngeringin badannya... dari ulat yg gendut (klo gendut kan ga bisa terbang), jadi kupu2 yg ramping... ngebentuk sayapnya... etc... belom lagi si ulat musti deg2an juga, sapa tau ada manusia isenk yg gangguin dy... klo pupanya dibenyekin gimana??
Klo gw samakan dengan manusia... kadang ada stage dikehidupan manusia, dimana manusia cuma bisa buat diem... bukan diem karena males, tapi karena lagi dibentuk sama Tuhan... masa yg ga enak, masa yg kayak di padang gurun.... masa dimana kita feel helpless... masa dimana kita cuma bisa rely en depend ama Tuhan buat kelangsungan hidup kita....
Selain itu, fase ini sangat critical dan ga bisa diloncatin gitu aja, karena klo ga lewatin fase ini, ulat ga bisa jadi kupu2...
Sama kayak manusia, karakternya dibentuk lewat smua pencobaan di dunia... biar akhirannya menghasilkan karakter yang menjadikan kita semakin seperti Yesus....

Dan di fase ketiga, di mana akhirnya si kupu2 bisa menggeliat keluar dari celah kecil kepompongnya dan akhirnya terbang bebas di angkasa... bisa bantuin penyerbukan bunga2 pula... perubahan bentuk yang sungguh amazing! Dari ulat yg merugikan, menjadi kupu2 yang indah dan berguna bagi makhluk lain...
Begitu juga manusia dituntut untuk bisa berubah menjadi org yg lebih bisa less self-centered... dari tiap hal yg kita alami dalam hidup ini, semoga kita semakin diubahkan untuk menjadi less of ourselves and more of Christ-self.. (emang ada ya kata "Christ-self"?? hahaha)... dengan semakin punya karakter Tuhan, kita otomatis bakal lebih mikirin org laen dibanding diri sendiri (karena simply Tuhan itu ga pernah mikirin diri sendiri)...
And He'll transform us become a "perfect butterfly" pada saatnya nanti... di keabadian....
Jangan lupa janji Tuhan... Ia akan jadikan segala sesuatu indah pada waktu-Nya... :)

God Bless....

patience......

Hmm... klo punya anak ce, ntar gw kasi nama Patience ahhh.... nama panggilannya Patty...

hahaha.... *gelo deh gw*

Sebenernya bukan ini yg mo gw tulis... cuma tiba2 td kepikiran aja... hehehe :p

Ya, dah tau lah dari judulnya, kira2 gw bakal nulis ttg apa...
Yup, patience alias kesabaran...
Gw mo nulis ttg ini dah dari beberapa hari yg lalu, tp akhirnya baru sempet nulis skrg...

Klo org2 yg deket ama gw, pasti tau deh, kelemahan gw selaen keras kepala en emosian, adalah tidak sabar.... hehehe :p
Makanya dari dulu gw sll minta ma Tuhan.... "Tuhan, jadikan aku lebih sabar..."
Tapi apa Tuhan jadiin gw lebih sabar begitu aja dalam sekejab mata??
Tadinya gw pikir bakalan kayak gitu.... jadi gw cuma duduk diem, nungguin "kesabaran" tiba2 ada di dalam gw... Does it work?? Of course not!!

Apa yg terjadi setelah gw minta kesabaran ama Tuhan??
Yang terjadi malahan gw makin sering dihadapin ke situasi di mana gw makin ga sabaran....
Akibatnya, bukannya makin sabar, gw malah keliatan makin ga sabaran....
Then oneday, it occurs to me...
Iya ya... klo gw minta kesabaran, Tuhan ga bakal kasi kesabaran begitu aja...
Tapi Dia adl Allah yg sungguh baik dan tau yg terbaik bagi kita smua...
Gw minta kesabaran, Dia kasi situasi dimana gw bisa develop kesabaran itu... sehingga gw bisa exercise kesabaran itu, dan lama2 kesabaran itu bisa jadi karakter gw, yg ga bisa diambil dan ilang begitu aja, karena smuanya dibentuk melalui process....

