if tomorrow never comes

Ok, I know you've heard it sumwhere... probably from a song sang by Ronan Keating??
But have you ever really thought about the message hidden behind this phrase??

Tonite, I have just come back from my high school friend's house...
Her mum has just passed away this morning... (Turut berduka cita yg sedalam2nya, Nis) :(
She told me what happened at the end of her mum's life...
She has been very ill for a while... and her condition has been pretty steady lately...
But this morning, her dad called her to come to the hospital to see her mum, coz she got worse... time is running short...
but my friend didn't know that... she took her time...
until it's too late for her to see her mum before she closes her eyes for the last time....
*sigh*
What can i say to console her??
Nothing much, really...
I've never been in this situation before, so she'd think that I wouldn't know how it feels....
I can only let her know, that she shouldn't blame herself for something she doesn't know is going to happen...

Then...
I thought of my own situation....
How have I treat my mum this morning??
It's definitely far from respect.... :(
I should be ashamed of myself... and I am now...
I think, God want to remind me... that second chance rarely comes twice... so I should grab any chances which lie in front of me as much as I could...
I would be really2 sorry to myself if tomorrow never comes... and I wouldn't be able to ask my mum's forgiveness and show her respect she deserves...

In the last couple of weeks, my mood is getting unstable....
I got pretty sensitive and annoyed by little things...
And to make situation worse, my voice is getting to its highest pitch pretty quickly too...
I don't know where I got that anger from, but I'm like a ticking bomb, just waiting to be ignited...
Today might be a reminder God sent me, so that I'll learn from it...
I've gone back to the old me... the ME who I used to hate... or the ME who used to hate myself...
who likes to take things for granted.... who doesn't know how to give thanks... who never satisfied on everything which has been given by God...
It's another reminder,
that life is short....
that we live this life only once...
that whatever we try to collect from this world is not eternal...
that every morning, we have a second chance to things differently and make a difference in people's lives...
that true friends are much more precious than gold or the newest trend or the coolest car
that life... isn't as bad as I used to think...
that by living, I'll get to know Him more... and get to appreciate Him and His creations more...

Thank you Lord for all the second chances you've given me....
Your presence each day is more than enough for me... Amen.