fun in study

Akhirnya!!!! setelah sekian lama gw ga nulis blog... (ga kerasa dah 7 hari!!!)
gw nulis lagi skrg.... sebenernya banyak bgt ide di otak gw.... dari minggu lalu, gw dah ga sabar buat nuangin itu smua di sini... biar bisa gw bagiin ma org laen... tp apa bole buat, gw selalu ketiduran early, en internet gw abis 6 hari yg lalu.... so, that's my excuse... :p

Hmm... saking banyaknya yg mo gw ceritain, ga tw mo cerita yg mana duluan neh... hehehe :p
Gw cerita ttg hari gw aja deh...
hari ini, bagus bgt deh!!! cerah!!! serasa di perth... tp tetep aja, td pagi rada dingin... gw ada kelas pagi jam 8.30, jadi musti leave home early.... trus, tumben2an, gw bisa konsen 90% di lecture... hehehe... hari ini belajar ttg microbes... (males bgt ya baca cerita ttg hari2 gw???)

Gw kan skrg dah pindah uni di RMIT (gw dah cerita blm sih??)....
dan gw ga nyesel sih gw ambil decision itu... mgkn gw masi suka males2...
tp semales2nya gw... gw enjoy apa yg gw pelajarin.... and i guess that's what it's all about... having fun in what you r studying... temen2 gw juga pada baek... mereka tw gw anak baru, en masi suka ga tw apa2... and they r willing to help.... i'm glad... i know i don't have to worry, coz He will make a way for me... ^_^

My letter to God...

Dear God,

It's me again.... Your daughter...
It's me again... who like to call U in the middle of the nite...
It's me... who often forget about You...

God....
Juz wanna thank You for today....
You've given me such a wonderful day...
The sun shine brightly...
The birds sang beautifully...
and (again!!) it's all make me can't stop smiling!!! :))

You r so wonderful....
and i know U love me so much....
thx for Your patience and Your undying love...
I juz want You to know, how much i appreciate it...
even sumtimes i forgot all about it...
even sumtimes i can be so annoying to You....
even sumtimes i make u sad...
I'm trying... I'm trying Father.... and I will keep trying
to put a smile on your face...

nb: God... this morning, i've juz thought about sumthing...
i wondered, how does Your laughter sound like... hopefully i can hear it one day....
hopefully, i can be the one who make U laugh ^_^

i have joy in my life...

this time the posting is going to be a short one....
there are 2 reasons.. 1st, i don't have much time, coz i've gotta study for my Chem test tmrw... 2nd, since i don't have much time, i can't write much in a short time... :p

i juz wanna write bout JOY...

i've got JOY in my life...
i've got joy in my heart...
nothing can put me down....
coz He is with me...
and showering me with His love...

(still can't stop smilling till today.. :p)

reasons to smile :)

Reasons to SmiLe ^_^

Ok, walau judulnya pake bahasa inggris, gw tetep bakal nulis nih posting pake bahasa indo... juz simply coz gw males mikir2 pake inggris.... (masa ada temen gw bilang inggris gw tambah parah... hiks...)

anyway.... hari ini adl hari yg indah.... matahari bersinar cerah....
angin sepoi2 bertiup menyejukkan..... langit bersih tanpa awan....
pokoknya bagus euy! ^^

Trus, i can't help not to smile... walo gw ngantuk pas jalan pulang dari uni, bibir gw ga bisa berenti buat membuat lengkungan yg namanya senyum....
Trus, jadi inget kata2nya penyiar radio td pagi....
dy bilang, "hmm.... apa ya yg membuat kita tersenyum?? klo dipikir2, buat senyum tuh kita ga butuh alasan...."
Pas denger itu, jadi keinget flashback di masa SMA... wkt gw duduk sebangku ma temen gw yg namanya M--------.... Gara2 dy, makanya gw jadi tambah suka senyum.... hehehe... thx ya teman... ^_^ trus jadi inget juga kata2 penyiar radio Prambors yg suka bilang, "Smile can make the world to be a better place to live in.... and makes you more beautiful too!! No need for make up..." hehehe :p gt deh....
Tdnya gw ga nyadar klo gw suka senyum.... tp gara2 temen greja gw suka tiba memergoki gw sedang terseyum (tanpa sebab yg mereka mengerti), ada yg nyeletuk, "Napa siH? Keliatan seneng bgt, senyum2 mulu!" hahaha... lucu kan?? ada yg senyum, malah ada yg sewot....
Gw rasa, senyum itu datengnya dari dalem... karena gw punya joy in my heart..... jadi walo gw lagi susah, lagi sedih, lagi ada masalah, lagi stress.... gw tetep bisa senyum.... karena hati gw full of joy... (tp kadang gw keliatan cembetut juga sih... hehehe :p)

