A letter to A friend

Sobat, lama gw ga nulis buat lu...
Even skrg gw nulis pun, ada kemungkinan lu ga bakal baca...
All i wanna say is "i'm sorry"...
emang, kedengarannya enteng bgt...
dah ngelakuin kesalahan, tinggal minta maaf aja...
tp sebenernya ga segampang itu...
Walo gw dah minta maaf dengan mulut gw.. tp gw prefer buat nulis ke lu...
I really meant what i said...

Gw tw, gw sering bikin lu kesel...
dengan alesan2 yg sebenernya kekanak2an...
en gw tw, lu dah capek ati ama gw... (hahaha...)
Tapi, penyesalan emang selalu dateng terlambat...
gw selalu nyadar, setelah gw dah terlanjur bikin lu bete...
en nothing i could do to fix it, coz i'm juz to arrogant to admit that i was wrong...

Ada satu pertanyaan yg gw ga berani tanyain,
karena gw ga berani denger jawabannya...
Sempet terbersit dipikiran gw,
"Have u ever thought about how different your life would be without me?"
Is your life gonna be so much better??
Mgkn lu bisa bilang, gw cuma suka mikir negatif...
tp, kalo diliat2, yg bisa gw bawa ke hidup lu cuma lah kesuraman...
(lagi negatip thinkin' nih ceritanya..)
Sometimes, i thought, it'll be much better for u if u never knew me...
if i've never turned up in your life...
But again...
gw ga berhak mikir kayak gitu...
sapa gw??
Satu hal yg bisa gw pegang,
Tuhan tempatin lu di hidup gw,
en gw di hidup lu...
there must be something He has planned for us..
and God always plan something good...
so, the reason that lies behind my existence should be something good as well...

Anyway, segitu dulu isi curhat gw buat lu...
Di mana pun lu berada, i wish u well...
And i'll always pray for u,
coz u r one of the most valuable gift that God has given me... ^_^

Thank you for being my friend...
-your friend-