Buat temen2 yg lagi frustasi, berasa doanya ga dijawab, en malah dikasi situasi yg terasa tambah berat... coba deh stop sejenak, dan evaluate hidup dan diri kita... dari situasi yg lagi kita alamin skrg, karakter apa sih yg Tuhan lagi mau bentuk di dalam diri kita?? Coba tanya Tuhan, dan ikuti plan-Nya Dia... taat aja... karena Dia tau yg terbaik buat kita... gw berani jamin, walo ga enak pada awalnya, pasti ga nyesel deh akhirnya... ;)

ttg kerjaan

huhuhuhu...T_T
lagi ga tw mo ngapain nih di tmp kerja... malahan jadi nge-blog...
rasa2nya, abis gw nulis posting yg ini, gw bakal jarang ngeblog lagi... unless gw masi ada wkt n tenaga wkt malem2... ato gw beneeeerrrr2 bosen di tmp kerja...

Gini... berhubung kerjaan di tmp kerja gw lagi sedikit nyantai, gw jadi cepet beres en ga tw mo ngapain... nganggur2, en jadi banyak maen internet... contohnya skrg, gw malah nge-blog *jangan di contoh ya...*

Tapinya gw sll feel guilty klo gw pake wkt kerja gw buat maen2...
soalnya bukannya gw takut ma bos gw...
gw yg takutin itu justru Bos di atas smua bos...
Gw feel guilty ma Tuhan, soalnya gw pake wkt gw buat maen2...
dah di kasi kerjaan, malah ga dimanfaatin baek2... *huh! bikin jelek nama anak Tuhan yg laen aja... maap yaaa*
Karena gw tau persis, kerjaan ini Tuhan yg kasi... dan pastinya Dia punya tujuan buat nempatin gw di sini...
Tapi belakangan gw dah mulai bosen en suka mulai ngeluh2 ttg tempat kerja gw *gw mulai ngerti gimana perasaan temen2 yg dah kerja, yg whinge ttg tmp kerjanya*
Lalu Tuhan ingetin gw... klo masi banyak temen2 gw yg cari kerja... coba bayangin gimana rasanya mereka klo bisa dapet kerja?? pasti bersyukur banget!! ga kayak gw, yg malah ngeluhin apa yg gw miliki skrg...
Yaaahhh hari ini, again... gw diingetin lagi buat belajar mensyukuri apa yg dah Tuhan kasi...
coz sebenernya i am not worthy enuf buat dapetin apa yg gw punya... jadi mustinya gw berterima kasih, bukannya malah nuntut lebih...

Emang dasar manusia... ga ada puasnya... ck ck ck... *geleng2*

Dan setelah gw sadari hal itu dan gw terima bahwa gw dah salah, bukan berarti gw bisa langsung berubah en stop whinging... tapi at least, gw belajar buat buka hati n pikiran gw lebih lagi... buat kasi kesempatan buat Tuhan, buat pake gw di tmp kerja ini... dan guess what? Tuhan ajarin gw many things... esp. ttg menghargai org laen, ttg BERSYUKUR, ttg toleransi, ttg KASIH, ttg giving and sharing, ttg melayani, ttg KESABARAN, en many more... dan gw bisa liat, klo dunia bener2 butuh Tuhan... en that what makes me keep going at my work place... tugas gw blm selese... yaitu bukan cuma jadi QA officer, tp yg lebih utama adl buat kenalin kasih Tuhan ke org2 di EasyFood...

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Tengkiu Tuhan,
buat nunjukin hal ini ke nv...
Tengkiu Tuhan dah sadarin nv
ttg apa yg seharusnya jadi tujuan utama nv...
so.. ini aq Tuhan...
siap u/ Engkau pakai...

so blessed

Hmm... malem2 kebelet nulis... padahal dah ngantuk en wktnya buat tdr... parah deh gw...
Ga tw napa, belakangan kok gw banyak banget ide buat nulis.... mgkn balik ke habit lama, banyak mikir.... hehehe :p

Beberapa hari belakangan.... tepatnya baru kmrn sih, tiba2 gw sadar... how blessed I am!!
Selama ini, gw sll take things for granted... bukan berarti selama ini gw ga sadar.... gw sadar akan smua itu.... tp sadarnya cuma sebates tau... kmrn, tiba2 berasa smuanya terbuka en clear!!