buat org2 yg dah baca postingan gw yg ini, maap klo mengecewakan....
karena isinya ga jelas..... cuma ttg gw yg suka tersenyum....
tp klo abis baca postingan ini, kalian juga jadi ikut tersenyum...
artinya ga sia2 gw nulis tentang hal yg "ga penting" ini.... ^_^
KEEP ON SMILING PEOPLE!!!

the guy from Rocko...

I'm awake and don't wanna go to sleep until i write this down....
It's 3.24AM.... and I've juz waken up bout one and a half hours ago...
My friend from Rocko (Spence) juz rang me....
We talked for about 1 hr!!! ^_^
So happy to hear his voice again.... and he told me that he misses me a lot....
Well, i told him that i don't miss him much.... but i miss him... LoL ^^
He kept asking me to go to Perth the end of the year... i really wanna go...
but i dunno yet... I'll see...
Once i heard his voice, all the memory at Rocko juz came back!!
I can hear the sound of the waves crashing on the rock....
the smell of it... the sound of noisy seagulls... etc...
Miss Perth so much!!!!
And i missed the clear sky full of stars!!
Warm weather....
Bright sun....
Miss Perth... juz can't explain it...
miss it much more than Jakarta...

masi sakit

mo kasi news update nih ttg perkembangan penyakit gw... hahaha...
ga ptg ya?? abisnya gw ga tw mo nulis apalagi selaen ini...
yg ada diotak gw cuma penyakit gw... sebel deh!!! capek nih sakit, padahal baru 3 hari... hari ini memasuki hari ke-4... moga2 bisa sembuh bsk....
selain bikin gw ga bisa ngapa2in... (krn bawaannya capek mulu)... gw juga jadi ga bisa deket ma org2 karena takut nularin... klo sakit tuh bener2 ga bisa ngapa2in deh, mo napas aja susah... karena sakit saya adalah batuk, pilek, plus demam... lengkap kaN?? hehehe :p dari idung mpe tenggorokan, smuanya sakit... klo dah kayak gini, pasti nyesel deh tdnya ga jaga kesehatan baek2... tp ntar klo kesehatannya dah balik, pasti lupa buat ngejaga... hahaha... namanya juga manusia... ga pernah menghargai apa yg dia punya, sampe dia kehilangan hal itu...

to be SiCk...

alo... lama tidak bersua...
memang skrg saya lagi ga bersuara.... LoL... (maap, dah subuh, jadi error)

Ternyata, sakit itu ga enak...
Gw ga nyangka, tenyata gw gampang bgt kena sakit.... dah dari jumat nih batuk2...
puncaknya pas sabtu kemaren, gw ga bisa bgn, karena pusink... alhasil gw tidur2an.... sambil menatap keluar jendela, wishing gw bisa keluar en menikmati secercah sinar matahari di Melbourne (jarang2 loh mataharinya terik..)

Trus pas minggu.... ternyata gw masi belom sembuh juga...
segala macam obat dah gw minum.... tetep aja ga sembuh2... emang sih dah mendingan batuknya.... walau tenggorokan gw masi sakit... skrg idung gw ikut sakit... T_T
merananya.... tp untungnya gw ga sendiri... hehehe :p (sakit kok cari2 temen?!)

kayaknya dari kemaren2 ini, topic gw ga telalu jauh dari penyakit ya???
abinya emang masi musim sakit2an sih.... gimana donk??!
hehehe :p

Ngomong soal sakit.... gw ga cuma sakit secara fisik loh...
gw lagi rada sedih juga.. ga tw napa, mgkn gw kecewa ma badan gw, karena gampang kena sakit... hehehe :p
bukan2... sebenernya... karena... rasanya gw baru aja nyakitin perasaan seseorang lagi.... duuhhh!! kadang gw benci ma diri gw ndiri.... napa jadi org ga bisa konsider other's feelings... dah terlanjur gw lontarin, baru deh nyesel.... gw bingung napa masi ada yg mo temenan ma gw... dah egois juga... mau menang sendiri... plin-plan... pokoknya gw berasa jahat bgt deh....

