love = sacrifice??

"sometimes we need to sacrifice for someone we love.. but sometimes it's really hard to do..."

I copied the quote above from my friend's friendster...
I think it's soooo true!!

Yesterday, i've juz been faced to a reality....
I've known the theory very well... Love is a verb, it's an act...
Love is patient, love is unselfish, love is kind, love is blah blah blah...
I knew all that...
But!! i've never been really TO LOVE someone fully...
I've juz realised that... i've always loved my self more than anyone else, even God...
it is very very selfish and selfish isn't love...

Love is unselfish... unselfish means sumtimes we need to prepare to make sacrifices willingly... out of love... with no expectations... it means to put somebody else's interest before ours...
Again!! I knew all that.. but as what my friend said, it's not easy to do...
and that what makes to love is hard to do... and that's also what makes love is so precious and divine...

Sometimes, we want to love, but dont want to make any sacrifices...
keep putting ourselves as number 1...
But, yesterday, i was faced to choices... to choose, whether to make sacrifices to someone i love, to the One i love...
It came to me... that even God, shows His love by making sacrifice... the biggest sacrifice i've ever received... His own the only son... His own life... that is how much He loves me... that's how much He loves all of us... including YOU!!

Do you realise??

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space -
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun don'-go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize

hate me

sebel!!!
klo lagi kayak gini, gw paling sebel...
dah tw tiap org punya keterbatasan...
dah tw klo gw ga perfect...
tp knp sih gw masi suka berharap klo gw bisa perfect....
tp knp gw masi suka berharap bisa menuhin keinginan smua org??
knp gw masi mencoba nyenengin hati smua org??
i even ignore myself sometimes...

sebel...
hate myself sometimes... :(

power of thoughts

so... yep, i've watched the most talked topic "The Secret"...
Now... when i think about it... if there's nothing i couldnt do with my thoughts, that means everything is possible... NOTHING is ImPoSSiBLe!! rite??

So, what would i be thinking to make this world become a better place to live??
(I've juz told u my thoughts.. :p)
What would YOU be thinking??

be a light

Tired...
Sometimes i'm sick of this life...
Sometimes, juz wanna run away
Hide... in darkness...
So no one can find me...
Leave me alone...
in my loneliness...

They said,
nothing is eternal in this world...
but They said,
LOVE is...
So, i'm searching...
reaching for the Love...
and when i found Love,
I wanna share it with the world...

Then, i started to crawl out of the darkness...
Get out from my hiding place...
Stop from running away...
I juz wanna be,
a light...

your presence...

Your presence in my life...
sumtimes makes me lonelier than ever...

Your presence in my life...
sumtimes makes me feel weaker than ever...
at times, i shed more tears than i ever shed...
and it also makes me feel dumber than ever...

Your presence...
sometimes i wish i'd never need it...
But your absence,
is the worst thing that i've ever wanted in my life...

PS. I want u to know, i miss u...

do u know??

Tau ga???
- gw lagi pengen makan green-tea ice cream neh!!!
- gw lagi males ngerjain assignments
- gw lagi kangen rumah
- gw lagi males makan... (maunya green tea ice cream....)
- gw lagi nungguin telpon dari temen, katanya mo nelp...
- gw lagi error kayaknya...

wakakak... ga penting ya?? tp lu ga tw kan??? makanya gw kasi tw... :p
ciao...

Gw mo bikin kopi susu dulu.... sapa tw craving green tea ice creamnya berkurang dikit... hehehe :p

Spring is coming!! ^_^

Yea, you've read the title... it's spring now.. but it's still cold...
Anyway... td gw ada group interview ama lecturers gw buat QA...
Untung it all went well... Thx God!! ^_^

Selese itu, gw pengen ngerjain tugas gw yg laen... ada Sci Project n Food preservation, tp kok rasanya males ya?? (penyakit lama.. hahaha)
So, gw decide buat baca2 blog gw lagi...
Hari ini, lagi berasa ga guna nih.. abisnya gw ngerasa cuma contribute sedikit ama tugas kelompok gw itu...
Tp gw coba belajar buat mikir positif aja lah.... hal kayak gini ga perlu dipikirin berlarut2... klo gw ngerasa kurang, yaa tinggal do more lah!! susah amet sih?! gitu aja kok di jadiin a big deal?!
iya ga??

Anyway... pas gw baca2 lagi postingan gw taon lalu... diliat2 gw dah banyak juga berubah... hehehe :p dulu tuh negatip thinking abis... skrg, mendingan lah... hehehe :p
En yg pasti, gw selalu ngerasa dikuatin seabis baca tulisan2 gw yg lama... coz i can see how God's hands guiding me all the way thru... beneran deh... klo ga ada Tuhan, gw ga tw jadi apa skrg... He has shaped me slowly... changed me...
Emang, ga gampang berubah totally, apa lagi dari yg jelek, ke yg baik... misalnya aja, penyakit males gw en suka nunda2 ini ga sembuh2... trus ga sabaran juga... trus kerasa kepala ga mo denger pendapat org, etc... Tapi gw coba keep in mind, smua butuh process... pelan2 gw bakal berubah lah... musti percaya ma diri gw juga... :)