Pasalnya gini...
Temen kerja gw pas lagi ngumpulin sumbangan buat temen kita yg bokapnya baru aja meninggal....
Trus, gw just wonder how my friend feels... trus mulai jadi keinget ama temen2 seumuran gw yg either bokap ato nykpnya dah meninggal... Guys!! I really can't imagine losing my parents!!!
Bener2 deh, gw ga tw bakal jadi apa hidup gw... but i know, eventually, I've gotta say goodbye no matter what...
Dan saat itu juga, tiba2 *tek!*
Smuanya terbuka! Ada suara yg bilang, "Nov, coba liat hidup lu... it's not all bad... in fact, it's all good.... Liat dah seberapa Tuhan baek ama lu... masi pny ortu (malahan akong-ama aja masi ada), keluarga yg cukup harmonis, smua kebutuhan terpenuhi... apalagi yg lu keluhin?!?!"

Emang yaaa dasar manusia... ga pernah puas... hahaha....
But anyway, I thank God for everything.... mau yg manis, mau yg pahit, mau yg asem, mau yg asin.... at last, I learn all the taste of life... I guess that's what life is all about, huh? keep learning and learning and learning... sampe akhirnya kita lulus en hidup di keabadian... :)

emang aneh ya?!?!

Guys... gw punya pertanyaan....
Emangnya aneh ya klo seorang ce, jalan sendirian di mall??
Abisnya, gw bingung aja ama respon org2 yg gw temui kmrn pas gw lagi jalan2 di sebuah shopping centre yg kebetulan buka mpe jam 10 malem hari itu...
Gw jalan2 juga bukannya lagi kebanyakan duit yg bisa dibuang2 buat shopping, tapinya gw lagi nyari kado buat temen2 gw yg ultah...
Sejak gw kerja, suka ga ada wkt buat shopping kayak gituan pas hari biasa, pasti dah tutup shopping centrenya... kecuali pas weekend... tapi kan weekend gw dah punya acara laen...
Anyway... gw sih enjoy2 aja kmrn, karena belanja ndirian tuh enak, ga usah tunggu2an ama temen... bisa ke mana aja gw mau... hehehe :p
Tapi gimana pun, emang lebih enak klo ada yg nemenin seh... ada yg bantu bawain gitu... hahaha... *canda* Yaaa enaknya, kita bisa minta opini temen2 kita juga...
Sudahlah ya, yg berlalu biarkan saja berlalu... toh kmrn wkt gw juga limited... plannya jam 9 dah mo cabut... ehhh taunya molor setengah jam... klo pegi ama temen, ga kebayang deh molor mpe kapan... mgkn gw musti nungguin sampe diusir ama securitynya kali.... hahaha...

Segitu dulu deh pengalaman gw diberi tatapan aneh karena waktu ditanya
Temen: "Alo Nov, sama sapa?"
Gw: "Alo!! Sendiri aja... lagi cari kado buat temen..."
Temen: "Hah?!?!" *plus tatapan aneh*

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Quote of the day....

"ketika Tuhan mengoyak impian kita sekalipun kita tahu Ia menyediakan yang terbaik, it’s still hard and hurt"

“Kusumpahi kamu, puteri-puteri Yerusalem, demi kijang-kijang atau demi rusa-rusa betina di padang : jangan kamu membangkitkan dan menggerakkan cinta sebelum diingininya”
Kidung Agung 2 : 7

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Mungkin ada yg ga ngerti maksud dari kutipan ayat alkitab yg gw tulis di atas??
Jujur, gw juga masi rada2 ga ngerti sih, but at least, gw nangkep di bagian jgn bangunin cinta sebelom wktnya...
Cuma di study bible, gw temuin penjelasan yg lebih lagi...
Gw kutip aja ya... (diterjemahkan dari Inggris ke Indo, jadi harap maklum klo kata2nya rada aneh, Inggris gw pas2an... hehehe :p)
"Perasaan cinta dapat menciptakan intimasi yang dapat membuat org kehilangan logika. Anak muda *berasa kena neh, kan masi muda.. hehehe*, kebanyakan suka buru2 pengen punya hubungan yg intim (dekat) yg hanya berdasarkan perasaan mereka aja. Tapi perasaan ga cukup untuk mempertahankan hubungan sehingga bisa last u/ selamanya. Jadi, maksud dari ayat ini tuh, mau bilang, supaya kita (anak2 muda) jangan suka buru2 melakukan hal2 romantis, yang bikin perasaan berkembang lebih cepet daripada komitmen yang bisa bikin love last. Bersabarlah dalam menunggu perasaan cinta dan komitmen bertumbuh bersamaan."

Gitu deh kira2... walo dah gw "bahasa gaul-in" dikit... hehehe :p
Hope this verse can help you friends.... ;)