Ternyata, klo kita ngejahatin org, yg sakit bukan org yg kita sakitin aja, tp kitanya juga ikut sakit loh... napa ya??? hukum apakan ini??? hukum karma kah?? hehehe :p ga tw deh, gw ga belajar law, jadi gw ga ngerti hukum apa... hehehe :p

segini dulu aja deh....
gw mo berbatuk2 ria dulu, minum2, en ngobat.... (gile... ga nyangka kan gw bisa brutal juga??? LoL)
masi ada tugas nih... belom selese... dr td tdr mulu... dingin bgt lagi!!! brrr.... >_<

we tend to hurt ppl that we love most...

This morning i was listening to the radio... the announcer was talking and asking for a suggestion to celebrate his 3rd wedding anniversary...
He said, the 1st wedding anniversary, he wasn't even in the same country with his wife... but he managed to get his family to accompany his wife...

anyway... what i like most from what he was saying is that, we tend to hurt or abandon ppl that we love most... he said, when 2 ppl fell in love and decided to get married, wot they got in mind was that they want to spend time together, but then, when life gets busy and out of the way... esp. work... we juz forget what's the main purpose of the marriage... some couple, lost their romance... or juz forget to communicate with their partners... is in't it ironic??

i hope it will never happen to me... or if it will happen, at least i will realise it before it gets worse and the marriage leads to a divorce... i remember one of the caller said, to keep their romance in the marriage, she is pretending as if they juz got married or juz started to go out.. she treats her husband as if her boyfriend... LoL... i think it's kindda funny... ^_^ but it's a good idea... (reminds me to my parents...) :p

kok ga bosen sih?!

Baru 2 hari ga ngeblog, kok rasanya dah lama bgt ya?? Gw dah pny banyak banget hal yg mo gw tulis...

Hari ini... gw keinget ma topic lama yg selalu ada dipikiran gw....
it is about love... tentang cinta... tentang org yg kita kasihi...

Gini..... gw tuh suka kepikiran dari jaman gw SMP... org yg dah nikah, ga bosen apa ya ngeliat pasangannya (suami/istri) tiap hari??.... sebelom tidur liat dia, pas bgn tidur muka dy lagi yg kita liat... dan itu terjadi seumur idup, mpe tua (buat pasangan yg cukup beruntung, yg bisa idup bersama mpe tua)... berhubung gw orgnya gampang bosenan... gw suka mikir... ga bosen apa?! Gile aje!!!

Trus.... gw juga pernah nanya nykp ttg hal ini... gw nanya apa nykp gw ga ngerasa bosen ngeliat tampang bokap gw terus?!! (parah ya gw?!! Kayak mo menghasut bonyok gw... hahaha ^0^)... trus dengan yakin, nykp gw bilang, “Ya nggak lah!!”.... trus gw bilang... “Kok bisa??!”.... masi dengan rasa tidak percaya, dan otak yg belom bisa berpikir melampaui pikiran org dewasa.... gw merasa tidak puas dengan jawaban itu.... sampe akhirnya... hari ini...

Hari ini, ga tw napa.... begitu gw bgn, hasrat gw buat nulis berapi2.... tp tdnya belom ada ide.... Cuma pengen nulis aja.... trus, kepikiran deh soal ini....
Hari ini, tiba2 rasanya gw bisa mulai nerima dan mengerti “sedikit” jawaban dari nykp gw... well, emang sih gw blm bersuami... (masi single neh!! Hehehe :p).... tp, gw kaitin ini sama relationships yg dah gw punya... misalnya sama sahabat gw, Ivana.... sama ade2 gw.... sama bonyok gw.... keluarga gw.... Klo dipikir2... dah bertaon2 gw temenan ma ivana (dari jaman 5 SD)... mpe skrg... en gw ga bosen tuh liat muka dy... gw ga pernah bosen ngobrol ama dy.... gw ga pernah bosen denger ocehan dy... gitu juga dengan ade2 gw en bonyok gw, yg dah gw liat en ketemu terus sejak gw lahir.... ga ada bosennya.... malahan, klo sehari ga liat, malahan ada yg kurang... malahan ada yg ilang.... rasanya, disitu gw mulai ngerti.... klo emang mereka itu org yg kita kasihi... klo emang sama org yg kita sayangin (misalnya ya suami ato istri kita kelak).... kita emang ga bakal bosen.... coz we love them.... inilah amazingnya cinta.... ga bisa di explain.... karena emang ga ada explanationnya....

Naaahhh skrg, baru deh gw kaitin ma yg sedikit lebih religius.... di situ, gw juga berpikir... pantes aja Tuhan ga pernah bosen ma manusia.... biar dah dikhianatin berkali2pun... Dia ga pernah capek... ga pernah nyerah... coz He loves us sooooooooooo much!!! En buat ngetes seberapa besar cinta kita buat Dia.... kita bisa liat ndiri, apa kita bisa ngerasa bosen ma Tuhan... I hope not!! Karena klo gw ndiri, gw ga tahan klo sehariiii aja ga ngomong ama Dia.... masa, ada yang cinta bgt ma kita, mo nerima kita apa adanya, tp kita masi bisa berkeras hati ga mo nerima cinta Dia?? Gw sih ga tahan... pasti luluh deh ma penantianNya en kesabaranNya.... hehehe :p Gw harap, sapa pun yg baca blog gw ini, bisa ngerti apa yg gw maksud en juga merasakan apa yg gw rasain... ^_^

...

hmm... mo nulis apa ya kali ini...
i dont really have anythin to write...
well, i have a lot of things to tell bout my day today...
but i juz dont really wanna talk about it...
it's not that it's been a bad day, not at all...
i'm juz tired... i need sumone to talk to....
but i dont wanna talk.... weird huh?! :p

well... it's been a long day for me...
i slept at 2am this morning, and woke up at 7am...
had a class at 8.30am... finished at 12.30pm...
then i met my friend in the city, then we were planning to have lunch..
but my housemate asked me to help her to find sum rocks for her assignment...
so, off we go to Port Melbourne... i was soooo hungry by then...
we quickly found the rocks... then went home.... then i cooked the lunch...
and we had lunch at 2pm!!! i was soooooo soooo hungry... so i at pretty fast.... :p
after that, i had promised my friend to bake a cake.... so after lunch, i baked a chocolate cake... the final product taste quite good, but it's shape is unidentified... :p couldnt explain it.... it's broken into 4 pieces.. LoL... dunno how that can happen.... i wasnt there....

Btw, i made sum new friends today... during PeKa there were 3 new members of ICM... they are all boys... (hmmm...) hehehe :p
im asked to share my experience with ICM, so there i was... talking bout how i ended up joining this organisation.... (i will never regret it... i've learnt so many things there...)
After PeKa, i walked home wif my friends.... passing degraves lane... i like it... ^_^
on of my favourite spot in the city... it's juz so classy....
then i got home, talked to my housemates... ring my mum.. talked about 2 hrs... she told me bout the flowers in the garden.... she loves flowers and gardening.... and her favourite at the moment is the "9 o'clock" flower... it's called so, becoz it's only bloom at 9am... i think it's so cool!! how can a flower tell that it's 9 o'clock and it has to bloom?! isnt it amazing?? (anyway, it's been my mum's dream to have the flower in her own garden... it's her dream since she was a little girl... and the dream has come true!!!)

hmmm... then, after a while... i did nothin.... juz online.... tokin to sum friends.... then my neighbour rang me... asked me to join them to play cards... it's different kind of cards... called "BANG!"... it's fun!! LoL ^_^ the guys are funny and friendly... ^_^

anyway, i've gotta go to bed now.... good nite everyone...
have a good nite sleep and sweet dream... ^_^

Puisi bagi negara yg berperang...

Di sisi bumi yang lain....
ada perpecahan
ada perang
ada dendam
ada kesedihan
ada ketakutan
ada kekhawatiran

Di sisi bumi yang lain...
Tak ada lagi canda... tawa...
Yang ada hanya air mata...
Tak ada lagi damai...
tentram sirna...

Orang2 tak tau kemana kan pergi
Tak ada lagi tempat untuk bernaung,
untuk berteduh, untuk disebut rumah...

Di sisi bumu yang lain...
Tiap keping kehidupan,
hilang satu per satu...

Sedang aku...
di sisi bumi yang ini...
jauh dari sisi yang itu...
tak berkutik, tak tau harus berbuat apa...
hanya dapat berharap dalam hati,
smua ini hanya mimpi buruk belaka....